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Monday, August 25, 2003, 7:46pm

Whoowee!!!

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I got a grade of 40 out of 50 in my History test. That was a humongous surprise. I guess studying does work.

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I've never studied before in my entire life. I mean, not STUDY STUDY, like, allot time to study or something. The most I've ever done is skim through my VERY incomplete notes. And then cram using other people's notes right before the test.

But this time, I had complete notes because I copied all those I didn't have from my friend. I studied for like, 30 minutes the night before, absorbed some stuff, thankfully, and I PASSED!!

Yes, 10 points less is far from perfect, but it's pretty high for me. Considering I always JUST ABOUT pass, and sometimes I just plain FLUNK it. I botch it completely otherwise.

Imagine what an hour of studying could do! I just wish my bedtime would be 10:30;. Hmph.

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HAHAHAHHAAHAHAH!!

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Ooh, this guy invited me to watch a sibol play. Kaharian ng Araw. He says it's kinda senti, but whatever. I'll watch. With my friends.

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Sweet. Dude! Sweet! Dude!! SWEET!!

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Wow, can anyone tell me the lyrics to this song? Can anyone correct me? I'm medyo bingi when it comes to lyrics! Hahaha! Either that or I just don't understand it. If you know the title, tell me na rin please! Write it in the tag board.

THANKS!:

Mail in my head, for my creator, you gave me life now show me how to live (hahah that sounds weird its probably not the lyrics but whatever. Hahahha. I like the song. So obviously Audioslave.)

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ChicoSci rocks. Hahahha.

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NOTHING IS HAPPENING IN MY LOVE LIFE! Not that I actually want anything to happen just yet. But you know. Hahah. A little stuff happenin would be fine with me.

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MACKY ESCALONA ROCKS!! Hahah! Chris Tiu din, I suppose. Pretty good. I think he's the rookie that's been given the most playing time.

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ATENEO IS NOW TIED WITH FEU!! THE CHAMPIONS RISE AGAIN!! Hahahaha how corny.

My friend has a crush on this blue babble guy that's always in front of her or in her sight when they...er...chant. And he performs on the court too, so she says he must be pretty good.

I say the guy that was in front of me during the Ateneo - UST (or was it NU?) game is more goodlooking. Hahaha. Long-ish hair, maputi and medyo chinito. Nice. Hahah

Mind you, that's not always my type, but I do like tanned tall chinitos. ;)

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10:12pm

Oh god, no, not like this.

If I'm just going to get hurt this way, I'd rather not. I know that relationships involve risks, but if I can, I'd get away with not getting hurt.

I'd really rather not. Maybe I should just forget about him, because...like my friend said, he's unreachable. You just can't get to him.

I mean...I do care about him and all, but if he's just not gonna get it, what am I laboring for? What am I after?

I should just forget about him, but it's not that easy. It's just not.

Maybe I could have stopped myself from falling if he hadn't been so nice. Maybe I could have stopped myself, if I cut short conversations, and hadn't enjoyed more time with him.

I can repeat the same thingss, over and over again, but what can I say, I feel it.

I don't know if I should cry, or laugh, or sulk, or hide from the world, or I don't know.

He unknowingly hurts me, and...I can't blame him for that. I'm hiding much more than anyone knows.

This is different. This isn't an obsession I can easily get over. This is pain, pain that comes with something I want to keep, but can't f*cking bear, because I don't want the pain.

Telling him will not work. I don't think that's what I should do. I should just let him fade from my consciousness.

Sweet dreams.

I don't want to dream of you tonight, or any other night. It hurts. You just don't know it.