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R. SHLOMO CARLEBACH:  INPUT OF TC1 
	Original of TC1 found at Modi'in trashcan behind store, presumably partof Alon Teager's stash abandoned by him & moved by ZF to Modi'in storestoreroom.  Original stored with my papers (Stern storage, J'lem), ZF hasxerox, I am working from a xerox.
TC1 is handwritten, pp21, titled "At the Abode TAPE 1,2,3"
     Clearly this 21-page typescript is not a transcript of all 3 tapes.
     Probably only from Tape 1.
     Abode (of the Message, New Lebanon, NY) &/or Gedalya Persky
(address via Abode) may well have all 3 tapes.
Occasion apparently sheva brachas, Shalom & Judy, parshat Balaak?
   About 1/3 of p1 was bleached  by the sun into illegibility.
Date not known.  Location of tape not known.  Ask Abode.
     Probably Ruach Camp 1985, possibly 1984 or maybe 1983.     
     R. Meir Fund & R. Zalman Schachter-Shalomi were also there.
Transcriber not known, but writes Hebrew easily.
Input from xerox transcription by sa, 1/91 & 11/91.
	Input tries to follow lines in ms.
	INPUT MUST BE CHECKED AGAINST MS. BEFORE EDIT.  
I (sa) have marked with ** short passages suitable for excerpt.
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Ok Friends, Shalom.
Reb Shlomo begins? to sing a melody.
(Song title in Hebrew on ms.)

Ok now listen to me my sweetest friends, imagine imagine I need a favorand I knock? on everybody's door and nobody really wants to help me,nobody can help me.  Finally finally I knock on the door of my bestfriend.  And he says to me, 'I'd love to help you but why did you knock onso many doors before? "  So I'll tell him or I'll tell her, "I swear toyou, I swear to you even while I was knocking on all those other doors, inthe heart of heart, in the soul of my soul, in the heart of my heart, Ialways? [illegible - sun-bleached]
door
[about 4 column inches illegible] in my head [illegible] a good story. The Heilige [illegible] my food for 3 days, and him? [illegible] He walksto the Bet Midrash, to [illegible] money? he sees on the ground, on thestreet, on [[end page 1]
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piece of gold.  Ok his first reaction is, "I'll bend down and pick? it,obviously G-d left it there for me." [[Clearly, this is occurring on theSabbath.]] But then he think [illeg] he says, "G-d knows if you? and hehas the [iilleg] don't make me bend down just to see while [illeg] slidingif?" And he walks away.  Goes to the synagogue.  And behind him is a _____Yiddele he see the piece of gold, already he picks it up.  Then he  comesto the synagogue and he see Reb  Michall Zladhover and he says to himself,I'm so rich I don't need it.  He mamash needs it."  The goes to his house,he gives him the piece of gold.
You know, friends, it's not only that _____ humans cannot help us, or verylittle within somebody else helps us we have to bend down.  When G-d helpsus, not only he follows? us, we become about 2 million miles taller.  Youknow, when I bow down before a human being I become so small, when I bowdown before G_D I become to tall, so tall.
	I just want to bless you and me and all of us.  All those very ______moments when we feel G-d is following us.  This is the time to standstraight.  This is the time when we can fix our lives, we can fixeverything, at that moment G-d is fixing ? me tonight.  Because He ismaking me 2 million miles tall.
	Ok, I want to sing for you.  Let me tell you -- ______, it means ThankYou G-d.  That you lifted us beyond the language.  You known all thosebooks? that talk about G-d, ______ into books, I'm sure somebody makes aliving from it, but we ______ because G-d is beyond longing?.  I'll writea book about how I love my children.  It's cute and sweet, but I'm sureI'm a lousy 
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father if I can write a book about my children.  It's beyond language. You known Moses never came down from Mt. Sinai with proof that there is a?G-d.  He told us what we have to do, right.  If you don't known that thereis a G-d I can help
[Hebrew:  "open our hearts to Your Name....???]
"Please G-d, I want to be close to Your great Name.
You know G_d"s little name i can find G-d within the four walls [ells?]]of creation. G-d's great Name, G-d's name, which transcends everything andwhich is closer than everything in the world.  Transcending doesn't meanit's further away..  It's close, so much closer [[?mamash close?]], it'sso close.  You please G-d I want to be the closest to you in the world. And then I move things MSO [[?? what's 'MSO'?]].  Let me 
have the knowlege that your good names should shine upon me.  Please letme have the knowlege that everytwhere I go, that people whould rememberthat there is a G-d.
Reb Shlomo beings singing... [title in Hebrew]
Why don't you all come close.  I meet all of you, I'm praying to G-d to beclose, and be close to you also
[song title in Heberw]
and I also want to bless my good friend[s] Shalom & Yehudit.  You shouldbe the closest couple in the world. [[Ask Leah Golumb; she may recall thisevent.]] _______, Amen, Amen.
Reb Shlomo beings to sing. [ki kil mak??]
You know my darling friends, we are so busy longing for world, andsometimes G-d opens gates just for us.  We don't bother to go in.  Rightnow G-d is opening gates for us, you and me we we open?? our hearts we fewlet's take advantage of it.  Can you all come very very close, and let'stalk to each other
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for a few minutes, and I'll tell you some great stories.
	Good Yom Tov, Good Yom Tov.  I want you to know, the Holy Ba'al ShemTov says, that when two friends meet its on the level of Shabbas.  But Ijust want to say the Baal Shem Tov says when I meet one good friend it'son the level of Shabbos, so when you meet the whole chevre it's Yom Tov,right? (Laugh).  Shabbos Shalossow?? _______  hodesh.
	I'll tell you the truth, I don't know where to start, and I definitelydon't know where to end, so I'll just start -- the middle, whatever comesto my head this second.  I'll tell you, the truth is I was a little bitsad, I was not here for Shabbos, so I don't know what was going on, so I'mjut filling in like from outer-space.  So if I'm saying the wrong thingyou'll have to correct me.  The only thing I'd love to, if I can ask youreally if you can keep it quiet a little bit.  **Children don't disturbme, adults have something about them, when they talk they destroy thevibrations.  Children add to it,make it maybe a little loud, but itdoesn't matter.** 
	Ok now listen to me sweetest friends.  There are two things when I lovesomebody very much.  The first thing is I like to have a special placewhere I meet them.  It's true I meet others? on 42nd Street and 5thAvenue, but then I say, "You know let's find a secret place, just you andI, somewhere.  A very special place.  The second thing is, when I lovesomebody very much it's clear to me, that there is nobody like that in thewhole world.  And you'll tell me stories, "Yeah, everybody is special." It's cute and sweet, this is not what I mean.  I mean something so muchdeeper, so much more  schatted?? _________.  Now listen to this, I justwant to connect it to this portion of the week.  I'm sure Meir and Zalman((R. Meir Fund & R. Zalman Schacter)) taught you so much that there isnothing left for me, but maybe they left this little corner.  Left alittle ________  _____ me.
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	You know here, the children of Israel -- the desert after 40 yearswandering, they are ready to go into the Holy Land.  I want you to openyour hearts -- the desert way.  And just know I'm telling about every oneof us because the Torah talks about all of Israel, it talks about everyperson -- the world.  Gevalt are we wandering around that we find ourplace(??)  And everybody knows the 42 trecking?? that the Jewish peopledid in the desert.  The Zohar Kodesh says that  every person -- the worldhas to make -- his life and her life, 42 stops until you get to where G-dwants you to be.  Mal Masot??  ((Qv Hebrew)).  Ok, finally already on thelast stop.  The next stop is the Holy Land.  That is the very delicatetime I'm just about to do it.  I don't know how many left turns I've beenI've already: I don't know how many stops I've made in my life, how manyu-turns and  how many times I just didn't believe any more that I'll makeit.  This time, 
B'ruch HaSh-m, Thank G-d, I'm right there by the border.  Then comesbrother Balack & Bilaam ((Reference:  Chumash, Portion (Bilaam)) and theywant to turn you off.  But they are not even talking to you.  They do itbehind your back.  They are talking to G-d.  That means they don't tellyou anything bad, just they give you a little injection, some vibe??, alittle vibration.  What was Balaam's claim.  Bilaam's claim to G-d was,
why are You hanging onto the Jews -- there are so many folks in the world. What is so special, what's there. And you think
he's wrong?  He is right.  Every nation is afraid, every person is afraid. It's time.  What is so special about Israel.  What is so special aboutIsrael every country is afraid.  You know how I'm in love with thisbeautiful girl and someone says to me, "Yeah she's beautiful, but here letme show you a picture of my
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sister, she's just as beautiful, maybe more beautiful."  Then I say,
But I love her."  Right.  And they point out to me that she 
is? stupid here, she is stupid there.  And Bilaam was telling G-d
everything we do wrong.  Prophetically he knew whatever Israel would
do wrong until the Meshiach comes.  And he wasn't wrong, we
really did.  We really did.  And do you know what it says 
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G-d says, "I don"t want to hear it --
I don't want to hear it.  I'm not interested."  You know, sweetest
friends, **Reb Lebele Eiger says that the first time the Holy Land is
mentioned is when G-d spoke to Abraham, because until Abraham
nobody was that special to G-d, that G-d needed a
special place to meet that person.**  So the first time in the world
is a Yiddele Abraham Avinu, and since Avraham is so special G-d
says "Abrham I need a special place, where you and I will meet."  This
is the Holy Land.  And Gevalt is that deep.  Do you know everything
special needs a special place.  You know when people get
married why don't they move to the Hilton or to Howard Johnson's
because they need a special place.  When you have children
why don't you just move into the subway.  The subway
is sweet and I like to share my children with the world,
right.  Yes it's cute and sweet -- tho?? because children are so special,you
need a special place.  And children are so special, they need a 
special little bed, they need a special little pillow, they need a speciallittle towel, everything special.  Bilam wanted to take away
this speciality from the world.  The whole world is the same, all 
the flaws are the same, and you know sweetest frieneds I want
you to know the deepest depths, what gives me the strength
to pray before G-d.  What happens to me when I pray.
What is with the people who don't pray to G-d, and what
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are the people like who don't pray to G-d.  And what are
the folks like who do pray to G-d.  And open your hearts --
the deepest way.  You know why I'm standing before G-d in prayer??
because it's clear to me that I am special to G-d.  And despite everythingwrong I'm doing.  All my
wrongdoing cannot take away this unbelievable specialty, this 
deepest depth specialty between me and G-d.  And you know
sweetest freinds what helps us,  what gives us the strength to doeverything
we have to do in our lifetime.  I want you to open
your hearts.  Every person has to do what everybody
else is doing.  I have to wake up in the morning, you
wake up in the morning.  I brush my teeth, you brush
your teeth.  You daven, I daven.  We do everything the
same.  But this is not where the center of my life
is .  This is the outside of my life.  The centre of my
life is that part which only I have to do -- this
world.  And I want you to know my sweetest friends
this is the deepest depths in the world.  You know if you
don't have anyone very special you don't trust
that.  How do I kow what special is, becuase I know how
special my children are to me,  I can have a little bit
of a glimpse how special every child is to G-d.  Gevalt, gevalt --
right?  Do you think Avrahm Avinu only wanted to have a child
because he wanted to have a child?  He wanted to have
a child anyway.  But? Avraham Avinu was crying to G-d, "So
how do I know what I mean to you unless I have a 
baby who means so much to me."  And everybody knows, the
moment Avraham Avinu was told that he will have
a baby, the Torah says Avraham Avinu began to pray.  And you know
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what Avaraham Avinu prayed for Sodom [[Ref:Genesis:18]] __??_ because hesays, Rabbenu Shel Olam, now I
know what iit is, special.  And when the people of Sodom, with all their
evil, there has to be somebody special there.  Maybe there are 50
special folks, maybe there are 10 special peopple there.  And G-d revealed
to him there is one special there, and this one special person is
not even born yet.  It's Ruth, the great great granddaughter 
of Balak. [Ref: presumably Midrash....].  Now listen to this, it's sodeep.  You know its
so strange.  You know when G-d punishes?? G-d shows you
how wrong you did right.  Balak and Bilam want to take
out the specialty from the world, so G-d punishes? them
by Balak having a special special granddaughter who will bring
back to the whole world how special every person is
Because what will happen whem Messhiach is coming?  It will
be revealed to us, how special everything is, so special, so unbelievably
special.  I just want you to know Pinchas is the one who
taught the Yidden gevalt not everything is for you.  The
daughters of Midian are sweet and beautiful, but they are not for
you, you are special, something special.  You don't go into a
pagan temple and do their worship -- not for you.  I have nothing
against it.  It's not for you.  And do you know Eliahu
Hanavi is bringing peace between parents and children.  Do you
know why children are so angry at parents.  Because they say to theseparents, "How come you never know what is
so special about me, and I can't even tell you."  And
Eliahu Hanovi is revealing to the children that the parents
always knew even if they didn't have enough guts
to tell you.  And parents are sometimes angry at children,
"Don't you know in what kind of a special way we 
love you, even if we didn't say it properly."
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Now listen to this, this is the deepest depths.  How do you
know, how afraid somebody is to love you?  This is mamash deep friends.
I want you to open your hearts.  You know I love a lot
of people when I see them.  How do you know if someone
is special to you.  Special is I think of them even when I'm
not there.  And here I want you to know the Ishbitzer Davar?
is getting down to the deepest depths of the world.
So far we were  learning that whenever Jewish people were
in trouble they prayed to G-d.  And this would be blasphemy
if I would say it, how Ishbitzer says it.  What is G-d doing
so to speak when he has nothing to do, humanly speaking.
What is G-d doing when He is all by Himself.  G-d is
thinking of us, Gevalt is that deep.  Can you imagine how
deep that is?  And here I want you to know something.
What does it mean I'm doing wrong?  I forget about G-d
right.  I forget who special I am.  What's my fixing.  I go
to the Holy Temple and there Aaron Hacohen is revealing
to me. It's true you forgot about G-d but you know 
G-d was thinking of you all the time.  And you know
how I fix my life, I'm connecting myself not only
to the G-d who's thinking of me while I'm thinking of him.
Who tells me, "Do this, do this, don't do this, do this."  It's all
face to face, Tshuva Meshawlo?? means I"m returning to G-d
         (ABOVE LINE: as to a friend??)
how G-d is thinking of me  when G-d is all alone.  And
this reaches into the deepest depths of me.  What am I doing
when I'm all alone.  Because here I want you to know the
deepest depths.  **Why do we regret everything we did wrong?
Because we realize, after we do everything wrong, we are 
still alone.  Everybody is doing so many mistakes because
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they think that will take away my aloneness??** So here Balak
says,   ??? (qv Hebrew)  Do you know who we are! We
know that we are not alone.  We are connected to the
deepest deepest depths.  And here I just want you to know you
know.  A lot of people study when they study.  What do
you do when you don't study?  You have nothing to do 
with that book?? right.  When I study and I finish learning, I
never finish, but let's say I make a stop.  I kiss the book,
I close my eyes and I kiss the book. Do you know what
that means?  I'm connected to you even when I don't see you
when I don"t think of you, Gevalt am I thinking of you.
I want to bless you friends and me and all of us
we should have this deepest connection of G-d, to think
of G-d even when we don't think of him.  To be connected
to G-d even when we are not connected.  And we should
honor people in the world, who teach us, our children and people
we love, how you think of people when you don't
see them.
	You see the two wives of Yakov, Rachel and Leah.  Yakov meets??
Rachel face to face.  She knew he loves her, he marries her.  Leah
didn't know he loves her, in fact he thought he doesn't love her.
**You know when it was revealed to Yacov that he loves Leah
he came to the Holy Land, because Leah is the Mother of the Meshaich.
Do you know what the Meshiach is teaching us?  That all the time
you thought you didn't think of it, you were thinking about it the
whole time.  How can you not?  How can you not!
	You know what fills your heart?  Not those times??
about when you think about.  You can still be an ((copy faded))
What fills your heart is all those things you think about ((faded))

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don't think about them.  Do you know you think of Paris
when you think of Paris?  When you don't think of Paris, you don't
think of Paris.  Yerushalim the Holy City even when you don't think of
Yerushalim, we also think of Yerushalim.  Anyway, L'chaim, l'chaim.
I'm giving Shalom and Judy [[The guests of honor -- newly marrie]]
all those holy blssings.  You should be the closest, the sweetest couplein the world.
	Ok,let me make it very fast.  Ok I'll make it slow.
You know what Reb Nachamn says, when you walk to
the palace?? you see one door, right.  Then you come to the last
room and there are four doors.  Ok, you decide on one door.  You
go there there are eight doors.  You ((faded)) what it is the more
you get in the more doors are open?? ((faded))  So here I looked
at one thing and suddenly I realized ((faded)) next to it is even
deeper than the Torah, next?? to it.  Ok right now listen to this
sweetest friends.  Each time we make a mistake you know what
happens to me?  It's not that one particular mistake I made.  Every personhas a little fafag?? inside.  When I'm born G-d gives me
an inside    "       what G-d wants me to be, what G-d wants me to do.
Each time I make a mistake the saddest thing in the 
world.  I begin to doubt my own ((same word)).  I don't trust 
myself any more.	What happens to all the people who gave up
on themselves completely?  Because they made so many mistakes
maybe, who knows, maybe everything is a mistake.  **Remember Reb Nachamn
says what is the greatest sin in the world?  To take away somebody's
self confidence, that is the greatest sin the world.       ???Because
wnen you have a certain holy self-confidence you can't do
anything, right.  And what is again the greatest friendship in the world.
The greatest friendship in the world is that you give somebody
back their self-confidence.  You know how deep this is?  Sometimes
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we meet people, and they are supposed to be our friends.  They'll
do anything for us but they mamash take away every ounce of
self-confidence.  I don't want to say anything but I have seen
husbands and wives, you know, they are so cute and sweet but they don't
support each other one bit.  And then sometimes you see husband
and wife, they give each other so much self-confidence.  Ok, here
is what Reb Nachman says.  What is my greatest deepest longing
in the world.  The deepest longing I have?  The deepest longing in 
the world is that I should do what G-d wants me to
do in the world.  I know that I'm born for something.
I got to do something and I'm longing for it in the deepest 
way.  Each time I do a little bit wrong, I'm longing less
for it because I don't believe in?? it anymore.  Ok, so what is the
whole idea of doing Tchuva?  The whole idea of doing Tshuva is that
I say to myself, I say to G-d I don't care.  Even if I make
two million mistakes I"m holding onto that one thing,  I'm holding on tothis
unbelievable thing,  Here I want you to know one more thing Reb Nachman
says that each time you make a mistake you hate one person --
the world.  Crazy, right?  The more mistakes you make the more
people you hate.  And you know sometimes you see folks who hate
this one, hate this one, hate this one.  Their problem is not that theyhate
the people, they made so many mistakes, and they don't know where
to start.  Ok I want to tell you this story.  And here I just
want to give you this simple blessing.  What do you do if
you made so many mistakes and you hate 2 million people, what
do you do?  G-d -- When G-d blesses you that there is one person in theworld that you love so much, it mamash cleanses your 
soul at that moment.  You know friends I'll tell you something,,  What
is the idea of of Yom Kippur when people get married.  Imagine I into??
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French  restaurant.  Therefore I cannot  get married.  I'll do tchuva
on the french fries{1} on Yom Kippur.  Today I'm getting married what
are you bothering me with this doggy-diner right?  But the answer is whileI ate in the doggy-diner my heart is less capable of
loving.  And in order to get married your heart has to be
completely completely filled with loving,  **And it's so heartbreaking
you know, you see parents hit their children.  Do you know
what their problem is?  Not that they hate their children.  They made somany  mistakes, their heart is not a vessel for loving anymore.* I want totell you this story.
	The story is that the Heilege Reb Moshe Leib Sassover came
up? to heven, and you know on the way to heaven you
have to go thorught hell.  Take it at the highest level  The Heilege Reb
Moshe Lebib Sassoaver goes through hell and in the middle he stops
and he says "I'm not going to heaven until all the people in
hell go with me.  Heavy stuff.  You know you cannot visualize? it
the managers of hell come to to Rebbe Moshe Leib Sassover and he says"Listen Rabbi
can you please make it fast because I'm running the show here.
	Can you imagine how many people confusion?? -- hell.  It's
too hot
turn on the air conditioner I can't sand the heat.  Hell what's going
on in Hell everybody's kvetching and complaining  and yelling.  So he says
please just do your thing and go through fast.  Rebbe Moshe Leib Sassoversays, "No
this is for real, I'm not leaving.  Ok -- the heavenly judges are
coming down and this is what he claims.  He says, "If G-d
really wants me to have eternal bliss, how can I have
eternal bliss after I went though hell, after I saw people suffering.
Do you think I can sit there in heaven and be holy when 
I know that so many people are broken in hell? So if you
really want me to be in heaven you have to take them?
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out of hell."  Now listen to this it's unbelievable.  There was the 
decree of the heavenly judges.  As many favors as he did in his
lifetime, that is how many people he can take out of hell.
They counted the favors and Rebbe Moshe Leib Sassover did exactly as manyfavors in
his lifetime as there were people in hell.  Can you imagine.  So the
Rizener told the story and he said at the end, "The saddest
part is that it didn't take long to fill hell again."  Mazel Tov.
Do you kow how deep this is?  You know when you do something wrong, youhate somebody, and when you do somebody a a favor somewher somewhere youare getting somebody out of hell?? ((faded))
You don't know what you are doing.
	Ok, I just want to bless Reizel Succah Shalom.
I want to bless you that whenever you fall down
hell you should take each other out fast by claiming each
other as favors.  You know the Gemorah:  from heaven to hell is less far
than I have to ___ who????? **It is so easy to be in hell.
And you know this is just from heaven to hell.  But from hell back toheaven is very far.*  It's very far.  And you need
a real miracle to get there.  So I want to bless you
with miracles.  And you know friends the highest thing is not only toteach children how to 
do right.  You know there is a shortcut from hell to
heaven.  The deepest teaching in the world is to teach our children the
short cut.  Because do people go through so long to
get back from hell to heaven. And if you have good 
friends it goes so fast.
	Ok the thinks is I'm giving this whole long speech-ala because
nobody brought in the wine yet for sheva brachas.
	Let's all sit very very close and surround bride and groom 
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with great love and let's sit very very close and let us sit
	Reb Shlomo begins to sing Yerushalim ir ha-kodesh.

	The most destructive thing in the world is hatred.  Hatred is death andloving is the strongest anti-hatred right.,  But loving alone 
doesn't happen.  Remember I told you there is this one from 
I hate him so much.  I cannot stand him.  then let's 
say my daugher is geting married and my dreams?? I'll be
there.  And at the end of the wedding, the happiest?? [deepest??]
moment in the world mamash I take my daughter by
the hand and we dance on the table and you think I'm close to heaven --maybe heaven is close to me 
maybe Beyond heaven and earth, right.  At that moment
the door opens and this person I hate the most walks 
in .  Now open your hearts, friends, open your hearts.
You know what I'm doing.  I'm jumping down
from the table and I say, my sweetest sweetest friend 
my most precious brother why didn't you come to the chuppah.  Do you knowwhat joy is doing to a person -- joy is the most cleansing, because
when my heart is filled with joy then you cannot help but loving.
	Listen to this:  when G-d created the world
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yismahu ha-shamim v'tagel ha-aretz [Psalm 96_ (sung at Kabbalt Shabat --
the heavens will rejoice and the earth will exult
 can you imagine the joy of
heaven and earth. When G-d created the word there
was unbelievable joy.  Until Adam v'harder?? did wrong
and G-d cursed him.  This came from doing wrong and
being most col drn iilcli.  What is the greatest fixing?  The 
greatest fixing is joy, right?  Why is it, listen to this.  I 
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                                          without joy
   go to a wedding and there is no joy at the
wedding.  It has no taste you walk away.  Ugly.  Right?  Why
is the wedding, it's another mitzvah.  I put out teflin?? I get
married.  **Why does a wedding get so much joy?  Because 
when folks get married they are creating heaven and earth.
A new heaven and earth.  And unless they create it the way
G-d created ______ it doesn't stick together right.  So when people getmarried they have the favor to fix the
whole world.  Why is it at at wedding they move the
bride & groom are holy and the more fire they are the
more they want to invite the whole world.  Because they want
to fix the whole world right.  Ok anybody who wants to fix their lives andtheir hearts and their souls, right now is your chance.

	Reb Shlomo begins singing. 

	The firt thing I wat to bless you that your Rangel?? Sucah
Unlon? & Shalom you should be under the Succa with your
children because it is the greatest deepest dream of parents to
be there when their children get married.  And I bless you 
that it should be great joy. HEBREW 
	You know Reb Nachman says number also is the kalmas almas??
which means, some people have joy -- in their nose
                                              eyes
                                              feet
                                              head
                                              heart

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and it is very hard to find somebody who has joy
from def?? to love everyone, everything is completely filled with
joy.  But Reb Nachman says when people stand together --a circle with
great joy then the person who has simcha                in his eye dance
next to the person who has simcha in his kishkes  and   [ditto??]
[ditto]                                          in his eyes or in his\fingers
they're already startig, it's contagious and they are then becoming filled
with joy.
	You know sweetest freinds, even now before Meshiach
[illeg. Erased?] everybody has a little joy, but then Messiahc
coming it smp? [HEBERW]
thenI'll be completely filled with joy
everybody has joy but filled with joy.  Everybody is 
laughing?? with one corner of the mouth.  Are you filled with
laughter?  Filled with laughter.  Have you ever watched 
children laughing?  When they laugh its filled with laughter
until they grow up and go to school, until they get
a Ph.d.  Laughing, right.
	Then I want to bless you, you should be
at the wedding of your grandchildren and your great grandhchildren
and your great great grandchildren.  Mazel Tov, Mazel Tov.
	You know I always tell people, I'm sure you
know it anyhow, the           question is not how much you love each other
when you love each other, the [ditto]
when you hate each other.  So I want to bless each other that
whenever you hate each other you should love each other so much.
Gevalt.
	And I want to bless you.  You know there is
a gevalt torah from Reb Nachman.  Because everybody knows you
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when people get married they are stepping on each other's toes
all the time, right, let's face it, so you need strong toes.
So first of all I bless you with the strongest toes -- the world
holy toes. [Laughs].  Reb Nachman says when you get angry at somebody what
are?? you telling them?  The way you are you'll never make it.
That means at this moment I'm concerned with that
person's eternity, right?  Reb Nachman says, gevalt, you're that close
that you're connected to somebody's eternity.  What is a Rebbe,
what is a holy master:  somebody who connects you to
your eternity, right?  Everybody can tell me how to go
to Chicago; who who can fix my soul to make it into
eternity -- for that I need a Rebbe.  So Reb Nachamn says you are angry
at somebody.  It means you are so doubly?? connected you are connected to\somebody's 
eternity, you are a Rebbe, right?  You're a Rebbe.  So why don't you
fix them.  Why do you waste your time in being angry?
If G-d gives you a taste of somebody else's eternity that
means you have the power to fix them.  And while you are
already fixing them why don't you fix yourself also, right?
That means when people are angry at each other they
become Rebbes to each other -- it's an unbelievably kind
of closeness, it's so delicate it's just on the border?? or
complete distormtions?? or unbelievable eternity so I want
to bless you that whenever you get angry at each
other remind each other, you're my Rebbe so fix me,
fix my soul.
	But I want to bless you with something even
higher:  Its so easy to get angry at children because
nebbuch, they're so powerless  We can yell at them and they can
never really answer back.  I want to bless all of us 
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whenver we get angry at our children G-d should
fix it.  Oy -- the deepest depths of our hearts.  At this moment??
I can fix my children's soul in the deepest way.  All of
us.
Reb Nachman:  A person needs two things:  The strength to start all over
again and the strength to finish what they begin.  Reb Nachman says
the strength to start being comes from bereshit and the strength
to finish what you're doing comes from Meshiach, because to
finish what you're doing is like the Rabbenu shel Olam is still
in the middle, he didn't finish yet, right?
So he says you can't compare creating
the world with bringing the Meshiach, gevalt is it harder, right?
Now listen to this unbelievable thing.  Yosef haTzadik   vikr nar??
Josef haTzadik has the strength to make people?  begin again.
It's the kach?? of the children of Rachel.  Yehuda-- Leach has the
strength to finish.  Yakov Avinu at the beginning thought
that Yosef is the Meshiach because he'll teach the world
to start all over gain.  But then he realized
this is not it.  Yehuda, the one who has the strength to
finish it.  Anyway I want to bless you with all the time
men?? beginnings and mamash whaever you lunzer?? you should
bring it to the end and to the highest beginning and highest ending.
can you imagine the Rabenu shel Olam is giving us the?? hand?? Since
he gave it to Avram and he hasn't finished yet giving it to 
us.  Still hanging in the air, right?  So the Rebbenu shel Olam started??/give
it to us already, right?
	You see the last bracha is mamash the bracha of 
bringing it to and end,  that's the highest bracha.
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