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R. SHLOMO CARLEBACH -- ADAR I 1986 
transcribed by Emunah Witt, transcription #EW44, pp67,
handwritten, notebook, "Green notebook" 
input sa Haon 2/95 from xerox
The xerox I am working from loses a letter or so on the right
margin sometimes
EW gives Hebrew both in Hebrew script and in transliteration; I
will type in only the transliteration.  EW also translates terms;
I will put those in braces  [   ]
PRIMARY THEME:  Purim is beyond proportion
CONCEPTS DEVELOPED: 'Hiding', 'proportion' 
MONTH: Adar I 
----------------------------------------------------------------

{START MS. P1}
*
Just remembered a good story -- don't think I told it to you:  		
After the Helige Rebbe Meirlach left the world, so his son Reb
LAZAR, and his second son took his place.  A few days, after Reb
Merlach left the world, or maybe a few weeks, a lady comes in and
she says, Bless me to have children.  So they said, it's not so
simple.  They were kvetching a little bit -- they weren't yet
trained Rebbes.  So she said, "OK, if you don't want to bless me
with children, I'll go the Chaim the Schneider (Chaim the Tailor). 
So they said to her, "What about Chaim the tailor?"  She said, You
think I really need you, Chaim the tailor can do whatever you do -
- he doesn't kvetch -- he just asks.  
	So [from this we learn that] Rebbes shouldn't kvetch. [Should
not find fault with those who ask them for help.] 

	L'chaim, L'chaim.  

So Reb Lazer thought, it's not so simple.  Better find out who is
Chaim the SChneider.
	So he makes his way down to Chaim the Schneider.  He says,
Chaim is it is true that you help people?  So he says, yes.  So
Reb Lazer says, 'How do you do it?'  
	So I'll tell you -- it's very simple:

	Basically it's always the same story.  In those days,
heaertbreakingly, when a yiddle didn't pay rent -- what they did
with him and his children -- geferlick ______-- every day -- 
{TRANSCRIBER'S BLANK, AND MARGIN QUESTION-MARK}
	So he says, I was working for this nobleman.  My whole
parnasa was from this nobleman.  After Pesach, he would take me to
the marketplace, and he'd buy material.  I would make garments for
his wife and his whole family.  After Rosh HaShanah, we'd go again
and w'd buy new material and I would work on it.
	One time he says, 'I don't have time to buy material, so you
go buy matieral.  Here you have 10,000 rubles. {start ms. p2}

On the way to the marketplace I see a nobleman standing by the
markeplace selling two Jewish children as slaves.  I said to the
person, "How much do you want for these children."  Whatever he
said, it was exactly the ammount of money I had.  So I bought the
children and brought them back home.  I always thought that my
nobleman was a little bit of a mentch.  So I went back to the
nobleman and I told him the whole story.  I told him "I'll tell
you the truth, you can punish me, you can kill me, you can put me
in prison, but I couldn't do it any other way."  So he got so
angry at me and said, "don't you dare come back."  So at least he
didn't kill me.  I ran out.  the craziest thing is, I don't know
why, I wanted to be a tailor again, but I forgot how to be a
tailor. And mamsh,  mi dechi el dechi, from one low place to
another low place -- begging on the street.  Then finally someone
told me, why don't you go to Reb Meirlach?
	I went to the Rebbe, Rebbe Meirlach, and I said to him -- is
that the way G-d pays off someone who saves lives?  So I came to
Rebbe Merlach and I am mamash crying before him.  And Rebbe
Meirlach said to me -- you don't have to be a tailor anyomore. 
I'll show you a secret glade?? where's there's some grass(?) --
and whoever you give a bracha to -- and you give them some of the
grass, whatever they ask - that's what {start ms. p3} you'll say! 
Gevaldt!

	You know what a Purim Rav -- a Purim Rebbe - is?  A Purim Rav
doesn't know anything.

	Rebbe Meirlach knows what he's doing.  Chaim the Schneider,
he doesn't know anything.  He knows this grass and whoever eats
the grass will be helped.  

	Listen:  I want to start from the other side.

	Sometimes chodesh Adar [the month of Adar] is one month,
sometimes two months.  The month of Nisan is the month of the
tribe of Yehuda.  It goes around and chodesh Adar is the month of
Yosef.  For Yosef, sometimes it's Menasseh and Ephraim [Yosef's
two sons].  Sometimes it's counted for two, sometimes it's counted
for one.  IF it's the month of Yosef, it's one.  It it's Menasseh
and Ephraim, then it's two.  I don't understand it 100%.  But
regardless, this is shmas ha'ibur [leap year].  Every few years
there's a leap year, because the sun and the moon have to get
together again. 
And obviously, this year, becasue of Ephraim and Menasche, the sun
and the moon are even-ing out the world.  and something very
special, this month is the letter  Kuf.  What we have to fix is
TsChoK, the fixing of laughter.


	Ok, let's start from there and we'll work our way back:
	We were learning a lot of times:  what is laughter and what
is joy:
	Just remember:  the ISHBITZER said a lot of toras.  Today
we'll learn it in a different way:
	Listen to me friends:

	I want to buy a new suit for Purim.  Anyway, I walking in
ther and they have a suit worth $500 and they sell if for $350.
Ok, that's  {start ms. p4} simcha -- a little bit joy.  He sells
if for less. OK.  But imagine if I'm going into a big Department
store and they are selling a suit worth $500 - they are selling it
for $1.  That's not simcha -- that's laughter!  That's crazy!  If
my profit is in preportion, then I'm joyous.  If the profit is
beyond preportion, then it's laughter.  [Cf. the story of Yitzhak
- sa.]

	I want you to know, that in the deepest way, everything is in
preportion.  Rabbinu shel Olam, I did 10 averot ["sins"], I
promise to to tsuva.  Everything is measured, everything is in
preportion.  So simple.  So after Yom Kippur, it's ZMaN
SiMChatenu, time of rejoicing *

[applied to the Festival of Sukkot, which in effect immediately
follows Yom Kippur. - sa] .

	Purim is something else.  On Purim, G-d suddenly opens gates
for us.  And it's beyond preportion.  
	I want to show how much I love.  "Oh please buy me a house in
Monacco, send me 2 million dollars."  On Purim you are sending me
an apple and an orange and I blow my mind.  It's tschok --
laughter.  I can't believe it!  I can't believe it.
	OK, just keep this in your heart.                   


	So all the Rebbes say one thing.   Kuf basically comes from
the word monkey.

There's  Kuf, but there is also   letter of the [mystical?]
aleph-bet which is K'dush, holiness.  And then there's  , unholy.

What brings down the greatest laughter in the world?  When someone
knows how to imitate.  What's a comedian?  I'm standing here, I
imitate somebody, everyone is laughing -- 

{start ms. p5}

	Listen to me, friends:
	There is agan (??), laughter of Amalek.  There is laughter of
Essav, Ishamal ... {ellipsis in ms., probably pause, not
omission}.  I imitate, there's the biggest laughter.  The world is
only laughing for imitation.  


	But then there's something else.  Also  (Kuf) imitation. 
 
___ I imitate G-d -- but tschok d'kidushim -- holy laughter.

	What was the beginning of the downfall?  The snake comes to
Chava and says, I want you to be like G-d.  L'hyisem k'Elo(k)im --
to be like G-d.  

	Imitation -- let me ask something.  Isn't everything
imitation?  Everyting is imitation.  What's chinuk - education? 
Imitation -- I tell my children, I keep shabbos, you keep shabbos
-- I give tzedakah, you give tzdakah, {HEBREW: v'halakot
b'derekon, to walk in HIS ways.  Imitation of G-d.  All of
Yiddishkiet is an imitation.

	So you know what it is?  It's such a thin line between holy
and imitation -- and real imitation -- you know, to imitate on the
level of the Tree of Knowlege -- it looks good, but the end is
death; it's just meaningless.  

	But the real imitation of G-d is V'hakehteh d'drachav -- to
walk in HIS ways.  the real imitation of G-d for real -- you know
I'm not doing it on the level of imitation, but for real.  I can
visit a sick person, mamash for real -- it hurts me so much that
they are sick.  


	Do you know what's worng with most of the Jewish community (I
don't want to say anything bad) the orthodox community -- most of
the time, it's just imitation.  You buy kosher meat --you ask what
the other one is doing.  Today when you talk to rabbis [about
questions of halacha] -- without saying anything bad -- not Rav
Moshe [Feinberg], but the half ones, the half-baked potatoes, they
always ask what the other one is saying.  When you go to Rav Moshe
[Feinberg]* {start ms. p6} he doesn't say to you, waht did
somebody else say?  Who cares what anyone else said.  And he says
what the Torah says.  He mamash knows the Torah.  You call up
someone before, what did he say?  Who cares, right. 


	I just want to throw in one more thing:
	What is the most G-d--like thing?  The most G-d--like thing
is to give without receiving.  The Rabbenu shel Olam gives
everything and never receives.  So on Purim, I can reach the
highest imitation of G-d.  I'm sending shelach manes*

I want you to know the deepest depths;  I bless everyone to get
married to the right person: 
	When you get married, the first thing you do is cover the
face of the bride.  You know what that means?  The deepest depths
-- I bless you -- Everyone knows that when you cover the face of
the bride, the children come down from heaven.  Mamash, the chatan
blesses the kallah:  `I bless you, I bless you to give without
receiving.'

	I want to add something very special:
	You know why children, when they are born, keep their eyes
closed for a few weeks?  Because they know their parents love them
so much, `they want to give me everything without me knowing.'  So
mamash they keep their eyes closed.              

	What's the first sign of loving someone on a G-d level?  I
want to give everything to you.  I don't want you do know.  I
don't want you to know how much I love you.  I want you to know
but -- I don't want you to know what I'm doing for you.

	Listen to me friends: 
	When don't I want you to know what I'm doing for you?  Only
if I'm giving you something beyond preportion??  Listen, if I buy
you two challas for shabbos, it's in preportion; I give you a
piece of chocolate, it's in preportion.  

	I want you to open your hearts in the deepest way:
	What is the most, utmost `non-preportion'.  It's what Chava
is doing for her children, mamash, bringing them to the world!  		Listen to me:
	Etz haDat, Tree of Knowlege, everything is in preportion. 
What's the fixing of Chava?  the fixing is, she's mamsh ready to -
- G-d forbid, all women should live long and happy lives --
remember, the Ba'al Shem Tov says, before Meshiach is coming,
Chava is fixing everyting and childbirth is not dangerous anymore
--  basically the whole thing is:  Chava is ready to die for her
children.  
	Chava says to Adam, I'm dying, I want you to die with me.*
 
------------------------

#l2
[R. Shlomo goes into this teaching ("Chava says to Adam") in
detail in  B'nei Jeshrun (NYC) May 5-11, 1976, input -sh76051a +
=sh76051b:

"So he Medresh says, when Eve ate the forbidden fruit, you know
what happened to her?  She felt this absolute change.  She felt
I'm dying.  Might be maybe only be after a thousand years, after
900 years, doesn't matter.  But she felt I'm dying.
And she came to Adam, she had nobody else in the world, she came
to Adam,  and she was crying, and she says, Adam I'm dying, I
don't watn to die alone, I'm afraid to die alone.  So if you
remember Adam loved his wife so much, so he says ok, I'll also eat
it, and I'll die also.  He says ok I'll die with you.	" (R.
Shlomo Carlebach from =sh76051a)]

So when children are born, they keep their eyes closed.  The
mother doesn't want them to know, 'mamash, I'm ready to die.' *

Everybody knows the deepest fixing of Chava is Esther.  On Purim
it's the utmost wiping out.  If you remember, without getting too
deep -- remember {HEBREW:} {start ms. p8}

CheT 'eTZ HaD'aT [sin of the Tree of Knowlege], G-d says to Adam,
ha-MiN ha-'eTZ, from the Tree 

#l2
[or: ha-Min, the consequence?  I do not find the phrase ha_Min
ha_'eTZ in Genesis Parsha 1, Sidra 2.  SOURCE?]
#l1

the Gemorah says:  ha-Min MiN ha-TORaH MiNiYiN [TRANSLATION
(apparently punning on ha-Min)  REFERENCE ___ ] -- where's Haman
written in the Torah?  The Gemorah says:  Because G-d says to
Adam, ha-Min ha_'eTZ -- did you eat from the Tree of Knowlege?  So
G-d says ha-Min ha_'eTZ -- Haman.  Haman is the Tree of Knowlege.

	The Tree of Knowlege -- everything is in preportion.  It's
not only `good-and-bad' -- its `in preportion'.  It's good, it's
good; it's fine, not so fine. (??)

HIDING:

	The Tree of Life is beyond preportion.  Can you imagine?  The
Ribbono shel Olam is hiding. 

[Cf. Heraklitus esp. Fragment Kirk&Raven 211:  PhUSIS KRUPTESThaI
PhILEI, "Nature loves to hide" -- sa, Fn update 3/3/'04, 11 Adar]

 The Ribino shel Olam created the world in such a way:  Unless you
want to see, you don't see. -- You can read the Bible and still
not know that G-d is there -- G-d is even hiding in the Torah. 
Can you imagine how much G-d is hiding on Purim, that HE took HIS
/NAME\ out of the Megillah?  There is no mention of G-d's name in
the Megillah.  Because on Purim, what G-d wants to give is so much
out of preportion, that the Rabbenu shel Olam doesn't even want us
to mention HIS /NAME\.  The Ribbono shel Olam is hiding.  ESTeR
MiN ha-TORaH MiNiYin   -- where is Esther hinted in the Torah?

{start ms. p9}                              

Mamash the deepest torah -- the world is always learning??.  
v-ANoChi HaSTeR ha-ESTeR PaNaY, G-d is hiding HIS FACE -- [?? we
think it is ??] because G-d really wants to punish us.  But on
Purim we realize that G-d is hiding because HE wants to give us so
much. 

---------------------

#l2
[On the concept of `hiding' Cf. Typecript #JW63A, "Miami Hiding",
Talk delivered in Rabbi Labovitz's house, November 1978, input
=MiamiJW2.
There R. Shlomo develops the antithetic concepts of 'hiding-from'
vs. 'hiding-with', and then moves to the (synthesis)  
concept of `hiding-with `` '
 Cf. eg:

"I want you to know something very very deep.  What does it mean
G-d is hiding, G-d created the word where is G-d hiding?  Why is
G-d hiding it's very obvious G-d created the world, you can see
the world, which part of G-d is hiding?  That part I don't know
how to fix whtat inside which is...{et}I don't know how to fix the
world.  And when I reach that level then I don't know where G-d
is, and everying in the world, in the history of the world, in the
history of us Jewish people where G-d was hiding because it was
reaching to that point where G-d was fixing that which is beyond
the world."
                     R. Shlomo Carlebach from =miamiJW2   ]

------------------------

OK, what's the difference between the sun and the moon. *

[In the name of the School of Chelm, as recorded in their sacred
record, A Tresury of Jewish Folklore:  Which is more important,
the sun or the moon?  The moon, because it shines when you really
need the light. -sa]

Everybody says it's clear as sunlight.  When the sun is shining -
there's no hiding. [Cf. Psalm of David:___  "there is no hiding
from its heat"]  The moon, even when the moon is shining, you can
also hide.  The moon is like a little bit the light of hiding.  

	So you see what is is -- we'll go into it deeper -- just
ask?? you to think about it.  I want you to know the deepest level
of: (is??) There's `hiding' and `beyond-hiding'.  There is hiding
and `not-hiding' and then there's something: `it's so close, I
can't hide'.  I love you so much, I'm so much aware(?) of you, you
can't hide.
	You see:  The Fixing of Purim is the hiding.  Because this is
the fixing CheT 'eTZ ha-D'aT [sin of the Tree of Knowlege].  When
everything is in preportion.  And beyond preportion is already on
the level of hiding.  I want to hide a little bit.  I want to do
something for you so awesome -- I don't want you to know.

	Then the Fixing of ShNaT ha-'eBUR [the leap year] when the
sun and the moon get together -- the Fixing is -- I want to share
something awesome with you:
	Everybody knows:  ShNaT ha-'eBUR [the leap year], the first
shabbos [in Adar I] is always PARSHAS TRUMAH .  The Beis
HaMikdash, v'ShiKaNTi b-TOKuN - MY Presence dwells within --

{start ms. p10}

I'm so much one with you -- it's beyond hiding.  Because hiding
and not hiding is only when we are two -- when I'm mamash one with
you -- there is no hiding or not-hiding.
	This is the whole idea of `preportion' and `beyond
preportion'.  

	I want to tell you something awesome, as simple as it is: 
Let's say a child of 4 o4 5 can make a drawing, it's in
preportion.  A little girl of 4 or 5 can make a bracha, why not. 
For me, and for all the parents, whoever has children, you hear
your child making a bracha.  Is it in preporiton or beyond
preportion?  It blows your mind, you can't believe it!  I can't
believe it.  

	I mamash want you to open your hearts in the deepest way:
	Everybody knows that Toras Nassan(?) -- what does every yid
bring to the Mishkan?  Why did you?? need Moshe Rabbenu to build
the Mishkan?  What's it all about?  What did every yid bring?  One
NiKuDaH TODaH -- one good join?? that he has.  Everyone has
something very holy.  It's covered, it's hidden.  Everybody has
something holy.  How did Moshe Rabbenu build the Mishkan?  Every
yiddele brought what was good about him.  And you see what it is -
- how do you get two people together?  You don't match up what's
wrong with them.  Because what's wrong with me and what's wrong
with you -- we'll never get together, hopefully, unless we both
are completely crazy.!*

{start ms. p11}

Let's get two of us together -- your good part and my good part.
	What's putting people together?  My good part and your good
part should connect, right?  


	I want to say the same thing about people getting married. 
The first thing you do is cover the face of the bride -- you know
what I'm sayting to her?  You know what I'm connecting to?  I want
to connect to that part of you which is hidden -- the holiest part
of you -- the deepest, holiest part of you.


	Ok friends, here I want you to know something.  Shelach Manos
-- I'm sending you, not face-to-face -- I think you know -- and
let you know -- my good part is connecting to your good part.

#l2
[And that may be what's behind the tradition that of the (at
least) 2 shelach manot sent, one should be to someone who is not a
friend. -sa]
#l1

	Ok now -- the thing is like this -- it's again [Cf. supra]
TsChoK -- laughter.  
	I want you to know: I blow my mind over your little good-bye
-- if I don't love someone very [much?] , then I say it's [not(?)]
in preportion.  
	But listen to me:  There is something which is really beyond
preportion.  And then there is something only because I love you
so much -- it's out or preportion.
	So I want to say something, a gevaldt:  
	Basically, ReCheT?? Amalek - to wipe out Amalek and Megilas
Ester -- the Story of of Ester -- is out of preportion.  Because
it really is! {FNew44(6)sa} 
That means, that what the Ribbono shel Olam wants to give us when
we read the Megillah is so awesome, it's beyond preportion.  And
then, when you send shelach manos, it's even deeper.  Suddenly,
even that which is in preportion is {start ms. p12} also beyond
preportion.  

	You know: Humanly speaking, whatever we do, the Ribbono shel
Olam is doing.  

#l2
[This is an expression of the principle (associated especially
with Chabad, if I recall):  as below, so above. -sa] 
#l1

That means the Ribbono shel Olam is blowing HIS mind over every
little thing we are doing.

	You see on Yom Kippur it's in preportion.  I did 10 averot,
(sins), I did 10 mitzvot.  You measure it.  On Purim, after shlach
manos the whole thing is beyond preportion.  


	So listen to me:  Yosef haTzadik, basically everything is in
preportion -- a tzadik is in preportion.
	[If I rely on the Talmudic principle] SKhaR MiTzVah  k'NeGeD
HeFSeLeH [Profit of a mitzva against its loss; REFERENCE:  Pirke
Avot:    ] then do I become a tzadik?  [For example] I have to
figure out how much pleasure will I have from the avera -- 5
minutes -- it's not worth it;  if I do a mitzva, I'll have
pleasure everlasting; and I talked it over with my psychiatrist, 
and he also thinks if I bake?? a mistake, Ill have to go to an
analyst for 4 years,  and it'll cost me $50 an hour: and it's not
worth it --  It's all in preporition.

	Open your hearts: 
	When did yosef haTzadik become beyond preportion?  
	I want you to know basically that the master of beyond
preportion is David Macha?? Meshiach {transcriber: King David, the
Meshiach; but maybe instead: Meshiach ben David?}.  
	Yehuda -- Yehuda says to Yakov Avinu {HEBREW, NOT
TRANSLITERATED:  REFERENCE: Genesis: 43:9  PARSHAT MIKETZ ) ANokhi 
A'RBNo Mi-YaDiY TVKShNO  I guarantee for my brother -- you will
receive him back from my hands -- and I'm ready to give up this
world and the coming world for my brother -- that is beyond
preportion.  {start ms. p13}
 
Lo YakhoL [Yosef] l'HiTaPeK, Yosef couldn't hold back [REFERENCE:
Genesis: 44:1 PARSHAT VAYIGASH]. I want you to know -- what Yehuda
did is in the open.  He said to Yakov, I'm ready to give up Olam
haBah , the world to come.  
	You know what Yosef haTzadik did with it?  Yosef is the emesa
(true) Anti-Amalek because AYR 'aMaLeK NiNSaR ALeA BiYiY ZaR'O
SheL RaCheL -- Amalek can only be handed over to the children of
Rachel. [REFERENCE: Gemora??_____] Beyond preportion.

	[Yosef must have thought] I'm going to tell them I'm Yosef
and I won't even say a word about being angry.  
	See: if Yosef haTzadik would say, "I'm your borther, and I
forgive you, that would be a preportion.  Do you know what Yosef
haTzadeik did -- instead of mking Yom Kippur, he made Purim -- he
made Purim!  

	So I want you to know something awesome.  Who was the first
person in the world who did something beyond preportion?  Beyond. 
When Rachel gave over the simonim -- the signs -- to Leah * --
it's beyond preportion.

	Again, I want you to know something so awesome:  
	Why did our holy Mother Rachel die when she had Benyamin? 
Because, I told you, to die for a baby is Beyond -- the greatest
fixing of Chava is that's she's ready to die for her baby.  She
told Adam 

#l2
[as soon as she ate the forbidden fruit and realized that,
although she was mortal, which felt to her as if she were dying --
Cf. R. Shlomo, loc. cit. supra: =sh76051a ] 
#l1

die with me.  So the real fixing of Purim is only from Benyamin,
which is a gevalt sh'b'gevaldt -- because Rachel died for
Benyamin.  So Benyamin is the Master of the  {start ms. p14}

deepest doing.  Something beyond preporition -- beyond proportion.

	So in a crazy way, I want you to know, this month [Adar I, I
think] is Benyamin.  Purim?? is Benyamin.  The month [of Adar, in
a leap year Adar II is considered the 'real' Adar] is Yosef. 
Bascially everybody knows -- Purim is over at sunset.  Every
YomTov [ends at sunset].  So why is Purim until the next morning? 

#l2
[I'm not clear to what tradition this refers; though it's a darned
good thing, with everyone drunk.]  
#l1

Because suddenly the Beis haMikdash, everybody knows, the time was
until the next morning. 

#l2
[I think the reference here is that the fire for the afternoon
burn-offering, which  burned all night, and the ashes were removed
in the morning.  Lev. 6:1, Siddur,  Shaharit.]   
#l1

This is again Yehuda. 
[I Don't catch this reference. -- sa]


	REB LEBELE ERGER ( EGER ? ) says:  On Purim, during the day
it's Yosef-Rachel.  After I get drunk -- after I send shelach
manos -- it's Yosef and Yehuda together.
	Do you hear what I'm saying:  Yosef haTzadik is mamash??
blowing over that which is really mind blowing -- the Beis
HaMikdash.
	Do you know what Yehuda brought down to the world?  What's
the Beis HaMikdash all about?  Waht happened in the Beis
HaMikdash?  Why am I so broken?  I come before the Ribbono shel
Olam so broken because I did 100 million averot.  Suddenly the
Bais HaMikdash was dear?? to me.  
	Reb Nachman says:  one time in my life I put on tfillin; one
time in my life I did someobdy a favor --  and suddenly it's
beyond preportion.  On a preportionate level, I'm a creep.  On a
beyond-preportionate level -- the Gomarah says, Tsuva is bi'ReG'aA
ChoDI, b'Sh'aTa CheDA -- one minute, one hour, for one second I
can reach heaven.

{start ms. p15}                                                  

Beyond preportion.  Becaus everyone knows a tzadik has to work
1000 years and he reaches a certain level.  Here I'm a little
Ba'al Tchuva and I did one mitzva, and I'm already beyond
preportion? {FNew44(9)sa}   This is what the Bais haMikdash is all
about.  Mamash beyond proportion.

	Ok, listen to this: 
	Why was the whole fast of Purim?  Ahasherus made?? a feast
because Haman figured out that it's more than 70 years that the
Beis HaMikdash is not rebuilt -- that means, we'll never build the
Bais HaMikdash again, will never go to Eretz Yisrael.

#l2
[This Midrash is discussed in detail in Kitov, The Book of our
Heritage.]
#l1

	Our connection to Eretz Yisrael is beyond preportion -- it's
not normal.  It's not normal for a people to be driven out from
their land for 2000 yearas and come back.  It doesn't make sense. 
Our whole connection is beyond preportion.

	So here I want you to know:
	Everybody knows:  Yosef haTzadeik is the king outside of
Eretz Yisrael.  Yehuda is the king in Eretz Yisrael.

#l2
[Cf. eg the prophecy of Jacob, assigning kingship to the tribe of
Yehuda, Genesis: 49:1 parshat Vayechi]
#l1

Because Yehuda is the master of blowing your mind -- 

#l2
[This is clearly a traditional teaching, although traditional
rabbinic literature may not have phrased it precisely thus.  The
reference may be to Yehuda's extraordinary admission of
responsibility and fault in the episode of Tamar (Genesis: 38)
#l1

not over everything which is beyond preportion, but over the
smallest.  
	Basically Eretz Yisrael is a proportion.  It's a land,  it's
a house.  
	Rebbe Nachman say:  it's a land like every land, it's a house
like every house.  

#l2
[REFERENCE AND CONTEXT??:  Obviously R. Nachman did not intend
this remark at face value, for all that he did not stay long in
the land of Israel (escaping from Akko when it was under siege)
after he reached it at such risk and with such difficulty.]
#l1

	When I see Dari telling me over one pasuk (sentence) in
Chumash, why shouldn't she say it?  She's 8 years old -- she can't
do it?  I blow my mind. 

	If you love your borther so much that you are ready to give
up this world and the coming world 

{start ms. p16}

IF you love them that much, then you can blow your mind over every
nekuda tora (transcriber: good point. [or: point of Tora-sa]).  So
I want you to know, in a cerain way, before shelach manos,
everybody knows, the Beis haMikdash was destroyed because of SiNaT
ChINuN [causeless hatred:  traditional teaching from Talmud] -
because we didn't love another.

	I want you to kow the deepest depths:
	*When we read the Megillah, we wipe out Amalek.  When we send
shelach manos, we build the Beis haMikdash.*

	So there's two kinds of laughter. [Cf. this document, supra.] 
There is the laugter which is beyond proprotion, which comes from
 Kuf, Kodesh (holiness).  Mamash, I imitate G-d.  
	But I want you to know about the other kind of laughter that
doesn't come from any imitation.  When [R. Shlomo's young
daughter] Nechamela makes a bracha, so I blow my mind -- not
because she imitated me.
	Reb Levi YITZAK u'(??) BERDITCHEV sees the ba'al haGolah
(wagon driver) putting on t'fillin and taking care of his horse. 
It blows his mind.  It's not that the imitation is so good.  

#l2
[REFERENCE:  Evidently  to a story of REB YITZAK BERDITCHEV which
R. Shlomo must often have told, but I don't know the reference.]
#l1

	And here I want you to know the deepest depths:
	Amalek comes to me and he says to me -- your whole
Yiddishkeit is just imitation.  You don't mean it -- don't tell me
you mean it.  ASheR KoRaKa b-DeReK 

----------------
#l2
[REFERENCE:  Deuteronomy?? -- , lit. 'who met you on the way' with
traditional commentary reading 'cooled', as in cooling the
religious ardor of the people to whom the 10 commandments had just
been revealed.  Hence for R. Shlomo the figure of Amalek,
traditionally defined as the paradigmatic opponent of the Jewish
people, becomes a very sophisticated force that subverts authentic
Jewish observance, without confronting it directly.] 
#l1

-----------------

you cooled me off on the way.  [One can imagine that Amalek says:]
"You really want to keep shabbos?  Inside you don't believe in it
anymore.  You tell me you believe in G-d?  You just pretend
because your father was a Rabbi, your mother {start ms. p17}

was a Rebbetsin, so you are going to say you don't believe in G-d? 
It's just good imitation."

	Imagine [per impossible]  I would walk up to the Bobover
Reebe and I would say to him, you don't believe it yourself, you
are just imitating your father.  What an imitation!  right,
unbelieveable; biggest comedy in the world, makes you laugh.  
	But you know what I'm saying back to him [Amalek(?)]:  it's a
gevalt imitation, but it's for real.  We are all imitating
Avraham, Yitzak, and Ya'akov.  MaTaI YaGI'YI M'aSI L'M'aSe? AVOTI,
"when will my deeds reach the deeds of my fathers"  [REFERENCE?]

	I want my children not to only imitate, I want them to do
better -- to imitate my father.  It's for real.  Ok, what's the
acid test?  To laugh at a comedy, a good comedian, you better give
a little show for 20 mintues.  The Bobov Rebbe [to imagine an
example] says - it's a good beginning, it's all an imitation,
let's see something.  
	If I believe that Dari is imititing me when she makes the
bracha, so I'll keep goy??.  Let's see how much she's imitating. 
But it's for real.  She says B'ruch Atah -- and I'm already out of
my skin.  So you see what it is -- shelach manos, I'm sending an
apple and a piece of cake.  If I say that I'm sending shalach
manor beause I'm imitating last year, you better do something
good, right.  IF this is for real, blow my mind.  On Purim, I'm
not learning, I'm not showing off.  I'm not learning at all, one
word.

{start ms. p18}

	And here I want you to know the deepest depths.  What's torah
sh'ba'al Peh (the oral Law).  How do I add to the Torah?  If I
blow my mind over every word of the Torah, over every letter.
	Why is Rabbi Akiva the emedik (true) to me?? torah sh'ba'al
Peh.  Remember Rabbi Akiva is the real fixing of Essav, of Amalek 
--
#l2
[REFERENCE?  To the fact that Rabbi Akiva was the descendent of
converts?]
#l1

	What's the difference beween real learning gemora and half-
learning gemorah?  You know, I don't want to say anything bad, I'm
going to places where they have Talmud, advanced Talmud.  They
don't blow their mind over the Gemorah of Rashi, Tosofos [Tosofos
(pl.) = the Commentators].  They are learning it.  Because with
the Tree of Knowlege, everyting is in preportion.  I'm learning
it, it's good, it's fine.  What happens here, not me personally,
you and I, when we are learning gemorah?  It blows my mind.

	V'YaTzA Y'aKoV M'BAeR SheV'a "And Yakov went out from
Beersheva" [REFERENCE: Genesis 28:10 = Vayetze(1) [Parsha Vayetze,
Sidra 1].  How did all the Rebbes make up so many toras on one
pasuk?  It's beyond proportion -- beyond proporition.*

Remember, we learned it 1000 times, all the Rebbes say, the world
[ie, the goyim; the (non-Jewish) nations (of the world)] knows the
Bible for 2000 years, over 2000 years.  And those 2000 years they
would have come up with one good commentary.  Say something, you
know why?  Because they don't blow their mind over it.  
	I'm blowing my mind, because I love the Torah so much -- I
blow my mind over every word.  For 2000 years, and only most
probably one-tenth [of the Jewish commentaries that have been made
of the torah] is written {start ms. p19} down.

	DiVRI ChIYM (?)) - a little Sefer (book) -- little Traehle --
the SAMZER REBBE would say torah at shlosh shudis (3rd meal of
shabbat) sometimes for four, five hours.  Can you imagine how much
he put in?  And the holy ZIDICHOVER would say shalosh shudis --
eight hours!  How much is written down.  Maybe 1/100 of what he
said.  Imagine Meshiach is coming.  All the toras would be -- 

	Listen to this:
	The first emisa tora sh' ba'al Peh Yom Tov is Purim.  Pruim
is both Torah sh'b'KTaV (written Torah) is blowing my mind.  And
tora sh'Ba'al Peh is blowing my mind over every word -- over every
word.

THE PLACE OF PURIM IN THE CONTEMPORARY WORLD OF TODAY:

	I'll tell you somthing -- this is for real.  Without really
saying anything bad about people -- I talk to yidden who are not
really with it.  What don't they like?  Sukkos they like.  They
don't sit in a succah, but they think it's beautiful.  Chanukah is
beautiful.  What can't they stand?  Purim.  Ask around. 
They think Purim is a ridiculous story.  -- the whole thing is
ridiculous.

	This is the acid test -- are you not?? emunah (faith).  Are
you blowing your mind over every word of the Torah?  One Rabbi
said to me -- a Professor of Judasim at the University of Judaism
in Los Angeles.  I was saying something about Purim; he was sweet.
Ater he heard the Torah, he said, 'You won me back; Purim has a
different light for me now.'  He was mamash sweet.  He said to me,
'Until now, I didn't like Purim.  The story is ridiculous, the
whole thing is stupid.'

{start ms. p20}

And you know what it is -- gevalt.  If you don't blow your mind
over every word of the Torah, you can't stomach Purim.
Because Amalek is still having a hold on you.  And the way Amalek
is having a hold on you -- he says to you -- Be honest with me,
you don't believe it yourself, you are just imitating.  And also
he says, what's there to blow your mind.  Sweet, right.  It's
another religion.  Did you study comparative religion?  Whatever
the Jewish religion says, whatever you can find in it, other
religions say it too. 

	Imagine, I love this girl very much.  She writes me a love
letter.   Then someone else comes and says I got a ltter form this
girl, the same words. Same thing, right;  you want to know
something -- do you think you are the only one she sends a love
letter;  she sends 10000 a day.
 
YOu think G-d is revealign something to you?  G-d is reavaling it
to every Schmedrick who fasts fo 3 days and meditates.  He has the
same revelation.  It's beautiful.  I think it's very beautiful. 
It shows the unity of the world.  What are you doing on Purim? 
What are you doing on Purim?

	I want you to know something.  On Yom Kippur I'm standing
before G-d and I say, Ribbono shel Olam, I'm sorry I did every??
wrong.  Promise I'll do good.  You know, on Purim I'm not even
talking about my mistakes.  I'm standing before G-d.  On purim, I
realize my Fixing is not, not-to-do-averot -- there is no way of
NOT doing averot.  {Start ms. p21

there is only [one] way of fixing them -- you blow your mind over
every mitzva.

	You know, if I didn't love someone, there is no way of loving
them or being with them.  I have a connection to them.  Imagine,
I'm married to this girl; I'm really in love with her; sure, I
hurt her feelings every day, ___ not, how could  I not;  I say,
listen, I hurt your feelings 10 times, you hurt me feelings 10
times.  This [is like] Yom Kippur;  what's the fixing; we go to a
marriage counseolor or we organize our act, we get our acdt
together;  we won't hurt each other.  
	That's not the point:  Blow your mind over each other, it's
the only way.

	You see, I blow my mind over Megilas Ester -- like this
Professor of Judaica says, it's a stupid story, right.  Unless you
blow your mind over stories.  Someone told me, Megilas Ester is a
very cheap romance.  You know he's right: 		*If you
don't blow your mind over every word of the Megilah, what's the
megillah?*  
	You have to blow your mind over it.

	I want you to know something so deep: You know: 
	*If you don't blow your mind over it, then G_d's /NAME\ is
not mentioned in the Megilla.*

	You know, I remember telling you: 
	The highest Megillah reading I ever heard, was the first time
I heard the BOBOVER REBBE reading Megillah.  You'll tell me that
G-d's /NAME\ wasn't mentioned in the Megillah?  It was like SHEM
HAMIFORASH (G-d's secret /NAME\) {start ms. p22} on Yom Kippur. 
Mamash.  I couldn't believe that a human being could read the
Megillah with so much holiness. Gevalt.  the BOBOVER came [to New
York, as a refugee from Europe] before Purim, then Shabbos, then
Sunday night and Monday was Purim.  My brother and I couldn't
believe there was such a Megilla reading like this.

	And here I want you to know something so deep:
	When I listen to the parsha every shabbos, if I miss one
word, it's also Ok.  By the Megillah, if I miss one world, the the
whole thing is bad.  I missed it.                

#l2
[REFERENCE:  (Cf. eg Kitzer Shulhan Aruch, 141:13)
It is that for that reason that the orthodox are scrupulous about
pausing in the reading and then quieting the noise upon every
required interruption.  But the Reform just makes lots of noise
and call it a mitzva. -- sa]

#l1
You know why?  Because if you blow your mind over every word, you
don't want to miss one word.**

If I read a business letter, and know how much Coca-Cola we
ordered, I send them the order,   If I get a love letter, if I
miss one owrld, I read it again.  If I miss one letter, I read it
again.  Becuase I blind [sic] my mind so much

	And here I want you to know something so deep:
	Why do we hate each other?  Why is the Beis haMikdash gone? 
When you love each other in preportion, then I measure, are you
good,  are you bad;  I think you're bad. 

  But if one Jew loves the other beyond preportion, then I blow my
mind over every little thing you do.  Ok, you are the worst Jew in
the world;  you tell me that one time in your live, you fasted Yom
Kippur -- you blow my mind.  
	*What do we know?  What do we know about every Yiddele?*


	So if you remember, we were learning:
	V-YaKaHaL MoSheH -- Moshe Rabbenu gets all the Yidden
together. [REFERENCE:  EXODUS, PARSHAT VAYAKAHAL(1) (Exodus 35:1) 

{start ms. p23}                    

He tells them about shabbos -- them them about building the Beis
HaMikdash.  and if you remember, the parsha KITESAH, the portion
of the Golden Calif, is right in between.  Everybody is asking,
basically -- the Golden Calf happened to us, sadly enough, BEFORE
G-d told us about the building of the Beis HaMikdash.

#l2
[Cf. eg Nechama Leibowitz on parsha Terumah (1) for a detailed
review of this discussion; many commentators argue that chronology
must be reversed, that the episode of the Golden Calf must have
occurred before the building of the Mishkan.]
#l1

All the Rebbes say the same thing -- if we would read parshas
YITRO -- when we stood on Sinai -- and then we would read the next
parsha, about building the Golden Calf, we'd die from shame.

	So therefore, the Ribbon shel Olam in HIS utmost mercy, first
told us abou the Fixing.  MaKDIM ReFUACh L'MaKheH, medicine before
the sickness.

#l2
[REFERENCE:  It is often said in traditional Jewish religion that
heaven sends the remedy before the disaster strikes.  
#l1

So we read two portions, TERUMAH and TETSEVAH, we read about the
building of the holy Temple and then comes the portion, KITESA, we
build the Golden Calf, and then VAYAKEL.

	I want you to know something so deep:  
	You can put people standing next to each other, but to make
"one"?? bit?? of them, you can't.  Only G-d can do that.  I can
stand next to a girl for 100 years and I don't love her -- not
because I don't want to.  You can't force yourself to love
someone.  To be close to another human being is a gift from
heaven.
	You know what Amalek says to you?  Amalek comes and says, the
whole thing is a fake, right?  The whole thing is a fake --you
really think you love someone?

{start ms. p24}

It's all a fake.  You keep shabbos out of imitation, you love your
wife out of imitation, you love your children out of imitation. 
Everything is imitation. Nothing is real.  

#l2
[Like "vanity of vanities, all is vanity" ? 
#l1

What you really want, you'd like to go out and have a good time,
kill people, rape girls, what else is there in life, that's the
only good thing availabe.  
	That's what Essav said, that's Essav talking.  Look at the
whole world -- it's Essav.  Essav is still strng.  He's
unbelievably strong.  You sit in Jerusalem ['sit' in the Hebrew
sense, to dwell] and you think Essav is already out of order.  But
he's still going strong.
 
	You see, we are not wiping out Amalek on Yom Kippur -- we are
wiping out Amalek on Purim.  I say to Amalek, hey brother Amalek,
you're worng!  I want you to know, it's for real.  Yes, I'm
imitating -- and you know  Kuf is for Kodesh (holiness), the real
holiness is I'm imitating G-d.  But from inside, in the most
hidden way.  
	It's so deep, you can't see it.  On Purim, everything is
hidden and so deep.
	I say to you, How are you, but do you think I'm thinking of
'how are you' -- I'm thinking of G-d.

#l2
[More obviously, in the Hebrew expression of greeting, Ma shlom-
cha, where it is said that Shalom is one of the "names" of G-d]
#l1


	Remember the famous story -- one of the biggest Chassidim of
the Ba'al Shem Tov met this great Rabbi, a Mitnoggid, they walked
togher, talking and learning.  So he said to him, I'm going to the
Ba'al Shem Tov (or [maybe this story was told of] the Mezricher
Maggid, I don't remember who) {R. Shlomo's parenthetical comment}.

{start ms. p25}

He said to him -- you are such a big gaon 

#l2
['genius'; more precisely, the non-hassidic (Litvak, 'mitnogged')
term for one pre-eminent in Talmudic learning]
#l1

, you know so much, you have to go to a Rebbe*

are you crazy, you are wasting your time.  So he says to him, you
know what a Rebbe teaches us?  To read minds. {FNew44(17)sa}
So the mitnogged*

says -- what am I thinking of right now.  So he answers, 'you are
thinking of G-d'.  The mitnogged: Hah, you're wrong.  So the hasid
answers, what, you are not thinking of G-d, you better go to my
Rav.  You better go.  You mean you learn ToRah your whole life and
you're thinking of something else?

	You see, Amalek comes to you and says, everything is a fake. 
So I say, you know something -- I'm talking about Ahashvereus --
you think I'm talking about Ahashverus, I'm talking about G-d.

#l2
[Reference is to the tradition that, although no term for Deity
occurs in the Book of the Esther, the word 'the King', which
ostensibly denotes King Ahashverus (Xeres), really indicates the
Deity.  Accordingly, the word 'ha-Melech' receives special
emphasis in the chanting of the Megillah. -sa]
#l1

I mention the 10 sons of Haman and you think about talking about
the 10 sons of Haman?

#l2
[That reference I don't get.-- sa]
#l1

	Here I want you to know something so deep:
	What's Yerushalyim all about?  It's so hidden.  It looks like
a city.  Looks like Stves?? -- it's mamash Yerushelayim shel
Ma'aleh (Jerusalem of the Upper Spheress).  You walk in
Yerushalyim and you think you are walking the this world -- your
are walking in another world.

	Remember, REB LEBELA EIGAR says that: Basically Purim is like
Shabbos.   
	Without getting involved in the depths:  Shabbos looks like
any other day.  But you know what shabbos is?  It's like Megillas
Esther.  It's not Wedenesday, it's not Thursday, it's not from
this world.

{start ms. p26}

	So listen to me:  
	Here's the world of the sun.  The sun sets [transcription
sic; but probably  'says'] , everything is to 
be clear.  The moon comes and says, I want everything to be
hidden.  I want even?? light, which is still hidden, the OR ha-
GaNUZ (hidden light).  Then come the(?) leap year, and I say, I
want you to know something, that means if it's revealed, it's
still hidden.  And even if it's hidden, it's so clear, it's beyond
hiding, beyond everything.

	I want to share something also with you:  Everybody knows:
	Pesach Sheni

-----------------------

#l2
[Cf. =sh76051a + =sh76051b, R. Shlomo at B'nei Jeshrun, NYC, May
11, 1976; a teaching focussed on Pesach Sheni, the day set by
Moses for observance of the Seder by those who on Pesach had been
disqualified from observing it in virtue of fulfilling the mitzva
of caring for a dead body.  By tradition, applied especially to
those who had carried to bones of Joseph from Egypt toward Israel
for reburial, by tradition in Schechem. -sa]
#l1

---------------------------

after it's [the Seder is] over and I'm crying gevalt, I lost it,
gevalt I lost it.  

#l2
[Because Pesach is the one feast which, according to the Chumash,
all Jews are required to keep,  upon pain of explusion.]
#l1

So the Ribbono shel Olam gives me another chance.  Purim Katan
[the day in Adar I on which, were it Adar II, Purim would occur]
is something else.

	I'll tell you someting very deep:
	If I love a girl a little bit: I take her out,  I really am
so glad I met you, I had an unbelievable time.  If I love her the
most, I blow my mind before I meet her -- I blow my mind. I want
you to know: Purim is one holiday that 4 weeks before is Purim
Katan -- I'm already blowing my mind.  4 weeks before
[Transcriber's marginal note (if there's 2 Adars). ] 

Of course, this point is weakened by the fact that Purim Katan
occurs only in a leap year.
That is, we only have Purim katan in Adar I, and we only have Adar
I when we have 2 Adars (which is the defintion of a leap year).  

 
Succos is nothing -- maybe you begin to learn -- it's in
preportion.  You not what Purim Katan is all about -- 4 weeks
before, I'm blowing my mind.  

	So here I want you to know something so deep:
	Learning torah sh'b'KTaV, the written Torah -- learning
Chumash, the learning is in proporiton.  When I'm(?) learning
Gemorah [Talmud, termed the `oral torah' because originally it was
transmitted only by oral tradition] you have to learn day and
night, non-stop.  Then it's deeper than anything.  because torah
sh'ba'al Peh is for blowing your mind; [it's, like,] something
else.

{start ms. p27}

	Remember the ISHBITZER tora:  Everyone who built the Beis
haMikdash, they could come and all fit.  Everyone fit. 
Besacially, hundreds of people were working on the Mishkan and
suddenly it all got together.  So the Ishbitzer said, the Yiddele
who was builidng the Kodesh k'doshim (innermost sanctuary) was
thinking, gevalt, I wish I would be as holy as the yiddele who put
nails in the ChOTzer (courtyard).  And the yiddlee who was putting
in nails in the ChoTzeR was saying, Ribbono shel olam, I know I
don't even deserve the ChoTzeR, but I wish I could be as holy as
the yiddle who's building the holy of Holies.  Every yiddele is
blowing his mind over what the other other yiddele is doing.  You
see, if you blow your mind -- what do you know! 
---------------------

#l2
['What do we know' is one of R. Shlomo's central teachings -- that
we can never know enough to judge negatively the holiness of
another Jew, and can not judge religiosity by appearances.-sa] 
#l1
----------------------

	I want to share something awesome with you, the first story
came to me about blowing my mind:  
	In the days of my father -- I haven't seen him in many years,
there was a person who was a real playbody -- I tell you, Meshiach
is coming, he'll be the playboy for the Meshiach.  I've never seen
him with a girl twice, b'ruch haSHEM .  He lives around my corner,
always with someone else and each time introduces her to me as the
"love of my life".  And mamash "we're getting married nexte wee."
(I know him already -- good!)(??)  His name is Mr. Green, OK?  I
see him especially after shabbos when he comes around.  Listen to
me:  for the first stime in my life, I have the privilge of seeing
Mr. Green 3 times with the same girl. {start ms. p28} It's already
a sign that Meshiach is coming.
 
	Then one day, I see him alone.  That's also unbelieveable. 
Brother Green, what happened?  He says to me likr this:  
	Remember that girl you sae me with, he says to me, you know I
love her very much.  You know she's not Jewish -- believe me, you
know it took a lot out of me, but I decided not to marry her.  
	Unbelievable --  A yid who doens't know anything, doesn't
keep anything, then on Yom Kippur he walk in for 5 mintues --
that's his Yiddishkeit. -- Mr. Green, that's unbelieveable, what
made you decide not to marry her?  
	He says, I tell you something, you know I'm not super
religous, he says, I [am] an orthodox Jew because I go to your
synagogue (He came in for 2 mintues).  He says, I'm an orthodox
Jew, but I'm not super-relgious.  But every Friday night I make
kiddush.  Now listen to this -- if I marry a non-Jewish girl, she
wouldn't know what kiddish is.  
	What is Mr. Green's kiddush?  He doesn't read Hebrew.  He
doesn't make kiddush.  He just drinks a lot of wine.  I'm sure
he's drunk every Friday night.  He doesn't know.  He knows, every
Friday night you drink wine.  Let me ask you, waht is there that
that non-Jewish girl cannot understand?  I can explain kiddush to
every person in the world.  What is there not to understand.  
	But you know what -- inside, Mr. Green blows his mind --
Kiddush -- he knows he's drinking wine -- it's Shabbos.  
	See, this is mind blowing.  You see, it's not in proportion,
because in proportion he [merely] drinks wine.  Mazel tov.

{start ms. p29}

You see, the MiShKaN was built for those little things -- every
yiddele has one thing he's blowing his mind over.  Every yiddele
has one thing which is out of proporition.

#l2
[Elsewhere R. Shlomo, esp. when speaking of Rebbes, using the term
'speciality'; as when he speaks of a rabbi whose special mitzva
was, on shabbos evening, to eat the eye of the shabbos fish, to
recall the eye of heaven.]
#l1

	I want you to knwo something so deep:
	In PARSHA PIKUDEI, Moshe Rabbenu, even Moshe Rabbenu, cannot
put the Mishkan together.  Can you imagine -- he's trying 150
times.  The Midrash says he tried 150 times and it fell apart . 
Because -- I want you to know something -- you see, obviously,
when the Mishkan fell apart, each time it fell apart it was like
ChURBaN BeIT HaMiKDaSh, destruction of the holy Temple.  Can you
imagine what Moshe rabbenu went through, each time it fell apart? 
Mamash, Churban Beis HaMikdash.
	I want you to kow something very very deep:  Because to know
how much every yiddele is blowing his mind over one thing in the
Torah -- only Meshaich knows.  It's even too much for Moshe
Rabbenu.  [REFERENCE?]
	I want ouy to know the deepst depths:  Moshe Rabbenu didn't
come into Eretz Yisrael.  Remember, I told you before:  eretz
Yisrael is mind-blowing.  So basically, Moshe Rabbenu -- Torah
sh'b'KTaV is so many words, so many letters.  Torah sh'ba'al Peh
is mind-blowing.*

And what is it both together -- both togther is eretz Yisrael and
Meshiach.  So can you imagine how much Moshe Rabbenu was davening,
crying his eyes out -- that he should be ZoKhaH, privileged, to
the mind-blowing connection of Torah sh'b'KTaV and the torah
Sh'ba'al PeH.

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	Yom Kippur is a Ta'aNIT (fast).  It does not say that on Yom
Kippur you have to cry.  DiVRI ha-TzoMoT v-Tza'aKaToM (fasting and
crying).  To have to do tsuva -- yelling like crazy.  Do you know
what DiVRI ha-TzoMoT v-Tza'aKaToM is?  It's Moshe Rabbenu crying. 
Because eveyrone knows that Moshe Rabbenu is Purim.  Moshe Rabbenu
is fighting Amalek [REFERENCE:  Exodus:    ].  Aharon haCohen is
Chanukah 

#l2
[REFERENCE:  presumably because Chanukah commenmorates rekindling
the Menorah in the Temple], 
#l1

Moshe Rabbenu is Purim 

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#l2
[ because the theme of Purim is the conquest of Haman, Haman is
regarded as an incarnation of Amalek, and Moshe Rabbenu was the
Jewish leader at the time of the battle against Amalek, and then
received the command to blot out even the memory of Amalek --
hence the tradition that one who hears the Megillah blots out the
name of Haman, when it is read, with noise]
#l1

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	Do you know how to fight Amalek.  Do you know what Rebbe
Nachman says:  Everything from here to my head; reaching beyond is
with my hands.  

#l2
[REFERENCE to passage in Exodues where, when Moshe raised his
hands above his head, Israel prevailed against Amalek.]
#l1

	I just want to put it in different words:  Everything is in
preportion with  with my head.  Blowing my mind, reaching beyond,
is with my hands.  So mamash, I should say, Ribbonu shel Olam,
give me the privilege of blowing my mind.  It's not just doing
tsuva. 
DiVRI ha-TzoMoT v-Tza'aKaToM.   It's fasting and crying.  Gevalt,
gevalt.

	I want you to know:  
	According to halacha, when I see a poor man, I don't have to
give [tzdaka] if I just gave.  Everything is in proportion.  On
Purim, it's KoL ha-PoShaT YaD NoTaNIM Li, everyone who sticks out
their hand, you give them.  

#l2
[REFERENCE:  Kitzer Shulchan Aruch 142:3 "[On Purim] whoever puts
out his hand and begs, should be given alms."]
#l1

Do you know why?  All year round(?) when I see a poor man, I think
it's a mitzva to give.  On Purim, what's my answer to Amalek. 
Amalek says, do you really mean it.  We imitate.  Do I really mean
it?  If I see my brother needs something, am I looking up in
Shulchan Aruch 

#l2
[Codification  of what is taken by rabbinic consensus to be the
halachic principles of Talmud] 
#l1

if I give or not?  Purim is KoL ha-PoShaT YaD NoTaNIM Li, I see a
poor man, I can't control myself [to not give] -- can't control
myself.

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