Last night I was really upset and crying b/c I was so nervous about the upcoming residential. I swore that all my co-workers thought I was crap at my job. It wasn�t even that I thought I was bad at my job, I was just so worried and concerned that THEY thought I was horrible at my job. Anyhow, I phoned up Jay to try and get some perspective in this, and he tried his best, but he was busy working on his Master�s course work and couldn�t soothe me for long. This just made me feel even more like crap b/c I started thinking that I�m just a liability to everyone. Well, I cried for a bit longer before finally falling asleep.
Funnily, enough, today I felt super. Everyone else was stressing out about the residential, but I was cool as a cucumber. I had gotten all that out the night before. Strangely enough, though, I think people get annoyed at calmness when they are agitated.
I went to visit Jay since I will be gone for the rest of the week. I swore after last night he was going to dump me, but he assured me that was not the case and now all is well.
Off to residential I go�
Love,
Sabrina :-) |
