Today is February 27, 2004
I have been spending much time being depressed over this situation. I can't run, walk more than a few blocks, ride my bike, stand in line without severe pain to my feet. Doctors, lawyers, some aquaintances, they had suggested Psychotherapy and drugs. I have refused. I take arnica internally for inflammation and chinese herbs. It is important to take only the recommended dosage and to do it responsibly. There are ways to combat depression herbally and naturally. This is what I've decided to do. Western medicine + Eastern.
Depression is an expression of the negative pole. Think of the negative pole more as a charge, a heavy, dark place, than as a 'bad or wrong place'. We take a continuum, a vertical line, with the negative pole to the left and the positive pole to the right. Again, the positive pole is a charge, an expanding quality that pushes itself forward. In the middle we have neutrality, balance. So, we have depression to the left in its varying degrees and say, Joy on the right in its varying degrees. This is a polarity. Where do I want to be in this polarity? I'm looking for balance. Some want to go for the widest expansion possible, others to different places. So, I asked myself, how does one jump from depression to joy naturally? This is what came through me: Creativity. It is not the only way but it is one way. Stay with me and see for yourself if this is true. Through creation, one can express any energy that may be stagnated and push it out of the system. I am writing (more on that later) and teaching myself how to draw. Stay tuned to see how this helps me. I also know that love heals. So, I've chosen a kundalini yoga set specifically to build the magnetic field and the heart. ( Click here for a definition of kundalini yoga, when you get to the sight, click on "what is yoga"). I am doing a transcendental kundalini yoga meditation, too. One in the morning, one in the evening. I also choose meditations to cure depression, alleviate stress, release neck muscles, etc. plus meditation on my chakras or anything else that feels pertinent in the moment.. And of course, creating this website is something to keep me alive, active and strong.. I spend lots of time in writing and dreaming, too. After three days of doing the yoga two to three times a day including meditations, I am not depressed. I feel joy for being alive. My mind feels clear. I still have pain, but this what is happening now. It is a fact and I am not refuting facts. I am embracing them. This is all we can do, be here now and focus on what needs healing now. Needing to fix it is okay but I'm not going to fix a thing. I'm going to come out the other side, a completely shifted person. I am also eating 60-70% raw vegetables, sprouts, nuts, fruit and the rest cooked vegan. Our bodies are temples, we have only one. Body=exercise, breathing, right diet, Mind=right thoughts, meditation, Spirit=following your purpose in life. More on all this later. Also, look for pictures and more segments and updates.
Now go love yourselves! |
