Hi son, hope I didn,t wake you. But I just needed to remember all the fun we had together here on earth. I remember the day you were born. You were a beautiful baby, with really dark hair. Your best colours on you was light green and yellow. I remeber how I would rock you to sleep. You were never happy unless you was right by my side sleeping. I was so scared I would roll on you, that I hardly ever slept. You meant the world to me, you were always smiling. You were never camera shy. When you started crawling you were into everything. Then 14 months later your brother Justin arrived. You were always wanting to look at him or to hold him. But you were such a little guy yourself. You always said I,m big know.
Potty training was so much fun, I would tell you it was time to make Frogs [if you know what I mean] You would say Mummy Frogs. You wre so funny.You could,nt say your So .So one day my friend and you and your brother, were out driving, and you go "I smell a skunk". Oh god it was so funny. My friend laughed all day over that.
You loved to go fishing, I said you must have been born with a pole in your hand. At three you were always wanting to go fishing. Then when we got the horses, you were always wanting to ride them as well. And you would cry to the horses to let make mummy let you ride all on your own.
When you started school, I,m not sure who cried more you or me. I think i did remeber when you wanted to take your little brother for show and tell. Once in church you sang, Jesus loves me, you sang it all by yourself. then when you had finished you yelled real loud " mom how did I do". I smiled and said "wonderful kiddo".
I remeber how you and I and your brother would get al dressed up to go trick or treating. You thought you had the coolest mom in Sandyville. Once a chap who was dressed up jumped out at you. You froze in your tracks.
When your brother and I moved to Fla. I remember you two chased a fire truck two blocks. You were 7 him 16. Could you two run when you wanted too. You said "mom I just wanted to help".
Jason remember when you was little, and you used to put your brother in the dryer, and start it up. you brother would always say "Do it again Jay". [he couldn,t say Jason]. You two would always have fun hiding from me.
When you and your little brother got a little older, your dad and I got a divorce. I felt so bad for you guys, that I said to your dad, that he and I needed to stay friends. And that,s what we did. There wasn,t nothing I wouldn,t do for either of you boys.
You liked playing basket ball and football. Remember when we went hunting. Your brother and me and you and a friend. The gun you were carrying dropped out of your hand, and you caught it by the trigger. It went off 6 or 8 times before we got the gun. Your face turned white as a sheet. Luckily no one was hurt.
Once you got older you liked fishing so much you would saty at the riverbank from 5 an till 9 pm if you could. You your brother and I would go camping, we would hike for miles.
Once you got inot high school, you and your brother neither of you liked it. So you finally dropped out, and went on to get your GED.
I never ever picked your friends for you, or told you who to hang out with. In 1995 I met a wobderful man, who turned out to be your stepdad. He loved you boys as if yu were his own. The next thing I know you had started dating. And some of the girls you dated. But I didn,y speak my mind, not until they would break your heart. I hated to see you hurting. You were like me, you always fell in love to fast.
Once you started working, you didn,t like much any of the job that was inside, like the resturant. finally you found a job you liked. It was at Scott,s landscaping. Since all honesty you was a farm boy at heart. You had been working there for 3 weeks, when god decided to take you home to be with him. It was the worse day of my life. I didn,t want to believe god had taken my firts born son, to be with him. Not my son whom was just starting to get his life together. I remember telling you I had a bad feeling, but like always you talked me into it. You wanted to go and see your friends and dad.
Jason I,m know alone with all my sweet memories of you. Not a day goes by I,m not thinking about you, and you will bring a smile to my face. We miss you son
Love Mum
P.S. Too all that reads this, I could talk all day about this young man, cause he was a great son.