By: Cosmos, the Starry One
Rated: PG-13 (for mention of suicide)
Date: 11/5/00 (And its not done yet!) *^.^*
Okay, Hello, everyone! This is my first fanfic, so forgive me if it is not so good.
I decided to right this fanfic because I have been inspired by many of the other fanfic writers and I adore the romance that Serena and Darien share. *^_^*
This story is set after the Sailor Soldiers defeat Galaxia. Instead of going directly to their futures in Crystal Tokyo, they continue their lives as normal until the dormancy of the Earth takes place.
Do not think that this is my last story. I plan to write more in the near future (if I don't have to worry about SATs). Thanks to all of my family and friends for encouraging me to write.
This story is dedicated to all of my friends and to all people who dream of having a true romance enter their lives.
Disclaimer: All characters mentioned in this story belong to Naoko Takeuchi, the creator of Sailor Moon. Thank you, Ms. Takeuchi, for bring these wonderful characters into the lives of millions! (Please don't sue me!)
Now, on with the story!!
* * - Strong Feeling
- Point of View
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DREAMS OF DESTINY
by
Cosmos, the Starry One
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PROLOGUE
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"Wait up, guys!" yelled Serena as the rest of the gang left without her.
"Hurry up, Meatball Head! The movie is about to start, and I don't want to miss any of it! You are so *slow*!"
"I mean, you could speed it up a little. We haven't got all night."
"Yeah, don't you think that we deserve some fun every one in a while?"
"Come on, guys! Give me a break!" Serena whined.
"We've given you enough breaks. You have held us back for the last time. We'll see you later."
"If *ever*!"
"Guys, don't desert me..."
"Like you deserted us so many times before, Serena?"
"Don't speak like that. Aren't you all my friends?"
"*Were* your friends, Serena. We are outta here."
"Please don't leave me. I beg you. I need you."
"You should have realized that before, but now it is too late. Goodbye, Serena."
"NO! DON'T GO!!!!!!! I can't go on without..... you."
Her voice trailed off in the night sky as she heard the spiteful laughter echoing in front of her. Crying, Serena went to the only place she knew there was comfort.
"Darien, Darien, open the door!" she cried with tears in her eyes.
"Sere. It's you."
"Darien, the girls, my only friends deserted me. I felt an empty place inside my heart when they left me. Darien, what's wrong?"
"Darien, who's that at the door?" a girl's voice echoed.
"No! NO! Don't you leave me, too! I can't live on without you, Darien. You are the only one left. I *love* you, Darien. And...I...I thought that *you* loved me."
"I did love you once, Serena, but because of that love, I can't bear to see you. Please just.....leave."
"I won't leave. I can't leave. I *refuse* to live without you, Darien!"
"I am sorry, Sere. Farewell."
"Darien, don't leave me! DARIEN!! I can't live on without...you."
As the latch on the door clicked, Serena's heart shattered to pieces, as if the world itself ended before her very eyes. Collapsing at the door, she wailed at the pain within her heart. The Imperial Silver Crystal's luster soon faded into oblivion.
"Why did they all decide to leave....on my birthday?"
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Chapter 1: Bittersweet Memories
I woke in a cold sweat, screaming as the memories flew through my mind. Open eyes wide as if I saw a ghost, I turned my eyes to the clock beside my bed. It read three-thirty a.m. I walked over to the windowsill and sat down as the tears, hot and fast, ran down my cheeks. I looked up at the full moon as the soft light gently illuminated my room.
The nightmares had stopped for at least three months, but I knew they would not be gone forever. They have ravaged my mind ever since *they* left.
Ami, Lita, Rei, Mina, Amara, Michelle, Trista, Hotaru, and...Darien.
Darien Chiba. His name haunted my mind constantly. We were to be married, but he just suddenly........left. They all left me. The only true friends I ever had. *Why*? Why did they decide to leave me? The question had plagued my mind ever since they left.
Somehow, I know that I will see them again, but that day has yet to come. I have been alone since then. Sure, Molly was there, but my friendship with her was not like the one with the Sailor Scouts. They were all like sisters to me. I have made no new friends or seen any other man since that day. In fact, I don't think I will *ever* love again.
Luna has been my only comfort and support now. Everyday seems a bit lighter when she is around, but it helps to have human friends, too. I've closed my heart to everything else now. There is nothing worth fighting for. Since the future I knew has been destroyed.
I collapsed in fit of sobs on my windowsill, knowing not cry so loud as I didn't want to wake my mother. She had a sensor locked on me, knowing whenever I cried. Luna roused when I screamed. At first, she was irritated by her rude awakening.
"Serena, what is wrong? Did you have...."
She must have seen the pain in my eyes. She knew why I had awakened.
"There, there, Serena. Cry now. Let it all out."
During these recent times, Luna condoned my gentle whimpers. She used to scold me for being such a crybaby. Now she lets me cry. It felt good to know that I always had her support. Perhaps, she was the only reason I had decided to continue onward. I had thought of an
*easier* solution many times before, but upon discovering my plans, Luna dismissed them immediately. She almost killed me then, for even *thinking* about it.
"Serena, what are you doing?"
Luna just stood there, stunned as she saw the knife blade on my wrist.
"Luna,..don't...come any closer."
"Serena, you aren't thinking about...oh, Serena, don't do this!! It's crazy!"
"Well, what else am I supposed to do? I have nothing else to live for. My future is destroyed. I'm not going to awaken the earth, I'm not going to be Neo-Queen, Rini won't be born, and most importantly, I won't be with...Darien. Without him, there is nothing worth fighting for. So, why even be here? That's why I'm ending this...NOW!"
"Serena, Serena, STOP THIS NOW!! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?! YOU THINK THAT KILLING YOURSELF IS GOING TO SOLVE ANY OF THIS?! WELL, YOUR WRONG, SERENA! YOU WILL JUST BE REBORN IN THE CAULDRON OF STARS AND HAVE TO LIVE THIS AGAIN! GO AHEAD AND LIVE IT NOW, SO YOU WON'T HAVE TO BEAR THIS PAIN NEXT TIME!!"
Those words Luna said made perfect sense. There was no fighting her wisdom. Any ditz could see that. Even this meatball head. I wailed at the thought of the nickname Darien had given me. I cried for another twenty minutes without ceasing, letting all the torments of three months seep from my body.
I stumbled back to my bed and fell into the sea of sheets. Luna curled up by my head and silently comforted me as I drifted into painful sleep.
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I woke at about eleven-thirty as I remembered what accursed day it was. June 28.
Two more days until exactly two long, painful years since the incident. I wonder if they are as weak as I am.
I slumped around the house all day. The thought of going out on today made my stomach sick. I didn't eat at all. I felt no reason to eat. Amazing, isn't it?
At about five, I flopped on my bed next to Luna.
"Serena, don't you think that you should get out of the house, dear? You should be a bit more cheerful. It's two days until your birthday if you have forgotten," said Luna.
"I wish I did forget," I sighed, watching the memories flashing by in my mind like scenes for a tragic movie.
Luna gently leaped on the bed I sat upon and curled up beside me.
"Sere, I know times have been hard, but you must be strong and find new friends. But most of all, you must remember to move on....well, to forget about...Darien."
With those words, all of the pain, anger, and suffering that I ever felt came forth. It blinded me, made me feel as if I had changed. I loved Darien with my heart, my soul, my entire being, but in five words, my life ended. Now, Luna, my only friend left, was telling me to forget about...HIM?
"Luna, you know I can never forget Darien! He was the love of my life. I cared about him more than anything else in the world! So, for you to think that I can just....*forget* about Dare is wrong! Just....so....wrong......."
I began to sob silently, not for my love of Darien, but for my weakness. Ever since he left, I have been weaker than I have even been in my life, even before I became a Sailor Soldier. All of the strength that I ever felt vanished along with him. Without him in my life, I was nothing but a ditzy, lamebrain twit.
"There, there, Sere. I know the pain you are feeling."
Luna was right. She did know what I was going through because since my friends left, she and Artemis were apart as well. When they were first separated, she was as heartbroken as I was. But cats being cats, they found a way to meet and be together.
"For a cat, you sure are understanding, Luna."
"I'll take that as a compliment."
"Seriously, I cherish our friendship, Luna. Now more than ever.
And just to be fair to myself, I am going to go out tonight for a treat."
"That's a good idea. You go and have a great time. Who knows? You may meet a new friend."
"I may, but I won't get my hopes up."
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When I wrote the first version of this part, it cursed SO much it got banned. (I was in a bad mood!)
So, I reformatted the story so that it doesn't curse, but I have to please the fans so I added *much* more angst. It's an even balance of pure sadness, angst, and darkness, I think...C&C needed plz! Flames will be used to brew green tea.