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THIS DOCUMENT IS A CONTINUATION OF =sh_ew44a; FOR EXPLANATORY
NOTES SEE THAT DOCUMENT, p1
R. Shlomo Carlebach, teaching on Adar I, 1986.
Place, precise date, of teaching not given
Transcribed by EW (ms. #ew44, pp67, handwritten)
Input sa, HaOn, 2/95 
=sh_ew44a is input of pp1-30 incl. of manuscript
CONCEPTS: (=sh_ew44a + =sh_ew44b) 
`hiding', `beyond proporition' `imitation'
LEVEL:  I'm still inclined to term this 'mid-level', but it's
rather wide-ranging -- an application of the concept 'beyond
proportion' (Cf. Kierkegaard's 'leap of faith') to a wide range of
topics 

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Editorial notes:  ((  )) sets off a word that occurs in the
transcript, but is better omitted

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[SUMMARY:   The letter of the month of Adar is  Kuf 
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[WHY KUF NOT  Kaf?]
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 , which can be taken (negatively) to stand for monkey, or
(postively) to stand for Kodesh, holiness.  
	The monkey is the paradigmatic imitator, and orthodoxy
"within proportion', ie on the rational level, can be seen as
imitation.  
	Purim represents overcoming Amalek, who is in a sense the
paradigmatic antagonist of the Jewish people, and tends to be
given the role of the Accuser; hence (with R. Shlomo) of the
mocker of Jewish religion.  Hence R. Shlomo imagines Amalek 
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(or more precisely, paradigmatically attributes  to him the anti-
orthodox role of) 
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mocking halachic orthodoxy as mere imitation.

	Purim is also the transcendence of rationality (from the
Purim tradition (Cf. Kitzer Shulchan Aruch 142:6) that one should
become intoxicated to the point that one can not tell 
(or  in R. Shlomo's infinitely more useful [hassidic?]
interpretation, transcends) the distinction between Haman and
Mordechai.  (The Kitzer Shulchan Aruch 142:6 makes it clear that
one who gets drunk disgracefully    -- ought not drink much -sa)
Halachic practice, like most learning, may start as rational,
proportionate imitation; but when it transcends rationality, moves
`beyond proportion', it becomes "for real". -- sa]
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{start ms. p31}

	Basically, the way G-d is punishing us -- driving us out form
the land -- what we went through for 2000 years is completely
beyond proporiton.  We didn't deserve it.  You tell me the
6,000,000 is in proportion.  Beyond proportion. 
Do you know why?  Anything to do with eretz Yisrael is beyond
proportion.  For us, everything is in proportion.  What's Amalek
saying?  Amalek says, everything is in proportion.  Let's cool it,
measure it.  If I measure something, I have to be cool.  If I
don't measure something, I'm blowing my mind.  I'm crazy, right. 
Amalek says Cool it, measure it.  I don't measure it.

	I want you to know the deepest depths:  Yom Kippur is not the
anti--Tesha b'Av.  The real anti--Tesha b'Av is Purim, because on
Tesha b'Av, Meshiach is coming.

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[REFERENCE:  A standard traditional teaching, that Meshiach will
come on Tesha b'Av, and will rebuild the Temple in the twinkling
of an eye.]
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On Purim, we wipe out Amalek, and also Meshiach is coming -- if we
wait until the next morning.
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[I don't know the reference to this.]
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You know after Pesach, I'm not waiting fosr anyting.  It's 19:20,
Pesach is over.  On Purim, when Purim is over, I'm still waiting
until the next morning.  I'm still wawiting for Meshiach.  Being
drunk all night gives me KOaCh, strength to wait all year.  Tisha
b'Av -- BaCheM TiFCheCh B'LILaH, and they cried in the night
[REFRENCE?, Lamentations??] I realize the way YOU punish us is
beyond proportion. 

	When I love a girl a little bit and then we break up -- she
hurts my feelings, I hurt her feelings, we make up -- in
proportion.  If I love the gir the msot, most -- and she hurts my
feelings, I'm angry at her beyond proporition.
	I want you to know something very very {start ms. p32}deep, I
don't want to say anything bad:                            

	Sometimes a person has a fight with someone and I say, I
don't want to ever see you again, as long as I live.  That means,
I love you so much, how could you do wrong to me, I don't want to
ever see you again.  It's beyond proportion, beyond.

	You see, the Ribbono shel Olam says to us, because you
destroyed the Beis haMikdash [spiritually, with 'causeless
hatred', before it was physically destroyed], I don't ever want to
see you again, get out of my land.  But also when Meshiach is
coming it'll be beyond proportion.  The way the Ribbono shel Olam
will bring us back from the four corners of the world.  Ki BaITI
BeIT TFILaH YKRA Ha'AMIM,  "MY House is a house of prayer and will
be called for all the nations".  Suddenly the whole world will
come to Yerushalyism.  It's beyond proportion.  Why should an
Eskimo come to Yerushalyim, why should a Chinaman leave Peking and
come to daven in Yerushalyim.  It's byond proporiton, it's crazy,
right.

	Here I want so share something very deep with you:  
	There is a gevalt SOKACHOVER tora:  in fact, the whole thing
I've been telling you, in my heart, is based on this tora.  It's a
gevalt SOKACHOVER tora.  
	Everybody knows -- a Gazlan (thief), hat v'shalom come with a
knife and says, Give me your money.  The Bet Din 

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BET DIN: (in times of the Jewish Commonwealth, the (Jewish)
Judiciary; in modern times, a court whose authority is restricted
to religious affairs and mutually-requested arbitration) 
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catches him and he has to give back the money.  A little GaNuF
(Yiddish, thief) comes late at night, breaks into your house, no
one sees -- {start ms. p32} -- no one catches him, he has to pay
back double. [REFERENCE: Chumash(?): _____].  Who's the bigger
criminal?  One comes with a knife!

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[and yet although he committed armed robbery, if he was
apprehended he only has to make restitution, whereas an unarmed
burglar who is not apprehended has* [mynote incomplete]] 
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	Ok, so all the rebbes say toras, this is the Sokachover tora. 

	The Sokachover says it like this:
	What's the deepest deepest leve in serving G-d?  The deepest
level of serving G-d is you do something and no-one(? __ ms.
unclear)  knows about it.  
	You know, I talked to someone, and (without saying anything
bad, without hurting anyone's feelings:)  A yiddle told me, you
have to meet Swami, he's a holy man.  I'm not knocking it.  So I
told him:  your Swami is very holy -- but you know the difference
between him and my Rebbe?  You know every minute what your Swama-
la is doing.  

I have no idea what my rebbe is doing -- everything is hidden.  I
don't trust my soul which is hidden to someone who is serving G-d
and everybody knows.
 
	The Sakachover says the deepest thing in the world.  The
highest thin in the world is to serve G-d without anybody knowing. 
Gevalt.  And to do an avera that nobody knows -- you take the
highest thing that G-d gave you and you utilize it for an avera --
that's unforgiveable!

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[Ok, R. Shlomo is hear clearly referring to left-hand siddhis,
'black magic', for which indeed the Chumash requires capital
punishment. --sa]
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Do you do it like a bandit who comes with a knife?  YOu didn't
utilize that holy G-d--linen?? doing something B'SaTeR, hidden. 
	It's a gevalt tora, right?

	And I want you to know:
	Always parshas MISHPATIM is always on Adar Rishon (Adar I) or
Adar Sheni (Adar II).  {start ms. p34}  

Always beginning on Purim. 
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{TRANSCRIPT SIC; BUT POSSIBLY SOMETHING MISSING IN TRANSCRIPTION
FROM TAPE}
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	If I love someone beyond proportion, I want to do things for
them without them knowing.  When I love someone beyond proportion,
I want to be with them always without anyone knowing.

	What's the Beis haMikdash all about?  The Beis haMikdash is
that mamash yidden say, Ribbono shel Olam, I love you so much, I
need a House to be with you. 

	Now listen to this:  
	As long as we love yidden beyond proportion, we have the Beis
haMikdash.  We begin hating each other, measuring yidden.  G-d
says, I'm ready to be with you, but you don't need me in a House -
- you can talk to me on the street.

	I want to you to know -- Agam?? (or HEBREW??} , at the
beginning of the Chupah, you cover the face of the bride ( WEDDING
BEDECKEN ).  Mamash, I love you beyond proportion.  I want you to
love me beyond proportion.  Everything beyond proportion.

	I want you to know, Esther says:  V-K-ASheR AVaDaTi AVaDaTi,
(Megillat Esther, 4:13: if I'm lost, I'm lost; or more usually
translated:  and if I perish, I perish.)  

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[As dramatic, eloquent, and poignant as any passage from I've
read. -sa]
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THE QUEST FOR A POLITICALLY CORRECT MEGILLAH, TAKE 2: 

	Why be so negative, she should say:  I'm sure, I took a
course in self-esteem and I listen to these tapes and I listen to
the whole thing, you realize my potential; Mordechai comes and
says, Esther you're so good; Do you tell that to every girl?;  No,
just to you, you look so good; No, sorry, {start ms. p35} I didn't
go to the beauty parlour for 2 days, I look so bad; No no, you're
beautiful, think you can change Ahasherus and talk him out of it;
You think I could? -- So 

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[as it is written in The Sacred Politically Correct Book of
Esther, Chapter IV:A ] 
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Esther goes to the beauty parlour and she makes sure her lipstick
doens't stain because she has to kiss Ahasherus; he has a new??
shirt on.

Can you imagine that?  Can you imagine that? {FNew44b(5)}

You know what the Medresh 
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[sic; but this is in Megillat Esther 4:16,:  Is it also in
Midrash? -sa] 
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says:  Esther fasted for three days.  
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[Which ain't easy when you're not drinking water; and they
weren't. (Megillat Esther 4:16)]
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Because the craziest thing -- if Esther is going to charm
Ahasherus she better eat, she better have Koach, strength.  She
didn't go for a crash course in Charm School to make sure she
walks in gracefully.

  
	Not that Esther was not was not beautiful.  There is a
MaChLoKeT 
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[machloket: religious Hebrew, dispute amongst religious
commentators; loosely and colloquially, an argument] 
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if Esther was one of the seven most beautiful women or not.  A
MaChLoKeT in the Geomrah, not so simple.  [REFERENCE?].  

	But she says, AVaDati AVaDati.  If I'm lost I'm lost, why be
sing?? or {HEBREW}?? ; I'm lost anyway.
	Esther didn't go to "Ahasherus and say [to herself], You know
something, I know I can do it.  She had no idea how to do it -- if
I know how to do it, it's already in proportion. 
	K-ASheR AVaDaTi AVaDaTi -- 
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{TRANSCRIPT SIC, here and supra; k'asher, not v'k'asher}
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If I'm lost I'm lost; tther is no way for me to do it -- but I'm
doing it anyway!  I have no idea how to to it -- no idea -- no
idea!

	On Yom Kippur, I'm studying before G-d and {start ms. p36}
doing tsuva.  I say, Ribbon shel Olam, last year I ate a hamburper
on Yom Kippur, this year I won't; last year I didn't learn, this
year I will.  You know how to keep the Torah, right.  

	On Purim, I'm standing and I say, I don't have the faintest
idea, I'm drunk, I don't even know.  You ask what my tzitsis look
like, I don't know, I have no idea; you ask me if I know how to
put on tfillin, I don't know.  `aD ShiLoA YeD`a , until I don't
know.  I don't know anything.  But Ribbono shel Olam, when I put
on tfillin tomorrow morning, it's beyond proportion -- I'm sure
in?? the last minute you'll show me how to do it.  So much deeper.


	Let me tell you friends:  we know how to do everything. 
Torah sh'ba'al Peh is only revealed to someone who mamash knows
that they don't know.  
	Remember the most unbelievable thing; I think I told you last
time:

	The ALTER REBBE wrote a letter to the REBBE REB ZUSHA and he
writes, 'to HaGaon Ha'emete(?) Reb Zusha -- to the genius, the
truthful one, [or: `to the true genius'? - sa] Reb Zusha.  

	The MITTLER REBBE is standing there and he says, what?  H can
write HaRav HaKodesh (the holy one) but HaGaon?  So the Alter
Rebbe told him this story:

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[THE STORY THE ALTER REBBE TOLD TO THE MITTLER REBBE ABOUT REBBE
REB ZUSHA :]

	One time, from the MEZRICHER MAGGID from Lita(?), the Alter
Rebbe was a gevalt(?).  REBBE YITZAK m'BERDITCHER was a Gaon Adir
(an unbelieveable genius).

{start ms. p37}

[The Alter Rebbe continued his story:] 
Rebbe Yitzak m'Berditcher 
{ transcript sic; but usually simply BERDITCHEV ? }
and I were talking together about a very heavy [interpetation by
the] Rambam.  We couldn't figure it out.  The Rebbe, Reb Zusha, so
holy, so humble, was walking behind us, listening to every word. 
He was getting on our nerves.  "Reb Zusha, it's not for you, we're
talking learning."  And Reb Zusha says, "Zusha wants to hear
everything."  And he was getting on our nerves!  So we thought, we
have to get rid of him.   So we say, "Reb Zusha, Here's the [book
with the  teaching of] the Rambam" -- we though we'd get rid of
him.  So b'ruch haSHEM, he took the Rambam and he walked out. 
Half hour later, he's back, his eyes red with tears -- and he
tells us PShat, the simple meaning of the Rambam -- heavenly.  

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[RSC Comments on the Alter Rebbe's story that he is recounting:]
See, beyond, proporition.
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[The Alter Rebbe continues his story:] 
"Zusha, how'd you come to this [interpretation]?"  So Zusha said,
"Zusha went into a room, so Zusha was crying before haSHEM that
Zusha doesn't know PShat in the Rambam.  So the Rambam came and
taught PShat."

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[RSC Comments:]
This is not learning -- it's Meshiach beyond proportion -- beyond
proportion.


THAT WHICH IS `BEYOND PROPORTION' CAN NEVER BE TERMED 'IMITATION'

	So I want you to know something, the deepest depths:
	Imitation is exactly in proportion.  Imagine if I told the
Bobover Rebbe, you are imitating your father, the way he was a
Rebbe - there?? he Has it figured out in his head, the way his
father walks into shul, how his father says HoDU L_(SHEM) Ki ToV -
- Praise the Lord for HE is good -- 
	If you do something beyond proportion it's not imitation
anymore, it's one acid test, if you do something beyond
proportion, I cannot imitate it.


{START MS. P38}

	So you see, Haman(?) Amalek comes to me and says,  Kuf, you
are a monkey.  So [I] say back, Kuf is Kodesh - holy - you know
how holy yiddele are?  Nobody imititates - it's for real.  It's
for real.


	And I want you to know:  when I hate somebody, you know what
I say?  Even the good things they do are imitation because
basically they are rotten to the the core.  You know what the holy
Temple was destroyed.  Becasue we hated each other

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[REFERENCE:  Standard (traditional) teaching, the (2nd) Temple was
destroyed because of causeless hatred.

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I say the little good you are doing is Koof -- it's Amalek --
that's his tora.

	But mamash I want you to know something so deep:
	If I am loving you just by imittion, I cannot send you an
apple and orange.  You don't need it.  IF I love you for real, you
send me one apple and one orange, it's so precious.

/-------------

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[REFERENCE:  Kitzer Shulchan Aruch 142:1:  for shelach manos one
should send at least 2 edible gifts (which do not require further
preparation) to at least 1 friend, and must give at least 1 gift
to 2 poor persons.
(Curiously, I have not seen a teaching on this 2-1:1-2 symmetry.)
The custom nowadays is not to send a sumptuous gift to anyone, nor
to distinguish between friend and needy persons, but to send a
number of nominal but attractive gifts, typically 2 fruits and a
nip of wine in an attractive packet, to a number of
acquaintances.]
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	I want you to now friends:  what the first [sign?] of an
assimilated Jew -- nebech, they lost the torah of the apple and
the orange.  
	You know friends, between parents and children, if you cannot
send each other an apple and an orange, and you blew your mind
over it, then you are very far from each other. 
	You now, if Neshama or Dari give me one half piece of cake, I
blow my ind over it.  It's holier than shirgum (food from the
Rebbe's Table) from the Ba'al Shem Tov.  

/-------------

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[Elsewhere R. Shlomo teaches, more or less:  if Aaron haCohen were
to knock on the door, and my children would ask me for something,
and I tell them, don't bother me now, Aaron haCohen is here, he
would say sorry, I guess I got the wrong address. -sa]
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It's not in proprotion, because I love them so much.

	On Yom Kippur, I cannot send you an apple and an orange.

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[And so it is said:  one must make restitution to all whom one has
injured, to the limit of one's physical resources, before Yom
Kippur. -sa]
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IF you are a rich man you don't need my apple and orange.  On
Purim it's utomost non-imitation.  Even the megillah -- maybe you
can imitate -- it has trop [trop: cantillation marks, indicating
the reqired traditional chant] in it.  You have to read it
properly  {start ms. p39} You have to hear every world.  It's
still measure.  Shelach manos is completely beyond measure.  And
after shelach manos, 'aD SheLo YeD'a, until you don't know.

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[Reference: Cf. Kitzer Shulchan Aruch 142:3, the principal feast
is to be held in the daytime; hence, that it is after shaharit,
and after sending shelach manos, that one takes to drinking
alcohol; presumably that which one has been sent for shelach
manos, and so the poor join equally in the feast.
Hence the common practice of getting drunk after the reading of
the Megillah on erev Purim is not entirely appropriate.  

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And how can I insist the Purim be kept in proportion?  I say:  is
there a better-proportioned writing than the Megillah (through
Chapter VII; the rest reads like Postscripts.)* 

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	I want you to know the deepest depths: 
	Amalek is only falling into the hands of Rachel.  Because
Rachel is the firdt one who did something for her sister, beyond
proportion.  Beyond proprortion.  
	And then -- Yehuda tells Yosef the whole story, I'm not sure
of it, true or not, but let me say it anyhow:  

/-------------------
#l2
[That is:  R. Shlomo is suggesting a Midrash, which he says may or
may not be authentic (or: is  his own?) that when Yehuda drew near
to Josef (Genesis: 44:18 PARASHA VAYIGASH (1)) Yehuda confided in
Josef the Midrash of Rachel giving Leah the simonim; and that it
was hearing this Midrash of selfless sibling love which moved
Josef to forgive his brothers. -sa]
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When Yosef hears the story of Rachel and Leah, he says, my mother
(??) is beyond proportion.  I want to be beyond proportion too, on
the level of Koof - of imitation, but for real. I'll forgive my
brothers -- ANi YOSeF AChINa, I am Josef your brother [Genesis:
45:4 ] -- I forgive you -- forget it, it's all for the best.
 
	After we read the Megillah, we are beyond preoportion. 
Yehuda comes and tells the children of Yosef, I want you to know,
that we are the children of Leah, we are learning from you how to
be beyond proportion.  Learning from somebody else is also only on
the beyond-proportion level.

{INTERMSSION -- SINGING}

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{R. SHLOMO RESUMES HIS TEACHING}

	For the newcomers -- let me tell you quick what we were
learning.

	This month [Adar] is the month of laugher.  
 
	What is joy and what is laughter?  

	I said one tora-le: {Cf. Supra =sh_ew44a , The tora of
Macy's' Bargain Basement}

If I go to Macy's and I buy a suit which is worth $500 and I get
it for $400, it's in proportion, I am joyous.  If I get a $500
suit for one dollar -- it's laughter [Cf. French: c'est pour rire]
-- it's crazy.  
	So I said one tora: 
	Yom Kippur and Purim, the difference is like this:  On Yom
Kppur, G-d gives me a new year in {start ms. p40} proportion I say
I'll do tsuva, I'll do good, I'll learn -- What G-d is giving out
on Pur9im is beyond peoporiton.  Why on Puirm is there no Sefer --
you can only wdrite donw things in proporiton.  They're beyond
proportion, you can't write down. 

	Moshe says to Yehoshua  KiTOV ZAT B-SeFeR V-S(h)IM B-AoZNI,
write it in a book and tell it in the ears of Yehoshau? 
{REFERENCE: Deuteronomy(?): _____} 

	What are the two things?  Are you telling or writing it down? 
Why do you have to tell it?  What is it, a secret? 
	Anything which is in proportion, you can wrie down.  Beyond
proportion --

	What's Amalek coming to do?  Amalek comes to yidden, 'Cool
it' -- ASheR QoRQa B-DeReQ -- he cooled you off on the way.

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[N.B.:  I am trying to switch now to Q as transliteration of Kuf 
, and will try to use K , rather than Kh , for  Kaf.  Q is
outdated uncomfortable but not unacceptable in conventional
transliteration, and takes us closer to a 1-to-1 ASCI 128.]
                                  --------------------\\
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Everything in in proprotion.  You did 100 sins, you get 100
punishments {FNew44b(10)sa}
-- everyting in proproiton, play it cool, nothing to get excited
about.  I go to a grocyer store, I pay 1 dollar for bread, I don't
get excited.  There's a big sale, selling bread for a penny, I am
excited!

	The biggest anti-Amalek is that everythig is byeond
proprotion -- beyond proportion!  

	So in a nutshell: 
	We are learning that this month is the letter Koof.  Koof is
monkey - imitation.  YOu can only imitate anything that is in
proportion.  Beyond proportion, yuou cannot immitate.  The moment
--

	When people get married, on that day is Yom Kippur. {Cf.
\WED1094: =sh3wyom, Excerpted wedding teachings on the similarity
of the wedding-day to Yom Kippur}.  Now the chupah begins with
covering the face of the bride -- on the leve of `aD ShiLO YeD`a -
- until you don't know.

//-------------------------
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{N.B.:  I'm trying to switch over to using ` rather than ' as the
transliteration of Ayin, but with neither of those standardized on
ASCII I'm not sure if it makes any difference. }
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Purim [??? -- my '95 input sic.]

{start ms. p41}

You know what the Chatan is telling the Kallah (bride) - that our
marriage beyond proportion.  Let it be beyond proportion.

WEDDING - SHEVA BRACHAs:

	Each night, if you do a mitzva, you make one bracha.  
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[I'm not clear of the reference for this.]
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7 bracha's, are you crazy?  And for 7 days?  Beyond proportion.  I
don't want Amalek to have any part of my wedding.

/-------------------------

#l2
[That is:  Why do the wedding guests bless the marriage couple 7
times after supper, and for 7 consecutive days, a total of 49
bracha's; the proportion-ate response to their getting married
would be to bless them once;  or at most, only on one day.  
And of course the figure 49 occurs only in 2 other contexts:  the
counting of the Omer, and the Jubilee. -sa]
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	Also the other way -- if you love someone in proportion and
you send them a gift, it better be something special.  If you love
someone byeond proportion you can send them an apple and a piece
of cake, it'll blow their mind.
	Shelach manos is so deep.

	So Miriam (?) {presumably the Guest of Honor}, I want to
bless you that G-d should bless you beyond proportion.  And you
know, sometimes people get older and they learn -- also in
proportion.  When you are 10, you know more than when you are 1,
when you are 20, you know more than when you are 10, so you know
more, 50, you know more -- and sometimes, the real anti-Amalek
people -- they know beyond proportion -- so much deeper.	And so I want to bless you to connect with people who love you
beyond proportion.  
	-- We live in western civilization -- everything is in
proportion. -- 


	Everybody knows:  Ya'akov is wiping out Esav.  
	Ya'kov and Esav -- we were learning it 1000 times:  
	Why is it -- that [when] Yitzak married Rivka, she was tested
[so then]  why didn't Ya'akov. when he married Rachel, why didn't
he test her?  
	Where did Esav go off?  
	Esav was serving G-d on the level of proportion. 
 
/-------------------------
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[REFERENCE:  The Commentators, following the pshat
characterization in Genesis of a non-intellectual, impulsive man,
prone to violent anger but also to heart-felt sympathy,  deal in
some respects rather sympathetically with Esav, focusing on his
bringing his father venison, and his grief when he learned he had
been deprived of the blessing.  But Esav then becomes a code-name
for Rome, and is in that respect depicted as of very bad
character. -sa]
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Eventually he became a(?) murderer.  Ya'kov was {start ms. p42}
obviously serving G-d beyond proportion.  So you know what the
bracha says:  SiMOI MiN Ha-'aYin [REFERENCE?] -- hidden from the
eye.  It's beyond proportion.  So when he meets Rachel, he doesn't
test her -- you only test people that you love on a proportional
level -- beyond proportion, what's there to test.

	When you read the Megillah, you are wiping out Amalek.  		Because:  Why is G-d hiding?  Why is G-d's name not written in the
Megillah?  When you give something beyond proportion, it's too
awesome.  I cannot even show my face.  I'm hiding.  
	When I want to give my two daughters a present, it's beyond -
- I don't want them to know that I give it to them.  G-d's name is
not written in the Megillah because what G-d is giving us on
Purim, HE doesn't want us to know.

	Remember we are learning that chlidren are born with their
eyes closed -- because they know that their parents want to give
them things beyond proportion.  So shelach manos is BiNYaN BeIT
Ha-MiKDaSh -- building the holy Temple.  After MeChIaT 'aMaLeK --
wiping out Amalek -- you build the Bais HaMikdash.  
	Why did we hate each other -- we were measuring yidden --
shelach means, when I love you so much, beyond proportion, I'm
ready for Binyan Beit HaMikdash.
	In the Beit HaMikdash, the time is not from sunset to sunset,
but from morning to morning. 

/--------------------

#l2
[REFERENCE:  In Temple times, the sacrifices of the day concluded
with the afternoon sacrifice, which was left on the fire until the
next morning; there was no evening sacrifice; hence the Ma'ariv
prayer does not correspond to a Temple sacrifice.  Thus sunset,
or* the appearance of the stars marks, in Temple times, primarily
the end of the previous day 

#l3
[eg, as debated in the first passage of Talmud, for priests who
needed to wait until the next day to re-enter the Temple, and
whose cleansing in water was completed with the setting of the sun
] 
#l2
and only secondariliy marks start of the next day.
 
	-- So one could say:  when the Temple was standing, the day
began in light; after the Temple was destroyed, the day began with
darkness. --  sa* 
                                          ---------------------\


So after shelach manos when I start the seudah [the festive meal
of Purim, which occurs on the day of Purim] it's already like
after Meshiach has come and keeps the seudah going until the next
morning, because it's already the time of the {start ms. p43}

Beis HaMikdash.

	How do you know if someone loves you on the level of beyond
preportion?  If someone gives you an apple and you shiver --
((and))  It's beyond proportion.

	What's tora Sh'Ba`aL PeH -- if I learn 
V-Y-DaBeR (ha-SHEM) AL MoSheH L-AMOR, and G-d spoke to Moses, I
look at the Hertz translation -- 
I will never make any tora out of it.  But if every word of the
Torah blows my mind -- you can make up the deepest toras in the
world. 

	So remember:
	Purim is the beginning of Torah Sh'Ba'aL PeH.  Torah sh'ba'al
Peh is its Torah, right?  And you remember Rabbi Akiva is the real
fixing of Esav -- BNeI BaNaYV SheL HaMaN LOMDIN TORaH B-BNeI BRaK
-- BNeI B-BeNaYV SheL 'eSaV -- The sons of Haman are learning
Torah in B'nei B'rak -- they are the sons of Esav. [REFERENCE? ] 
Yitsak wants to give Esav the bracha because he saw the neshama
(soul) of Rabbi Akiva -- Rabbi Akiva is the emes (true) mind-
blower -- not only over the words, over the lettes over the targum
(the translation of each letter).  He loves the torah so much, he
blows his mind over everything.

	On Shabbos, if you miss one world of the parasha (the
portion) you are YoTzeI(?) - (you still have the mitzva of hearing
it)

/------------------------- 
#l2
[in virtue of having included yourself in the community of people
who performed the mitzva; in the same sense, one can choose (but
cannot be constrained) to be included in a kiddush or havdalah,
confirmed by responding `Amen' - sa).
                                                ---------------\
  
#l1
But the Megillah -- if I miss one word, I'm not {start ms. p44}
YotSeI.  Because: if I blow my mind over every word, if I miss one
word, one letter, I have to read it again.

/-----------------------
#l2
[In practice this is not enforced, that I know of.  However, in
any orthodox synagogue, despite the merriment, the reader will be
quite firm about ensuring that the congregation quiet down after
each outburst of noise. -sa]
                                               ----------------\

#l1
	Why is Amalek falling [in]to the hands of Rachel?  Because
Rachel is the first person to do something beyond proportion --
giving over the sign [transcript sic, but usually, simonim, signs]
to Leah was beyond proportion.

	Basically I want you to know:
	For children, until we teach them to be proportional,
everything is beyond proportion.  Everything is beyond proportion.

 
	Without getting involved [in the details of this teaching:] 
You know the ZITTICHOVER tora:  Purim is the holiday of children . 
Beyond proportion.

/-------------------------
#l2
That teaching is input in =sh_t1 .  I have exerpted it in numerous
selections, but not found it in any more detail than what follows
(quoted verbatim, teachings of R. Shlomo): 

The ZIDICHOVER had a commentary:
Yakov said to Esau, "l'regel haMlava v'l'regel haYeladim"  ("By
the pace of the cattle and the pace of the children." )  'Regel
haMlaba' can mean "the holidays when you are not permitted to
work", which are Pesach, Shavuos, and Succos.  'Regel haYiladim'
can mean "the holidays of the children", which are Channukah and
Purim.

It is a mind-blowing commentary.  Chanukah and Purim are the
strongest holidays for the children.  Chanukah and Purim are
Meshiach's Yom Tovim (holidays).  When we celebrate the past, the
adults know more.  When we are celebrating the future, the kids
know best.  Chanukah is the light of the Meshiach.  When it comes
to Torah sh'b'tav, the written Torah, in a strange way, maybe I am
better.  Torah shebal Peh, the oral torah, belongs to my
children."                                                       
[CONCLUDE MY RSC QUOTE FROM OTHER INPUT DOC ]
                                                ----------------\

#l1
Purim is so deep that I can't even go up to my friend[s] and bless
them (eg) -- `I bless you with a good year' -- it's in preportion 
#l2
[to bless someone for no less nor more than the next (365366)
days]
#l1
I'm just sending you an apple and an orange.

	Remember we were learning about:  Eretz Israel is beyond
proportion [supra, =sh_ew44a].  We were driven out 2000 years ago
and we are coming back -- it's beyond proportion.  And also, the
learning, basically, the way G-d punished us, in Galutz  
-- it's also beyond proportion; we didn't deserve so much.
	If you love somebody very very very much and you hurt their
feelings -- you're angry and your anger is beyond proportion --  
NaChaMU K-FLIYiM -- comfort is multiplied -- [REFERENCE?] also
beyond proportion -- Meshiach is coming  Eskimos are coming to
daven in Yerushalyim.
It's beyond proportion.                  

	Right after Amalek it says V-YIShM`a YiTRO -- Yitro heard
{REFERENCE:  PARASHA YITRO (1) Exodus 18:1}.  What's the
connection?  Because after we fought Amalek, we made G-d available
beyond proportion.

{start ms. p45}

On a proportional level, Yitro has no way of coming.  He was the
Pope of the Pagan world.
 
/-----------------------
#l2
[REFERENCE:  The Chumash (Exodus 2:16 terms Yitro 'the Priest of
Midian' (as distinct from 'a Midianite priest', which is also
grammatically possible).]  Rashi comments: "The chief among them
(RaV Sh-KoHeN); he separated himself from idolatry, so the
excommuniated him (Sh. R. 1)."
                                            ------------------\
#l1
On a proportional level, he will never make it.  Suddenly he
heard.  Beyond proportion.

	I want you to know friends, listen to this:
	KiRYaT YaM SUF -- parting of the Re(e)d Sea -- it's beyond
proportion.  Every miracle has limits.  Yitro heard about Kiryat
Yam Suf.  Why is it that when we crossed the Red Sea, the lowest
ShiFChaH [handmaid] - the lowest woman saw more than YeCheZkeL
(Ezekiel) the Prophet [noted for his vision, in exile by the
waters of Iraq, of the Merkava, throne-chariot] -- beyond
proportion.

	You know friends:  the first time we had a vision of Meshiach
is when we crossed the Red Sea -- because Meshiach is beyond
proportion.

	Firends, I want you to know that:
	This whole month [of Adar, any Adar; in this case, Adar I 
is MaRBIM B-SiMCha - to make great joy.

	I want you to know - what's the deepest depths:
	The whole theory(?) of tsuva is it has to be beyond
proportion.  Why is the Ba'al tsuva B-ReG'aK? ChaDA V-B-ShaTA
ChaDA?? - in one second, in one moment .  Tsuva from(?) Yirah
(fear, or more precisely awe, of G-d) means:  I account every step
- in proportion.  I did one thing wrong, I do 100 things good. 
Tsuva from AVoDaH is:  I love G-d so much.

	If I love a girl a little bit, I count -- you hurt my
feelings 10 times, I hurt your feelings 12 times, Ok, you owe me
two, Ok.  If I love somebody very much {start ms. p46} you are not
counting.  

	I want you to knwo the deepest depths:
	Chanukah is very holy -- it's still a bit proportional.  You
add [one candle each day], it's in proportion.  Yesterday was one,
tonight is two, yesterday was 4, today is 5.  Purim is something
else.  I don't know.  I don't know anything.
	  V-DIgLO `aLI AHaVaH AL TiTKRI DiGLo ALA DiLIBO, His flag is
on me with love.  [REFERENCE??] Don't call it his flag.  I don't
know anything.

	Everybody knows that:
	Yitro is the neshama [reincarnated soul] of Cain and Moshe is
the neshama of Hevel [Abel].  [REFERENCE?].  There are certain
averot where tsuva doesn't help.  Basically, if you kill someone,
there is no way of doing tsuva.  You kill someone, tsuva doesn't
help. 
But all the rebbes say one thing:  
Tsuva from Ahava helps. 
So the way I want to say it now:  it should be beyond proportion. 

	Yitro wanted to fix the killing of Heval [Abel].  He knew
there is way for me [Yitro as the reincarnation of Cain] to do
tsuva.  Suddenly he hears, there is something in the world beyhond
proportion.  Kiryat Yam Suf (Crossing of the Reed Sea.).  RiTaH
ShiFChaH 'AL HaYaM, even the lowest [handmaiden] saw the miracle. 
He saw that G-d revealed to us that Meshiach is coming -- that
everything is beyond proportion.  He says, I'm coming, right.  And
you know what he heard also?  He heard that thinking that things
are in proportion is {start ms. p47} the greatest evil in the
world.   He didn't know that just thinking that everything was in
proportion is so terrible -- he thought, I believe in G-d,
everything is good, but everything is in proportion.
 
He heard that Moshe Rabbneu is fighting Amalek, Amalek comes and
says, Yidden, don't fool yourself, everything is in proportion. 
MiLChaMah L'(haSHEM) B-'aMaleK M-DoR DoR, G-d is at war with
Amalek from all generations  {REFERENCE: Exodus_17:16}  The
greatest evil in the world is to think that things have to be in
proportion.

	This morning I was reading the Reader's Digest; I was sitting
on El Al and I saw a gevalt article.  He writes that his son of 12
comes home and says, Daddy I love you.  `My first reaction was, 
What do you want.  So he says, I tell you the truth, my teacher
told the whole class to go home and tell your father you love him
and tomorrow and I want to hear what your father says.  So I was
very angry, what kind of chutzpah is this.  A teacher is supposed
to teach geography, history, whatever -- who is he to mingle into
our personal private life?  Who is the teacher?  So he says, Our
gym teacher.  The biggest chutzpa in the wordl  How disguisting! 
He's suppsoed to teach you thow to hang onto the walls -- who is
he to mingel in?  So I said to my son, you are btininh in a report
tomorrow, every student is supposed to bring in a reprot of what
their father said.  So the report was -- 85-90% of the fathers
said,  when the sons said, I love you, What do you want.  They
can't bring themnselves to say, I love you also, love you so much. 
{start ms. p48}

So he says, I called up this gym teacher and I asked why he told
the children to ask their fathers?  [The gym teacher answered], Do
you know why so many chidren are sick (physically) -- because you
don't tell them `I love you'.  He wanted to teach the children how
to be healthy.  You can't do anything if you don't tell them you
love them.  It's a gevalt tora, a rebbishe tora.

	See, I want you to know the deepest depths: 
	-- You know why some of us are so sick -- inside, outside. 
Because there's nobody in the world who loves us beyond
proportion. --

Purim, everybody knows, REB LEBELE EIGER says, comes from the
letters    (?) ReFuaH (healing).  What's Amalek?  Amalek wants
to make us sick.  He doens't really want to wipe us out 

#l2
[Could have fooled me.  REFERENCE??]
#l1

-- he wants to make us sick.  So on Purim, when I send shelach
manos -- we have the power to wipe out sickness. 

	I want you to know something else:
	The greatest sicknerss in the world is hatred.  SiNaT ChiNuM
- hating for no reason (causeless hatred) - is sickness.   By
Matan Torah -- giving of the Torah -- obviously you can't stand on
Mount Sinai if you are sick, because everybody knows on Mount
Sinai, everybody, physically, could hear.

	I want to say something awesome.  The Egyptians made us sick
physically.  

/-----------------------
#l2
[Granted, slave labour ain't like summer camp, but REFERENCE??
#l3
And so Jewish law in the Chumash, although allowing servitude of
debtors and captives, repeatedly forbids 'slave labour', the
oppressive servitude of the Egyptians.  (Eg, Sarna notes that
Jewish law required that if a master so much as broke the tooth of
his slave, the slave was to be freed.] 
                                                  -------------\

#l1
We were falling off from the pyramids.  Everything was broken. 
The Gemorah says, everyone was broken.  Blind??, broken, couldn't
hear, couldn't see.  When Amalek came, before Matan Torah, they
made us sick, deep, deep inside(?).

{start ms. p49}
                                                       
	I want you to know something, the deepest depths:
	When you hate somebody, you don't trust them.  
	Imagine, I hate somebody and they tell me, I'll meet you at
twelve  --  
 
	Why did you make the Golden Calif?  Becuase we didn't trust
Moshe.  Moshe Rabbenu told us -- Moshe emes Toras Emes
[REFERENCE??] -- every word that Moshe tells us is true.  He told
us he'd get us out of Egypt, he did; he told us he'd give us the
"mun" [manna, heavenly food eaten in the desert], he did.  He
brought us to Mt. Sinai, he did.  He said, I'm coming back. 
[REFRENCE:  Exodus 24:14] Why all of a sudden you think he's not
coming back?  The reason is because Amalek comes.

/---------------------
#l2
[REFEREMCE:  The episode of Amalek occurs in Exodus after the
episode of the gathering of the manna.]
                                               ----------------\
#l1
	So we didn't receive -- outside we did, but inside, the Torah
we didn't receive, because we were sick inside.
	So Purim is the utmost ReFuaH (healing) of the inside of
Yidden.  And therefore KIMU V-KIBLU (we did and re received
[REFERENCE: ________]??

The outside Torah you can also receive in your head.  SiTRY TORaH,
secrets of the Torah,  Torah sh'Ba'al Peh, is Meshiach's torah. 
If you hate, you can't (receive it).  So what is?? KIMO L-MaTaH,
KiBiLO L-M'aLaH, Torah for upstairs -- the heavenly Torah. 
[REFERENCE??] Do you know how to recieve the ToRah?  
	Because basically when I receie the Megillah it's still Torah
sh'b'KTaV (the written Torah).  When do I receive this heavenly
Torah?  When I send shelach manos. 

	I want you to know something very deep:
	Today the world is into prevention, right?  I want to say
{start ms. p50} a gevalt.  On Purim it's mamash when I'm sick,
Amalek came already.  And he knocked me off. 
Kill myself.                                

	PURIM KATAN is on the level of prevention.  Because it's
before.  I'm knocking off a litte Purim Katan, taking a little
extra vitamin.  Becuase it's so dangerous -- gevalt - when I see
the whole world sick with hatred, I need some extra vitamins.
	Mamash, I want to bless you and me with an emes (truthful), 
[or better, 'true' -- sa ('95 note)] Purim Katan.

[THIS RSC TEACHING CONTINUES AS =shxew44q.  A short rant concludes
this doc.]

//----------------


#l3
[sa ('95 note), 14 Adar I 1995, which to our shame is Ramadan 15]*

#l4
[[N.B.: I suppose in that '95 note I was referring to the time
that an immigrant M.D. who had treated terror victims and had
fallen into hate-filled crypto--neo-facist company in the USA, and
who rarely if ever drank, became drunk on Purim, entered a holy
site, and murdered Muslims as they knelt in their daily prayer. 
That deranged act was repudiated by almost the entire Jewish
community of the land of Israel.  
As I remarked in a Letter to the JP; that act is a lasting shame
to the people of the land of Israel; and no monument should stand
in this land at the gravesite of its perpetrator (may his soul
find rest).  (sa 3 Mar '04, 10 Adar),]
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[SORRY FOR THE INTERJECTION; but that bit of Kach idiocy has left
a shadow on Purim; the movement is legally banned in Israel, and
ought not be tolerated ]

[[ HERE I HAVE TO CUT THE BALANCE OF =shx44b, because W.EXE has a
65K filesize limit; so I'll continue it as =shxew44c, to which I
will append my cleanup of =sh_ew44c as =shxew44c. ]]
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