Okay, we are trying again. Much, much sooner than we had originally planned on. But, happy nonetheless. Nervous and scared as heck. But, here we are. And, yes, I was bias when I changed the template to my blog. I will not be shy about the fact that I really want this to be a girl. In my heart, I will be complete if I have a daughter. And we won't "need" to have more kids. If we do, we do. But at least if we don't , I won't feel heartbroken.

I am going to try really hard to do 3 things..... #1... Keep up this blog daily. Or, at a minimum, 5 days/week. But for my own preference, I would love to keep a daily journal. I think it will help me feel better and relieve some anxieties. #2... not tell anyone I am pregnant. Of course my husband and kids know. But that's it. I do not want to have to go through explaining to people I had a miscarriage and to hear their lovely, insightful comments ("it was probably retarded or something." "i guess God just changed his mind about this one." "it just wasn't meant to be." "you should just be thankful/grateful for the kids you do have.") The last one is my fave. Like it takes one of my children dying to be thankful for the ones I have? Anyways....#3... RELAX!!!! Yep, the hardest one for me. Just take it easy. Chill out.... don't stress. We will soon have no bills except rent and utilities so I certainly don't need to stress about money. I don't have to get up early in the morning and take my kids to day care and bust my butt all day for a peasly paycheck. I get to stay at home with my kids and be rewarded with something far better than any size paycheck.

So, we'll see what happens. I will pray for myself and my baby every single day and night. And we'll see how long it takes for me to tell someone. Maybe one day I will just send them a link to this blog.