Live, Love, and Hate – by Orpheus

 

Week 24 – The Thirtieth Episode

 

(8/20/04) Wow, it’s kinda hard to believe that I’ve been writing LLH for this long. I mean, it’s been since either January or February, and here it is six or seven months later and I’m still writing. I can’t really keep track by what week it is anymore, because I stopped for quite a while between With Eyes Turned To The Stars and Deliverance, and then I started writing them in rapid succession until “In which K’s name was revealed before I went back and edited it”. Then, I wrote everything from Menagerie to My First Continuation in one day.

 

You know, looking back at An Introduction, I don’t really think that’s a very appropriate motto for me anymore, it’s still fairly accurate, but there’s gotta be something better out there. Now, I think I’ll update the definitions of the Letters and put definitions for the ones that so far have had no official definition.

 

““K” – Well, to put it simply, she’s a bitch. I avoid her whenever possible. Didn’t always used to be that way, though.” I guess that one’s still pretty much accurate. Next!

 

““L” – A very nice girl, if a tad slow on the uptake… (Not very slow, though. She’s brighter than she gives herself credit for)” Yep, that’s the definition of L who got taken out of Week 1. And, you know what? I think that this one is still pretty accurate.

 

““J” – Okay, she’ll probably never be mentioned, but just in case… She lives in New Jersey, we (the webmaster and I) live in Southern California.” Okay, this is where things start to get a little more complicated. You see, J was originally intended to be a person who is now referred to as the First J. This name occurred because when I sent Week 1 to another acquaintance of mine in New Jersey, she misinterpreted it and thought that J was a description of herself, and I figured ‘what can it hurt, I probably will never mention her anyway’ and assigned the letter of J to her, so remember, First J and J are two different people.

 

Now, we get to the new letters.

 

“R” – She was originally introduced in Week 11 Deliverance, and mentioned on a few other occasions, but mostly in Deliverance and Returning in Redemption (the title of which, by the way, is a reference to the Crüxshadows song “Flames”). She’s been a very close friend of mine for going over a year and a half now, but about a year into that (which would be a few months after the incident with K, which was actually prodded along by my experience with First J), I started to, ah, wish to be a bit closer than that. Lucky for me, she said that she felt the same way, and, um, yeah, that’s about all I have to say on that matter.

 

“C” – C is the letter that I have known for the least amount of time. I’ve known her for somewhere around a month now, probably a little bit more, and I’ve only spoken to her a handful of times, and yet she was responsible for the title of Lead Me Not Into Temptation (which is a reference to a poem I wrote, two lines from it were “Lead me not into temptation, For I will surely fall”, rather, I suppose that I wrote the poem later, but rest assured that those two lines were in my head when I wrote Lead Me Not Into Temptation). C trusts me with information that she says she’s never told anyone else. Honestly, I do not think it is a good idea to tell someone that you’ve just met the kinds of things that she’s told me. Of course, luckily for her, I happen to be a very trustworthy person.

 

That’s it for week 24. If you’d like to see me rant about something else, just e-mail the topic to me at [email protected] this is Orpheus, signing out.