Live, Love, and Hate – by Orpheus

 

Week 61 – Exhaustion

 

            (4/3/05) Wow, it’s been nearly a month since I wrote one of these, doesn’t really surprise me over much, but it’s still a little shocking. Exhaustion is a state of being that is at the same time not at all like, and not at all unlike, a more regular state of tiredness or fatigue. Whereas tiredness starts as being a physical drain and then moves on to being mental, and if prolonged for enough time, an emotional drain, exhaustion starts as being a drain on the emotions, then the mind and finally works its way on the body.

 

            Over the past few months I have run the gamut of emotions, there is not so much as a single one that I have not gone through. Mostly, this has to do with the disappearance of R twelve days ago, and there was quite a bit during an event that has been named “the Storm”, which has been the subject of two LLHs, Spark and Herald of the Storm. Oh, for the time being, at least, the narrator of Herald of the Storm has decided to stay by the Burning One and dry himself by her flames. I can’t help but feel that there is something wrong with R these days, she says there isn’t anything, and I’m sure that, if there is, she will tell me once she sees fit to.

 

            Anyway, now on to what is undoubtedly one of the most pressing issues that will be addressed in this column, well, as pressing as anything in this journal of sorts will ever be. That issues is the possible return of the girl with reddish-brown hair, more commonly referred to by a nickname to her, Eurydice. The content of the dream was very similar in nature to that of her fourth major visit, otherwise called “The Harrowing”, due to its similarity in nature to a Harrowing from the game Wraith: the Oblivion.

 

            It was too dark in the dream to really see for sure if it was Eurydice or not in that dream. On one hand, it seemed a bit too tall and slender, but on the other hand, the rest of it seemed to be perfectly like her. The major differences, except for that, during the Harrowing were these: the control (so to speak) was in the opposite hands, and the lighting was very shot. That being said, I would like to move on to the disturbing questions it would raise if it were Eury returning in that dream. First, Eurydice always shows up for a few months, and then stops two weeks or so before some great emotional upheaval (Deliverance, Decidedly Shorter Than Intended). And seond: what happened to change her so much? To make her so much more… passive, or maybe submissive would be a better (well, more appropriate) word, either way, it’s eerie.

 

            Well, for week 61, this is Orpheus, signing off. Please send rant topics to [email protected]