Today they said I looked relaxed. In my office. A casual comment indeed. But they were right. I am relaxed. Now after finishing my daily core of duties I don't feel tired but relaxed and rejuvenated.
A few days back, rather a few months back it was not like that. I faced many tensed moments. It was so tensed that I was going to take some silly decisions, probably the silliest of all my life, that could have changed the course of my life altogether.
Nothing happened ultimately. I sailed that crisis somehow. Like before, mother nature gave me the support I needed. It rebuked me for the great mistake I had almost done.
I suffered a lot but I learnt a few important lessons that would stay with me for the rest of my life.
For the first time in my life I learnt not to expect. Expectation should find its place in the list of seven deadly sins.
Whatever I do, now, I do without any expectation. Despite the fact that present moment, our time, is heavy with expectations all the time. People are no longer patient, susceptible and responsive. Everyone lives, loves, finishes fast. It is a formula one life. I don't belong to this category. I won't. My life is different. May be laid-back.
I have enough time to tell my story. What I want is very simple : a new style of telling, making other see, even feel my words.