Friday, September 5, 2003, 6:01pm
Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche.
Escribir, por ejemplo: "La noche está estrellada, y tiritan, azules, los astros, a lo lejos".
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Finally. End of hell week. Actually, it was more like hell day today, because the other tests were just fine.
Hahahah I'm so gonna flunk Biologoy and CLE.
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I finally got a typewriter, something I've wanted since ages ago. It's really old...but not broken down. It's just starting to turn yellow on the sides. A bit rusty, but it's fine. Just fine.
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Well, now, after all that kerfuffle, I'm lost. No more tests to cram over. No gimmicks. No nothing to do.
I did watch S.W.A.T. with Nerizze kanina though. Was really good. Hahahah.
But now that I'm just back home, my mind is running wild with all these things, but my body is stuck doing nothing. Besides having not planned anything, I'm quite broke.
I do have a movie planned for tomorrow though. I'll watch...maybe Sinbad or Legally Blonde 2 with Issa. Powerplant. Hahahah I'm so damn broke. I still would have to...uhm...coax some moolah outta my dad's wallet.
Hey, I'm not stealing. I'm going to suck up to my dad is more like it.
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I am...now..considering becoming a lesbian. Hahaha
Ew, that sounds really really gross.
But, it's just that I feel so happy. I don't have to trouble about guys, I don't have to learn how to understand them, I don't have to do whatever waiting for the guy to make the first move.
Whaddaya think, fellas? Should I? Hahahha!!
Hahah I hope my brother doesn't check this site out. And a few other people. But..well, nothing to worry about, I suppose? I'm just considering it.
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Except for that...little piece of...recurring (reccuring?) ...feeling. For that stupid guy!
This really sucks, NO ONE wants to tell me to just forget about him! No one. No one at all. Is that possible?
Because I'm certain that it's good for me to let him go. But no one wants to advise me to drop him! Not even my friends. Is that too much to ask? All I wanna hear is a friend telling me to drop him because he's not worth it, and this is going nowhere, and mean it. That's all.
Heck, my friend didn't even wanna do it even when I asked him to.
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Ya no la quiero, es cierto, pero tal vez la quiero. Es tan corto al amor, y es tan largo el olvido.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
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I
am
dying
here.
I am going to hack myself to pieces out of pure boredom. I need a movie! I need lots of stuff.
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It can get really lonely, y'know? No one to hug hold call talk to whatever.
I guess those sims actually are pretty realistic.
In other words, my Social Bar needs filling.
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I don't want a boyfriend. Hahaha I'm so damn contradictory. But I don't want one.
GASP! *kaching!* *lightbulb on*
Maybe all I'm in love with, is the idea of being in love. Maybe all I like is the kilig factor.
Hahahah, now that I think about it, it's quite possible. After all, for most of my crushes, when they find out (or I tell them) that I have a crush on them...nawawala.
Is that all I'm after?
.
Tonight
I
can
write
the
saddest
lines...