Tuesday, August 10, 2004
It's coming up to our Wedding Anniversary - 18th August.
This will be our 14th !!
I thought I'd tell you a bit about that day because it was truly a Beautiful Wedding and I was fortunate to have my Dad still alive and fit to give me away which I will always be thankful for.
Our Wedding Day was a Saturday, it started off in a bit showery in the morning but by lunch time it was sunny and dry. The Wedding was at 2.00pm in the Pretty little Saxon Church in the Village where I'd grown up.
I arrived with my Dad at the Church in a Blue "olde worlde" car, we only lived around the corner but it was so special to ride in this car and Dad loved it!!
Paul stood there waiting for me, smiling and I knew this was where I was supposed to be :0)
The service was lovely, we didn't have hundreds of guests there, just family and close friends but it felt right. I had 2 Bridesmaids, and a Page - my neice and grand neice, and Pauls nephew. The girls were dressed in Lemon and Pink. The little one Laura wore little Ballet slippers and carried a wooden ring decorated with flowers. They both had garlands of Pink and Yellow flowers on their heads. The Page wore a Dark Grey suit with a lemon cravat like the Groom.
After the service and Photo's we were driven to our Reception, which was also decorated in Pink and Lemon. We ate Roast Chicken and drank Champagne...and all was right with the world :0)
We danced to "We've only just begun" by the Carpenters and it really was the Happiest day of my life!
We spent our first night there in the Hotel, slept in a Four Poster Bed and left for our Honeymoon on the Isle of White the next morning.
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9:57 AM
It's coming up to our Wedding Anniversary - 18th August.
This will be our 14th !!
I thought I'd tell you a bit about that day because it was truly a Beautiful Wedding and I was fortunate to have my Dad still alive and fit to give me away which I will always be thankful for.
Our Wedding Day was a Saturday, it started off in a bit showery in the morning but by lunch time it was sunny and dry. The Wedding was at 2.00pm in the Pretty little Saxon Church in the Village where I'd grown up.
I arrived with my Dad at the Church in a Blue "olde worlde" car, we only lived around the corner but it was so special to ride in this car and Dad loved it!!
Paul stood there waiting for me, smiling and I knew this was where I was supposed to be :0)
The service was lovely, we didn't have hundreds of guests there, just family and close friends but it felt right. I had 2 Bridesmaids, and a Page - my neice and grand neice, and Pauls nephew. The girls were dressed in Lemon and Pink. The little one Laura wore little Ballet slippers and carried a wooden ring decorated with flowers. They both had garlands of Pink and Yellow flowers on their heads. The Page wore a Dark Grey suit with a lemon cravat like the Groom.
After the service and Photo's we were driven to our Reception, which was also decorated in Pink and Lemon. We ate Roast Chicken and drank Champagne...and all was right with the world :0)
We danced to "We've only just begun" by the Carpenters and it really was the Happiest day of my life!
We spent our first night there in the Hotel, slept in a Four Poster Bed and left for our Honeymoon on the Isle of White the next morning.
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9:57 AM
Monday, August 02, 2004
I'm scared,
I'm scared that I'll never get over this,
scared that I've lost the only person I'll ever love so much that it hurts, the only person besides my Mum and Sister that I'll ever feel really close to, really comfortable with.
Somehow I've let him go, he slipped through my fingers and I didn't know what to do or say to stop it happening. I thought he'd see sense, realise what we had and come back, but he's not going to......he'll never come back to me, back to us and I have to face up to that. Even if I went and found him, found where he and "she" live confronted him, spoke to him, he wouldn't change his mind, he wouldn't come back and I don't know how to deal with that fact.
I dreamt about him again last night, I was crying out for him, but he couldn't hear me and so I phoned him, but the number was dead and I didn't know what to do.
What do I do, if I can't get hold of him anymore? I haven't spoken or Texted him since the house sale, but the number's in my phone and sometimes I feel the need to hear him.
Some days are easier, but I don't think one goes by that I'm not reminded of him or I don't think of him. He was everything to me, my soulmate, my other half that made me whole.
I will never get over this, never feel complete again, because I will always love him and long for him......and it hurts.
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