| knew that before I even ended �All you want� that I needed to write a sequel. As my first GW fic I didn�t realize it was a 2+1 not 1+2 J. That and I had to find the right song for the sequel. I finally ended up with �All out of love� which is owned by air supply. ~Neko Disclaimers: I own nothing and no one, but I would like to borrow the GW boys for a little while. Yaoi! 1+2+1, 2+H. Um did I mention ANGST? No lemons but its rated PG-13 for some adult situations and such. All out of love I�m lying alone with My head on the phone Thinking of you till it hurts. Hilde watched Duo leaning on the desk his fingers caressing the handle of the phone hypnotically. He was so pale; she couldn�t remember the last time she saw him smile. Or eat. Firming her resolve she reminded herself that she had done this. Even if she hadn�t known at the time what her weakness would do to someone she had loved. She could still remember getting the news about being pregnant and the mind numbing fear about raising a child alone. Steven had disappeared off the face of L2 and she had no way of knowing if she would ever see him again. Then she had thought of Duo. Duo who she had realized she wasn�t in love with after one night in bed. Duo who was all alone after the war just boarding with his old roommate Heero Yuy. Duo who loved children and had always wanted to be part of a family. She had convinced herself it was for the best. She could be with him for the sake of her child. And the whole charade had started. I know you hurt to but What else can we do? Don�t mention I�m torn apart. But she hadn�t realized until too late. She had had a difficult pregnancy. Being sick most of the time she hadn�t noticed how much Duo had changed. After Sarah Michelle was born began to notice and she thought maybe he was just missing his friends and suggested that he go visit them but he refused. It wasn�t till she had walked in on him crying as he read a wedding reply saying Heero Yuy had politely declined that she began to wonder. Duo never cried. So she had bullied the truth out of him then had to sit down when she realized exactly what was going on. It had been the hardest thing of her life telling him the truth. That Sarah Michelle wasn�t his. He had been stunned then as the realization of what that meant sunk in he had been ecstatic forgetting his wallet as he headed down to the shuttle station. He had promised to help her find Steven joking that his Heero could find anyone. He had returned the next day looking like a corpse. It had taken a week for her to get what had happened out of him. Remembering Heero Yuy�s cold glare she shivered. But remembering the scene she had walked in on the night before with Duo and the razor she firmed he resolve and quietly snuck out. I wish I could carry your smile in my heart, For times when my life seems so low. It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring When today doesn�t really know. Doesn�t really know. Someone was following him. Heero could tell ducking into the next alley he waited until the right moment and grabbed them restraining a thin wrist as he shoved them against the wall. �Heero wait� A voice said breathily and recognizing it he stepped back as if scalded. Hilde Sc� no Hilde Maxwell yesterday was the date of the wedding. �K�so what is she doing here on her honey moon?� He wondered. �We have to talk its important.� �I have nothing to say to you.� �It�s about Duo.� �So?� �He�s dying.� �What??!!?� Momentarily surprised by all the raw emotion that the former perfect soldier was displaying Hilde bit her lip then continued. �I need to talk to you but I won�t have this conversation in an Alley.� He thought for a moment then nodded. �Follow me our� I mean my apt is down the street.� I�m all out of love I�m so lost without you I know you were right Believing for so long. The apartment was small and efficient. No pictures on the wall or knickknacks to show it was lived in. It held all the comfort of a motel room. Suppressing a shiver at the loneliness which seemed to pervade the entire atmosphere Hilde reminded her self not to cry. �I should start by explaining that I�m not married to Duo. We live together but its purely platonic I don�t really trust him to live alone in the state he�s in.� �You dumped him because he got sick?� There was rage in Heero�s voice and she quickly denied it. �No! I love Duo� like a brother. We both realized it that night after the war. I know I�ve already interfered enough but I knew I couldn�t leave this up to you two to fix. Not when its my problem. Not when I walked in on Duo trying to kill himself. He doesn�t want to live without you.� �We both know he could never leave his child. It would destroy him.� �Sarah is more his niece then his child. He�s not her father I�ve always known that.� �Nani??� �I suppose I should begin at the beginning, with me and Steven�� I�m all out of love What am I without you? I can�t be to late To say that I was so wrong. An hour later Heero was still listening with the same carefully blank expression as she ended. �I will find this Steven for you but just because he�s not the father of your child doesn�t mean I�ll take him back.� �Why?� �You don�t cheat on someone you love. There�s still the fact that he could have been.� �Were all human Heero, are you really willing to throw away the only chance both of you have to be happy because he made a stupid mistake?� I want you to come back and carry me home Away from these long lonely nights I�m reaching for you Are you feeling it too? Does the feeling seem oh so right? II And what would you say if I called on you now And said that I can�t hold on? There�s no easy way It gets harder each day Please love me or I�ll be gone Duo glanced at the clock. Hilde had come back really late last night looking positively haggard. Then bundling Sarah up she had left this morning saying she wouldn�t be back till later. It had been two weeks since Heero had said he didn�t love him much less cared what he did with his life. At least before he had been able to delude himself as much as he hated lying. Imagine that one day he would be able to get back together with Heero. He could survive anything as long as he knew Heero would be waiting for him at the end. Now he couldn�t even pretend. �Baka�� he muttered. Heero had probably run to Relena. The thought of Heero in anyone�s arms but his was enough to intensify the pain to a point. I�m all out of love I�m so lost without you I know you were right Believing for so long. Heero opened the door quietly. Hilde had left it unlocked just like she promised. Maybe he was making a huge mistake but he couldn�t help but grasp at any chance for a future with Duo. Stopping suddenly in the living room he stared in disbelief at the picture Duo made. He had never seen him so tired, so defeated even during the war. Suddenly that block of ice that had settled around his heart and frozen his tongue melted, �Duo�� I�m all out of love What am I without you? I can�t be to late To say that I was so wrong. Whipping his head back Duo looked at the figure in the door. Heero. His mind refused to accept what his eyes saw. Then suddenly it all came out in a rush. �Heero I�m so sorry, I love you I never stopped. It was such a stupid thing to do and I know I should have told you about that night but I was so ashamed that I had betrayed you even if I was drunk. I was so afraid of losing you. I love you so much Heero. I can�t live without you in my life. Please take me back I don�t care if you don�t love me anymore. I can�t live without you its worse then death.� As he stopped to take a breath Heero stepped forward and pressed a finger to his lips in a request for silence staring at Duo with solemn eyes he said softly, �I know.� Ohh what are you thinking of? What are you thinking of? What are you thinking of? What are you thinking of? At those words Duo collapsed bonelessly to the floor but Heero caught him holding him in a strong yet gentle embrace as he sobbed silently. �Duo, I know because that�s how I felt everyday without you,� there was the slightest wavering of his voice as he gained control of his emotions before he continued. �Duo, Ai Shiteru. I never stopped.� I�m all out of love The words just made Duo cry harder. A second chance, not many people got that. No way would he lose Heero again. Reaching up he pulled Heero�s lips to his in a physical affirmation of his unspoken vow. I�m so lost without you For brief moment in your life it feels like time stops. Like the universe itself is taking a breath of silence when a moment is so fragile that even the slightest whisper might shatter its crystalline beauty. Then Heero lifted his head still staring into Duo�s eyes and it was gone. I know you were right �Lets go home now. Hilde should be bringing Steven back from the shuttle port any moment now.� �Hai� Duo smiled from his position in Heero�s embrace. �I think I am home Koi.� Believing for so long. ~OWARI~ |