Life officially sucks!

I haven't posted a new blog in like months. But who really cares anyway? Nobody reads them so I guess I could not post for a year and nobody would give a rip.

But in the rare even that you do read this, or you are me 30 years down the road looking at this. I am sorry that it took me so long to post. I will do my best to fill you in as to what has happened in the last couple of weeks...or months. (you might need some popcorn and a box of tissues. This one will most likely be long and sad)

Well, you are reading the blog of S-290 graduate. Yes. I passed Intermediate Fire Behavior...with flying colors if I might add.

I have been spending a ton of time at the station. Or at least whenever I wasnt at home puking my guts out.

Sady died. We will all miss her and it is hard to imagine life without her, but so far, we have made it through.

Clogging has been going well. We recently finished the Hamster Dance and are now starting HillBilly Shoes. IT is an okay dance. It is hella fast and pretty hard. But I'm catching on good.

There is a guy...or was... His name is Nick. We are still "friends". But i dont know how much longer I can pull that off. He is being all awkward or it wouldnt be near as hard. I personally think that things were really great, but went way too fast. He lives in California... and I'm in Idaho(duh).  THe truth is that long distance relationships never last! AS much as I hate to believe it, it is true and I have a broken heart to prove it. But this has little to do in my opinion of life. It kind of just added to pile.

As it is Spring Break! (i am so excited... not!) grades are coming out. I have all A's and one C (math). I am really scared that my parents are going to pull me off the fire department. If they do, I don't know what I will do. THe fire department is everything to me. I really do think I will die if they take it.

I am still involved with Civil Air Patrol. It really is a lot of fun. I am finally getting around to paying my dues. And this continues to add to the heap of stress that makes life miserable. The problem is that I am so broke that I can't afford to breathe. And I have all of these expenses that keep popping up. My sister wants to give me money. OR loan me money, or whatever it takes to get me to take the money, but the truth is... I can't borrow money from anybody. I am too proud and stubborn and it kills me.

I passed Driver's ED. Yay! Now I have a car and insurance to pay for.

I applied for Camp Blaze. It is a summer camp for girls in the Fire Service. I really hope I get in. It would be really really cool and exciting. At the camp, you get to do lots of really cool stuff. LIke repelling, live burns, power tools. SO pretty much everything I cant do at the station.

Smoky came up really bad lame this year. I really am not sure what is going to happen. He isn't doing anybody any good standing in the pasture, but I dont want to just sell him to the canner either. It is a really hard decision, and its tearing me apart.

Well, I think you should be about up to speed. If I think of anything else I'll let you know.