| I did it again won't you be suprised I cut myself again it helps me to feel alive I did it before and I'll do it again it makes me think of life and how it could have been you see these things and think poor her and you wonder why it had to occur you wonder why you look into her eyes and beg and plead for her not to lie you ask for the truth then you see her tears turns out she's been hiding them for so many years you look in her room and ask yourself why then you let it all out all your fears come alive the posters on the walls the screaming in your ears and whats hiding under her bed sheets there are too many things here how could you have not seen it before and look at what's hiding behind the bedroom door the box full of condoms the blood on the walls it makes you wonder how you couldn't have heard it from just down the hall is there something I did wrong I didn't parent her to well I read in her diary that life would be better in hell I didn't think it was this bad how could I have raised a child who was this mad who didn't like her life who thought it was so bad you think about your life and all of the good times you two have had looking back on it all you thought she was getting so big you made me feel so small no matter how much I grow no matter what I do no matter what you think of me that is what I'll do this isn't the first time that I've done something bad this isn't the first time that I've felt so sad I wanted to tell you before that I've heard you and Rick from behind closed doors so I'll never be like you mom you think that my life is so bad well guess what you tell me about your life and I see all of the things I never had loving parents, who treat me well instead of telling me to burn in hell an aunt and uncle who live down the street a family who never had any secrets to keep then you do this and I don't know why so then at night I start to cry I did it again won't you be suprised I cut myself again it's the only thing thats keeping me alive |
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