8 - 29 - 02 Bonjour. This be Mei/Desire/Tina. 2 years later, I believe. What is there to say? An old, but good friend of mine, Hawk Pendragon (my love! >:p) brought this site to my attention. Funny, since it's my site, and my account. After some fiddling with trying to find the URL, and after some forgotten password retrieval, I was able to get in here and discover some history. Ruby Warriors.. whee. No, I haven't forgotten them. They were huge, and I was quite the popular Bravenet leader for a long period of time.. probably a year or more. Bravenet is where I met all my original Internet friends, Bravenet is the first time I conversed with the world over a phone line. I learned roleplay there, I picked up on everything I was supposed to in order to be a Net junkie! I'm a proffessional one, now. A l337 one. Bravo to Bravenet, it's where I wasted my newb days and got my start. As expected, I've changed. In 11th grade. Grown quite uglier. Grown much more tolerant as well. As much as I appreciate history here, I don't miss it. I've changed e-mail addresses and SNs for the -sole- purpose of getting away from you people. Not like I had a choice about changing e-mail addies, my [email protected] account was hacked by a certain Arcturus, with help from a certain Ace, and I'm sure some other old enemies were involved. I hear some ex-members from the RF (Rising Flames?) had something to do with the shutting down of a few accounts, but I don't really care. I wish to converse with no one but Candie, Hawk, maybe DMJR. :p Or anyone else I may remember that was civil to me. I also regret giving out my Furcadia name, since I've had to put quite a few Bravenet enemies on ignore even after I got my fresh start on the new chat. But this is not a complaining session - I'm just happy I'm involved in something nice and new. No fake little wars, no angered arguments, insulting, hacking, and best of all - no fighting! (Unless I want to roleplay it out, no one on Furc will start attacking you typing 130 wpm.) But yes, I am happy. Doing well. Missing old friends, simply remembering the rest, or laughing at the old ways of others. It was quite the journey back into memory lane. I doubt I'm missed, talked about, or even remembered. But this URL is alive and so am I, hope everyones lives are going well in these last few years. That little essay seemed to give off a negative note somehow.. shouldn't have read back through it. La, okay. I love you all.

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Hello, visitor. You must be here for one out of two reasons. One, you're disgustingly bored. Two, you're looking for a peice of old history. Number one is more flattering to me, but I won't question your motives. You may be wondering if this is the real Mei Lyn. Well, yes, it is. As you may notice I've changed a lot. For the better, in my opinion. Others may disagree. Bravenet was the first chat I ever went to when our family first got the Internet. I'd never talked to anyone I didn't know before then. It was weird, and exciting. And addictive. I started out finding Bravenet through a Metal Gear Solid website, that had a chatroom. I browsed the list of Bravenet rooms and started visiting rooms besides the MGS one. This was back when Bravenet actually -had- the list, and there was the Bravenet Help Chat, Fun Chat, Wild Chat, Crazy Chat, etc. I met a lot of cool people in the Help Chat, including Rellik, my first "Internet love" I guess you could say. I went by the name "Mimi", and I eventually found the Pokemon Gym, which I was pretty reluctant to go to, considering Pokemon just happens to be about the lamest thing on earth. (In my opinion.) But I soon discovered that no one really talked about Pokemon there, and I liked the people. They amazed me. I didn't understand a lot of things there. Like the *actions*, and the RPG thing. But I soon just fell right into it, and soon I was one of them.

I started to notice clans, and "weddings", and all the other make-believe things people did there. I joined the Diamond Knights, soon after I made my own clan, the Ruby Knights. That's when I met Argoth, and the Avatars. They had supposedly been around Bravenet for a very long time, so I felt a bit inferior. They waged war on my clan, and my character, Mimi, eventually was killed in an online fight which she obviously lost. She came back, and with the name "Mei", for I was always a Metal Gear Solid fan right from the start. Mei learned to fight pretty well. It was all a matter of typing skills, and from being online so much I had become a pretty fast typist. The Ruby Knights were renamed, and became the Ruby Warriors, which quickly rose to the top along with the BDC, or Black Dragon Clan. This is about the time when I met Candie. She was the creator and leader of the BDC, and with us both being leaders of the two biggest and most powerful clans, we became friends quickly. I've talked to Candie for a few years now, and we're both almost 16. Bravenet is now a peice of our past. BDC and RW both ended, at the same time. It was a decision that we both talked over. People were getting very bitter on Bravenet, and were always insulting our clans and causing problems. The site for my RW clan had been hacked into several times, and I was being harrassed. I figured no one really had to put up with that kind of bullshit online, and a make-believe clan just wasn't worth the stress. I also felt I was too involved with the fantasy world in Bravenet, and tied down to it. I spent hours and hours online, and I felt that it was consuming me. The -real- life that I used to have was really being outweighed by this RP. It's pathetic to let that happen, but this kind of thing really can suck you in. Most "RL" people don't understand, and are quick to call us losers. But I was a RL person once upon a time too.

I'm glad I've broken free of Bravenet and the whole RP. I now play an online game called Furcadia, which is so much better than Bravenet ever was, and I'm so much happier with it. I'm involved with the game but it doesn't consume me. I'm liked by many people on Furcadia, and have lots of friends. I can log onto the game whenever I want and find someone to talk to, but if I'm not on it all the time, I'm not demanded or missing anything. I'm pretty carefree at the moment, heartbroken but carefree. I've met my -true- love online, on Furcadia. It quickly turned into more of a RL relationship, with talk about meeting him, and lengthy conversations on the telephone. But it ended, just as all good things do. True love doesn't last, and I think the solo life is best for me. I still talk to Candie, since she has Furcadia too. Our names are Nessity and Desire, fitting I suppose. She's like a RL sister to me. We talk everyday. And I can always let out all my pain and hurt to her, and feel better. If she wasn't around I doubt I'd be able to get over my ex-mate.

We've visited Bravenet a few times since it went private, and are pretty saddened by the new wave of clans and people. Its different, and has changed for the worst. Bravenet is over, in my heart and... literally. My personality is not what it was when I went there. Even my typing style is more proffessional, and I believe I've gained a great deal of maturity. I will always remember the RW and BDC days, and Hawk, the boy from Maryland who I'll never meet, yet I thought I loved. There will be many guys who I think are my "true love" and there will be many heartbreaks to get over. I will no longer dramatize the idea of online relationships or make them seem any more real than they are... and the truth is, they aren't real. Getting attached to the Internet and people on the Internet only hurts you and leaves you empty, and unfulfilled. I want to focus on my REAL life now, which includes learning to drive and graduating. I know I'll get a job that has something to do with computers, since I've learned a lot about coding in my excessive time online these last few years. I'll always keep in touch with Candie though, and hopefully I'll be able to meet some of my friends that I've talked to online... someday. But I'm definately not getting my hopes up, whatever happens, happens. If you've read down this far, it's been great RP'ing with you. The make-believe world could only last for so long, and I'm glad you came back to remember how things were. I enjoyed the time on Bravenet and as an RPer. Best wishes.

--- Tina/Mei/Desire

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