Maybe

~*~*~*~

Running the day through my head only makes the
Years seem longer. I'll never
Understand why anything so perfect could
End so suddenly...or why I
Never thought to tell her I loved her before she left.


Killing him was the
Only thing I could do afterwards...and the only thing that was
Right and good at the time.
I just wanted to make him disappear...because
No one deserves to live after killing someone so perfect...ne?


Now, though...I can look out from
Underneath the masks of makeup and beauty and laughter. I can
Rise up and smile and live for the ones
I love...not the one I loved and let down. Maybe I didn't
Kill her after all...but, I'm the
Only one who remembers her now...as she was.


Maybe that's how it was meant to be.