• "What do you want to drink, luv?", he asked me. Oh, I didn’t want anything right then. Edu asked for a Coke. John prepared the Coke for Edu and mixed Whisky and Coke for himself. He drank it almost in one single swig and prepared another whisky and Coke drink. "Alright, let’s find the fellas, I’ll introduce you to them".

We walked a little bit and stopped behind a group of guys with the same hairstyle as John’s. He said:

• "This is Gerry, from Gerry and the Pacemakers", we shook hands, "this is Bob Wooler, DJ of the Cavern, and this is Billy J. Kramer", there he stopped for us to shake hands. Then he walked a few steps, and grabbed someone by the shoulders: "And this is my friend little George Harrison from Speke. Say hello to these birds, George!". He said hello and we shook hands. Then John grabbed my arm and guided me towards another group. Before reaching this group, I turned around to say something to Edu, and saw that she hadn’t followed us. I looked for her and saw her talking and laughing with George. Boy! She liked George!! I had never seen her that way before. I waved her with my hand and she saw me. I told her to come over and she turned to George. Then George followed her too. When I turned round to face John I came face to face with a very very cute guy. I could say he was really sexy. "Girls, this is Paul McCartney".
• "Oh, pleased to meet you, Paul, and happy birthday by the way!", he smiled at us and shook our hands. George and Edu were inseparable now. Edu went to Paul and George followed. John realised:
• "Oh, oh, little Georgie... Ok, go fetch me another whisky and Coke, please", and Edu and George walked away. John also introduced me to Ringo Starr, their drummer. He was very short. I was amazed at how short he was, almost my height, something quite unusual for a guy, and had his hands full of rings. There were more people at the party, but I couldn’t remember their names. Also Paul’s auntie, Jin, was there preparing sandwiches and everything. Edu and George came back with the drink. John drank it with one swag. That was scaring me. He was drinking too much for my tastes. But I didn’t dare tell him to stop. He was becoming quite funny.

I decided to stay away from him a little while and go talk to Edu. She was with George, it didn’t surprise me by then. I saw both of them sat at a bench and I went towards them.

• "Hello!"
• "Hello, Vicky! Where have you left John?", George asked me.
• "He’s somewhere, I don’t know. He’s drinking too much, I think. I don’t like that"
• "You’ll have to get used to that, luv. John drinks a lot"

Oh I didn’t know that. He was not like that when we were in Spain. I made a face and George said:

• "Don’t worry, Vicky, he’s old enough to know better. He’ll pull himself together".

But immediately after saying that, we heard some screams. We rushed towards the screams and saw John beating up one of the guys he had introduced me early in the afternoon. I think it was Bob Wooler, but I couldn’t say because John was all over him beating him up. When Paul and Ringo took him away from the guy, I saw he was Bob Wooler. He was moaning lying on the floor. After beating Bob Wooler, John came towards me and grabbed my body.

• "Lay off, John", I heard Billy J. Kramer say. But John wouldn’t leave me, he was trying to kiss me and was so drunk that he didn’t know what he was doing. He was hurting me. But then John shouted:
• "You’re nothing, Kramer, and we’re the top!"

Then George came over, and with the help of Paul, he let me go. Bob Wooler was still lying on the floor. Brian went to his rescue. He lifted him up and got him in his car.

• "I’m going to take him to hospital", he informed us. "I think he has several ribs broken or something even more serious. Please, take care of John, he’s out of his mind!", and drove off.

Edu and I were really scared. The rest could know about John’s ways, but we didn’t. Paul offered to drive John, Edu and me home, and George wanted to come too (but of course, he had become Edu’s shadow), so we all jumped in Paul’s car. He started the engine. There was a terrible silence as John looked at his forefinger. He broke the silence:

• "Bloody fucking hell, this hurts!"
• "But what happened?", I asked. I really wanted to know. John was so normal before I went to talk to Edu and George. John looked at me:
• "He called me a queer, so I battered his bloody ribs in!"
• "A queer? Why?", Edu asked.
• "He implied my holidays in Spain weren’t at all business", Oh, so that was it. I understood then why he had tried to kiss me. He wanted to show everybody that he had met me in Spain. John was in the front seat, and I was at the back, but I leaned towards him and tried to kiss him. But I felt someone’s hand on my back. I turned and saw George saying me no with his head. I obeyed and went back to the seat.

We drove in silence until we reached one very big and beautiful avenue. Paul stopped the car in front of one of the houses of the avenue. John opened the door and without saying anything else, entered the gates and knocked on the door. We were all waiting in the car. I wondered why no one came to help John, but George said:

• "Paul, who’s going to face Mimi? I’d rather not, you know!"
• "Maybe, there’s no need for that. Shh!! There she comes!"

We saw a very smart woman open the door and John came in. She didn’t look our direction and closed the door. We were in the car, silent, nobody said a word. I wondered what could be wrong with John’s aunt Mimi, she couldn't be that bad. Finally Paul said:

• "I’ll take you home".

We drove in silence. I was at the back with George and Edu, they were quite in their own world. I knew Edu was worried for me, but she was on cloud nine at the same time. I think George was quite like her, and so I was happy that she was so good with him. When we reached Brian’s house, we all stood still in the car. Nobody said anything. I finally said:

• "I’m sorry we spoiled your birthday party, Paul. I don’t know what can have happened to John".
• "Oh, don’t apologise, luv. It’s not your fault. I know John, he’ll be alright tomorrow morning, you’ll see".

Well, the least we could do after they had so kindly offered to drive us home was invited them to have some drinks with us.

• "Why don’t you come and have some drinks with us?", Edu almost thanked me with her eyes. George smiled at Edu and accepted. Paul said:
• "Alright!", he then looked for a place to park his car, and the four of us went upstairs.

When they were all comfortable sat on the sofa, Edu asked what they wanted to drink:

• "Scotch and Coke, please".
• "More? Isn’t the John thing enough for you?", I said. I was still too frightened to live another similar scene.
• "Oh, luv, we control ourselves better than your loved John."

I accepted and prepare two drinks for George and Paul, and two cokes for Edu and me. We all gathered on the sofa, in silence. We drank a few swigs and then Paul said:

• "Ok, it’s time to go. My dad and Michael must be very worried for me now. Being with John, who knows what can happen next?", he got up and George did the same. But before going to the door, George leaned to Edu and whispered:
• "May I see you tomorrow?", she blushed and nodded. Then George kissed her on the cheek and said goodbye to me. Paul did the same. When we closed the door, Edu yelled:
• "VICKY!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!"
• "Me? Why?"
• "Oh, don’t you realised hadn’t been for you and John, I’d never had met George? Thank you, baby."

I smiled at her but I couldn’t share her happiness due to John. Everything was going so alright. Why did he become so aggressive? And that poor Bob Wooler, whoever he was. I had to talk to John, not now, of course, it was quite late at night, but tomorrow.

The next day I tried to contact John but it was useless. When George came to see Edu I asked him if I could see John, but he told me they were going to London to record something at the Playhouse Theatre. They will be back at night, so the day after I could reach John. And so I did, or rather, he contacted me. Two days after the Bob Wooler incident and Paul’s birthday, John came home. I opened the door. We didn’t know how to react, and we only stood there staring at each other, without a word or a movement. I made room for him to enter, and so he did. He sat down on the sofa and I sat down next to him.

• "Guys, I’m going shopping. See you later, ok?", said Edu. Edu didn’t have to go shopping, it was just an excuse to leave us alone. I thanked her with my eyes and she closed the door after her.
• "I’m sorry", John whispered. I didn’t say anything. He looked at me and stroked my face. He lifted my face with his hand by the jaw and kissed me softly in the lips. "I was so pissed off that I don’t remember what you did, or where you went or with whom. I only remember I wanted to kill that bastard". I kissed John and told him everything, how Paul and George had driven us home.
• "But poor Bob, John, I’m sure he didn’t mean it", he looked away.
• "Brian says the same. I’ve just sent Bob a telegram apologising. He must have it in his hands by now". I smiled at him.
• "Well done, John. I’m sure he’ll forgive you".

• "Are you off today?", I asked him, keen on changing the topic.
• "Yeah, fancy a stroll in the park?"

I thought it was a wonderful idea and we went to Sefton park. While we were walking through the Liverpool streets some teenage girls stopped to ask John for autographs. John signed them with a smile, but the girls looked at me in a very bitchy way.

• "Who’s she?", they asked John.
• "She’s my girl", John told them, but that only worsened the situation.
• "Where’s Cynthia, then? She’s not English, is she? Oh, John, please, think!"

Then John got fed up with the situation and walked ahead without paying much attention to the girls. He took my hand and walked hand in hand through the Liverpool streets.

We suddenly saw someone who looked quite familiar. As the figure approached, I realised it was actually one of the guys who had been with us at Paul’s birthday party. I couldn’t remember his name but John’s face went white as he recognised the guy. It wasn’t Bob Wooler but he had also been the victim of John’s wrath:

• "Hi, Billy, how are ya?"

The guy was a little bit serious at the beginning, but John stretched his arm to shook hands with him. Then I suddenly remembered, it was Billy J. Kramer. Billy reacted and shook John’s hand:

• "I’m really sorry about what happened that night", said John. I looked at him. He was not one for apologies, but this time, I could say he meant it.
• "All forgotten, Lennon, I suppose I didn’t have right to tell you what to do. I deserved it some way".
• "Oh, no you didn’t", said John, "the other bastard did. But now, I know how to make up for everything. Have you got ten minutes?"
• "Sure!", Billy said. John then looked at me:
• "Would you mind if we go to a bar for a while, luv? I’ve got some things to tell Billy!"

I shook my head. Of course I didn’t mind. We went to a bar in Penny Lane and sat at a table in a corner. A few people looked at us. John and Billy took no notice. Someone came to take our order. John asked for Coke (thank God, I didn’t want any other incident!), as did Billy and myself.

John put a hand on Billy’s shoulder.

• "Mate, I’ve got something I’d like you to record. This will be your number one, you see?"

John took a piece of paper out of his jacket pocket. I recognised immediately the words on it. Written on that piece of paper were the words to Bad to me, the song he had written for me back in Spain. I looked at John in amazement. I could imagine what he was up to.

• "Have a look at this!", he ordered. Billy took it and after going through it he said:
• "It’s quite OK"
• "It’s yours", he said. But then he looked at me and saw my face. I was in pain. I had really hoped that John would some day record that song and now he was giving it away. He stretched his arm to reach my hand across the table.
• "It has bad memories, luv. I’ll write some more beautiful staff for you". I gave in. After all, John was the owner of all his material and I wasn’t one for spoiling things almost before they had started. Billy realised something was going on between John and me.
• "So, what’s the story, Lennon?"
• "Oh, I wrote the song for this beautiful girl, so just keep that in mind when you record it".

Billy smiled at me. The waiter brought us our orders and John and Billy went on talking about musical affairs. I was a little bit out of their wavelength, but I knew that was important for John, so I let it be. When we finished, John paid and went out of the cafe:

• "See you soon, Billy J. We’re touring together next month, so, take care of your voice and give my regards to the Dakotas!"

Billy smiled and we went our separate ways. I wasn’t angry at John any more. I didn’t care that he had given away his composition for me. I would always have the original and also the memories of the tape John recorded in Spain and that we listened only Edu and me. I was happy.

• "Ouch! Vicky, please, my forefinger hurts a lot!"

I took his hand carefully to have a look at his right forefinger. He had it all swollen.

• "Do you think it is broken?", he asked me. Well, I couldn’t say, but I didn’t think so. If it had been broken, he could have hardly moved it.

We finally got to Sefton Park. There we looked for a peaceful corner and sat down on the grass. John looked at me and stroke my hair. Then he leaned to kiss me, and I lied on my back on the grass. I loved him like mad.

• "Do you like the place?", he asked me when he stopped kissing me.
• "It’s lovely, John, and more specially when the person you’re with is special", he smiled at me. He kissed me again.
• "Fancy an ice-cream?"
• "Sure!"

We went to a stand who sold ice creams and took one each. Then we went strolling hand in hand towards my house.

• "What happened finally to George and Edu? Bloody hell, I can’t remember a single thing after the incident!"
• "Oh, they get on very well. I think they like each other!"
• "Gear fab!", said John. "Edu is lovely and George is one of the best people I’ve ever met. Quite grown up for his age... Do you think they’ll be at home?"
• "What are you up to, Lennon?", he smiled a wicked grin and kissed me. "Think a little bit, luv. Look at yourself and say if a man can resist that!"

I laughed and wanted to kiss him. When we arrived at Brian’s flat (I never got used to calling it my flat. During the short time I lived there, I always called it Brian’s flat), we opened the door and called for Edu and George. The house was in silence and the door was locked, so we assumed we were alone. John then took me in his arms and walked to the bedroom. He threw me onto the bed and started getting undressed. I started getting undressed too. I must admit I didn’t think of Edu and George walking on us. This was my bedroom, so that was not a problem. John leaned towards me and started kissing my toes, then went up and kissed my legs. He played a little bit with my groins. He went up and kissed all over my belly, playing with my belly button a couple of times: he licked it, kissed it, and slid his tongue in circles around it. Then he slipped a line with his tongue up my stomach and reached the breasts. He teased with my nipples for a while, first the left one, then the right one, and then kissed me on the lips. I thought hew was going to make love to me immediately after that but he whispered to me:

• "I’m going to do a new thing to you. Something that no one has ever done to you".

He went down again and started licking my most private parts. My first instinct was to close my legs. I thought that was something disgusting, and I couldn’t see the pleasure for John. My legs were rigid, and John tried to separate them with his hands.

• "Relax, luv. You’ll like this", but I couldn’t make my legs weaker, until John finally held them tight with his strong arms of guitarist and worked on me. Oh, I was really enjoying it and I started to feel the wave of the orgasm coming to me. I moaned and sighed and tossed and turned until I came and lied on the bed exhausted. Then John went up and kissed me. But he hadn’t finished. He then started kissing me all over again, very softly and sweetly. He bit my ears and whispered in my ear:
• "I love you, Vicky, I really do... I love you...", that started to make me excited again, and I could feel myself wet again. Then John made love to me. And this time it was alright, no pain and much pleasure. John pushed inside me hardly, really hardly. The last push was the hardiest of them all and once again I felt sort of a liquid inside me. John was all sweating and so was I. He kissed me in the lips and then turned around to lie on his back. I lied at his side. But then I decided to rest my head on his chest. I stroked his chest at the same time.
• "Have you ever been like this with someone?", I asked. He stroked my arm.
• "Yes", my heart jumped but then I realised John had been (gosh, he was!) married.
• "I’ve never been like this before, with anybody".
• "I know, luv, and I feel proud because of that"
• "Are you free tomorrow?"

Silence. I waited for a couple of seconds and then lifted my head to look at John straight into his eyes.

• "John?"
• "No, luv, I’m not free... Look, now it’s gonna be a little bit hard for you".

I got scared. What did he mean? Was he going to leave me after having taken my most precious gift from me? Was he going to tell me he was going to go back to Cynthia? Oh, I couldn’t wait any more.

• "What’s wrong, John?"

• "Don’t worry, luv, it’s not big deal. It’s just that we are going to be out of Liverpool for some time, recording and touring Britain. I’ll phone you every now and then, though!"
• "Oh, no, John, I’m going to miss you. When are you coming back?"
• "Have no idea, but we won’t be back for a while".

I felt a lump on my throat. I wanted to be with John, that was why I had come to England, to be with him. He couldn’t leave me now.

• "Spend the night with me, then, John, please...", John kissed me.
• "You know I can’t, luv. I must go to say goodbye to Mimi and also to say bye to Julian. I haven’t seen him for a while and I really miss him".

I didn’t like that. Because that also meant he would see Cynthia. What if he finally decided to go back to her? No, that couldn’t be, oh please...!! John kissed me softly on the lips and whispered in my ears:

• "I promise you I’ll phone you every week, luv. And when I come back, I’ll make love to you in such a way that you won’t need anything else in the world". One final kiss and he got up from the bed and started getting dressed. But I was really sad. I didn’t like seeing John go. I felt empty if he was not with me. But then I thought of Edu. George would also be away with John, and we had each other. The time would go faster that way.

• "I love you my kitten". He went out and closed the door behind him. I wanted to cry but I didn’t do it.