I used to think I'd never die; But now I know I'll never live.

Fly;

A sparrow builds a nest,
Lays its eggs, hatches them,
Rears them.
And they fly away.
Another sparrow sees the nest,
Lays its eggs, hatches them,
Rears them.
Again, they fly away.
Yet another see the nest,
Lays eggs, hatches eggs,
Rears little sparrows,
And, still, flies away.

Like the nest that never leaves,
Time goes on by,
Some of us stay where we are.
Unmoving.
Watching the same cycle repeat itself,
Unable to change matters.

Years go by, and still,
Rooted to the place where you
First felt put together,
Complete.
People come in,
They waltz out.
You still remember the one who built you.
You stay where you are.
Because,
The one who had completed you
Flew away.
Forgot to make you wings
While they were putting you together.

Words don't seem to come out right these days, falling short of what I want them to be. Like rain, sometimes there's just so much to say; at times there's none to speak. Emotions rage, moods fluctuate. I don't know what to do at times. There's so much I'd like to do sometimes, but most of all, I want to run away. Escapism seems to be the story of my life. So much confusion, so much frustration. Too much tears.

You'd Never

I place myself in your hands,
I watch you treat me like glass,
Like porcelain, something you're afraid of breaking.
I wanted to say
I won't break I'm made of sterner stuff.

I let you lead me to wherever,
You tread gently.
Like ashes, you're afraid the ground would crumble
beneath me, and no one would pick me up.
I wanted to say,
No matter what I know you'd never let me fall
Even if you had to brace the fall for me.

You'd never let me down,
Never break me into pieces.
I'd trust you with everything and more
You treat me like I'm breakable sometimes
Because if I were to crack the slightest,
You know you'd shatter.
I know you would never let me down,
'Cause baby, you love me.

And I know,
Wherever I go,
When you are there,
I'd never have to worry,
Because you're out there fighting my battles.
And when you aren't,
I'd still not worry,
Because love, you're always in my heart.

And what words can't say,
I'd like to show you.
For the rest of our lives.

Going down;

I think I wrenched my back somehow
during Phys Ed today.
Waving the flag around didn't help matters much..
Was having trouble walking for a while..
Ahh.
School's so boring.
I just want to sleep so badly,
and yet,
there's so much homework!
And I'm such a freak to want to do my homework.
Gahh.

Smithie's still out of commission
his back is royally out of whack.
Oh well.
There's PE tmr.
I hope I don't mess it all up again.
Might not be doing PE anyway,
'cause my back's such a pain!

It must've been cold there in the shadow;

Yesterday's play was alright -- Rossum's Universal Robots
It was better than expected,
but it could have been better though.
The lead character, Elizabeth, played by that A21's indian girl,
(I'm not racist here, but I just don't know how to spell it)
kept tripping over her lines,
but otherwise did quite a good job.
The casting was done pretty badly as well.
Some did not suit their parts,
did not look their parts.
The robot, Radius,
(played by Melanie)
was good though.
Emma provided comic relief.
Another thing about the play,
was that the language was not standardised.
Throughout the play, it was mostly good.
Alas, there were very clear pronunciation errors,
and some one had said, "Got any scissors?"
The backstage personnel, and also known as the robots,
did a horrible job as robots, they fidgetted,
and I think some of them were about to laugh.
On other counts,
much of the acting was pretty mediocre.
The play itself, was interesting.
I mean, it's much better watching this,
than to be watching a typical school play.
I mean, the choice of the play.
I think SA has the tendency to choose plays
that have very strong political connotations..
What with Animal Farm and this?
But that's good. To me.

Oh my, I'm so critical.

Afterwards, we had prata at the Prata House.
Wasn't worth all they hype.
Mmm. But the company made up for it.
And my mother sort of praised my this group of friends.
Saying that they are a pretty guai bunch.
As in, they go home horribly early.
I think she fully expected me to stay out til at least past 1am.

And today's Mothers' Day.
Happy Mothers Day to mothers out there.
Especially my own mother.

A beautiful smile to hide the pain;

I blogged yesterday night,
I don't know what happened to it.
Oh well.
Heading down to NUS later for the play.
It's so far!
Gahh.

Yesterday I bought my mom her
Mother's Day gift, and I promptly dropped it.
As in, it was fragile.. and I cracked it.

SAT in the morning.
I think i screwed it a little.
I mean, I think I did worse than before..
If I get worse, I think i'd cry.

My Fatboy is getting to be like an ah-beng
Swearing in dialect over and over again.
Banging the table just cause his computer game
isn't going the way it should?
Probably he died in FPS or smth.
WOW. What an apt reason.

Did you know that you were my hero;

Brace yourselves for a long entry...

Everything is alright.
I'm just too bored.
This week feels quite packed..
I still have to do my Lit essay, GP assignment,
study for Econs test, study for SAT.
Actually, I won't do the latter two,
but I just like to make myself feel good
and hardworking.

I want to watch SO MANY movies.
Goodness,
wherever will I get the money for all?

In order of my desire to watch:
1. TROY. Oh yea. For sure. Since last year.
Four words - Orlando Bloom Eric Bana.
(Whoever said Orlando Bloom only looks good as Legolas!)
2. Secret Window. Two words - Johnny Depp. Yes, I'm that shallow.
3. Elephant. Sounds GOOD.
4. Beautiful boxer. Sort of a life story of a transexual..
5. Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen.
'Cause I just feel like watching a corny drama.
6. Harry Potter. Ditto.

But mostly, TROY. How I hope it's R(21), and how I hope it's not.
Hope it is R(21), 'cause the uncut version of the show is supposed to be a hard R.
If they cut it too much, it won't be too original. right?
Hope it's not, so it'll be easier to borrow ID. :

Lyrics spam ahead..

Amazing. - George Michael.

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken, I was not open to your suggestions
I had so many questions
That you just kissed away

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken,
I thought that loving you was out of the question
Then I saw my reflection
Saying please don't let this go

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
The day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing,
The way that love can set you free
So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my saviour would come
I think it's amazing
I think you're amazing

George Michael rocks.
That sounds really sopohomoric, er.
I mean sounds really 14-yr-old slang.
His new album, "Patience" is created for gays to dance to.
:)

Here's the dampener,

Michael says this comes after a tabloid printed pictures of him on holiday looking relaxed.

�The most horrific thing that happened when I got caught out in LA was that I got photographed with my shirt off and I was fat. There was one photo in the News of the World that had a subheading �fat and gay�," he says.

"That was all it said �fat and gay�. Talk about body fascist and homophobic. It was like saying �Can you imagine two worst things than being �fat and gay�?"

Taken from uk.gay.com

Is there any wonder why I prefer UK to US.?

Angel please don't walk;

Sheesh. Finally have the strength to come online.
And stay online.
Had food poisoning yesterday,
then I had fever.
Still having fever, but it's much better.
Because of food poisoning,
I'm not supposed to take any form of dairy products.
And I'm suffering from Milo withdrawal!
Took a green slip to go home early today,
and slept about 5 hours,
and dreamt about Milo.
I swear I drooled while sleeping.
Never believed that this was possible.
Sigh.
Kept feeling horribly dizzy,
Guess it's 'cause I haven't been eating.
So I just ate instant noodles.
Without chilli.
Life without Milo, without chilli,
is very scarey...

The past weekend's soccer was heartbreaking.
ManU lost, Chelsea won.
Leeds lost, ManCity won.
Newcastle lost, Liverpool won.
They didn't play against each other,
but ManU has most probably lost their second placing,
Newcastle losing its forth placing,
and Leeds have a 90% chance of getting relegated.
:(

These tears, they just won't fall;

I'm so disgusted with ManUtd.
How could they lose to Portsmouth and Liverpool consecutively.
I HATE Martin Tyler, or otherwise known as the commentator.
Grr. Kept rubbing salt into wounds.
Liv won by a stupid penalty tht the
even stupid Neville gave away.
and Tyler went on ter say tht the goal had CHARACTER.
I'm like. it's a bloody penalty!!!
Goooodness.
I really think Fletcher is lousy.
Who cares if he's young?
He's still lousy. Man Utd's midfield is beyond repair.
At least until Scholes gets back.
Why on earth did Liverfool hafta break their
horrific penalty streak with ManUtd!!!

Although to credit some players,
Ronaldo was good.

ManU better not drop to 4th place!
It's so highly probable judging by the way it's going.Grr..

Had Sports day in the mornign.
Was postponed due to the rain, and wasted all our time.
Went to eat at Macs, and then couple of us went ter do some Geog.
The day was pretty good,
up til the moment ManU lost. GRRR!!!

I typed so much la! and it all got taken away. GRRR.
Cause my beloved com crashed. GRRRR.
Basically, see this page.. LYRICS.
The spelling is wonderfully GREAT!

In the previous entry,
I asked people ter guess the song title and all,
and no one got it right,
how saddening.
So here's more lyrics for everyone to guess!
Hopefully someone is interested in guessing! haha.

1. Do you remember all the nights we spent in silence
Every single breath you took was mine

2. Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say,
How could I let my angel get away.

3. "All you need is love" is a lie,
'Cause we had love and you still said goodbye.

4. You had one eye in the mirror
as you watched yourself go by.

5. I took the good times, I'll take the bad times,
I'll take you just the way you are.

6. Who the hell do you think you are? A superstar?
Well right you are.

7. And all the best women are married,
And all the handsome men are gay.

8. If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

9. So when will this end,
it goes on and on, over and over again.

10. I didn't need this,
Somebody help me breathe!

It's all just 2 lines per song! have fun guessing. if anyone's remotely interested! :)