Live, Love, and Hate – by Orpheus

Week 20 part 2 – My First Continuation

Ugh, I just wrote Week 20 an hour or so ago, and I already realized how much stuff I left out of it. Most importantly, I left out all the stuff about, like, why I’m confused and why I think that, like, R… Wow, once again, I can’t think of the right word, or even a combination of not-quite right words that, when put together, I mean, hey, that sort of thing almost worked when I was trying to describe Jay. You know how in Supplement 3 I said I didn’t know anything about hatred, really? I think that, in light of recent events, I have learned more than my fair share of stuff about hatred.

Well, where to begin, where to begin. One of the things that’s bothered me most about all this is something that R said the day before she brought Jay up. Y’see, it went a little something like this (probably not perfectly accurate):

“Orpheus:*begins juggling chainsaws*

R: O.o

Orpheus: What? It’s not like I don’t know what I’m d- OH GOD! MY ARM!

R:…

Orpheus: Quick! Go get me a bandage!

(long silence, then about 5 minutes later…)

Orpheus:*dies because you took too long*

R:*cries*

Orpheus:*gets better* Don’t cry…

(okay, this is where my bad memory kicks in, I can only give you a rough idea of how it went form here on out)

R: But you were gone… don’t leave me… (okay, I’m really not sure about that line, I was kinda spaced by the awkwardness of the whole situation)

Orpheus: Well, I’m here now, and I’m gonna stay for as long as I can…”

Okay, umm, I had something else to say, but I can’t remember what…(a few hours later, when I’m able to get the computer back from my brother) Now I remember what I was going to say. I wonder if R really meant it when she told me how she felt. I mean, maybe she was just taking pity on the little kid (only 2 years and 27 days younger, though, give or take a few hours). God I hate when people do that, and yet they do it all the time.

Oh, and I also find it kinda weird that she laughed at the song Ketamine, by Carfax Abbey. I s’pose it’s understandable, though, considering that she’s never watched her friends slowly spiral down further and further into habits like that… I think I’ll stop rambling on and flying off the deep end about such little things now…

Signing out.