the words on this page
have been lost.
this page,
all those others in kind
that once did exist,
went swimming in answers
in search of a question:
some island-primordial
of firm ground.
in the saltwater, they drowned.
from the depths Rose a cry
wrapped in silence:
".....awaken unbound....."
these words repeating, alone.
12 21 (21-06-2007)
June er shi yi, er shi yi: er shi yi
who is this ? this blue sky Empress calling me ? shen ma
now is mocking this er b..i wu boy under the Sino-sun ?
Six twenty one and twenty one twenty one:
two rings to rise above the one ... the one
thrice - but nothing, only numbers on the machine
only this, Girl ?
I am undone;
I am galactically alone 12000 miles from my heart's
true home.
here she come
calling me to a room that is not home - a place where
I have lain and lied and raped and cried
till it is done - all hope is gone.
will she ? my my my has killed me as we both lie
and hate and die barely touching in our coupling -
no, no - not touching at all - I have been in conjunction
with a Chinese wall
the graveyard of the Earth as
seen from heaven - bring it down upon our heads - we
are dead in bed and on this blighted planet we have
spread from west to east and east to west until they
meet in WE
and we are dead - we have been led by
breeding monsters in our blood-stained heads into
the river of blood saltwater, each and every one
of us into the death of the living by our mamas and
papas and siblings and All
of us together in the river
are gasping or drowning or drowned in the hellish current
flowing beneath the ground - we are buried in red water
in the fruit of the vine, where we have been led by
evolution, by our inventions - by the moon and by
the sun and by the seasons dead and done and spilling
their blood into their next life again and again the
blood we see flowing in and out of the ground
and death and birth and the blood that falls between
and in the words of blue saltwater falling between us
from morning till the day is done and in our sleep
(we sometimes hear her there ?)
we speak of backing the car into the river - she told
me so - so long ago, her dream and I knew not what it
could mean
but now, now she speaks to me from my past
first love to my present, none
I am undone
under the dying sun and galaxy and universe - we are
done all together WE fall in or out - and who knows
which is which or if they are the same as east is west
and west is east, they meet in WE - in the river of
blood saltwater we flow into the sea where She does
to attain what we can never touch - what She wills
herself to be beyond our monkey brains as the sea
to the drop of rain.
and we do not tell each other
anything, or feel anything, not even this thing that
we call pain
we do not touch it in the water where
we linger all our lives - somehow we have less than
nothing - we have gone under Minus One
"always say yes" she says, mocking creation with
our vulgarity
we are SORRY but the word we
do not understand - we have only shards of
language in our blood stained hands
to fill the space
growing between us under the dying sun
12 - 21
WE weep till it is done
mercy, Girl - what have I done ?
I lay these bloody shards upon my bones
I wash my hands but naught comes out
cum out dead
WE are drowned in blood
beneath our desiccated son
it cum down upon our heads
I have got to find the river,
bergamot and vetiver
run through my head and fall away.
Leave the road and memorize
this life that pass before my eyes.
Nothing is going my way.
... REM
Only love
Can make it rain
The way the beach is kissed by the sea
Only love
Can make it rain
Like the sweat of lovers
Laying in the fields.
Love, Reign o'er me
Love, Reign o'er me, rain on me
Only love
Can bring the rain
That makes you yearn to the sky
Only love
Can bring the rain
That falls like tears from on high
Love Reign O'er me
On the dry and dusty road
The nights we spend apart alone
I need to get back home to cool cool rain
I can't sleep and I lay and I think
The night is hot and black as ink
Oh God, I need a drink of cool cool rain
- 'The Who'
blue moon looking down on her
looking down on me
have mercy on her - have mercy on me
carry us over this water
carry us over this severing sea
watergirl looking down on her
looking down on me
Grant us peace
OPEN the blue sky !
joy ~ ~ ~ come 2 me xd
if it be your will
watergirl
stir it up
for her and for me
and watch over her, mercy
;
approaching perfection in connections
is the upper limit of the human function
by joining the unconnectable
we create truth out of fiction
if it does not follow,
it leads us on
[from 'touch' -> 'cadence' {fusion (please, take my hand)}]
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Zong Gua De Lu Se Cheng Shi
CartooNation
Blue Sky Rebirth
Green Animates The Earth
watergirl ! - �����҂� !
fall upon the center of our desiccated nation !
lick upon our roots
drench us to the core
whet again these dusty stems
and let this whilted vine live once again !
The Moody Blues: Dawning Is The Day
Rise, let us see you,
Dawning is the day.
Miss, misty meadow,
You will find your way.
Wake up in the morning, to yourself,
And leave this crazy life behind you.
Listen, we're trying to find you.
Flow to the sea,
You know where to go.
But still we are free,
No one tells the wind which way to blow.
Wake up in the morning to yourself,
Open your eyes and start to be you.
Listen, we think we can see you.
Baby there's no price upon your head,
Sing it, shout it,
Now the angry words have all been said,
Do it, don't doubt it.
So rise, let us see you,
Dawning is the day.
Miss, misty meadow,
You will find your way.
Wake up in the morning to yourself,
Open your head and look around you.
Listen, we think we have found you.
Listen we think we have found you.
Listen we think we have found you.
Listen we think we have found you.
Listen we think we have found you.
Listen we think we have found you.
Listen we think we can see you.
er ling yi XD
August che: er shi san shi si
but yo ! there is nothing wrong here
only
life and how to live it
leave it
all behind let go
now of each
and every care - they
are not there !
or they are but who fuckin cares
they cannot touch me less I let 'em
they are whiffs of smoke to chase
around this town or not
a good time on the town such
silliness - she is me but
we are not the same and
I need not play this insane
dame game of mine any more !
let it go if I chose to
on its merry way - its way
whatever it may be I neeed not
chase it watch it mention it
no more - no more
lies would be nice but the good
would cum from just not playing
dice with em - yo ?!
am I so so so
silly er bei wo sha gua boy
have I been chasin' my smokin'
tail aroung this little
GZ Sino-town like
it was Fun - WOW ! - cos I do
not say 'joy' in sarcasm no
more - no way ! she is my friend
my love my Joy when there is
no joy she is she is
so so so
joy ! exquisitely away from me
as I chat with her on the mobile
walking around her peaceful Home
where she speaks and captures every
word and every thought in my
er bei wu head
I thought she
is so close but I can only hear
her but I do not care cos she
is all around me in the air
so light this Joy so bright
this Hunan Human Light House Home
so hard to touch so
easy to love my love is lost
within her pixie eyes and I am
happy it is captured there by
my will it rests upon her brow
and I dont care how she choses
to touch me - no - no - that's
a lie
I want her
in my arms in my
sight in my heart and I will
die without her
happily
she holds me in her mind
and there I can go
with a grateful heart to the
dancing dead - exuberant in their
escape from this whispy haunted
bed of lies and light
captures ~ held ~ and
released
endlessly
we kill the dove with our hunting
our care
less reckless of all things
I have harmed creation with some
sick desire to understand absolutely
the wrong things - yo ! I am not
god I am not god I am not
Girl, forgive this
er bei wu boy under the spinning
sino-heavens -
bring it down upon my head -
I could use your sanity my water
level be low but you fill me up
and touch me with joy - to the
world I shall go
without a gun - I will
leave leave leave
well enough alone
for the moment at least - yo, Girl
what up ?
you are always with me
I just forget to look or listen to
all that truly exists in beauty
in this little town this little world
so small I am I feel
joy
your love sets me free
and for this bouncy moment
I beleive
love will keep me free
in truth and beauty
oh my
Joy
I love you friendly Hunan baby
whatever it may be
love comes to me
mercie Girl mercie
water me free
hey you LeeLee Eighyu Cathy
Kelly Carrie Angie Julie
you are all love and
light and all
Joy to me
she cum down
upon my silly head
but I want her tonight and
all I have to come in my
watergirl bed
harvest moon looking down on her
looking down on me
have mercy on her - have mercy on me
carry us over the water
carry us over the severing sea
have mercy have mercy have mercy on me !
watergirl looking down on her
looking down on me
carrie us over this water, Girl
Grant us peace
from the center
of the center
of the center
of the world
Wuhan ~ Hubei ~ Zonggua
come the girl
~ ~ ~
come the dawn
WaterGirl
to you I pray
have mercy on me - have mercy on me
I have remained a fool - a sha gua rat for all my days
of this I must I confess I am immaculately guilty
yet you, my Lady, have not forsaken me
but in your wondrous secret ways have
hewed me - lifted me and taken me
over the rising ocean's reddening tide
across the blood-hued hugely severing sea
to stand with you now side by side
raping and hating and killing - dying with you
reshaping my mind with your Reality
hush now child - xie xie - oh, Girl
have mercy on me �C have mercy on me
open me - for all the world to see and
seal my worried mouth with cooling saline
from my eye's saltwater wells that you have
quarried in my feigning face - to let me see from time
to time the lines of light that open here and there
amidst our woven confines blinding and besieging me
duibuqi - please tai tai �C have mercy on me
walk with me and hold my hand and lead me Home
for alone I am laoshu not man
I am the lowest creature trespassing through your dens in
bright life alleys and blighted unreal city streets where
in light you lay and linger
endowed in your embodied splendor
lost and lame and poor allowing me to remember and
watching and waiting together to mark if I see you in them
and me in you and all of us as one - as we
for all of my days I have been guilty
watergirl - I repent - I repent
teach me, my lady - cleanse this broken mind
and body with pure blue water from your eyes
wash away my brackish days misspent
I have turned away from you and will
do so again and again as I breathe
have mercy on me �C have mercy on me
watergirl - to you I pray
let hate end - let love begin
bring your children together
I have acted as some offspring knife for all this given
life to try to cut your loving tether
to keep you away - to keep you away !
watergirl - please forgive me
have mercy have mercy have mercy on me !
and then I heard the rolling thunder say
"love, sister, is just a kiss away,
kiss away, kiss away"
Girl please tell me
who and where and when and
what's the price to pay - I am ebbing
to and fro and spinning with the lunar sway
and then I saw her come my way
from the center
of the center
of the center
of the world
Wuhan ~ Hubei ~ Zonggua
walking up the darkling stairs to meet me
like a nymph she moves so naturally and smoothly
into the light where she blossoms fully
in my eyes and I am wonderstruck completely
now there before me gliding lithely
comes the girl so sweet and so sublime
as if a vision of the beauty of humanity
that I had once painted in my mind
(She ~ the floor of the Cosmos ~ dancing with time)
now to the cab into the club into her arms she leads me
in lavender flower dress blossomed fully - a liquid
hourglass smelling of nectar at my side
and in my arms she rests so warmly
in the maddening crowd I see her only - and
she is flowing like a goddess with some kind
of long lost wet and pure and perfect
female sexuality
dancing girl ! dance Wang Jin !
rock me roll me Hubei baby
on the dance floor of my dream
let me hold you in my arms
you fit me like a velvet glove
touch me with your mind forever
"dance me to the end of love"
from the center
of the center
of the center
of the world
Wuhan ~ HuBei ~ ZongGua
flower girl ! bloom Carrie !
open full your pretty leaves
and let The Rose envelope me !
lay bare the peace I long to see !
at the center of creation
Chinese box in boxes
quench my thirst with water
from the life-enshrining fount
between your knees
I plead, my lady, on my knees !
I bleed ! I bleed !
oh Girl, please heal me, please !
from the center
of the center
of the center
of all things
(Xiu Ye - as you wish, my lady)
watergirl ! water me !
fall upon the center
of my desiccated country !
lick upon my roots !
drench me to the core !
whet again this dusty stem
and let this whilted vine
live once again !
flow my bright new river
all sorrow wash away with sweet inverse
eliminate this perverse thirst !
down Acheron !
let its flow reverse !
sublime river flowing softly
with power imeasurable
and limits unknown
flow now to the sea
Lantau Island, Hong Kong
the rain at Da Yu Shan ~
alone
she calls my name
the sigh of a dream rings
a world enveloped in her silent mist.
(the words do not exist to speak of this !)
I found my watergirl.
She rests upon my heart.
I send her to you, my fair one
peace be with you, Leelee
shantih shantih shantih
solstice moon looking down on her
looking down on me
watergirl ~ sui bian
what will be will be
to the centers
of the center
of the center
of the center
of my world
Tianhe ~ Baiyun - Guangzhou - Guangdong - Zhonggua
comes the girl
Liu Yan
1 2 22 2 1
we are together
a walk on BaiyunShan
a dance at the Inn
hand in hand
together
as the sun is reborn
turn me round, Girl - back to the sea
alone again in Hong Kong, but
in the sunshine at Da Yu Shan
the Human voices drown me
the water here - the pond
left unattended much too long
sadness stains this missplaced
corner of the monestary
a laowai girl says "how dirty!"
my face once more saltwater wet
within the dream I sleep awhile
yet, I find her there again
two of two - I think I know
for who, but I know
nothing
but surprise
returning to Baiyun Shan
through Ke Zi Ling to and fro
with a joyful gu niang
a youthful warmth I've seldom known
the flying rose girl
joyfully we climb
to Moxing Ling
the water runs not beside us
but in between
upon the peak of our world
stands with me, the girl, Jiang Bing
together, hand in hand, we have come
I lift her up upon the summit-rocks
we find there rings in rings - the marriage locks
fascinate - I say they should be broken
the water touching, in between
my head spins - and turns again
cadence and cascade collide
as I take fate's ride to and from
the crossroads of my life
I walk east to west
on the north sky road
right and right, westward
down Tianhe Bei Lu
Dong - Dong
we rang the Pusa bell ten times
to the crossroads
at the center
of the center
of the center
of the center
of my world
Home - I know that I know nothing
of such things, but hope
no words
no language matters here
nothing between us so er bei wu
the ones I found on Da Yu San are for
two horses running free
west and east, my girls
draw a line through the center of the Earth
just touch me, my lady
sweet sublime Hunan baby
let's sit beneath the azure sky
translate our thoughts, east to west to east
hold me in your arms awhile
hold me in your mind forever
flying Rose, Bing
flying north in winter
we find no water in an antique ring
upon the rock at Di Tan park
we walk as Queen and King
from temple to alter
Fangze Tan - Huang Qi Shi - Beijing
we count the steps and calculate
north and south, east and west
I locate and stand upon the center
I wonder if by fate she stands here
wo de peng you, the princess from Harbin
upon the alter - within confining water
the hollow moat which we cross over
the blood spilled here for nothing
our love is all we offer as
we take the measure of our past
our paws are lifted and
the people and the flower ball are
free at last
in our hearts
upon the alter She stands with us
the water running in between
and runs with us to Tiananmen
where we play awhile as children
(the blood spilled here for nothing ?)
upon the Opera House I see Her drawn
sublime - the water ringing round the sound
reborn in the Central Kingdom
where I watch and wait in trepidation -
very soon the world will come
to take a look around
I dare not speak what I envision
hush hush hush - pray for intervention
now it's just our friends
and her and me - and
the water that runs between us
not beside us -
(the river of blood saltwater
between the mountains and the sea)
please keep her safe
stay with us and guide us -
over the water, Girl
to you I pray
Gu Niang Shui
east to west - our shadows in the morning
west to east - our shadows in the evening
they meet in we
beneath blue sky meridian
hand in hand together
with mercy - with compassion
we can carry each other over the water
over the blue and hugely severing sea
to a place where we can meet in peace
I walk east to west - west to east
on the north sky road
seaching for a Home
wo he wo de peng you - and She
is with me till my wonderings are done
where all I know are lies or illusions
from the dawning of my life till sunset
with all my might I reach
but cannot grasp
the infinite or nothingness to come,
but bound within my grip I flail and gasp
in my own tears till day and night are gone
birth to death to waters unknown
I will not leave you on this path alone
I will follow
I'll be with you all along
let us open our hearts and
let Her light flow out and in
let love win
let peace begin
comes the Girl
~ ~ ~
comes the dawn
here is my heart
here is my hand
come on !
~~ ~ come a-long ~ ~~
lead me to the river of pearl
the new town
wo de nu peng you
0 2 2 1
"from the inside, two rings to rise above the one"
whispered in wonder the meadow, the pond
shuang de yv - huang se long
3 2 1 - wo de Aries gu niang
now I've seen - you have been with me all along
fiercest angel, most gentle dragon
wo ai ni, Zhang Wen Qi !
the Xinyu Dragon slays me
come a-long - please, take my hand
your liar is the Home where I belong
it shall be peace, we shall be free
the Girl is fate - let be
Tai Ji
shantih shantih shantih
the words on this page have been lost. this page, all those others in kind that once did exist, went swimming in answers in search of a question: some island-primordial of firm ground. in the saltwater, they drowned. from the depths Rose a cry wrapped in silence: ".....awaken unbound....." these words repeating, alone.joy ~ ~ ~ come 2 me xd if it be your will watergirl stir it up for her and for me and watch over her, mercy ;
Zong Gua De Lu Se Cheng Shi CartooNation Blue Sky Rebirth Green Animates The Earth watergirl ! - �����҂� ! fall upon the center of our desiccated nation ! lick upon our roots drench us to the core whet again these dusty stems and let this whilted vine live once again !
shuang de yv - huang se long
3 2 1 - wo de Aries gu niang
