Thursday, September 30, 2oo4
You have to read this cute story, it's soooo sad and so touching. Click here to read it. (This is located in For you under readables >> Cute Stories if you ever want to check out cute stories.) ... This also means that I've added the Cute Stories section, enjoy! Back to hwk, I won't blog today because I have loads to worry for. The only good news is that AP BIO exam is moved til monday, so 3 more days before death arrives =\
Posted by Jenni at 3:03 pm |
Wednesday, September 29, 2oo4
A day that cannot be forget. I feel much lighter now, because I am feeling free, or starting to relax and feel free! =P You don't need to understand, you just need to listen! So, for a first attempt at the Japanese Proficiency Test study night and taking the 1995 test issued by the Japan Government, I must admit I failed pretty HORRIBLY. You don't even wanna know *sigh* I got 3 more shots before it's finally here, let's hope I will do ok and pass it. I am tired, I must get some rest. The long, awful and big Friday is coming up for me- and I am soo0o0o happy about it. *chokes* My ass... whatever, I give up. I give up being too concerned about people's feelings, I should worry and learn to consider my own feeling. Maybe being a little more selfish will make my own life happier, and not the people around me happier. Whatever, I am going to take a good sleep and let the long awaiting day come take me over. Sorry, I'll talk about flies Friday, I will most likely be back to complain after my big day anyway.
Posted by Jenni at 10:21 pm |
Tuesday, September 28, 2oo4
Oh my gosh, I have a shyt load of things to do this friday! I have my AP Bio Midterm #2, Calculus Test, Japanese Quiz, AP US History In-Class Essay, and English Root Auction!. Well yah the Root Auction will be easy but I am ready to fail everything else. To be telling the truth, I haven't studied ANYTHING NEW we learned since the last exam for AP Bio, and I don't think I will be so lucky to get a curve and ace it. *sigh* I am so sleepy I'll just yap a little bit and then go to sleep. It's like- late. So on Friday on my calculus test, I got a 92/100 and my name went on the board for like the 3rd highest paper, Yay? =\ I MADE HELLA STUPID MISTAKES THOUGH! I coulda swear, I lost a point not writing down the limiting number when I did all the work to find it and just put "no limit". Then, I lost a point for not saying the property that made the answer I got, the right answer. WHAT DA HECK, and so I lost 3 points for making this mistake- (1/0+3)(1/3) = 1/6. *bangs head* and I knew it was wrong, I checked it out BIZILLION TIMES and I thought I did my like common denominator, conjugates and stuff wrong when I ADDED 3+3, instead of doing (3)(3). *sigh* Yep, see what I mean stupid mistakes can cost me up to 20 points? It sure did cost me 8 points right there. Enough about calculus, I got a 9/10 today on my history quiz, not bad for some studying? Oh well, I am over with school. I have my Japanese Proficiency Test study group tomorrow night at school from 5:00-8:30 pm, I am going to go to take the exam issued by the Japanese Government Level 4- if I pass I get to be 'certified' as a japanese proficient person speaking the language or some crap. HEY since so many people are doing Advanced Placement and is rapidly abusing the service of advanced courses in a high school, I need that designation on my transcript to 'stand out' you know? =P Yah, high school (at least mines) is turning to a 'mini' college. I GOT LIKE HECKA underclassmen acting 'smart' and want to be in calculus, AP this and that... when they CAN'T handle it and complain. I swear- I want them dead and to fail. Yes I am mean, but just because they LOOK smart doesn't mean they are. Ok ok fine, I am very biased but whatever. This is getting draggy and my eyes are getting heavy, I must sleep. =] I made a new layout already, I will post it up probably next month and guess what? PINK again! I just need to touch it up a little more, it's VERY SIMPLE and you'll see it when I post it up. Later, and thanks to Tina + Michelle my lovely commentors! Where did everyone else go? =) *ponders and goes off in nightmare about the cells, flies, and things* =P LOL! Oh yea a little retouch up on my weekend, SAT I went to the mall, SUN was home and relaxing, MON I went to school(DUH!) but no piano cuz I went to the doctor and things. I'll talk about my AP Bio "flies genetic cross" lab next time, it's getting VERY interesting. =]
Posted by Jenni at 10:06 pm |
Friday, September 24, 2oo4
Wow I've been so lazy for the past week huh? It must be a record to not be updating this blog thing, when I check it out and things everyday. Aww... so no one left me a comment last entry? =P I think my annoying-ness of "complaining" is really getting me nowhere, I must learn to STOP IT. So my week was terrible, I am sick, I have like "hypnophobia" or something and it's horrible! I am getting horrible allergies, along with a soar throat and lack of sleep is really not helping. I swear I sneeze for over like 100 times in 2 days, and I used up about 2 boxes of tissues add together from all my classes that provide them. It's so scary I look like I am crying in every class. Yesterday I was so tired and sick I want to sleep in EVERY CLASS until Calculus. That is nuts... =\ Well here I go with my day. So Monday, was a VERY long day because I had piano and things, I also took piano today because next Monday I have an eye doctor appointment. Yes I think I am getting glasses, not sure though. I probably need it if I am going to stay up late and read and study like a maniac anyway not to say my studying proves to be jack-shyt so far. On Tuesday I had my History Midterm #1, OMG... you do NOT know how much I studied on Monday. I read over that REA AP History study guide book, all my notes at least like 50 times. I coulda swear I studied at least 3 hours for it. So I ended up getting a 77/100 with a 5 point curve. *sigh* I am really stupid in history, there are things when it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be. I also got a mini-calculus pop quiz, as always every single damn week. I got a perfect on it, haha and it's only 6 points so it proved to help me so much. I am major suffering in that class, my grade went from a 92% to like, a 84.7% or something around there. There's only 2 As of like 70 something students and those two people are math fanatics, they are so damn smart... DARN SENIORS! I think I did ok on my test today though. Everytime I THINK I aced something (especially in math) I always end up with alot of stupid mistakes that can cost me up to 20 pts, and trust me I've experienced it before. Let's hope- I did ok. I answered everything on there, and was unsure of probably like 2 questions (out of 14) =\ let's hope I got the "more points" questions right, and missed the "little points" questions. I wrote a in-class essay today in History, I THOUGHT I did pretty well because I wrote ALOT, but then when I saw the teacher's outline I realized I am VERY 1-sided. I absolutely threw Mr. Chan (AP World History teacher last year)'s essay lessons to the trash. It was clearly, well after I turned my paper in anyway, that it's a 'compare/contrast' like essay and so I didn't remember, I was VERY 1 SIDED. Worst of all what I thought I did well on, I ended up writing "opposite" of everything the teacher had on his outline =\ I HOPE my arguements are strong enough because really, it's like an opinion thing. The midterm brought me from a 90.8% down to a 85% (stupid shyt!) but the 10 points extra credit helped it raise back to 89%. So yah, I went to Back to School Night on Wednesday, and I got 5 extra credit points in AP Bio + 10 extra points for AP US History. I have a 90.4% (or around there) in AP Bio right now, SO FAR (damn it last week it was 94%!). The essay portion of my midterm brought me down like CRAZY. I got like a 28/50 on it (damn I swear I thought I did ALOT better!), and then... I went to check with her and GOOD THING I did cuz I ended up getting another 7 points. She missed out like 2 points I wrote on there so I got another 7 points, ended up with a 35/50 so =] so I got a 90.4% in class instead of the original like, 87.7% or something. It's so ironic, I thought I did well on my 1st question and bad on the second one, yet I got more points from the second question and Ms. Mauro said the second question scores were horrible. LOL! ^v^ Whatever- so many people are not going well yet KALVIN, he has a 100% IN AP BIO and AP History (DAMN HIM!)...
I realized I've been talking about school so much huh? Well sorry, school is basically my life now. I went from like str8 A's to like, A's and B's-ish grades. This is bad =\ I want to make a new layout for this site since it's almost the end of the month, but there's just not much time and I have no inspirations at ALL. I think I've been web designing too much and every layout I tried to do something 'new' as in 'new', so I am like ideas dry. I have a limited amount of knowledge with the web designing thing because I never took a web designs class or something. I learned everything on my own so I am NOT that good. I told myself to learn php, cgi scripts and java but heck did I do anything. Oh well, I guess I'll chill for now. WELL, I hope this makes up for the past week. I haven't written something so long ever since I don't know when. Seriously though, are you guys seriously THAT into my life? (HAHA yah right, probably not!) but oh well, posting it makes me feel better I guess. ^v^ later now, I am going to watch the new tapes mommy rent, War and Beauty OH YEAA! =] Tag me a comment, cya! There's no new updates, oh well I'll manage to do something soon =P
Posted by Jenni at 7:14 pm |
Sunday, September 19, 2oo4
What a weekend! Did you see how HAPPY I was on Wednesday with all the good news? Well here we go, here comes all the bad ones. So in school, I got a pop quiz in AP US History, and let's just say it's not that good =\ SO yah... I got like 1/2 of it right. What a day, then it's NOT OVER. I went to Calculus, took the test and I DIDN'T FINISH the stupid test. It was soooooooo hard I HELLA failed it, *sigh* I am gonna cry soon in that class. I wanted to ace it so bad, but it proves me wrong that things don't ever go the way I want. Then in JAPANESE, it's even worse, I MADE HECKA STUPID MISTAKES! You know how I literally need to ACE the damn tests to get an A in there cuz of my STUPID stupidity right? SO THEN, I thought I did so well and I thought I NAILED all his tricks, then I figure me thinking his question was a trick, ended up tricking ME. I knew that it's the special, I chose to not believe it because it said "to have" and not "to exist" so I screwed up 4 points (the quiz is only 30 points!) so there I go, perfect... *sigH* but the good news is I SAW TWIN OF BROTHERS ENDING!. Omg, the ending was so... well I like it cuz I dunt like Raymond with Li Quan, I wanted him with Tavia so I rather him die and he did. I started crying after it's over not because it's sad or something, I think I cried because it ended and no more of the hottie Raymond + Ron. =\ Oh well I enjoyed the past... 2 months chasing after the movie every single Friday (and sometimes, Tuesdays)! I went to Valley Fair on Saturday, just hanged out a little bit. I seem to be at the mall too much and not buying things, blEh it's called time killing. Not going to drag on this much, I did update some times so yah =] haf fun!
Updates
- Added 'MY POEMS' under Dreambox >> My Collection/Arts
Posted by Jenni at 12:33 pm |
Thursday, September 16, 2oo4
I editted Photobox in DreamBox with new pictures and erased all the old ones. Basically, I just redid it, you can check it out if you wish.
Posted by Jenni at 10:11 pm |
I just suddenly had the urge to write some quotes. Yes, I WROTE THEM, so they are copyrighted to ME. Don't steal them or else, I'll wack your head off if you post it on your website. Personal usage is fine... ^_^ although, who'd use my crappy quotes? =X I AM NOT a good english gurl... blEh...
"It takes courage to tell someone you love them; but it takes even more courage to accept the fact because you didn't tell them you love them, now you'll lose them forever..."
"God created stems for flowers, created sun for the moon, created stars for the sky, and created me for you..."
"The love I want doesn't come from your wealth, your looks, your status, or your figure, it's what I want that comes from your heart..."
"There's only heartaches when there's pain, there's only frowns when there's sadness, there's only happiness when there's you..."
"Sometimes I wish for dreams to be real, because in my world that's the only place I'll ever find you by my side, helping me, caring for me, comforting me, and most of all- loving me..."
"I would give up my world, my happiness, my status, my life; but the only thing I'd never give up is my love for you..."
Updates
- Put all the quotes into my Quotes I Wrote page, under Dreambox
Posted by Jenni at 6:46 pm |
Wednesday, September 15, 2oo4
Oh my gosh, I am happy today! Okok, for the first time I am not going to complain? So yah, today lemme start with all the fun news! I got my AP Bio midterm back, I got a 90% on it!! ~~~~~~~ ^v^ YAY! Yah I am like going crazy being happy =] although it's graded on a curve, I am happy! I just hope I did well on my essay section now, so I can KEEP that 90%. Then in history, well I took the quiz and I got a 12/10 on it! =) THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I get so high of a score for history since like 2 years ago. I am happy too!! In AP Calculus, we took a pop quiz =\ but then I THINk I did ok. I probably missed the second one but I attempted it, and I have an idea of how to do it! =\ I hope I did good! I came home and finished all my homework before 4:00 pm, THIS IS A RECORD SINCE SCHOOL STARTED! I was never able to finish homework so early =) I am so happy! LoL, so with the free time I have, I made some things to update this site. I was going to write the remaining tutorials, but I decided to nah... I feel like messing with photoshop. Check below for new updates!!
Updates
- Add FREE LAYOUTS section! Check it out, I made 1 layout for you all. Includes the codes, image and stuff.
- Joined 1 new fanlisting: Lofty Waters Verdant Bow (chinese serie)
Posted by Jenni at 8:03 pm |
Monday, September 13, 2oo4
Enough said, I failed it all. Bio midterm today? I failed part of it too. There comes part two tomorrow and another history quiz on Wednesday + my first History midterm next Tuesday. I am reading, to BS it, and have fun letting my grades drop from all the 'As' I had to like Cs. It's all cool, I give no damn anymore. I am going to cut my internet time online pretty soon. blEh- I had a bad enough day.
Posted by Jenni at 9:07 pm |
Sunday, September 12, 2oo4
So here's what I have to say today. I did SO WELL on that "JAPANESE QUIZ" and "MATH TEST" of mines my grades gonna slide like crazy. Here's how well I did *smiles so damn sarcastically* On the math test, I thought I'd do very good because it's kinda like the one last week, and I knew everything and stuff right? SO... I got the test, yes very good, I didn't even get how to do #1 and that was FINDING INTERSECTIONS! Let me ask you, HOW STUPID IS THAT! I am in calculus, and I didn't even get how to do that one. I wrote "no intersections" and I HOPE for a 1/10000 chance I am right, although I highly doubt myself. As for the nice graphs in the end (last 2 problems), I SO BSed it... I think there goes my so called "90.3%" in class. SEE WHAT I MEAN by I want 100% the first few weeks, I KNOW my grades on border will never last long. Onto the Japanese quiz, SO I THOUGHT I WAS SO GOOD, I THOUGHT I had it under control then AFTER I turn my paper in, I realized we need to TRANSLATE the sentences after inserting the 'proper' particles, and I DIDN'T translate it. That was 6/20 points I lost... so lemme tell you how well I did. I KNEW EVERY SINGLE DAMN TRANSLATION, I swear I was gonna get a 18 or 19 or 20 on it, now? I look forward to see a 12 or something, and my 97% in class to go down to like a 89%. I calculated it, it's all under my control of my failure. I feel like a retarded dumb ass very much. My AP BIO MIDTERM is tomorrow, and I am studying now, siding the chatting and interruptions I am getting, will tell you how well I do. I failed the history quiz pretty badly as I said earlier, and I MEAN VERY badly. I realize something- any of you agree with me that... THE MORE YOU STUDY, THE WORSE YOU DO! I realize that, because I proved it to history. No matter how hard I try to study last year and this year, I end up doing the same. I do better when I don't study, but it's at a point where not studying will not get me an A because I am taking APs. I need some god to tell me what to do... totallie confused. Ok sorry for the bunch of BS, here's something to be looking over. My long lost cousin jlow, made this for me using my AIM screen name:
wink a twin, there comes two, wat happens if u dont got a star, u got to twinkle by yourself, got a twin? Twinkle two., if you are 1 then twinkle alone, if you are 2 then twice it, but a stitch in time saves nine, wink a twin with the twins effect, like an angel insane..in pain, twinkle alone...monotone, twinklystar with 3 numbers yo (129), got a star...with you?
Posted by Jenni at 8:44 pm |
Thursday, September o9, 2oo4
I actually finshed my homework like very early today! So yah, I decided to just, blog a little bit. I have a calculus test tomorrow, and a japanese quiz I should be studying for, but instead I am not doing it because I don't feel like it. I kinda give up on it, oh well as long as I can pull myself an A- in the classes I give no damn =] cuz an A and an A- is still 4.00, or 5.00 for my APs right? =X Not like you get a 4.99 or 3.99 =P So I am happy! (I am a lazy person, I know I know!) So let me tell you guys something about my AP Biology class. For the past 3 or so weeks, we did a lab called 'Genetic Cross' where we want the 'flies' we raised to have sex =X yes, as in... yes a guy and a girl to produce some eggs for us to do work on. This is NOT sick now, we needed to do that to analysis and see what the baby flies will turn out to have characteristics of. A wild (red eye) female, and a white eye male. So far, of like 15 pupas we did, only 1 hatched and it's a white eye male. We are DESPSARATELY needing a red eye female, and my poor baby male (I call it my baby because I PUT IT IN THE TUBE, AND WAIT FOR IT TO HATCH!) is not as active anymore. The females have to be virgin, and the males doesn't so we can use adult males, but not the adult females. We're waiting patiently for it =X and the 1st AP Bio exam is on Monday. I hope that my grades are still pretty nice so far, because omg I need to get good grades, as in ... good grades. I have like a 97% in Japanese now (which WILL DROP DRAMATICALLY after tomorrow's quiz, I KNOW IT!), and I got a 90.3% in AP Calc, which is a B+ >.< because I need a 91% for an A. I have like an A in AP Bio, HOPEFULLY since I aced the quiz and got a 20/20. I THINK I have an A in English, that class is easily BORING, I am starting to regret not taking AP because I learned shyt in there. I have like a 91.3% in AP US history, an A- and I FAILED today's quiz PRETTY HORRIBLY! I mean it, holy shytzos... it was... gaaahhh very very very bad =\ I didn't get it back, but yes I mean bad. Enough of grades, as you can see I am getting like straight A's so FAR, haha like barely borderlined grades in all my classes. Calculus is a B+, techinically, but Mrs. Guttal said it's an A-, we'll lie and let's hope it IS an A-... sorry I am like a grade freak, I REALLY REALLY CARE about getting straight A's and 4.00, even though with AP I don't need straight A's for 4.00 but still, I can't stand myself with lower expectations so I stress alot. On the other hand, yes I stress, I want the grades, I don't work for it. The laziness I am suppose to blame myself for, I don't and I ended up complaining about this and that =X whatta retarded jen huh? Oh well, enough of that. TOMORROW IS FRIDAY which means TWIN OF BROTHERS day! Hopefully I get ALOT of tapes =]
Updates
- Advertising a new site: Green Paradise, currently accepting applications
Posted by Jenni at 9:10 pm |
Tuesday, September o7, 2oo4
There's like this thing with me updating, I can't resist not talking. So something is wrong with my dreamtrack, I can't send out emails to people right now that joined my mailing list for like, HOW LONG? I am sorry but whoever did join and happen to read this, tag me a note ok so I can like, write you down and send you one out myself if that thing isn't working for long >.< I wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DUYEN! my jie jie (older sister) from Missouri, she turned 17, whatta OLD GURL! =] I was just kidding, so yes check out her webpage sometime, she's a good girl she learn so fast! I feel that my wishbox is so lonely after SAN MAI and her good buddy Eric spams it. It's like, lonely, haha... but yes I wanna give some thanks to Michelle and Tina once again, my two beautiful commentors! They are like my only... oh god this is sad =P I know more than 2 people are out there reading this! *coughs coughs at you know who you are* so just drop me a line!! Jeez =] Anyway, I wanted to thanks Kiko from Sugarplumz.com, I got a VERY PRETTY AWARD and 2 BEAUTIFUL LOGOS 88*31 from her as my prize. I won first place on her wallpaper blend contest or something, thanks alot!! Just oh yea outta nowhere and I just wanted to say it now for no reasons, I LOVE GUMARO! =] He's the BEST! I still want a piggyback ride from him, and yah... everything, he's SO COOL! I dunno I feel like saying it cuz I DO love him ^v^ you're the BEST gumaro!! ^_~ Well yah, late now... so I am gonna go =] Oh yea by the way, I FINALLY GOT A WISHBOOK!! It's like a guestbook, MAN I never came to realize I never got one =X Ok for reals now, byeeee late...
Updates
- Added 1 award to the Awards Received in Extras
- 2 new animated logos 88*31 from Kiko added to Link Me in Extras
- WISHBOOK! I finally added a wishbook [guestbook] so PLEASE SIGN IT!
Posted by Jenni at 9:28 pm |
Monday, September o6, 2oo4
Today is actually a pretty cool day for labor day. SO guess what, I woke up in the morning and went to take piano lessons early, just to save my afternoon up for like shopping and things. Today is my grandma's bday... and I must say happy bday to her! SHe's turning 85 this year, wow I wish I have that long to live. So after piano, picked up my grandparents + uncle and auntie to go out and eat. It was FUCKIN GAY because we waited for like 1 damn hour just to get the food, the place was OVERLY crowded. I saw my other grandparents there, and my cousin william, I said hi but then I guess my mom started pissing me off, so I walked off with her calling after my name, all pissed off in front of my grandparents and the whole restuarant. That was ridiculous huh? Oh well, I was really angry. Then, we all went to Valley Fair to do some 'shopping' and to bring my grandparents out, just to chill a little bit. We all bought something, my mommy bought me a very pretty coat ^v^ I love itt! It's white and not very thick, kinda like wool-ish, so PERFECT for winter! Went home, chilled for a little bit because it was SUPER HOT outside. I went to eat later in the night, this was the 'OFFICIAL' birthday dinner with my WHOLE FAMILY. I just found out, MY TWO NIECE, WINNIE + CINDY ARE OVER HYPERED! Damn, especially Cindy, she runs like CRAZY in there. Well to mention no name, but that restuarant SUCKED ASS AS IF TODAY, because we ordered something and they served us TOTALLIE DIFFERENT FOOD, then it takes like 20 MINS. inbetween the food coming. Most of them are like shrimps, lobsters and some gay food I don't like, so I ended up eating like almost nothing. I spend most of my time chasing Cindy in the place, running like a little kid... she's so cute! She got jealous when I started playing with Winnie, awwWwwz.. haha! Well to sum it up and end it here, went back to grandma's house, cut the cake, sang happy birthday, chilled a little bit then came home. It's like late now and I got to get up at like 6 tomorrow for another day of hell in school, so I'll end it here. LATE PEOPLE!!
Updates
- Added '50 Random Facts About Me' to Dreambox
Posted by Jenni at 10:20 pm |
Sunday, September o5, 2oo4
First of all, I would like to thanks Michelle, Tina and Duyen for commenting! Wow, your comments made me really happy, especially Michelle because she totallie just wrote me alot of things making me feel better. I am feeling better, thanks alot my friends and mui and jie! Well, I'll keep this a short entry today. Tomorrow is my grandma's bday, so I am looking forward to lots of fun and blogging more! I'll write more tomorrow, I just wanted to post today because I updated some new things!!
Updates
New graphics are up! I changed all the old 'downloadables' from the 'For You' section... including:
- 2 404 signs
- 1 enter sign
- 1 hiatus sign
- 1 welcome sign
- Added Graphics Rules on the 'For You' page
That's about it for now, I'll be back tomorrow!! Tag me a comment, cya people!
Posted by Jenni at 1:07 pm |
Thursday, September o2, 2oo4
I just wrote the longest entry, let everything I wanted to say out... and now I press the wrong button it's all gone so I need to retype it all. SHYT how suckie is this -_- I guess I'll retype what I can remember then...
So I am going through some major headaches, there's alot happening to me and I really need to let it out somewhere. I am like, having all these pressure and headaches that no one can really share to me about, not counting the fact these people around me are going through many more things. Friendship in school, is changing. My two friends are going through some major "problems" right now, and I don't think they'll ever return to the way they are. Yesterday I had like a 2 hour phone talk about the problem, they both called me and it's just a straight up, everything about each other talk to me. I really don't want things to change, I hope for it to get better, and I want it back to normal. I don't like how it is now, I'll keep this problem short as it's really none of my business and I have no right to butt into people's business. I kind of started this problem, so... in a way I am feeling really bad but it's to a point that making an apology from either any of us would make a difference to this problem.
Yes, I am going through some major headaches in school. It's been such a pain in the ass for me, I am too tired I don't know when I am going to explode. There's too much to handle and it's only been 2 weeks of school! I took like tests, quizzes, wrote essays already. I wrote 2 essays in AP US history, I have 1 in class essay tomorrow, and also I ALREADY took 2 pop quizzes in AP Calc, I didn't do THAT well on them I shall say. It's... *sigh* I got a test tomorrow and if I fail it, I pretty much will not get an A. I got a 8/9 on the pop quiz I got back today, highest paper in class *claps* you all are probably going "yay jen, why r u complaining then... good job!" Well yah, I MADE THE MOST STUPID MISTAKE ever to cause me 1 point, and that point can raise my 90.6%, which is a B+ to a 91.2% which is an A-. I know it's still early, but I KNOW for a FACT this is my HARDEST class, I can't afford to lose these "simple, easy points" you know? There's too much, I mean... too much. I took a quiz in AP Bio, I got a 20/20 so I am happy, my grade in that class isn't at sake, my grades in every other class is pretty much bordered. I got a Japanese quiz tomorrow and also a Calculus test, so I am ready to die again. I dun't know, I told myself that everything is different, it's too much. I know for a fact if I wanted straight As, I'd get them in a SNAP. I can get them THAT easy, without studying, enjoying my life every single day. BUT I chose to bombard myself with AP classes, so I know if I want to get better grades and all those A's again, I need to work 10x's as hard as I am now and I don't feel like it. I seriously am tired, I dunt know how much longer I can hold before I explode, I don't know how much more things I can take in before my bubble of patience and tough side is burst. It's hard... I mean... hard. I didn't study for SAT yet, it's coming, I have the piano CM examination and I am not practicing piano enough for it. I have too much shyt to worry about, I mean... too much. I am kinda glad that I dropped AP English 3 now =\ I can't handle another AP class, it's too much although my english class now =X no comment, it's exceedingly SLOW. I know I complain alot huh? When the class is going slow I complain it's boring, when it's fast I complain it's too fast! Maybe because I took Honors English last year, I am so used to the fact that everything is FAST, HARD, UP TO STANDARD that I can't stand the slowness... *sigh* whatever, I know that was really long about school, I am sorry if I am putting you guys to sleep.
So yah, that was some blabbing there and here, I had to let it all out. I think I am feeling better now. There's not many people I can 'share' all these with that's free, have time for me or something. I like keeping things to me, and I mean yah this is probably one of the best way to express myself. Maybe ten years later I look back at all these archive entries, I'll find it very stupid but who knows? =\ I hope things will be better tomorrow. It's hard to share problems with someone that truly understands, trust me, it's hard. I mean... who really seriously is going through shyt like me? If you are, you know how it feels and if you are not, unless you really do care don't try to act like you understand cuz it hurts me more like that to tell me "oh I understand how u feel" but u never even understand anything. Just... saying, no one did it yet =\ and I do know some of you are here, going through what I am going through too. I hope things will be better for everyone, I'll end it there...
Posted by Jenni at 1:07 pm |
Wednesday, September o1, 2oo4
It's actually the last day of August right now, August 31st but then I just decided to write September 1st. For one thing it is pretty late now, and secondly the August page is SO LONG the scrolling bar is ticking me off. LOL! I actually finished this layout for like, a couple of days now. I just didn't want to post it up! I finished it on like Saturday, the 25th I think =) Well yah, so the new month, NEW LAYOUT! How'd you like this layout? Very simple, and yes my pink obsession has taken over me already again, so this layout is PINK again! I did alot of updates, minor stuff though so yah. Check out the following:
**1 new tutorial relating to Iframes under For You
**History Updated
**Added a "Reviews Received" Section under Extras
**Added a "Awards Received" Section under Extras
**More Personality Quizzes I took under Dreambox
**1 new site I am advertising: Chantilly... welcome!!
I think I'll add more things later, I found this survey off of Tina's Xanga, I thought it was cute so yah...
____YOUR LIFE____
[x] they call me: Jennifer, Jenni, Jen, Jen-jen, weirdo =)
[x] also: ^ all listed above, lol
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: December 9th, 1987
[x] age: 16, turning 17
[x] nationality: Chinese
[x] best homegirl[s] and/or homeboy(s): You're included in here, *wink*
____REWINDD____
[x] most memorable memory: First trip to Shanghai!
[x] worst?: ... uhh too many to name
[x] first bestfriend ever!?: Pizza Pie aKa San Mai
[x] college planning to go: No idea, anything that's good =\
____PLAY____
[x] feeling: bored, stressed, worried, loaded with hwk, sad =\
[x] Listening: Make me Joy =) It's a Chinese Song
[x] Talking: Precious Cousin Derek, William, Kalvin and San
[x] doing: Talking, Typing, Reading, Listening to Music
[x] craving: ICE CREAM!
[x] thinking of: Last day of weekend, school starts again tomorrow =(
[x] hating: ... SCHOOL!
____LOVE?____
[x] love is: It depends on the person. TO me, just a feeling that cannot be described using logic words, because it's derived from the heart and there's no logic in love
[x] first love: Never happened
[x] current love: Ron Ng, and Raymond Lam!
[x] love or lust?: Love
[x] best love song: There's ALOT, lol. My favorite one is That's Why (You go away)
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: I GUESS? =\
[x] when love hurts, you: hide it, it's not the end of the world although the heart does a major break down
[x] true or false - all you need is love: ar... false, at least right now there's things alot more important than love I am worrying about
[x] have you ever been in love?: >.< Nope
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: Yah, but never happened to meeh
____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: Personality... sweet, gentleman, nice, caring (yah these type of guys are practically dead nowadays)
[x] turn offs: show offs, bastards, you think u got all that but u got no shyt, and yah... it goes on
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: somewhat, because I love my parents
[x] what kinda hair style?: no opinions, just nothing sloppy please
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: uhh... sing and write a song dedicated to me? =)
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: online, it's safe for meeh!
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?: no... haha not to strangers, well it depends I want it because when I am bored I want to talk to someone, I don't do it because I got no life and I want to bother people =)
____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: puppies ^^
[x] short or long hair: long hair
[x] innie or outie: innie?
[x] sunshine or rain: sunshine
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] basketball or football: basketball
[x] righty or lefty: righty
[x] hugs or kisses: hugs
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] bf/gf or best friend: Right now? Best friend
[x] tv or radio: tv
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks =] I AM A COFFEE ADDICTED!!
[x] mc donalds or burger king: mcdonalds
[x] summer or winter: winter
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters, it's more meaningful although I do email more ^^
[x] playstation or nintendo: neither?
[x] disney or nickelodeon: disney, did I tell you I am a disney fan? I go obsess, they have ALOT of pink stuff ^^
[x] car or motorcycle: car, safer =P
[x] house party or club: house party, more fun!
[x] sing or dance: dance
[x] freak or slow dance: slow dance, freak dance... depends on my mood =P
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: AIM, I got tons of buddy here and I am lonely on yahoo ^^
[x] google or ask jeeves?: google =]
____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] can you swim?: Yea, but very bad I can drown because I panic
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?: I have alot ^_^ I don't feel like typing it out again...
[x] what are you scared of?: SPIDERS!! (Very much.. I am dead serious), almost all kind of insects, being alone, facing difficult moments myself, and yah more =\
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: er-arh... I really don't know?
[x] do you like tomatoes?: no, somewhat not but mommy's usage of tomatoes on food is an exception
[x] how many TVs in the house?: 3?
[x] how many phones?: err... 5 I think, not counting 3 cellphones
[x] how many residents?: 4
[x] how many DVDs do you have?: Quite alot, mostly viet ones my dad buy for karaoke and to watch (I seriously get annoyed, lol)
[x] last dentist visit: uhh... probably a year or 2 back ^^ so I don't got THAT nice of healthy teeth =P
[x] last doctor visit: Around like february for physical checkup for badminton
This IS NOT that long... lol...
Posted by Jenni at 1:07 pm |
