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Isreal Summer 1973, Arthur's -- Tape 1 Sides A and B

One of the concepts that runs through this set of AA1...A7
lectures, is: 'annihilation' 

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Isreal Summer 1973, Arthur's -- Tape 1 Sides A and B
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 ... Avraham avinu came, suddenly after Avraham avinue came, there
was one person in the world who was momish there.  Suddenly there
was one person in the world who was momish there.  And because of
this one person suddenly the whole world was on a different level. 
Suddenly Avraham avinue lifted up the world from that free choice
level of Being__or__not_being, and it's momish -- Being. 

Reb nachamn says V_HRN HetiKh .

You have to understand this very good because its very very deep. 
He says, listen to this:

If a person is momish, if you are momish momish tied to your roots

DvN V_SAhRASHAI (?) [ TRANSCRIBER'S '(?)' ]

Lisen to this you know:

I have choice to plant a tree, right.  But the tree is growing. 
Does a tree have choice to run away from its roots.  It can't. 
It's really there.  How can a tree be without roots right. 

So therefore the thing is like this:

You understand, remember, we were talking Friday night by the holy
Wall, something very strong, that:
Each time I do a mitzva, each time I learn, I'm choosing to be a
Jew.  It's onot only that I'm choosing to do this one particular
act, I am doing it beccause I am a Jew, right.
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That means each time I do something, I'm choosing to be a Jew. 
Affecting my whole life.  

Now listen to this.  Very very deep friends.  

What is the purpose of we yidala on the deepest level of the
world.  We have to lift up the world to a diffaerent level.  We
have to lift up the world that the whole world should momish be
there.  

Or you know something very deep. The truth is, listen to this,
this is also very true.  A lot of times sometimes people aske me:

How do you know if somebody loves you.
Very simple.  If in their presence you're really there, if in
their presence suddenly its not that you happen to be here, you're
really here.  That means theyre giving you for that moment this
holy G_d exisetence, that means they really love you, right.  

Have you ever seen, you meet people, they cut you so short, they
dont even let you have this, being__or__not_being existence, just
want to wipe you ourt, right.  They dont even give you a fighting
chance, right.
And then there are some eppole, momish they gire you this just
utmost of existence.

MvOGOB Ha_MSh'aT (?) [ TRANSCRIBER'S '(?)' }

And you know what
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we yidala have to do; we have to do this to the whole world.  

I want you to know something very deep:  

What are you doing to an apple when you make a BRaKha over it. 
Before the apple was here, it could not have been here, but then I
make a bracha_al BRaKha_LaH

[ the word bracha_la does not exist in Hebrew , it is a
retro__Yidish dimuinutive of Heb. bracha ]    

and I say:

Little apple_la , I want you to know something:
So far you were just an ordinary apple, but now you are are momish

[ shall we rephrase that? ] 

an apple.

What happens to -- Imagine:

I am walking into a bakery and I can buy 15 challas.  I'm taking
two challas for Shabos.  What happens to those two challas.  They
are momish there. 

[ as evidenced by all the little Parker House rolls ]

They are momish challas for Shabos.  And suddenly they are
different and they taste differnt .

I want you to know something very very deep friends.  You know I'm
thinking about it all the time:

What do children need most, right.  Because when they are born,
you see old people are already accustomed to this kind of
existence, being__or not_being, hanging around.  Children when
they are born they momish know their soul tells them I'm only born
in this world momish to be completely
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here.  And they are waiting so much for encouragement.  They are
waiting so much.

Why do children need so much love when they are little.  And not
only they need someone to ... [ 3-dots Transcriber ] kvais, they
momish need this 
MChUAv Ha_Mtz'aaH [ Transcriber marks '(?)' ] 
they really need this kind of existence.  They want to momish know
that they are momish here.  

And what does it mean 
[ that ] therefore the Gemorea says: 

The first thing [ i.e., as soon as ]
a little boy can talk or a little girl can talk, you [ should ]
teach them Torah, 
because [ from ] the moment they can talk, then their tongue wants
to exists, righ.
And tongue is existing when you say 
TORaH ?ShIvNu? LaNU MoSheH 
right.  
And [ a ] little boy
(aa1-4a) 

can shukle a lulav his hands want to exist right.  Because each
time I'm doing a mitzva I am momish existing.

You know on a very ssimple level imagine:
If before I'm putting on tfilin and after  I'm  putting on tfilin
I feel the same way, it was a very lousy putting on tfilin 
Becuase each time I put on tfilin something has to happen to me,
suddenly I am momish here.  Momish here.

So therevore Reb Nachman says, this is a very very 
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high level, although all of us I'm sure have tasted it for a
second because its imnposible -- maybe one Rosh HaShana you felt
it, maybe one time you were dancing with the Torah Simchas Torah
you felt it, or maybe one time you stood by the Holy Wall you
really know, I am really here, there really in one G_d.

But to be on the level to feel it all the time but to never cease
to turn on the whole world to that, right.  To give existence to
the whole world.

So what do you do for that.
He says:

For that you ahve to momish annihilate yourself before the oneness
of G_d.

Now listen to this.  Kids, I want you to , if you have still
strength, I want you to think of it on the deepest level there is:

You see, if a person come to you and hes says to you:
"I want you to know one very special thing, I am really here.  I
am really on the level of 
MCHUAvu HaMitz'a 
I've got to be here because G_d needs me; but you, ehh, look at
yourself, and I am telling you, who are you?"  
(aa1-5a)	

How doe sit sound to you.  Bad scene, right.

You see, its like this:

If I'm annihilated before the Oneness
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of G_d, the Oneness of G_d, then this Oneness it doesn't matter if
its an Eskimo, if its a cockroach, or if its a little dog, right,
cause G_d's Onness, right.  Cause G_d created the world with this
holy Onness, but its up to me to bring this holy Oneness, this
most existing oneness --        
(aa1-7a)

(aa1-7a)
[ So its clear enough that RSC as a rather young man was making
forays into existentialist philosophy -- 

or one might better say, was breaking the ground for Jewish
existentialist philosphy -- or more precisely, 'existentialist
metaphysics' -- , largely influenced by -- is it Lurianic
mysticism -- the tzim_tzum__guy -- this was Yitzak Luria, haAri of
Zfat, do I remember correct -- 

but its my present impression that careful analysis of what RSC
said would show that he didn't get real far into it ]              
               
Let's put it this way you see.  I dont know if I make myself
clear.  Now listen to this, now we are coming to the crux of the
whole thing if you can bear with me kids, this is just the most
important thing.  Everyobdy knows:

People talk so much about meditation today.  
I know some of you kids have been privleged to know that:
This Tora_la of Reb Nachman has changed the lives of thousands and
thousands and thousands of people.  

Because this is what Reb Nachman says:
What does it mean to meditate.
to meditate means, not to sit there -- 

I'm not knocking, G_d forhid, any ways of meditation.  I'm sure
they're very holy, 
(aa1-7b)
but:

Reb Nachman says, what does it mean to meditate.  Momish suddenly
to become 
MChOAv Ha_AtzI'aT
I'm momish there.  And to be momish and really there, you have to
annihilate
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yourself before the oneness of G_d.  How do you annihilate
yourself before the oneess of G_d.  

You have to be alongae.  You have to be alone.  Got to be alone.

Its a very strange thing you know, because G_d created the world
in such a way that I am I, Michael [ Golumb? ] is Mchael, Barbara
is Barbara.  But then the thing is, when I want to reach the
onness I have to annihilate myself, not Michael, right. 

!Everybody is ready to annihilate somebody else before the oneess
of G_d.  I have to annihilate my own walls.!

How do I annihilate my own walls.  I momish have to stand before
G_d and be there.

So then he says something very strong:
You know what's happening in the world.  Listen to this:  

Why do I have to meet G_d at night.  

Because during the day the air is polluted.  
Not polluted with gas, you know Reb Nachman wasn't concerned with
that. 
During the day, the air is poluted because everyone is running.  

What are people doing all the time. They are thinking, I have to
run to make a cow rubles, right.  How low can you think.  You
think you're here for a few rubles.  
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![ If you think you're here [ on earth ] for a few rubles ]
you're definitely not here, right.  Your only chance to be really
here [ is ] if you know your here because G_d created you, and you
have to do something in this world very deep and very holy.!

But if you rn around all day long to make a few rubles -- and who
knows what you're talking about and thinking about -- then you're
completely out.  How can I walk around in an air which is so
polluted.  Which is so filled with that.  And how can I momish
penetrate this air and momish be here.

So therefore Reb Nachman says:

It has to be at night.  Because at night, you know something,
there is something in the air at night, you know.  Stars, at night 
(aa1-8a) 
there is something very special going on.  At night, you know what
it is.  At night the lowest creature knows deep down I'm here for
something deeper than just making money.
(aa1-8b)

Why are the stores closed at night.  Because all the people know
I'm not here to run a store.  Basically.  How come at night,
business meetings at night just dont go so strong.  Why, because
they really know deep down I really shoulnt go to a business
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meeting, I really should do something else.  Nebach, not that they
know what they have to do -- yet.  But there's something in the
air.

QUESTION:

"What's the force that makes you scared to belittle 
yourself.  Makes you scared of making yourself nothing before G_d. 
I don't know -- something blocks -- 

[ but I think the questioner means 'humble' if not 'annihilate' --
not 'belittle'.]  
(aa1-9r)	

RSC:
You're afraid to annihilate yourself before G_d?  
You see, I'll tell you something very deep because our, our life
level is always on the being__or__not_being , right.
(aa1-9a)

(aa1-9q)
[ I do not know what RSC means by  'being__or__not_being' ]
Maybe close to Satre's 'existence' (in Sartre's contradistinction
to 'essence' ) -- which indicates, maybe, the everyday humdurm ]

Everything, you see, because until they reach the level of G_d
choosing us or us choosing G_d, which is deeper than free choice,
everything is part of the free choice level, right.  
(aa1-9s)


I'll tell you something very strong, very deep:

A lot of parent dont want to send their chldren to Hebrew School. 
They say, when they grow up let them make their own choice.  They
said, we can not send them to Yeshiva because they'll become too
Jewish and they dont even have free choice anymore.

You know whaz that means.  Its very sweet beause their whole life
level is on a free choice.  Being__or__not_being , maybe yes maybe
not right.  They have never tasted for one second what
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it is momish to be there, right.

Tell you something very deep:

Most marriages -- why do they break up so fast.  Because they
could have married this girl or they could have married somebody
else.  So they married this girl, right.  Ok, so if it didn't work
out they'll marry somebody else.  Its all on a free choice level
you know, its never real.  Its not on a G_d level because G_d is
not ''HE'__could__be;__'HE'__could__not_be ; 'HE' really IS --
right.

You see, if someone says to me, 'it so happens I'm a Jew, I could
have been a Zen Buddhist also', he might be a very holy man, but
he is not on this -- whatever his service of G_d is -- not on the
level 'it could be be any other way'.

[manuscript AA1 p10 sic, but I think misspeak or mis_transcription
error for: ''it could not be any other way'']  

You see if I keep ShaBaT [ merely on the level that ] I could also
not keep Shabos, it is not ShaBaT.  It is not G_d__Shabos .  

But you see, this is tremendous, tremendous, momish you have to
annihilate yourself before that, you know, to know, momish, this
is IT , you know.  It is deeper than free choice. Because we are
holding on to a little free choice, right, this is the last thing
we have.  We don't realize that not having free choice is much
deeper than all this.  

You know, if I wake up
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[You know, if I wake up]
in the morning and I have free choice to put on tfilin or not to
put them on , its very holy, but then while I'm putting on the
tfilin its deeper than free choice.
(aa1-12a)

Anyway kids if you have strength let me just -- give me five more
minutes, or two more minutes.
Now he says something very deep.
Reb Nachamn goes so strong, he says:

Not only you have to walk alone, even at night I have to walk in a
place where people dont even walk in the day.
It has to be two things.  It has to be in night, the time has to
be at night, but also it has to be a place that during the day
people are not walking.  Because its disturbing.  You can't reach
the level of annihilating__yourself__before__G_d if people walked
there who dont know what it is.  And then you're all alone, and
then momish you have to cleanse your heart of anything which is
unimportant.  And then you have to doven, you dont need prayers
from prayer book because this is somethign else.

Listen to this:

There are two levels of davening.  There is a level of davening
when I pray from the pryer book -- it is very holy.
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But this is only after after I'm existing.  After I'm a yidala,
after I'm existing, I'm already part of everything holy, then I
daven, to ask for my needs .  But momish to tie myself to G_d.  

But then there is a deeper kind of thing, that I momish want to be
in this world, I want to exist, give me a completely different
kind of existence and there is nobody in the world who can tell
you how to pray.  Nobody in the world, not even Reb Nachman, not
even Moshe Rabenu can tell you what to say.  This is the deepest
secret between you and G_d.  There you have to make up your own
words.  And sometimes, Reb Nachaman says, you have no words, you
just kretch, you sigh.  What a sigh.  What a sigh.

And then he says something very strong.  This is so true:

If a person ever reaches the level of really this true existence,
then you are completely cleaned from every arrogance in the world. 
From any coarseness or any arrogance.  Cause if you ever tasted
this real existence, and then you give existence to every person
you meet, what's their arrogance.  Whats 'they're better
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[ Whats 'they're better ] than you, you're better han me.  I  have
four Ph.d's you have only 3 Ph.d's'.  It's all nonense, right. 
Then momish you're above all this nonsense. 
(aa1-13a)

[ And of course this is HIK's prayer, "Raise us above the
distinctions and differences that divide us." ]    

Because he says, listen to these words:

The moment you are MChIAv Ha_MTzI'aT , the moment you are really
there, then momish you become one with the whole world.  Not just
one, you are completely annihilated for the whole world, and the
most important thing, you are really one with your own soul.

You see, what does it mean that my soul is part of G_d.  You see,
my soul is really there, right.  But the way I am createed that my
whole soul is not shining into my body yet, that means my soul and
my body is only on the level 'yes_or__no,___could_be_no'.  

But if Im on the level MChIAv Ha_MtzI'aT then my whole soul is
shininh into me.  My whole soul.  And then through me I can lift
up the whole world.

COMMENT FROM THE PEANUT GALLERY:
"I'm sorry to interrupt."

RSC:
No, its ok, brother.

QUESTIONER:
"You say that when you're at thsz level,  [ then ] to distinguish
between degress of learning, say, -- is silly stuff.  
Wouldn't it
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be the same thing then, on that level to distinguish between
traditions, customs, and religions.  Say like Im a yidala and
you're a Buddah.  You just referred to Zen Buddism.  Because a Zen
Buddhism perhaps would have also --- 

RSC RESPONDS:
I'll tell you something very deep.  You know, you're right, Bill.
(aa1-14ac)

CAST OF CHARACTERS (and Characters they were)
[ So this is most likely BILL RICHMAN, Famous Tree Planter at Mevo
Modi'in and subsequent (32 years later) Victor in the Battle of
Billy's Trees, at that time a dropout Assistant Distric Attorney
or some such with the Chicago Prosecutor's Office, where he tended
to side with the Defendant rather than the State, because he felt
sorry for the former and no doubt reckoned the latter could take
care of itself. ]

You see what most of our Jewish kids make the mistake is one
thing:  

If I utmost and completely respect a Zen Buddhist for being a Zen
Buddhist, that doesn't mean I have to become a Zen Buddhist also. 
See, us yidala, most of our young people have so little pride and
so little taste of their own --- 

I'll tell you something very storng:
Imagine:  I'm a man, right.  So then I will say I meet a woman Im
so much annihilated I will say I've got to be a woman also.  No,
Im a man, she's a woman, right.  And Im not making myself smaller
or bigger by, I am you                    

[ TRANSCRIBER REMARKS:  You said 'you' -- perhaps you meant to say
'I' 	]
[ I (sa) would only add that to work with RSC material --
transcribing, or even, as I am now doing, merely typing manuscript
transcriptions -- is in some sense and to some extent to enter
into a dialoge with RSC }

and you are you, right.  The truth is, I meet a little Zen
Buddhist, right, lets say I meet Swami Satcha__da_nomi 

[ MS. sic, but I would guess:  Swami Satchidananda , for such was
his nomi }

, right.  I am respecting him a billion percent, right.  And we
are giving each other existence.  He in his way and I in my way.
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But that doesn't mean that therefore I have to say maybe he's
right.

BILL:
"But when you're way up there, you say Satchadonanda, are you even
thinking that he has another tradition?
(aa1-15a)

RSC:
Sure, why not.  Like Im aware that this is a man, this is a woman,
right.  Becuase the holiness of the world is that everybody has to
be what G_d wants him to be, right.


BILL:
"But even when you're way up there, are you even thinking this is
a woman."
(aa1-15b) 

RSC:
Why not.

MR. RICHMAN, I PRESUME:
"Well, I don't know why."

RSC:
No, 100 percent, because if Im saying 'No', then Im not aware of
G_ds creation. 
You see, on the contrary, the more this is real existence, right,
then things are really shining the way they really are.

You know, on the contrary, you see, I tell you something: 
If you are aware of a woman before you reach holy existence, then
you are only aware of a woman -- 'Ahh, it is a good thing for me,
maybe I can do something' -- you know.  On a low level, which has
nothing to do with that PERSON 

[ my emphasis on 'person' , in contrast to 'woman' -- sa ] 

, right.  But if I am on this
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high existence level, Im momish aware this is a woman, G_d made
her into a woman, G_d made me into a man.

"Are you even thinking about that up there?"

RSC:
No no, you see, I tell you what.  Most of us sadly enough are so
coarse that the moment they think man and woman they think
something else.  Listen, if I tell you this is an apple, this is a
pear, doesn't affect you badly.
(aa1-16a)

No, so the same way, right.  If Im on that level on being
compltely there in awe before G_ds creation, so Im aware this is a
woman, this is a man, this is a Zen Buddhist, this is a Jew.  Im
therefore in touch with what everything really is because this is
the way it should be.

BILLY THE KID, I PRESUME:
Before, you were talking about cockaroaches.  If you see a
cockaroach, you think, what a beautiful cockaroach.
(aa1-16b)
(aa1-16b)
As_it_is_said (reportedly by Jesus) 'the meek shall inherit the
earth'                               

THE RABBI MAKES REPLY:
Right.

NOT CLEAR FROM TRANSCRIPT WHO SAYS WHAT NOW:

What do you think, it may be the highest.

Maybe its the highest but Im wondering if the the highest is if
you don't say, Oh, this is a beautiful cockaroach.
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THE QUOTES FOR QUESTIONS RESUME, SO THIS IS PRESUMABLY RSC:
What else should I think it is.  It really is.
    
DOUBTLESS BILLY:
"This is a beautiufl creature."

RSC:	
Oh no no.  D_d didn't make a 'creature'.  G_d made a cockaroach. 
Because you're cutting off G_d.  Im making G_d smaller.  G_d made
a cockroach.  Why szhouln't I be aware its a cockroach.  Why
shouldn't I be aware of it.
If I see a mountain and a valley, I'll say Im so turned on I dont
know which one is a valley, which is a mountain.  Im completely
disregarding G_ds cretion.  Cause G_d mae this into a valley, and
this into a mounta9in.

You see if Im on the leel of AhUAv Ha_MMTzI'aT , really there, on
the contraray, Im really aware.  Not less aware.
(aa1-17a)

(aa1-17a)
Ok, sports fans:  I think we can clarify this distinction by
applying PVK's temrinology.  In that terminology, Billy is
sepaking of 'samadhi with closed eyes' [ ie, samadhi beyond
existence ], while RSC is speaking of 'samadhi with open eyes'.
	
You see, the sad thing is, you see all eastern religions, they
always think the less aware you are, the holier you are.  But for
us yidala its just the other way around.

BILLY, I RECKON:

"But could it be like if you're on top of a mountain, you wouldn't
say, what a beautiful mountain.  You would say, what a beautiful
place this is.  And if you are in a valley you wouldn't say this
is a beautiful valley -- "  
(aa1-17b>
(aa1-17b>
[ Billy seems here to be arguing that the essential form of
predication is relational.  So if your consciousness has
transcended relational conceptualization, you ain't gonna be able
to say nothing nohow, Chou.  
But PVK's conceptualization suggests that one transcends
conventional relationships, and then parceives the archetypal
relationships.
"Just a thought." ]
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But the thing is a valley, right.

ESQUIRE BILL RICHMAN:
"If he wants distinctions."

RSC:
No, no .  Listen Bill, I'll tell you something.  Dont be angry but
this sounds to me -- 

BILL:

"Don't be angry with me Shlomo cause I've been thinking about
these kind of questions so much its bursting out of me."

RSC:
First of all you're my top holy man.  But Im just telling you what
I think, maybe Im wrong you know.  I dont know.  But you're asking
me right.  For me to be momish MChUAv Ha_MTzI'aT means Im
completely aware.

Ill tell you somethng very strong.  Do you think, if I'll talk to
an Eskimoe, lets say I have some  Chinese friends, right.  There
is something especailly beautiful about Chinese people, right.  So
the more Im aware of G_ds creation the more Im aware that those
people have something maybe I dont have, right.  On the contrary,
so if I say they are momish one, Im not Chinese and you're not
Jewish, this is stupid.  On the contrary.  So see, I'll tell you
what.  The hardest thing is when you really are a little bit
universal, then we think already we have to cut everything out. 
Not true.  You know.
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when we talk when Meshiach is coming he world will be one, that
means everybody will have the same face, the same nose, G_d
forbid.  You know the holiness of G_ds Oneness is that G_d's
Oneness will shine out of everybody, but everybody will be what
they are.  

Ill tell you what, something without telling you stories, it so
happens I said Swami Satchdanonda, because we are momish soul
friends, you know.  And it never happened that, that I am less of
a Jew when I am in  his presence, and he is less of a Hindu in my
presence.  On the contrary, momish, I am completely a Jew.  

Its only the little Jewish kids that hang around there, they dont
know where its at anymore, you know.  They dont know, should they
- they dont know where its at.  

Because us Jewish kids -- because our parents never gave us this
real exisence, so we're still 'free_choice' yidala, they're
hanging about, they never know where its at you know.  
I dont know if I made myself clear to you, Bill, but I really
think you know.

Ill tell you something very strong , you know:

The whole idea that women have to stop being women because its not
holy, this is a very
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low kind of holiness.  
(aa1-20a)
(aa1-20a)
[ This is a critique of the ultra_orthodox notion of snias, of
standards of modesty for women. ]

The highest holiness is, listen:  
The Torah is the holiest in the world, right.  Every word is holy. 
So maybe the Torah should never say: 'this is a man, this is a
woman'.  The Torah szuould say, somebody Avraham, somebody Sarah,
somebody Rachel --- 

[ 3_dots in text, preumably not omitted words, merely a pause ]
  
but this isn't it.   The holiness of the Torah is that the Torah
says this is Adom, this was Eve, this was Sarah, this was Avraham. 
You know, ask Abraham, tell me the truth, are you a man or a
woman.  He'd say, wait till later, Im too high now, I'll tell you
later.  Doesn't go.  Avraham said, you know, I really am a man,
G_d created me a man.  And Sarah will say, all the time Im a
woman.

You see, Bill, I'll tell you something.  you're 100 percent right
the way we aare living in this world, the moment you say man and
woman, you think of something else.  But if man and woman would
bring to your first mind, your mind first, that G_d created the
world in a most beautiufl wy, there is such a thing as men and
women, would remind you of G_d, not something else; if Im on that
level.

SARAH:
I remember, a long time ago, you were talking about holy colors in
the sense that its like
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this, that red, there's a holy kind of red and holy kind of blue,
that are really, they're really all part of the same thing, but
red is still really red and blue is still really blue, because
thats the way  '' made them.  And its not that its the same thing
or that my soul is the same as your soul, they're both souls, and
they're both part of the same thing.  And also at the same time
they're really separate and different souls.

RSC:
I know what you mean.  When was it said.  In San Francisco, no? 
In the good old days.
One more second, because I don't think I made myself very clear to
Bill.

SPEAKING OF BILL, THIS IS BILL SPEAKING, PRESUMABLY:
Shlomo, I think I dont understand you.  Like, I can't completely
feel what you're sayintg, I dont want to teach, you know, I know
Im here to learn, so thats why I think you should talk some more.

RSC:
No, I want to tell you something, Bill.  You're 100 percent right
but I tell you one thing.  Again, like you see, when it comes to
man and woman, we are so accustomed if someone tells us man and
woman, right away, who knows what he's thinking  about.  That
means right
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away walls, right.  The way we are living, you think if I say Im a
Jew and he's a Zen Buddhist, means I make a long wall.  Why. 
Doesn't have to be any walls, but it doesnt' make me stop being a
Jew or he a Zen Buddhisit.

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 /way out, way out, way out.  On the highest level, all the souls
are one.

"What do you mean by that, Shlomo?"

RSC REPLIES:
Wait, let me explain.  On the highest level, you see \

TRANSCRIBER NOTES:  GARBLED [ ie, TEXTLOSS , cannot transcribe
from tape ]

it has nothing to do with being created.  Lets say -- You see,
according to us, the soul was here before the world was created,
only the world was created.  But if I believe that Im part of G_d,
then I was here before the world was created.  On that level,
there is no such thing as men and women.  Only after the creation
of the world, then there is such a thing as man and women.  

You see -- wait one second, its very very deep -- listen to this.
The thing is -- remembers, as I told you before:

There is a Shabos before craetion and Shabos after creation: in
the same way there is also, the Zohar Kodesh says, there's also a
oneness between husband and wife, like the Shbabos after creation,
or it can be on the level of shabos before creation.  So the thing
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is like this:

The Zohar Kodesh says that there is before creation they were
momish one, right.  Then G_d created them, man and women and they
became a little bit separate and they got married, they became one
again.  And then depends on the level of their oneness.
 
I want you to know something way out strong, that:

Imagine if the soul of a woman is born in this world, right, and
then, oh, lets say of a man, right.  And then because of one
reason or the other, his soul has to come back, but because of
some reason, without knowing why, his soul is coming back into the
body of a woman.  So the Zohar Kodesh says that this woman can't
have children because its the soul of a man.   
(aa1-23a)

So I tell you something very very strong.  This is a very very
deep thing, you know, this is just really touching the deepest
secrets of our creation, but you see its like this, that, its very
very deep you know, that you see even:

The Neshamah itself has five parts, you know.  The action, the
feeling, the thought, the life, and the oneness.  

Maybe on the oneness level its [ ie, male and female ] never that
much apart.  But in action level, its very much apart, right. 
Feeling level, women have different feeling
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then men.  Even on a life level its a different life level.  One
oneness, what does it mean they are one, they lose their identity
but one means thEy're ready to be one with something else.

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     OIK, listen to this kids, its just so holy.  Momish, G_d
shine it into me.  Do you know what it is.  The stars, you know
officially, you really dont need the stars, right.  
(aa1-24a)


As much as we know the stars are doing like everything you know  
(aa1-24b)
stars are doing milions of things, every star on a light level,
right.  What do you need the light of the stars.  doesn't show you
anything, but its a much deeper light.  It doesn't show you
anything, but it is light.  Anything you know, this kind of light
which shows me is not the highest light yet.  there's just a light
which is momish there.  its momish there, just there.  
(aa1-24c)
(aa1-24c)
[ This seems to be a very groping attempt to present what HIK more
tidily terms the 'all-pervading light'.  That is a term from
mysticism; if I recall, PVK suggests that the physical analogue is
some sort of interstellar photon plasma.]

You know, imagine on a very high level, I'll be studying all my
life and really do all the mitzvas and Im a yidala and Im proud of
it and I know it and it is.  But on the great day, when Meshiach
is coming, when the world will be
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so real, its not real enough yet.  This isn't it yet.  

Ill tell you something on a human level:

Imagine if I love somebody very much becuase I travelled all over
the world and momish I realize that this person is the most
beautiful thing in the world, right.  And its very holy, right,
very deep.  This isn't it.  Cause you know what that means. That
means it is still on the level I can compare her to somebody else,
cauSe this is better, right.  Its a limited light, right.  

But then there is such a thing momish, this is it, you know.  So
Moshe Rabenu asked G_d,  'How come you blessed us to be like the
stars.  Why didn't you bless us to be like the sun and the moon.' 
Meaning to say Moshe Rabenu was asking G_d, 'Why didn't you really
shine into the yidala the greats light in the world.   To let them
know what it is to be a yidala.'  

G_d says, 'No, there's a much deeper light than that.'

You know:
With the light of the stars you can't walk an inch, you know.  How
far can I get.  Cant get anywhere, hut its there, right.  Its
momish there. You know, the holiest light of yidishkite is, I
can't do anything with it.  You know what will last forever, this
little
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light with me, Yiddishkeit, this little soul of mine, I dont know.
didn't move me maybe, I didn't move an inch in my whole life but
gvalt is burning inside of me you know.  Even after the sun and
the moon are gone.  Even if they are put to shame.  They didn't
help.  They didn't do anything you know.

You know what it is.  Some day we'll realize that all the great
lights didn't help any.  Cause the world will say listen, we're
living with the sun and moon for so long, there still is no peace
in the world, right, We haven't become yidala yet.  We have great
suns and great moons, great rabbis, great teachers, great
everything, great, but where are we.  And then suddenly will come
little kids like the holy beggarla, little little stars you know.
Shivering on the sky.  That will be it you know.  Sweet little
holy kids you know.  You ask them, how much have you been walking. 
Oy vay, havent walked an inch yet.  Im hanging on the sky my whole
life the same place.  This is it.  Oy oy oy. 

You know, I've got to bless holy HILERY, its her birthday. 
Listen, you shine so much that I want to bless you that you should
momish
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be a holy star you know.  Inside of you should be this holy light.

You see most people think, you know, that even light has to be
used.  Everything has to be used, right.  Thats a low level yet.

Ill tell you something very deep:

Imagine if have a friend and I think, you know, this friend can
really do a lot for me.  Its a friendship with a great light, but
if my whole relationship is what I can do with it, its a very low
low kind of friendship.  
     The sun is a great light.  The moon is a great light, right,
but I can do a lot of things with it.  The stars, I can't do
anything, this is it, you know. 
(aa1-27a)   

Ill tell you something very deep you know, as far as Im concerned:

If someoone tells you, you know, to be a Jew means to be happy, to
be secure, to go to Heaven, and momish you're flying high.  Every
Shabos you're in another world.  Every Sukos you're in Paradise. 
Its all true, but this isn't where its at.  This is still
'the__sun__an__the__moon'.  

G_d blessed Jakob, you know, your children weill be like little
stars.  

[ I'm still blundering around through Genesis, trying to find this
quote.  Or even the blessing to Avraham, thy dsscendents will be
like the sands and the stars, which one cannot count for their
multitude. ]

Inside light.  Inside inside.  Oy.
(aa1-27b)                     
      
This tora of Reb Nachman is just so important, and I dont know if
we learned
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it already and we learned it with a lot of kids but maybe not with
some of you here:

That Reb Chaninia the son of Chanoi
[ transcription sic, Chanoi, but Pirke Avot 3:4 ChaKINAI ]
says:

Ha_NeoR B_LeILaH

If you're up at night and you walk our way alone and you turn your
heart to, actually,, L_v_taH means, if you translate it properly,
to nothingness, you know, to unimportant things, that means you
walk around with stupid thoughts.  Then you bring about --so to
speak strong -- you bring your own death with your own hands,
right.  Cause you momish deserve, G_d forbid, you have no right to
live.
(aa1-28a)

Its in Pirke Avos.  
(aa1-28br)
(aa1-28bra)
                          
(aa1-28br)

REFERENCE:  PiRQeI AvOT 3:4 
(Metsudah Sioddur translation.
 
Rabbi Chaninah ben Chachina says:  He who keeps awake at night, or
travels alone on the road, and makes room in his heart for
idleness, sins against himself.

(AA1-28cR)
RABi ChaNINA BeN ChaKINAI AOMeR: 

HaNe'OR  B_LaILaH ,              
who keeps awake at night

V_Ha_M_Ha_LaKh B_DeReKh YHIDI,      
and who travels on the raod alone

V_PaNeH          Lv_I          L_vataLa
and makes roomH  in his heart  for idlemess

HeRi ZeH      M_TCHaIev B_NeFeSh_O
is like one   who kills his soul

(AA1-28DR)

(AA1-28DR)
So the translation does not support the fire_and_brimestone
reading RSC gives to this passage.
But the translation is a bit euphemistic; the original Hewbrew, as
RSC points out, does seem to support RSC's paraphrase, to some
extent.

That is: M_TCHaIev B_NeFeSh_O   is rather euphemistically
translated "sins against himself", my translation is "kills his
soul", though RSC's paraphrase  "you bring your own death with
your own hands" seems a bit too much, and he seems to have carried
himself away with his interpretative commentary                  
"Cause you momish deserve, (G_d forbid), you have no right to
live."

RSC CONTINUES:

Now the simple meaning of it is that if a person -- 

I'll tell you something very very deep, friends.  I want you to
listen to it very deep:

Imagine I tell you, imagine you want to get angry at somebeody
very much.  And this person is not here, right.  You just, you
make up your own mind that if this person walked in the room now I
gonna grab him and momish Im going to tell him where its at, and
then Im definitely going to throw him out.  I'll never speak to
them again.  
Something happens when thIs person walks in and Im not so angry
any
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more.  And I then I definitely decide I'll never throw this person
out.
(aa1-29a)

Just saying, you know, why did you do that, in a soft way.  The
person will just say, I really didn't mean it, and the whole thing
will be forgotten.  

Isn't it crazy.  What, this person didn't utter one word, they
just walked in.  What happened.  But now everybody knows that
everybody has an inside light and an outside light.  A surrounding
light.  Everybody knows my whole soul is not within my body.  A
little prt of my soul is within my body giving me life.  But the
truth is that the essence of my soul is beyond me.  Beyond my
body, right.  Its just there.  And this is a very great light. 
Very great light.  So I might be angry at somebody but the mooment
when they walk in and Im standing in front of them, then the light
of their soul is shining so much , I can't be angry.  Just cant.  

But now listen to this, this is very deep:

Imagine -- the truth is, according to our tradition, everything
wrong which happens to me is only because my soul wasn't shining
in my surrounding light, because if my soul is really shining,
then no evil can fall on
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me because evil can't reach me.  Evil can't reach me.  So how can
I be on that level that my soul should be really shining.  If Im
learning.  But you know its very deep.  If my insides are filled
with learning, with Torah, because, I tell you something  very
strong:

Remember, we were learning a few times, the whole Torah is really
one.  One .  If I learn one letter, Im really learning all the
letters.
(aa1-30a)

(aa1-30a)
[ and similarly, PVK speaks of "a wave that emerges as the sea." 
And in Leibniz, each monad is a minaturized mirror of the Whole ]

If Im learning one word, Im really learning all the words, right.

Ill tell you somethg very deep.  
You know what a good friend is.  What does it mean to love
somebody very much.  Its very simple.  If I dont love somebody
very much , I'll say I love you, that means right now, its now a
few minutes after five, I said to you, on whats today, Tuesday, I
said I love your, right.  So its sweet.  But then, there's
sometimes I love somebody so much, I said I love you it really
includes all the eternities of the world, right.  You can momish
hear the echo like I said it about 30 times, right.  Before and
after.  

You know what it means to learn the Torah really on a high level. 
That means while Im learning, its not just this minute, all of me
before, all of
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me after, whatever happens before and after is learning, right. 
This is only the Torah.  I can not say Im taking a book on
psychology and my whole eternity is learning this book, because
its just information.  Its not soul, right.  

So the thing is, if Im on that level then suddenly Im on this
tremendous eternity level, then everything which goes around in
time can not reach me, right.  Just can't reach me.  People can
not get angry with me.  The little dog in the house wants to bark
at me, cant, you know.
(aa1-31a)

(aa1-31a)
[ So this is an interesting take, and suggests and interesting
midrash,  on that line in Exodus, "Not one dog shall whet its
tongue." ]

Cause it saw a holy soul going, right.

    So the simple meaning is still very high, but this is the
simple meaning, right, it is dangerous to walk.  
    Or lets even say this world, the whole world is like a night. 

    If you are up at night you walk alone, you know what it means
to be alone.  

Because what do you mean, I walk alone.  Isn't there one G_d in
the world.  No, I cut myself off from G_d.  You walk alone.
     Have you ever heard a yidala walking alone.  When a yidala
walks, all the yidala, Avraham is with me, Eliahu haNavi walks
before me, what do you mean, 'alone'.  
    No, I walked alone, cut myself off from everything
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holy,  In my heart, in my mind I cut myself off from the Torah, Im
thinking about everything stupid, right.

Ill tell you someting very strong.  Without getting involved, but
imagine if every Jewish boy or girl would G_d forbid want to leave
our religion.  If they would have to say goodbye to the six
million before they leave, right: if momish in their mind, because
thy're walking with me all the time, and if I am G_d forbid
breaking away from Yiddishkeit, I have to just walk over and say
goodby to the six million.  
<aa1-32a)  

I dont think they'll have the heart to do it.  If they would know
they heave to shake hands with Avraham Avinue say listen, so far
you're walking with me, zom a gezunt.  And they would have the
chutzpah to tell G_d, you know, G_d you know, G_d I dont want you
the way YOU want me to be, I know more about you then you know. 
Becuase you thihk, that I know that you, that you think Im a
yidala.  I'll yurprise you, G_d, I'm not.  Bad scene, right.
Anyway he says, I cut myself off from G_d, from all of Israel, and
Im learning things that are maningless, meaningless you know. 
Then you momish
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youre brining death upon yourself, you know.  This is what the
ordinary meaning is.

Now listen what Reb Nachman says.  Listen to this.  Deepest dpeths
in the world.  Listen to this.

This is one of the strong toras from the MARAL, one of the strong
storng principles in Hasidis:

Imagine there are two levels of lying, and ther's also two levels
of truth.  Imagine today is Tuesdays, its now 5:35
(aa1-33a)                  
and we're sitting here and I will come up with a lie and a say no,
its not Tuesday its Friday and we're not in YeRUSheLaYiM we're in
Hawaii and its not 5:30 its 12 o'clock at night.  How much am I
lying.
(aa1-33b)

Im strong lying, right --  you think of me, some of you kids will
say, 'I knew he's lying all the time but now its coming out really
in the open.'  

How much am I lying.  Not so badly.  

Becaue it could have been, it could have been that its really
Friday.  It could have been that we're in Hawaii and it could have
been its 12 o' clock at night, you know.  Could have been.  It
just so happens that it isn't.
(aa1-33c)

But listen to this:

If someone asks me, are you a Jew.
(aa1-33d)

So I can lie and say Im not.  But then Im telling the truth  I am.
(aa1-33e)

Listen to this;

If I lie and
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I say Im not a Jew, how much am I lying.  Is it just that it so
happens that Im a Jew.  I could have not_been a Jew, but I am a
Jew.
(aa1-34a)

Someone asks me, is there on G_d.  I would say yes, there is,
because I don't want to lie, you know.
(aa1-34b)

I could have siad a lie that there isn't, but Im telling the truth
that there is.  
(aa1-34b1)
Everybody in his right mind understands that this level of lying
is a differnt thing.  If G_d forbid I say there is no G_d , its
not that there could have been not__a__G_d and there is.  It so
happens that there is a G_d. 
(aa1-34c)

There really is one G_d.  It not 'so_happens' that I am a Jew.  I
really am a Jew.  Someone will ask you, is there such a thing as
Shabos.  Its not that there oculd have not_been Shabos but there
is,  There is Shabos.  You have to realize that the level of truth
of the Torah, of the mitzvas, of everything holy, its a little 
[ TRANSCIBER ADDS '(?)'after 'little'] 
kind of truth, right.  Its not like
'Golda_Meir_it_could_have_been_Shazar, right.

[ That is, that the Prime Minister of Israel at that time might
have been Shazar, not Golda Meir ].  

Its not this kind of level, right.  Its a differnt kind of level.

Now listen to this.  Let me ask you something very very deep:

OK, the truth is there really
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is one G_d.
(aa1-35a)  

What about the world.  There could have not_been a world, right. 
G_d didn't have to create the world.  There could have not_been a
world, but it so happens that G_d created a world.  How does that
sound to you.  all that you say that the world is also on a G_d
level, on a G_d truth level. 
(aa1-35a1)

So Reb Nachamna, this is what Reb Nachman says, this is one of the
holiest things Reb Nachaman says: 
(aa1-q)

To be on a G_d truth level, this is up to you.  The way G_d
creaeted you, what is my level of free choice.  My level of free
choice is that, yes Im here.  It so happens that Im here.  I could
have not been here also.  But Im here.  Or I can momish be here I
really am here.  Just thinking I am .  Most people we meet it so
happens theyre here.  

Lets put it this way:
The holy Baal Shem.  Was it just so happens he was here.  He
really was here.  Take Avraham Avinu. Avrahsm Avinu in this world,
He was momish here.  You can see his footsteps.  He was momish
here.  And some peoplr in the world they're just here, you know. 
I dont want to lie and say they werent here, so they were here. 
Only you know it in a thousand was, right.  Sometimes you meet a
person, Ill
(aa1-35b)
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tell you something very strong you know.  You can go through
Athens, hang around for four weeks, right, and you see a lot of
things and maybe you forget you're a yidala , right.  Then
suddenly you walk on the street and you meet somebody, you see a
little yamalka
(aa1-36a)
and tzittzits and they will ask you, are you maybe going to
YeRUSheLaYIM .  And suddenly something will happen to you, you
remember gevalt, have to go to YeRUSheLaYIM.  

You know what happened.  You met in Athens thousands of people, t
its nothing.  The yidala who you met, maybe he was Elijah the
Prophet, he was really there right.  Not 'he could have not been
there'.  He really was there.  Really there.  

Listen:
Whatever you do can be on two levels, you know.

Ill tell you somethkg very deep, you know, among friends, right:

Imagine, if someone loves me, I love them, they can say to me, do
me a favor.  So sometimes some people do  me a favor, right.  They
could not_be doing it.  
    But then if Im so close to somebody, I have free chice, right
-- but I really dont.  
     You know sometimes somoene does you a favor, its so much, you
know.  Its really
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there, you know.  Its G_ds existence, right.

Not listen to this.  Kids, I want you to think of it in the
deepest depths:

The first thing that ALMOTE(?) [TRANSCRIBER'S '(?)' ] says:

Not only G_d created the world -- and you know it so happens 'HE'
created the world,                              
(aa1-37a)
        
G_d momish gave us G_d existence.  And now on the deepest level I
want you to know one sweet thing.  Ok brothers:

So Reb Nachaman says one thing, listen to this:

When Im born Im just here in this world.  It so happens I am here. 
But to reach this G_d level, thsi really being here, this is my
own free choice.  

So Reb Nachman says:  HaNR B_LeILaH 
The first thing is, you have to be out 
[ TRANSCRIBER NOTES: 'up(?)' ]
at night.  How can you sleep.  How can you sleep at night.

And I'll tell you something even deeper:  

Night doesn't have to do with time.  Everybody has his own night. 
Sometimes you know, when its very dark in my light in my soul, in
my little world.  The first thing I realize, you know, whats wrong
with me, Im not evn here yet.  Im walking around, from all four
sides.  Im not here.  What do I have to do.  I have to walk at
night, momish alone.

Listen to this:

You know, I can have all the biggest Rebbes
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in the world.  I can study all the books in the world.  But to
give me this G_d existence, this just I alone.  Nobody can do it
for me.  Nobody in the world.  How to get on the level, to get
this holy G_d existence, this truth existence, I have to be there
and completely cleanse my soul, to annihilate myself before G_d. 
How do I get this G_d existence.  If I am completely completely
one with G_d.  My own existence, you understand this, what does it
mean to be momish a servant of G_d.  That means momish Im
completely annihilating myself before G_d.  And suddenly Im living
on G_d existence.  Completely different level.  

And then as he says: 

HaRA'aH B_ChNIH BNFSHI  [ TRANSCRIBER NOTES: '(?)']

This is just the deepest depth.  The ordinary translation is that,
G_d forbid, I am bringing about my own death.  Reb Nachaman says
just the other way around.  You know, ChaYIv means --  
lets says, if someone says to me you're MKUAv , you have to do it. 
Means momish its there.  
    He says then, he gives his own soul the most existence in the
world.  ChaYIv means I have to, it has to be there.  If I have to
give you a hundred dollars, says Im ChaYIv
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I better put the hunded dollars on the table.  Got to be there you
know.  It has to be there.

OK, this is just to give you a taste of it and we have to learn
word by word.           

But now, listen to this:

On what does it depend.  

Listen to this, this is just so deep.  I want you to know, this is
the deepest depths in the world, kids.  The truth is:

When G_d created the world, G_d has free choice not to create the
world, right.  So G_d created the world, so the truth is, the way
the world is, it could__be__or__could__not_be .    
(aa1-39a)

(aa1-39a)
[ That is to say:  Is this mess really necessary? ]
	
Now listen to this, kids.  I want you to put your soul into it,
its heart_breakingly beautiful:

What does it mean that G_d has chosen us yidala.  There's a whole
world, right.  The word can__be__and__can__not_be . 

But then 'HE' has chosen the yidala.

When Im choosing something, its deeper than free choice, right.  

I want you to know something very deep:

I walk into a store

[ Selling Drive_in Marine Supplies to Fish and Sponge_Divers ]

and I buy a shirt.  Then I decide to buy this shirt.  So I have
free choice to buy this shirt, right.  But imagine if I have a
chonce not to be a Jew, then I have to be a human being even, G_d
forbid.  
(aa1-39b)

But tnen I decide I got to be a little yidala.  This is reaching
deeper than my free choice, right.
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It reaches so deep that I realize I can not be without it, right. 
This is what it is, right.  Its the deepest depth there is.  I had
free choice, not right.  But choosing means this is deeper than
free choice.  This means its reaching in such a deep place.

OK, listen:
I have a choice to be a Jew right now, right.  I can walk out of
here and do anything in the world, right.  But the truth is, that
G_d has chosen me and I have chosen G_d.                      
(aa1-40a)

(aa1-40a)
[ And moreover, in the context of traditional religious Judaism. ]

Cant, Im stuck.  Cant, you know.  Someone comes with a gun,
stickcs in my back a gun, and he says, listen brother, I want you
to pray to an idol.
(aa1-40b)	

And I could tell him -- you know, I have free choice -- I could
lie down in front of an idol and pray.  But then I say, brother, I
have no choice, cause Im so much of a yidala, Im believing in G_d
so much, I can't do it any other way.
(aa1-40c)
    
(aa1-40c)
[ This is in accord with the halachic ruling that there are only
few things for which I Jew must if need be give his life -- rather
than commit idolatry, and rather than commit incest, and (if I
recall) rather than commit murder.   As RSC notes elsewhere,
recalling the story of -- an uncle I think it was -- who was in
the army -- I think the Kaiser's army -- and who jumped off a
cliff rather than eat pork -- "the truth is, you don't have to
give your life for pork."  The uncle survived, and went on, I
think to be a prosperous businessman.  This is no a published
teaching, most like from Torah Times, that I input. ]

And the thing is like this, in order to reach thst level, so to
speak friends, on a Jew G_d level, all of Israel, the difference
between us and the whole world, in a very deep level, is that G_d
has chosen us.  We yidala are momish here, right.

How come so many nations were hrre and they left and we are still
here.  Because
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we are momish here, right.  The Romans oculd have been here or not
be there.  The Greeks oculd have here or not be here.

QUESTION:
"Shlomo, you said first that the world could have bene or could
not have been.  Now you say --  'But the yidala are really here'."

RSC:
On a world level, on a whole level, right.  But then soon we'll
come to an individual level.
    You know, it seems [ that ] if G_d decided, there wasn't going
to be the world, then the yidala wouldn't be here.
    Michale, I want you to know you're momish top man, really,
top.  But you see it's like this:  that imagine, G_d created the
world, right, and then, could have been, could not have been.  But
the -- 'HE' chose the yidala.  What's our mission in life -- to
give whis whole world G_d existence.  Cause we got to turn on the
whole world.

What does it mean to prepare the world for the Kingdom of G_d. 
Momish that G_d should shine in the world, right.  Because if the
world                                                          
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is on a G_d existence, then it has to be here, right.

Lets put it this way.  A person who can kill, you know what that
means.  Not the person who is killed, the person who kills isn't 
really here.  Because he is not part of G_d's existence.

[as_it_is_said (Chinese, if I recall), "The hunter cannot see the
trees." ]

Because if he would be part of of G_d existing, how can you kill,
right.  How can you do something to destroy the world.

You see, I'll tell you something if you remember from the Bais
Yakov.

I dont want to get involved now [ in a detailed exposition, but
briefly:]

There are still forces in the world 
(aa1-42a,b)
(aa1-42a,b)
[ or better, following PVK's conceptualization, 'the Universe' ]
that say, G_d, why did you crate the world 
[ or in PVK's terminology, 'the cosmos'. ]

Who needs it.  The whole world is nothing, the whole world is a
joke.  You see, !people who hate, people who kill, they're not
killing this one person, or hating this one person.  They are
sinning against G_ds plan because they think, who needs the whole
world!, right.  

But anyway, right now lets forget about yidala and about the whole
world, becasue Reb Nachman talks about just one person. 

MAIMONIDES really says, he says, 'I swear to you that  any person
in the world, 
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the lowest creep in the world, when he wwants to become a servant
of G_d, can be as holy as the High Priest in the Holy of Holies. 
Thats on an individual level.

So he says ... 

[ 3-dots TRANSCRIPTION , presumably indicating that recorded
lecture ends ]

[TRANSCRIBER NOTES:  TAPE 1 SIDE 2 ENS
                     TAPE 2 SIDE 1 STARTS NEXT PAGE ]

[ 'NEXT PAGE' IS, I THINK, PAGE 1 OF RSC MS. AA2
   Input  =sc_aa2
    WHICH BEGINS AS FOLLOWS, after apparently some TEXT_LOSS:

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Summer 1973, YRUSheLAyIm, Tuesday, Tape 2 Side 1
This apparently follows immediately after RSC Ms. AA1

This is a little bit Reb MENDDELE, CHERNOBLE

So it says here:
The first thing is, a person has to know and to believe, that
there is one G_d, who created everything there is, 

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sa, Campra, 29 June '05, Festival of Peter and Paul  
22 sIvaN
A soft summer shower.

I am greatful to Zenith Camp for giving me the room and board to
input this document.

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