my gosh christmas is a hard time to diet!

I've been trying very hard, but everyone keeps offering me candy canes and chocolate mint and so on. it's crazy!! I'm surprised I've managed to lose as much as I have (granted I gained it first)

working at HD helps a lot. I've been racking up 10, 000 steps everytime I work which is awesome! just think of how much I would lose if I just ate right!

HD is doing their best by sceduling me for every single christmas party so I don't eat as much. but I'm sad so I eat for that. part of me really likes the job, but part of me knows that I may never get to see my friends and family when I want too again. so I don't know what to do. although this youth party is  a great incentive. I love getting to show off and dress up and be pretty (just don't tell anyone) and I even went out and bought MAKEUP!!

I never thought I would do it. I mean I love being 'one of the boys' but at the same time I love being girly too. painting my nails and playing with my hair and wearing a dress. there's just something about it.

patrick has been my rock. he wants me to lose weight and I want to lose weight for him. and of course for our possible future baby (s)

that's all for me

wish me luck!