i want to sing happy songs! i don't know. i kinda feel sad today. there are a lot of thoughts that flow inside my mind. i tried to contain and control them but they can't be stopped.

i don't know what will happen today, tomorrow and days after tomorrow. there are things that we tend to want. there are dreams that we hoped for. there are days that we expected to be happy.

it's really hard to be happy, specially that the rain pour now and then. i feel that im inside a puzzle which some pieces are lost or even don't exist. there is really no point where this can be solved.

i've been expecting lately for a light which i have no idea where to find or if it'll find me. things dont go how i expect them to be. i know that life is not perfect but it makes me wonder why, no matter how hard we try, some things dont fit together. it's like magnets that repel.

thoughts flow without direction... ideas move in circular patterns... expectations drenched in the rain...

i want to escape this...