Sometimes the voice in the back of my mind mocks and belittles me. It repeats,
"And what makes you so special?" The guilt of these feelings represents an emotional insecurity I have
longed faced but always accepted. I am not alone in how I feel, and knowing others have it worse than
me creates this guilt. But hearing the words of Trent Reznor established an almost inner peace with
myself. It was all right to feel this way because there is someone who understands how I feel even if
he does not know me. The similarity creates this connection and the themes and meanings throughout
his songs reflect exactly how I feel and what I think. My muse, Trent Reznor, I will always be
grateful for knowing you through your music and speaking words I am too afraid to say and feelings I
am too ashamed to express.
You can have my isolation
You can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith
You can have my everything
-Closer
I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
Don't tell me that you care
There really isn't anything, is there?
You would know, wouldn't you?
You extend your hand to those who suffer
To those who know what it really feels like
To those who've had a taste
Like that means something
And oh so sick I am
And maybe I don't have a choice
And maybe that is all I have
And maybe this is a cry for help
I do not want this
Don't you tell me how I feel
You don't know just how I feel
-I Do Not Want This
Breeze still carries the sound
Maybe i'll disappear
Tracks will fade in the snow
You won't find me here
Ice is starting to form
Ending what had begun
I am locked in my head
With what I've done
I know you tried to rescue me
Didn't let anyone get in
Left with a trace of all that was
And all that could have been
-And All That Could Have Been
Something inside of me, has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there? Did you not realize
This thing inside of me, it screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could
Burn
-Burn
I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
-Hurt
I take you where you want to go
I give you all you need to know
I drag you down I use you up
Mr self destruct
-Mr. Self Destruct
I am denial guilt and fear
And I control you
-Mr. Self Destruct
You give me the anger
You give me the nerve
Carry out the sentence
Well I get what I deserve
I'm just an effigy to be defaced
To be disgraced
-Sin
Come on tell me
Make this all go away
You make this all go away
I'm down to just one thing
And I'm starting to scare myself
Make this all go away
You make this all go way
I just want something
I just want something I can never have
-Something I Can Never Have
(Hey God) Why are you doing this to me?
Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity?
I think you owe me a great big apology
I really don't know what you mean
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
Can this world really be as sad as it seems?
There's nothing left for me to hide
I lost my ignorance, security and pride
I'm all alone in the world you must despise
I believed your promises, your promises and lies!
-Terrible Lie
I'm the one without a soul
I'm the one with this big fucking hole
-Wish
