It shall be told in the selfsame strange manner in which
it was witnessed. I am not the one to believe that nature has a purpose
in all things but of course, nature does not render the iguana a bright
blue or the dreamy bluebell, gray. And so, she was the color of ripe
golden wheat. It was autumn. The earth was full of passion. She walked
through the trees barefoot and the evening breeze seemed to thread through
her every nerve. "Oh! Beautiful earth", she said, hugging the tree and
spent hours under its shade. She was wearing brown, the color of the
earth, the color of her lovely eyes. The earth seemed to draw life from
her very presence. She seemed so real, so tuned. Her laughter was like
the rustling of autumn leaves under her feet, her gait like an autumn
leaf flying in the wind. There was a strange melody about her, some
melody which struck the chords of my heart, something full, in sorrow
or deep joy. She was like a reflection, perhaps, one could not discern,
but then a reflection of the Earth. Not many knew this woman as I had
witnessed. I was sure that she could be found in as common a place as
the supermarket asking for chocolate ice cream or a kilo of fresh beans.
I saw her again, this time, playing with butterflies. She held one in
her palms. I waited for her to save that rare species but she set it
free. I was disappointed. "What a fallacy is our human existence!" We
try to safeguard what is lovely and imprison it in our houses hoping
to extend its beauty, to save it from every danger we can purport, in
the process, making of its wings a vestigial organ. Without uttering
a word, she had made me look into myself! Today, she was in white. It
was about to rain and the earth seemed to sense it as a woman knows
the footsteps of her beloved. Like a water lily dancing in the wind,
she went about her work. A crevice became visible within. In this little
crevice hides vicious fear; fear to behold the truth; fear to look at
light; white, pure light; fear frightened of its own evanescence. I
felt a queer relief, somewhere a crevice was being filled, one among
a million human souls. I was scared out of my wits. She was weeping.
I knew that to be consoled was not in her capacity. It rained very silently,
thickly, continuously. I was a wreck, hated by myself. One question
remained: "Why does her sorrow claw into my very veins?" Home closed
in with a pang. "Merciless Night. O Dark Mirror! You bring to me my
own image!" I flung my pity away. I had witnessed a sorrow that had
been naked, stripped of its cloaks. I knew why. Night and I hugged each
other like very good friends do, and laughed ravenously, emptied of
wants. I dressed with great care but the reason was as of then not revealed
to my consciousness. I was returning home to the untrodden evergreen
forest. The airport was busy, feet moving about, eyes searching, noisy.
I glanced sideways popping my head out of the newspaper. She was beside
me. I commented on the weather and exchanged a few words. It was time
for her plane. Her eyes were endless. "Was this going to be the last
time?" I gazed into her eyes (Oh, it really wasn't that long, only fractions
of a minute.). I seemed to be disappearing.. .oops It is poignant and
I daren't put into words what I felt for the universe, for Life. LOVE
Hmm, reflecting in time is fun. I am growing. With a few more steel
gray streaks in my hair, I shall be perfect. "Life has a funny sense
of timing. When Love claimed my soul, I found her right there." I dressed
with great care, appreciative, happy, filled. I walked slowly to my
favorite riverbank with a couple of sandwiches. I rushed to save her.
She seemed so fragile on that hard boulder. "Had she fallen? Was she
too hurt?" my thoughts race faster than I do. I touched her face and
checked her breath. I wondered at myself. I was unable to cry. I didn't
feel like it. I kissed her soft lips. I decided to take her back and
then laughed at myself. She was just where she had to be-the rock, the
tiny wavelets, the ferns, the bullfrogs in the night and a starry sky
with a smile upon her lips, that smile which her brown eyes had had.
I left her, sleeping quietly, with a singular feeling of belonging to
the Earth. I had known one of those rare human beings to whom the Earth
belongs; with whom the Earth shares her innermost secrets.