It all started with an unkind word
my heart sank, how could you say those things?
words that ripped my world apart
you could never imagine the sorrow that brings
I thought I was doing everything wrong
so I would try even harder to make you care
I'd give 200 percent on everything I did
not realizing that was not the problem here
But I was young, what did I know then?
I just wanted everything to be right
Little did I know that it would never be
and then you started using fists to fight
I tried to explain things on a mature level
I guess it all just went over your head
you never understood anything I tried to explain
so you'd yell and use brute strength instead
It was then I decided it was best to stay quiet
If not for me, then for the sake of our kids
I didn't want them hearing your raging insults
I didn't think it was the way they should be raised
But you took my silence as your victory
thinking you'd gotten your point across
that you were the boss of family and home
you were the winner, I was at a complete loss
I suppose that's when it really all started
to be safe from your anger, I had given up my say
little by little I lost the person I was
and I'm still looking for her to this day
Little by little, you took so much from me
like a dictator in a strange foreign land
but this I promise you, on my mother's grave
one day I'll be free, free from your hand!
Little by little, I am getting stronger
I'm learning from others this isn't the way
people you tried to keep me from knowing
are teaching me, there'll be much brighter days!
~~*PennyLynne*~~