When I first heard this song I thought a perfect Heero leaves Duo for Relena and regrets it but I wanted to see if I could write it the other way. After all I haven�t seen that much Duo leaves Heero for Hilde fics. This is a angsty piece. Do you think it worked? Let me know Review, but no flames please read the disclaimer! ;_; Neko DISCLAIMER!!! Strong Yaoi hints PG for adult issues. Neko-Chan owns nothing but me! Some lucky rich people own GW and Dido owns �all that you want�. ~ Ryu All that you want // I like to watch you sleep at night, to hear you breath by my side. And all though sleep leaves me behind, There�s nowhere I�d rather be.// Heero�s customary smirk was replaced by a peaceful smile as he watched his beloved sleep. In his sleep was the only time Duo was truly still, laying like some fey beauty from a child�s fairy tale as wisps of his golden chestnut hair escaped the braid he always wore to frame his face. This was true peace. Laying here in the silence of the night watching the one you love. In the distance he could here a faint ringing as he let his eyes trace the ivory curves of Duo�s face finally resting on soft rose-colored lips. Giving in to temptation he leaned down to capture them in a kiss� But the ringing was too persistent jerking him from the haven of sleep too emptiness of reality. If any of his friends could see him now they would have been shocked by the glimmer of tears that sparkled in his cobalt blue eyes during that brief moment between sleep and waking when we are all vulnerable. But like a cameras flash it disappeared as he woke and his training allowed him to bury the pain again. Staring at the clock he muttered �Omae o korosu� Add the Heero Yuy �Glare O� Death� � and you could almost imagine the plastic alarm clock melting under its fury as the bell went silent. At least with his job at the Preventers he could focus on something else for a while. Heero Yuy was afraid of nothing during the war. It was funny in this time of peace he feared such a mundane thing. Their empty apartment. //And now our bed is oh so cold, my hands feel empty no one to hold. I can sleep what side I want, It�s not the same with you gone.// Another night alone staring at the ceiling. Why didn�t he accept Quatre�s invitation then at least he wouldn�t be alone tonight. No he would have felt worse watching Trowa and Quatre bask in there love. Not on purpose, just cause they couldn�t help it. When you were with someone you loved each glance, each touch whispered a thousand things every word in the universe could never tell. He could remember doing that with Duo. No matter how much his Koi had babbled he always cherished the things that went unsaid. It was such a stupid fight who would have guessed it would tear them apart? They had fought sometimes just to enjoy making up the next day. But this one was different. The war had just ended and they were all feeling edgy, tempers were short and the smallest thing would set anyone off. Not knowing your future did that to a person. //Oh if you�d come home, I�ll let you know all that you want Is right here in this room. All you want, and all you need Is sitting here with you. All you want.// Flash back �Why are you always on that damn laptop? Its not like any Missions are going to come thru any more.� Duo�s voice was whiner then usual. As he paced the bedroom of there new apartment with nervous energy. Heero looked up and said �I�m doing something important Koi, your distracting me� �Is that all I am a distraction?� Attention already back on his work Heero just grunted �Hn� �Fine! Maybe I should just find someone who doesn�t see me as just a distraction!� Duo was edgy as Heero with the end of the war. All he knew was Violence and death and that didn�t have a place in this peaceful new world. And after seeing what had happened he no longer felt he could steal from people who were merely scraping by. He had gotten soft and that scared him. Surprised Heero had turned to say something but the slamming of the door had alerted him that Duo was gone again. He didn�t worry his Koi just needed to walk off the anger. He would be back in a while. He always was. He took off like that needing to be alone sometimes and Heero had learned during their three-year relationship to leave him alone during that time. //Its been three years one night apart. But in that night.// He had returned in the morning and headed to the showers. But Heero had smelled the scent that clung to the air as he walked by. Cigarettes, Alcohol and Women�s perfume? No he told himself and tried to go back to sleep as he felt Duo pull him into his arms and murmur. �I�m sorry Koi� No he refused to even consider that Duo would betray him. They were in love //You tore my heart.// They didn�t speak about that again and things started to calm down. Then one day he came home early and heard the phone ringing. He picked it up and heard Duo�s voice if only he had hung up when he had heard that breathless and undoubtedly female voice that answered. But he didn�t. �Moshi Moshi?� �Duo? (Sob)� There was a slightly hysterical edge to the sobbing voice. �Hilde what�s wrong?� �I just came back from the doctor. I�m pregnant.� �But we used�� �I know but theirs no one else it could be!� �Calm down Hilde-Chan I believe you.� �I .. I can�t do this on my own Duo I think I�m going to have too�� �No Hilde. Please don�t I�ll be there. I promise.� Duo pleaded. Heero knew how he felt after taking the lives of so many innocents even one couldn�t be taken for granted. �I can�t be happy with just half of you Duo, I deserve more. Our child deserves more.� �I know, I know�� Heero had retreated behind the mask at those words. Calmly setting the headset back down he turned on his heel and left. //If only you had slept alone, if those seeds had not been sown. Oh you could come home. And you would know.// Present He remembered when he returned it wasn�t till the next morning. He remembered the words said between them that had burned like acid. It was amazing how right Duo was to call himself Shinigami for he had most surely killed him. True they had only been together three of his twenty years. But this past year on his own had been worse then any torture the enemy could have devised. He hadn�t realized how to live until Duo had touched his heart and after that time together no matter how short he couldn�t be happy alone. This past year had been living death. // All that you want Is right here in this room. All you want, and all you need Is sitting here with you. All you want.// At first he had felt completely numb which was fine, then had come the anger at Duo�s betrayal. They announcement of Duo and Hilde�s upcoming nuptials had ended that. They would be marrying on their daughters first birthday. Reading the scripted letters on the gossamer fine paper had hurt. I had turned his body into one large throb of pain. He figured that Hilde must have sent the invitation. No one had known about him and Duo�s relationship. They had purposely kept it a secret until the war ended. He had planed on getting married after and on the creamy paper he could almost see his name and Duo�s entwined. But it was too late now� //I hear your key turning in the door, I won�t be hearing that sound any more. And you and your sin, Can leave the way you just came in. Send my regards to her, I hope you�ve found// The scraping of metal against metal woke him. Even now the slightest noise whispered danger to his senses. With a quick roll he grabbed his gun and got out of bed. Listening as a door opened and someone entered the hall. He spun and pointed his gun right in Duo�s face. �Eeep� Duo said He slowly let his arm down looking at the boy standing so still before him. Duo looked tired, gaunt almost with dark bags under his deep violet eyes. Neither spoke and Heero wondered if he looked that miserable too. �What are you doing here?� Heero was gone too weak to face the situation he let his perfect soldier fa�ade take over to ask the questions in a coolly clipped voice. �I came home.� �This isn�t your home anymore Maxwell.� �But..� �You belong back on L2 with you family.� �But�� �If you came here under the mistaken impression that I still care for you, your wrong.� He sneered �Don�t worry I don�t hate you. In fact I could care less what you do with your life as long as you stay out of mine!� a coolness settled into Duo�s expression as he turned and left. // All that you want Is right there in that room. All you want, and all you need Is sitting there with you. All you want.// Once the door closed he let himself drop to the floor on weak knees. That had to be the hardest thing he had ever done. But he had realized something in all those lonely nights. He loved Duo and wanted him to be happy. No matter who he was with. He had a feeling the former Deathscythe pilot would return. Duo had a kind heart under his frivolous exterior. After they way they parted he knew Duo would be pushed back by his guilt. And he had been determined to do the right thing when he returned. Because he knew no matter what Duo could never live with himself if he abandoned his family. //I�d like to watch you sleep at night, To hear you breath� Back in bed he slowly he forced himself to relax and sleep. Once he was asleep he knew that reality would fade into a pained whisper and once again he would be held in the phantom embrace of his beloved. by my side�.// OWARI ///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// |