i wish i could carry your smile in my heart
for times when my life seems so low
it would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
when today doesn't really know
doesn't really know
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im all out of love
i'm so lost without you
i know you were right
believing for so long
i'm all out of love
what am i without you
i can't be too late to say
i was so wrong
i want you to come back and carry me home
away from these long, lonely nights
im reaching for you
are you feeling it too
does the feeling seem oh so right
and what would you say if i called on you now
and said that i cant hold on?
there's no easy way
it gets harder each day
please love me or i'll be gone
i'll be gone
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what are you thinking of x 4
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today woke up at like 1030.. ughh. had lunch at marina mandarine again..i like jus went on sat..!?! haha. ate at the peach blossom place this time. the food there is damn good ler!!!! everyone shd go ter eat there! i like their carrot cakee! no la. act. their dimsum is nice.. the food.. not so. ya. then went shopping.. bot new shoes.. and jacket-ty top and top and skirt. yepp.. nth really much tt i like lor.. ohh. also saw loh li eng today.. she nv put make up.. then look qte haggard.. i guess. i miss st nicks.. i duno. like i figure i'd rather get scolded by her than miss k or smth.. :/
pat: i lazy ter put my new templates up in my webpg i guess. this one got no links.. cus i dunno where to put so many links.. yaa.
anw went ter catch phone booth today.. colin farrell is so shuai! ahah. and he acted quite well i think! haha. :) yaa. then jus walked ard abit. saw grace too. so damn freakin skinny! :| i wanna lose weight ter be like her too! :) umm. yaa. new template up btw..
a year ago..
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:)
dont be sad it ended be glad it happened
i'll nv forget. :) \
like a clown i put on a show
the pain is real even if nobody knows
and i'm crying inside
and nobody knows it but me
why dint i say the things i needed to say
how cld i let my angel get away
now my world is jus tumbling down
i can see it so clearly but you're nowhere ard
the nights are lonely the days are so sad
and i keep thinking abt the love tt we had
and i'm missing you
but nobody knows it but me
i carry your smile while i'm broken in two
and i'll know bt you tt if theres someone like you
i'm trembling inside
and nobody knows it but me
lie awake jus a quarter past 3
i'm screaming and i nv tot you'd hear me
my hearts calling you
and nobody knows it but me
how blue can i get
you cld ask me heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle
its been torn all apart
billion words cldnt say
just how i feel
a million years from now
i'll be lovin you still
the nights are lonely the days are so sad
and i keep thinking abt the love tt we had
and i'm missing you
but nobody knows it but me
today.. i dint slp eitherr. sch was terribly boring.. umm. yaa. aft pe.. which was aft sch la. went ta ikea ter eat and jus slack with cand and vicc... we like.. err. bitched damn alot i think.. haha.. ya. then umm. went home ler. bored.. tmr supp to go back st nicks one. stupid chuns. cheat me la. tmr like no one going back ler. i still wanna see kang lerr. my money!!
woke up early again this morning.. cus of my idiot hp.. vibrated too damn much.. and it was only a msg.. like.. ERR.. deprived of slp ler.. :/ then watched loads of tv.. haha.. nickelodeann!!! :) i love cartoonns!!! spongebob!! and rugrats!!! :)
sighh. new template... so pinky.. i like.. but still feeling kinda downn.. i dunno why.. :| mb its cus i've been cooped up all day.. :( been thinking too much. i hate ter think.. cus i jus end up torturing myself with unhappy tots.. if only i dont think so much.. i'd probably be happier today.. everything would be so different.. :(
sigh.. my dad jus told me and my bro abt smth terrible tt happened to his company's cleaning lady.. cus she's a cleaning lady right..? she doesnt make much money.. and in her whole like of working she has 100k of cpf savings.. then her son.. went ter tk drugs.. and hid drugs in his sisters house. hid 2 kg worth of drugs.. which is 2000gs.. which is damn alot.. and obv he has ter go ter court cus its like a death sentence? yaa. then she has ter pay for a lawyer.. which will cost her all her savings plus her cpf.. and when she has ter stop workin cus she gets too old.. she wont have any money? sigh. what an idiot son. he'll prob hang.. and her money will be wasted? but what choice does she have right... i mean... if she doesnt get a lawyer her son will still hang.. but.. its her son.. and.. ya. and she obv loves him tonnes. even when she knows tt trying will still make no difference.. she still has to.. because she loves him.. and she'll do anything to help.. even if it doesnt.. :( so frigging sad...
moral of the story: dont ever take drugs.. or possess them ya... you'll jus end up hurting people you love and love you. :( not to mention yourself..
guess my probs are miniscule compared to some peoples... mmm. hafta lighten up i guess.. :| things cld get worse.. sighh. but.. i cant help it i guess.. :(
sighh. its almost 3.. but it sorta felt like eternity.. took a short nap ab i hr.. sighh.and had soo much time ter think abt stuff. i guess i've like chged a lil.. :| i mean.. i think in the past if i was pangsehed and i still wanted to go out but lacked the ability to do tt.. i wld be vv agitated and start complainin to everyone or smthh.. :( i guess.. its prob a gd chg? maybe? yaa. and tot abt lotsa oth stuff.. guess you've gotta be happy fer whatever you got.. and not grumble so much over what you lost. sighh. feels like my life is sorta more on track mb.. but memories jus flood ter my head whenever i do or stuff tt still remind me of... you. and i jus feel down again.. i guess i dont like you anymoer.. but i jus miss you.. and i know i'll nv find someone as swt and as nice ter me as you.. :| i dunno how ter say laa. everyone says to forget.. but there are things i dont ever wanna forget..? sigh. i'm sucha wishy washy person.. reminds me of charlie brown. er.. i'm dumb again.. :/
sighh. mom jus said smth like if i go to tts for the dumb ligament thing.. then i hafta keep going back! :( i'm frigging sad now laa. almost tempted ter do my napfa ler. :( sighh. and like.. haiyorrr dunno la so sucky. newae dumb teacher called my mom again. and the part that peks me. is that she ALWAYS uses MY hp ter call my mom. like.. HELLO. use the sch fone la. hp more ex ler.. airheadd. ughh. sch today was nto bad.. dismissed at 1250! :) err. but had ter rush my stupid lit essay. then met szu at 145 like tt at lido.. went up ter buy movie tickets and saw ESTAA!!! :) haha. so happy le.. haha. like vv long nv see her.. we like ran and hugged each other.. haha qte paiseh aft tt. :) she was with cj people.. tavia and this max guy.. who like tav i supp. then this other girl.. sherry mb? yaa. err. then like dunno la. heck. err. then sat ard. wen and huat came qte late.. aft the show started.. then we went to watch what a girl wants. not too bad laa. not too nice either.. ahha. err. some parts i tot was kinda sad.. yaa. did i mention tt i was feelin damn extra.. cus the whole lido was full of cj people.. then got one me there.. one lone sa-er there.. ahah. :/ err. then aft tt went to gelares for waffles.. walked ard a whole lot and went home early.. altho it was early when i checked my hp.. i felt DAMN tired. haha. have no idea why!! haha. as in.. exhausted lerr. :) then come home bathe watch tv then ok ler. haha. i watch nick's kids choice awards. one of the lamest award shows i ever watched. read abit of a paper. and guess what. one article says. mb they're gonna mk a movie abt AVRIL LAVIGNEs sk8er boi song. ughh. i'm desacratin my blog!!! haha. umm. yaa. i cant imagine!! :|
haha. szuyuu!!! i love you a million swedish fish!!!
also saw lotsa people todayy.. like.. ermm.. eeping was in aj's bball laa.. she dint play in the game ler.. its like qte amazingg.. haha. i tot she was goodd!! haha. umm then shujun was in hc bball team.. umm. saw jinjin.. alison.. jinjin.. err.. chrystle.. evita.. tho she dint see me.. tracy... omg.. she's damn chio in rj uniform lerr!!! really very pretty!! goodness.. haha. err.. dunno le laa. wenhui.. umm. dunno!! haha. we go and get class chalet k. as in 4d class chalet or smth alrite!! haha
mmm. went ta sch.. screwed up my test.. had pe.. dint do much.. went to the court to jus shoot hoops.. umm. then went ter bathe.. mmm. then umm.. slacked ard.. then my stupid bitch of a teacher told me one hr earlier tt we haf a stupid pw grp meetin. like.. wth. as if everyone so free to see her ahh. what crapp... then umm hurried down ter taka to meet dan.. we walked abt bot his cd then went to cine to meet wen and huat.. haha. then umm yah. cldnt watch bruce almighty cus there wasnt anymore seats./ argh. then we jus walked ard the whole dayy.. :/ haha and wen and huat were like permanently glued togetehr lorr. like chang and eng!! hahaha. umm. then umm. went home for dinner!! yepps. so guai of me horr. shit la. this stupid hp of mine have so much space.. but still can only store abt 180 msgs. shit fone.. :(