Diary

And yes...........it is finally here: My Diary! Don't expect to read all my private stuff here, it is more for me. I like to write things down when I'm feeling down or something. And now I see that it benifits a friend of mine (HJ or Main Man), I like to try it too. Don't expect this to have such a good layout as he does, but what hell......who cares?
I'll try to end every entry with a phrase or sentence/question about my state of mind or something I read that sounds good ;). Have fun reading it......

Thursday, 28 February
I woke up late this morning, at about 11 o'clock. I wanted to get up early, because I need to study for my exams. So that was a bad of my day. I have 2 exams next week :( and I don' like it. I was the whole week free from school, but I can' set my mind to my books. I try but keep thinking about other things, very annoying I might say. If I don't watch out I'll f*ck things up like last year. And you know what, somethings never change...........'life is full of surprises and disappoinments'

Sunday, 3 March
This has been a strange weekend. My feelings went 'up-and-down'. All sort of troubles have arrisen which I can't coop with atm. I can't focus on my study and I hate it! I keep thinking about other stuff....Oh well, I'll just tell you what I did this weekend.
I went out on friday, was kinda fun but ended in a weird manner. I was free on saturday, but they asked me to work at 6.30. I only slept 1 hour when my alarm went off, I didn't felt to good so I called my work to tell them I was ill. I woke up at 12 again, went out of bed and felt bad all day. In the evening I went to a small party of a good friend of mine. After that I went out with 2 friends and stayed untill about 5, had something to eat and came home at 6 in the morning.
Today..........still the same problems with my study. I hope this will pass soon, I have exams on thuesday and friday I believe................... Why o why can't I study?

Thuesday, 5 March
I was supossed to take an exam today, but I didn't take it. I stayed at home and slept untill 11 o'clock. There was no point taking it, there was noway that I was gonna pass it. I talked to Andrea en Renate on msn today and they asked me if I would stop by and study overthere. So I did and it was fun and I was able to read 2 chapters, more then I expected. Later on the day Roland came home and Arie stopped by for dinner. Andrea and Roland there parents weren't home, so the women cooked :). It taster good and we talked abit. At 8.30 pm I went home and jumped behind the computer and played some online poker with Arie and Roland. So this day has been quite good for me. I had a little talk on msn just now, it might have solved my problems..................Love hurts and can be given to the wrong people, to people who don't understand you and/or it!

Monday, 11 March
Here I am again, I didn't take the exam on friday either. I'm f*ckiing things up again. I still wasn't able to study last week. I sometimes hate myself.........
I talked with some people on friday and they made me go out. It was fun, I ate shoarma at the end of the night. Worked on saturday untill 21.45 (I was in charge of the supermarket :) ). When I was finished I hurried home to change and went to my aunt, because it was her birthday. Only stayed there a little while, because I had to go to a party of 2 friends of mine, who celebrated their graduation. There was a storm all day long and I had to go by bike to the party. Half way I was surprised by a huge rain storm and I got soaking wet, that really sucked. The party was nice, but I wasn't really in the mood, being wet, tired and having screwed up my exams. We went out at about 1 o'clock and I came home at 5.30 I believe.
The next day I had to get up at 9, because I was gonna take a course in being a judo-referee. A friend picked me up and we went to the place where we thought I was suppossed to be. When we arrived, on time, the place was deserted. We had no clue why there was nobody there, so we drove to another gym, to see if was given there. We had no luck so we went back home and I got back to bed. I was angry and tired. In the evening my friend called me and told me that he had spoken with the theacher who told that it was at a gym where we never came.
Today I went to the university to finish a report. There was a hostage sitution somewhere near a trainstation in Amsterdam, so my train was delayed. In total I spend 4 hours travelling and was only 1 hour at school :(. This evening I went to the theater with my mom, brother and his girlfriend. We saw a stand-up comedy show, it was quite good. I'm going to bed now, don't know anything more to write, I have a headache and have to get up early in the morning to go to school.
A phrase for today.........erm...............Why so somethings come so sudden and disappear in the same fashion?

Wednesday, 14 march (16.25)
Believe it or not, I was able to study yesterday and I'm even doing so now. I fear it is too late, but better late then never. It is not like I can study the whole day now.........but it feels good. This might be the start of a new period, I really hope so.
Yesterday evening I had a very long conversation on MSN, that was nice. My fingers became sore at the end of the evening :).
That is about all that happend lately, nothing more to tell...........................Just follow the light.

Thuesday, 18 march (14.47)
Almost a week later......yesterdays exam was a disaster, failed that one too. The last one is tomorrow, lets hope that I pass that one. I'm studying on it now and receivind some stuff from HJ.
Last weekend was fun again. I went out on Friday with alot of friend. On saturday the women of my group of friends had a 'ladys-night'. So we, the men, had a 'men-night'. We all watched some movie, ate shoarma and had beer.
The next day I was called by one of the women, she asked my to take a picture of all the girls wearing beautymasks. I live nearby, so I went to her place.....what a weird sight, 6 girls with al kinda different stuff on their face. I took the pic and they all kissed me...........my skin got purified too, I was covered in that stuff. Oh well, that was fun, I stayed a bit and talked. In the evening I went to a friends soccermatch and went to a pub with him and 2 others.
On monday evening I played darts with Arie (check his site for the score).
..................................Game shot!