DAIKIRAI
Poetry by Sakura Yosei. Partially based on true story.
I go and turn off the light
I know you will enjoy this night
The room is dim
And its time to begin
You'll be surprised
And we've arrived
At this point in time
I try to leave things behind
You'll never understand my mind
Come lie down with me
Lets try and have a good time
Please no words right now
Please no feelings right now
Just let me do my thing
Please, no stopping
I know you want me
I know I want you
Let things go in time
Let me go on you
In throes of passion
I actually start to feel compassion
Why now? How?
I just want you inside me
Is that too much to ask
I started out with that task
Now I feel shame
Because your to blame
Why did it have to be you?
Why did I have to want you?
I tried not to care
I knew my heart was in there
It wanted me to stop
I tried to stay atop
Of these emotions
Of guilt for my seduction
You wanted a commiment
I should've known what this night meant
I would be yours forever
I wanted me to myself
Just wanted to give myself
A night in your bed
To calm my head
Of its sexual needs
I thought it would be harmless
To just be your temptress
For just one night
But I knew it wasn't right
My heart starts to bleed
I can't continue this deed
Just using you like this
Makes me hurt in pain
So I will try and stay sane
I'll just run for the door
Not wanting any more
In hopes you won't follow
Because this heart inside of me is growing hollow
Just leaving you there
Making it seem I don't care
Making it seem like I'm a whore
So just go ahead, call me a whore
While your at it call me a boar
Say all i wanted was more
Don't worry, I won't charge
Not liked I earned anything large
So just throw me back on the streets
In hopes we'll never meet
I'll try not to cry over you
Infact I'll try to thank you
You won't say goodbye...
Daikirai...