By: Cosmos, the Starry One
Rated: PG-13 (slight violence, bloodshed, description of suicide)
Hi, again! This is the second installment of this fanfic. Thanx to all who e-mailed me with suggestions, comments, and concerns. It really helps!
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I am a *total* fan of Darien-angst so I am going to make him suffer for a while. So sorry....
Disclaimer: Ok, I didn't create Sailor Moon or any of the other characters.
Boo-hoo.On with the show!
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DREAMS OF DESTINY
by
Cosmos, the Starry One
<Darien>
Chapter 2: Losing My Sunlight Angel
<DREAM SEQUENCE>
I'm lying in a field of never-ending grass with blue skies above.
"Where am I? What's going on?"
A soft giggle echoes through the air.
"Serena. Sere, is that you?"
A gentle flowing wind grazes my face, causing my hair to fly into my eyes. Suddenly, I see a flash of golden light, and there is my angel, more beautiful than she ever was. Her long golden hair fell down her back in waves as she descended upon the earth. Her blue eyes sparkled back at me as I gazed upon her perfect form. The pure white dress she wore and the wings on her back made her look angelic. The love of my life, standing before me once again. I walked to closer to her, but as I approached, she began to run away from me.
"Serena, my little bunny, please come back!"
She looked back at me, smiling brightly, and giggled. I kept running after her, wishing to reach her somehow until she suddenly stopped running. Out of breath, I finally reached her. I grabbed her wrist and held on, so she wouldn't escape again.
"Serena, it *is* you. Why did you run from me?"
"Who is *Serena*?" my love hissed back in coarse voice.
The blue sky became clouded and dark with her harsh words. Suddenly, my angel began to mutate. Her eyes glowed blood-red as her white angel wings darkened to a coal black and became bat-like. The dress she wore became black as darkest midnight. She wore black gloves to cover her delicate hands from all sunlight that dared to shine upon them. Her eyes, no longer sparkling, became glazed over and dark. The moon sigil on her forehead was replaced by a black star. Her golden hair became black as raven's wing, and she was surrounded by a dark entity.
"My darling, what has happened to you?"
She ignored my words as a man of my age with pure white hair with eyes of silver appeared before me. Smiling, she ran to him with arms open wide.
"Precious one, where have you been? I have worried for you," said the mysterious vistor.
I realized who it was she was talking to. Diamante, an evil prince who wanted to steal Serena's heart. Before he had tried to brainwash her, but I guess he succeeded this time.
"I was practicing my disguise power out here until I met a strange man."
"Do not worry of him, Prosperity."
Prosperity? That was not *my* love's name. How could she have forgotten about our love so quickly?
"Shall I speak to him, Diamante?"
"Be my guest."
With those words, they kissed. I could not believe my eyes! Serena, *my* Serena, was kissing another. My heart shattered at the sight of the two. I ran to her, trying to get her back.
"Stay back, dog! Why do you approach me? I do not know of you. You are too sweet and ...yuck.... *pure* to be an associate of mine. Leave me be or this will be your end!"
"Serena, please listen to me! *Please*! We were to be together, rule this world and protect it from the darkness. Now the *darkness* has consumed you. Fight it, Serenity!"
"Who is this "Serenity" you speak of? I am *Prosperity*, daughter of Proserpina, queen of the Underworld."
"No....NO! You are Princess Serenity of the Moon, daughter of Queen Serenity of the Silver Millenium, lover of the lost Prince Endymion of the Earth. You are Sailor Moon, Soldier of Love and Justice, holder of the Silver Imperium Crystal, lover and awakener of Tuxedo Mask. You are the destroyer of Queen Beryl and the Negaverse, Wise Man and the Dark Moon Family, Pharoah 90 and the Heart-Snatchers, Queen Nehelenia and Dead Moon Circus, and Sailor Galaxia and the Anima Mates. You are the healer of Allen and Ann, Fiore, the Four Sisters, the Amazon Trio, the Amazoness Quartet, Helios of Elyison, Princess Fireball, and the Sailor Starlights. You are the leader of all the Sailor Soldiers, and you are the soveriegn of Sailor Saturn and light. You are future Neo-Queen Serenity, awakener of the Earth from the evil sleep, ruler of the Neo-Silver Millenium, mother of Neo-Princess Serenity, wife and soulmate of Neo-King Endymion. You are future Sailor Cosmos, destroyer of Chaos, Sailor Soldier of the Universe. But most importantly, you are Serena, *my* Serena, the love of my many lives, the love of my many millenia, my love of all time. Please, Serena, if you remember any this, fight to bring back *our* love!"
"A very touching speech indeed, but it is all *lies*! I have been and always will be in love with Diamante. We were in love with each other when we met in the underworld many millenia ago. We have lived there together all of our lives, so why do you fill my head with all this nonsense? Don't you see that I am not the only you seek? Or do I have to make you see? Let me alone so I can see you no more!"
"Serena, I can't do that! I *won't* leave you! *Fight* this evil!"
"The only thing I will fight here is *you*!"
I transformed into Tuxedo Mask and brought forth the Golden Crystal of Elysion.
"Do you wish to die, goodie-goodie?"
"I wish to die *trying* to bring you back, if that's what you mean."
"As you wish!"
Before she could attack, the Golden Crystal shone with bright light, blinding her. Then, with tears running down my face, I chanted the attack.
"I will not let the dark forces take you, even if it *kills* me! *Moon Crisis Power*!"
The attack hit her head-on, but she did not move an inch. She had a large wound in her chest but just smiled as if the pain gave her more power. I stood agape as her dark energy radiated from her frail frame, as evil as ever. I realized that I had lost her completely and forever. Diamante watched the entire scene, smirking all the while.
"Prosperity, you are bleeding."
"I knew you'd like it. Nothing is too good for you, my love."
Blood staining her pale, sweet face, she brought forth a sword of dark crystal.
"I warned you, dog. Now you will *die*!"
Brandishing the crystal, she attacked me head-on. I knew she was coming towards me, but I hung my head and made no attempt to move for I had lost my life when I lost *her*. The saber went through my chest, and searing pain coarsed through my body. I fell to the ground mingled with my love's blood. The couple walked up to me as my world slowly darkened.
"Serena. My...*Serena*....."
"So, Endymion," cackled Diamante as he held on to my darling, "you *finally* have lost the one thing that has kept you from destruction. Can you retrieve it?"
<END DREAM SEQUENCE>
I woke in a cold sweat, dazed and confused from the happenings of my dream. I looked around to myself in my apartment, like I had so many years before.
I struggled out of bed and walked out to the balcony to get some fresh air. The full moon was in the sky. It must shine for her tonight. There I go. I have been thinking about her constantly since the day I...I *left* her. She consumes my days and haunts my nights. Somehow, the Sailor Soldiers talked me into leaving her. Why? I don't know, but I have regretted that decision ever since then.
Suddenly, a painful twinge ran through my body.
"The link." The link that connected Serena and I telepathically. I had felt the link before, but it was stronger than usual like the night that she tried to end it all. I felt the knife touch her wrist. I heard her cries of anguish as she slowly closed her eyes, willing the darkness to engulf her. I saw Luna stare wide-eyed at her charge, wielding the knife. And I felt helpless for I could not prevent the deed. *Thank heavens* that Luna stopped her. I don't know what would *I* have done if she had gone through with it...
I slowly closed my eyes as I read the link. At first, I saw Serena, sitting at her windowsill, staring blankly at the moon in the sky. The soft light glistened across her wet, tear-streaked skin. Luna was grumbling grumpily as she was roused from her sleep. She looked over to Serena, who was now bent over as racking sobs charged through her frail frame. I heard her cries gently break the silence of my mind. My heart shattered at the sounds of pure agony that poured from the soul of my sunlight angel. She gently whispered "Why?" over and over again as I closed the link.
I collapsed on the floor of the balcony, gripping the railing until my knuckles were white. Why? It had been the same question I had asked myself again and again. Why did I ever *leave* her? What part of my brain died to let me be *so* stupid? I pulled a rose from my coat pocket and held it tightly in my hand. Dazed, I stared at the blood dripping from my hand, slowly realizing the rose had thorns. The pain ment nothing to me. My whole being had become dead to the world since the day she left.
I had the urge to see her again. I quickly transformed in to Tuxedo Mask and jumped from the balcony to the neighboring rooftop. I jumped from rooftop to rooftop, coming ever closer to her house. I gently touched ground right next to her house and scaled the tree next to her room. I looked through the window, and there she was, my love and my life, softly crying in her pained sleep, Luna curled up by her head.
She shouldn't cry. Sere doesn't deserve to cry. All the light and happiness she gave to the world and her friends. At least, those who *were* her friends. I feel sorry for her, but she does not need my sympathy. She needs *me* as badly as I needs her. I want to go to her, but I can't. I've hurt her more than anyone else. How can I live with myself after I hurt her so much? How can she ever accept me again?
I jumped from the tree and ran back to my apartment. When I reached my room, I fell onto my bed, detransforming in fatigue. Sleep then came painfully.
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Again, I emphasize that I love Darien-angst, so if it was too depressing, sorry.
Next chapter coming soon!