Tödlicher Verkehrsunfall


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One Moment

 

As I stare into the darkness of the night
When the trees are asleep,
And the birds have finished their song,
I wonder what's beyond the here and now;
Beyond the sights and sounds of night and day.
And I rejoice in the peace of this one moment
That will last for as long as I let it,
And the warmth surrounding me from another sphere,
Where all I see and hear comes from deep inside,
Where you have found your final resting place.
And all I need to do to get to you
Is close my eyes and ears and listen in,
To hear the beauty of the song you sing,
And to see you walk towards me,
And take my hand to lead me
Into the rest of my life.

August 31 2003

Two And A Half Years

 

Two years and a half worth of water
Gone through the valley of depth
To the ocean of tears that I cried,
Ever since that day when you left.

Two years and a half worth of money
Spent on nothing at all
Gone through my pain and suffering
Rolling away like a ball.

Two years and a half worth of air
That you were not able to breathe
Went unnoticed beyond space and time,
And vanished with lightness and ease.

Two years and a half worth of heartbeats
Were silenced forever in you
Buried inside my grieving
And in my sorrow, too.

For two years and a half the light has been off,
And there is nobody home,
Except growing silence and deafness
In an unknown face, all alone.

July 17, 2002

Emotions like waves

 

Oceans of tears I cry,
For those past moments we cannot recover,
For those memories now gone like waves in the surf.
Like the waves of the ocean,
Anger, sadness, joy and sorrow,
They never stop, always in motion.

Oceans of tears I cry,
For the words I never spoke,
For the sounds I never heard,
For they have now vanished,
With the waves of the ocean,
Never to return.

Oceans of tears for those untold stories,
Gone by, blown away by the wind,
For the water they could not drink,
And the bread they could not eat,
Their sad faces washed ashore,
And ceased to exist

Oceans of tears I cry,
For the pain that never healed,
And the wounds that left scars so deep,
Numbed by fear and despair,
Like the ocean waves,
They just went unnoticed.

Oceans of tears I cry.....

1 August, 2003

Our Earthly Home

 

Trapped in a book I never read,
And trying to figure the plot,
I'm on my way - asking those questions
That can never be answered
Within our earthly home.

Trapped in a tune that was never heard,
An ever-lasting song;
And I am but a single note
That rises and falls with the seasons,
Here, in our earthly home.

Trapped in a movie, yet to be made,
And a script that composes itself,
I look to you for my next line,
Knowing I have to look
Beyond our earthly home.

Sept. 16 2003

Sometimes I Think

 

Sometimes I think

About the words that were never spoken,
And the stories they should have told...
About the questions that were never asked,
And the silence they were forced into.

Sometimes I think

About the colors that were never seen.
And I wonder
What beautiful pictures they painted
Into your silenced heart.

And sometimes I think

About the empty spaces
That should have been filled
With unheard melodies of gold,
From the depth
Of your universe.

Sometimes I hear

The silence of your voice.
Loud and clear,
Across the galaxies
Of love.....

Oct.4, 2003

There are those colors....

 

There are those colors you never saw,
And those tunes you never heard,
But now you're one of them.

There are those faces no one knows,
And names no one remembers,
And now you're one of them.

There are those dreams no one understands,
And those images, so hard to decipher,
And you are in all of them.

September 5, 2003

Journey Through Seasons

 

And I was there.
With a role to play,
Of an unseen plot.
And a script
Of unwritten words,
To say, as I go along
On my journey through seasons.
Between the beginning and the end
Of the blood in my veins,
And the tears in my eyes,
Falling to form
An ocean of sadness,
Or joy,
Or anticipation,
Of the rain that will wash away
All of yesterday's sounds of my heart,
And awaken me
To the beginning
Of the rest of my life.

October 11, 2003

Shadows

 

Shadows of darkness
Surround me with peace,
Where each word that I say,
And each breath I exhale,
Is in tune with the sounds of the moments,
When silence can be heard
Singing beautiful tunes of the wind,
And whispering to me
From beyond the realm of time
Into the depth of my heart,
Where the songs of the seasons
Reverberate forever,
This moment.

October 17, 2003

Perceptions

 

When the sounds of the night
Surround the depth of your silence
You look up to an endless sphere
Of unseen colors and smells of darkness,
Speaking to you through whispered voices.
And they get closer,
With each beat of your heart
Each inhaled breath,
Until they touch you
With gentle hands,
And you become engulfed
In the spirit of time.....

November 1 2003

Out Of Time

 

A journey of gold,
Or maybe satin,
Brings me to a place out of time.
Maybe today,
Or tomorrow,
But then again - never in time
Do I walk the grounds
Of hot fiery steel,
Or cold arctic ice,
To try and reach you,
Hidden in the reality
Of the souls around us,
As I walk on, between two moments
Of my dream. ...

October 13, 2003 (2 a.m.)

An Empty Space

 

There's a void
That cannot be filled,
Deep in the center
In the depth of time,
Between two breaths I take,
Between two moments of silence
Between two unspoken words,
And two pictures I never saw
An empty space
From beyond my consciousness
That leads to the first breath
Of the future...

October 31, 2003

Song Of The Fall

 

Song of the fall,
On top of the trees;
Endless melody of moments
Between dawn and dusk;
And moments of silence
For the muted songs,
And silenced sounds of grief,
Of anger,
Of joy,
Of open hearts, filled with seasons,
And hope for tomorrow,
The first day
Of remaining breaths....

October 16, 2003

Choices

 

Empty spaces surround my dreams
Like a shadow of choices
To be made here and now
And with each breath I inhale
It seems like the choices slip away
Into another dimension
Another moment of fear
Of the unknown territory.
And each new heartbeat
Brings me closer
To another choice
In a new moment...

October 29, 2003

 

I Will Remember You

 

I will remember you
As the strength of my weakness
As the success in my failure
And as my courage
When I wasn't so brave.

 

I will remember you
As my hope in despair
As making it right although it was wrong
As giving me light
In total darkness.

 

I will remember you
Catching my falls
Taking my burden on to you
Until you fell yourself.

 

I will remember
When you picked me up
When I seemed to be falling
Under the weight of Mom's death.

 

And I will remember
The most important thing about you
Your warmth
Your sweet heart, that failed you all too soon
And quite simply
That you are still my Dad.

 

November 29, 2000

 

 

 

One Plus One

 

When two hearts become one,
It's like two shadows connecting,
And revealing a new shape.

 

When your eyes reveal
The deepest secrets
That even you are not aware of,
It's like a new secret is created
That only you will know.

 

When one plus one equals an infinite number,
You will need no more science
To calculate its worth.

 

And when two shadows create an infinite number of shapes,
And conceal all the secrets,
There will be no more than one...
Plus one....

 

To Alex and Mike, May 14, 2002

 

 

A Shining Star

 

At night I watch the sky;
And I imagine
That you are waving to me
From beyond the horizon,
Where there is no time or space
Where the stars sing and dance
To an unheard melody
A song of happiness and peace
And you join them in dance and song,
And I see you
In the darkness that surrounds me
With warmth, peace and love,
From beyond.

June 27, 2001

 

Light-years Away

 

Light-years away,
Across different worlds,
You still speak to me
And I hear your voice
Deep inside my inner ear
As you whisper
Your words need no language,
For they are deep from within,
Where language is only a barrier,
A source of confusion
And misunderstandings
But you speak to me
Through the sound of eternity
From light-years away,
But closer
Than my breath.

July 3, 2001

 

This Void In Me

 

The beauty of your heart
Is invisible to my naked eye.
I need to see it
Through the microscope of love.
And as I go inward,
The light of your love
Shines so brightly,
It shines through the clouds of my soul
From beyond space and time,
And it warms up my heart,
Radiating from deep inside of me,
Where you have filled
This void in me.

January 4, 2002

 

 Each Breath I Inhale

 

Each breath I inhale
Is a new experience
Of a choice to be made,
For the first of remaining moments
Here on Earth.
This moment is past,
And all that is to come
Brings new solutions
To never ending problems
And decisions
For unknown breaths,
Uncertain tomorrows,
Not-yet discovered territories,
And roads yet to be traveled.
A journey toward the first breath
Of remaining decisions.

January 18, 2004

 

Life's Challenges

 

Each breath I take
Brings new challenges
For each sound I hear,
And each image I see,
When I'm surrounded by shadows
And intense sensations
Of unspoken words,
And far-away colors,
From beyond space and time,
Where the galaxies meet
In a new sphere,
Which is the beginning
Of the rest of my life.

November 18, 2003

To My Dad

 

I see your face before my inner eye;
Like a mirror of my inner self;
The depth of your eyes
Invades my heart like an icy ocean of tears.
I'm holding on, not knowing that you're there;
Your voice is whispering to me
From beyond my consciousness,
And all I hear is the wave
Of your song in the sea,
On a cold night in winter,
As I'm walking with you
Through an ocean
Of gold...

December 1, 2000

The Search

 

Surrounded by darkness
Along an endless path
Of frozen hopes,
I find myself walking
Along transparent roads
Where all I can see
Is the shadow of life,
Amidst crowded spaces,
In which colorless faces
Look for a place
To call home.
The salt of their tears
Makes up lakes and oceans
Of despair and humiliation.
And any direction they choose
Will lead them closer
To the search
For a beginning.

January 19, 2004

Confusion

 

Empty faces
Stare at me from the depth
Of my innermost feelings
With blinded eyes
Through a veil of confusion
And misunderstandings.
In a world without names
They breathe in their sorrows,
And exhale their poisons
Into eternity.
With uncontrolled anger,
Pain and misery,
Their tears form the waters
Of hatred and grief,
Inside the shadows
Of our existence.

 

January 24, 2004

 

Shattered Dreams

 

Cold, silent anger
Surrounds my shattered dreams,
Of a life I never had.
My breathing is poisoned
By vanished wishes,
And distorted thoughts
Of another creature,
Living within my innermost self.
Trapped in an unloved body,
A mind filled with doubt,
And long-forgotten hopes,
Of all the tomorrows
That would never come.
Trapped in yesterday,
Last week,
Last year.
Fighting the invisible currents
Of unseen waters.
Emotions like waves
In a silenced universe.

 

January 25, 2004

A Sign From You

Waiting for a sign
That you will give me
From beyond
Where you are now
Beyond right, beyond wrong,
The bond that we shared
Will never be lost
For I carry you in me
Wherever I go.
A sign from you
Is never too far
For I hear your voice
In surrounding silence
And I know you�ll be there
Through dusk and dawn
To guide my thoughts
And lead my way
For I feel your warmth
In the cold of the night.
You are still my Dad
And I�m close to you
Connected to you
By an invisible thread.
For I see your smile
Before my inner eye,
As you�re taking my hand
And whispering to me
Soft words of courage
You will pave my way
By a sign from you.

 

 

May 21, 2001

Shadow Of Existence

 

All of my world
Is a black shadow of anger
And overwhelming fear of the past.
Where choices were made
From the depth
Of an ocean of tears
Of unworthiness
And suppressed feelings
Of darkness and guilt
About my very existence
That's my shadow
To follow me Forever...

February, 21 2004

Search For Answers

 

As I was walking
Toward the darkness of my soul,
Searching for answers
To unasked questions,
I saw a dark shadow,
Surrounded by blinding light.
Revolving around an open door,
Yet unable to cross the threshold
Of the universe beyond,
And the waters of freedom,
Forever singing a song of spirits,
Within the confinement
Of their undying breaths.

 

April 21, 2004

A Letter ...

 

A letter in the sea of my tears
Written on the dream of my breaths
With each second
I slip further away
From the blood in my veins
Into a never-ending depth
Of darkness and despair,
Where sounds of pain and confusion
Mingle with the beat of my heart,
To form a tearless cry,
For all the grief in my world,
And hopeless sunsets
To lead the way
Into my paralyzed self ...

 

August 14, 2004

Waters Of Tomorrow

 

Tears of Hope
Form the waters of tomorrow
Toward a way out.
Away from the jungle of fear
And the never-ending paths
Of confusion and misunderstandings
That surround my every breath
And poison the blood in my veins.
The prison of my life
Holding me hostage
From beginning to end,
Unable to see
Past the blinding light
Covering up the truth
And leading me
On the way
To non-existence...

 

June 24, 2004

Beyond Here And Now

 

We are waiting
For a time
That will never come
And a breath
We will never take
Beyond here and now.

We are singing
An unheard melody
A song of the ocean
As our tears form
The notes of a tune
Beyond here and now.

We are telling
A tale of deceit
With each poisoned breath
The words are made up
Of dysfunctional letters
Beyond here and now...

 

May 5, 2004

Memories: 1825

 

1825 sunsets
Of waves in the oceans passed,
Waking up 1825 times
And each inhalation whispers
The sounds of my memories
So deeply embedded
In five summers of thought

1825 times
The moon came up
From beyond the clouds
Of my confusion
To silently wash away
My tears of sadness
Over 1825 times
That you didn't wake up

The sun rose 1825 times
And in its rays I saw
Rays of hope
For a new beginning
Between you and me
Beyond the physical boundaries
Of our earthly life ...

 

February 20, 2005

The 18th Day

 

The 18th day of 1990
A journey took place
That should never have happened.
You left behind a trail
Of grief and sorrow,
And unanswered questions.
Tears of unspoken words
Were shed into an ocean of despair,
And sadness washed ashore.
From the depth of my heart,
The years of love remain
In the eternity
Of the rest of time...


I still love you, Anda, and I always will!

 

May 21, 2004

No Need For Words

 

Just feeling you near me
Made me feel like
Nothing could ever hurt me,
And no one could threaten me.

You understood.
There was no need for words
To convey your message
That I was safe.

No need for words,
To make me feel loved
And treasured by you,
In your sweet, warm heart.

Missing you now
For 15 years,
I still need no words
To communicate with you.

My undying love for you
Will be with me forever,
Through my tears of sorrow,
Until I exhale my last earthly breath.


And there will be
No need for words.

 

To Anda, March 21, 2005

About A Life

 

A dream
Like a spring morning
Of pure joy
About a life.
And with each breath,
You make a new decision
To hear the ocean waves,
As they roll into existence,
From a different sphere
Of our galaxy.
The depth of the sea
Is like a fresh breath;
The first moment
Of an eternity,
Within the core
Of my soul...

 

April 23, 2005

Concept In New York

 

A concept of fire,
Blood and debris,
Raining down from the morning sky
Lost innocence,
Splattered with smoke.
New rivers and seas,
Formed by silenced cries,
From people reduced to ashes
And dust of confusion,
On a day like any other.
A day in the calendar,
Which will never again
Be just a day
Out of 365 and a quarter.
It is now a memory
And a concept
Of evil.

 

May 6, 2005

Anatomy

 

I am a face,
Like millions of faces.
My heart goes "ga-gong", "ga-gong",
Like most people's hearts.
My eyes stand for love,
And caring compassion.
I like poetry and music,
As well as fine arts.

My breath stands for fuel,
Energy and hope,
As I inhale
And exhale my desires.
My tears form the waters
Of dust and confusion,
And the madness
Ignited by fires.

My brain stands for vulnerable,
Loss of youth,
Or for humor,
Darkened at times.
My hands stand for softness,
A gentle touch,
A firm, but caring grip
On futures, intertwined

I stand up to myself,
And to who I am,
Regardless of what "they" say.
My spirit is strong,
As I am guided along
By my beliefs,
Day, after day, after day.

 

June 7 + 8, 2005

Wednesday Morning, 4:55 - Ten Years Apart

 

This date no longer exists.
It is now bathed
In a cloud of dust,
Confusion and tears.
It happened ten years before.
It happened ten years after.
All of life's hopes were shattered,
For you, for us, for them.
Ten years apart,
Yet united as one,
To form a concept
Of loss.

September 16, 2005

Path Of The Moment

 

The road to nowhere
Is paved in experiences
And choices we make,
For each rainbow we see,
And each thunder we hear.
We travel along
On our path of the moment,
Where each beat of our hearts,
And each breath of air
Brings us closer
To remaining moments,
And to the silence
Beyond the path
Of here,
Of now,
Of today......

September 20, 2005

Give Me ...

 

Give me a word,
And I'll tell you a story.
Give me a dream,
And I'll make it come true.
Give me some air
To fill my lungs with desire.
Give me your world,
And I'll give mine to you

December 26, 2005

Moments And Choices

 

Each moment
Feels like a start
And like an end
To a life
Of countless decisions
One has to make

Each choice
Brings new challenges
And new moments of imaginary reality
For each breath
We have to take
Between here and now
And the perceived end
Of our earthly journey

September 7, 2006

An Unknown Day

 

A day unknown
Began like any other
Before the skies turned gray.

Hopes and dreams
Started to rain down
From under the clouds of despair.

Dust and debris
Mingled with confusion and horror
To form a new concept of our times.

Voices were silenced,
As clocks ran out
On too many hearts...

September 8, 2006


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Tödlicher Verkehrsunfall

Hello, welcome to my poetry place on the Internet!

This is for all my friends, family, and for everybody who enjoys reading and writing poetry.


One Moment

 

As I stare into the darkness of the night
When the trees are asleep,
And the birds have finished their song,
I wonder what's beyond the here and now;
Beyond the sights and sounds of night and day.
And I rejoice in the peace of this one moment
That will last for as long as I let it,
And the warmth surrounding me from another sphere,
Where all I see and hear comes from deep inside,
Where you have found your final resting place.
And all I need to do to get to you
Is close my eyes and ears and listen in,
To hear the beauty of the song you sing,
And to see you walk towards me,
And take my hand to lead me
Into the rest of my life.

August 31 2003

Two And A Half Years

 

Two years and a half worth of water
Gone through the valley of depth
To the ocean of tears that I cried,
Ever since that day when you left.

Two years and a half worth of money
Spent on nothing at all
Gone through my pain and suffering
Rolling away like a ball.

Two years and a half worth of air
That you were not able to breathe
Went unnoticed beyond space and time,
And vanished with lightness and ease.

Two years and a half worth of heartbeats
Were silenced forever in you
Buried inside my grieving
And in my sorrow, too.

For two years and a half the light has been off,
And there is nobody home,
Except growing silence and deafness
In an unknown face, all alone.

July 17, 2002

Emotions like waves

 

Oceans of tears I cry,
For those past moments we cannot recover,
For those memories now gone like waves in the surf.
Like the waves of the ocean,
Anger, sadness, joy and sorrow,
They never stop, always in motion.

Oceans of tears I cry,
For the words I never spoke,
For the sounds I never heard,
For they have now vanished,
With the waves of the ocean,
Never to return.

Oceans of tears for those untold stories,
Gone by, blown away by the wind,
For the water they could not drink,
And the bread they could not eat,
Their sad faces washed ashore,
And ceased to exist

Oceans of tears I cry,
For the pain that never healed,
And the wounds that left scars so deep,
Numbed by fear and despair,
Like the ocean waves,
They just went unnoticed.

Oceans of tears I cry.....

1 August, 2003

Our Earthly Home

 

Trapped in a book I never read,
And trying to figure the plot,
I'm on my way - asking those questions
That can never be answered
Within our earthly home.

Trapped in a tune that was never heard,
An ever-lasting song;
And I am but a single note
That rises and falls with the seasons,
Here, in our earthly home.

Trapped in a movie, yet to be made,
And a script that composes itself,
I look to you for my next line,
Knowing I have to look
Beyond our earthly home.

Sept. 16 2003

Sometimes I Think

 

Sometimes I think

About the words that were never spoken,
And the stories they should have told...
About the questions that were never asked,
And the silence they were forced into.

Sometimes I think

About the colors that were never seen.
And I wonder
What beautiful pictures they painted
Into your silenced heart.

And sometimes I think

About the empty spaces
That should have been filled
With unheard melodies of gold,
From the depth
Of your universe.

Sometimes I hear

The silence of your voice.
Loud and clear,
Across the galaxies
Of love.....

Oct.4, 2003

There are those colors....

 

There are those colors you never saw,
And those tunes you never heard,
But now you're one of them.

There are those faces no one knows,
And names no one remembers,
And now you're one of them.

There are those dreams no one understands,
And those images, so hard to decipher,
And you are in all of them.

September 5, 2003

Journey Through Seasons

 

And I was there.
With a role to play,
Of an unseen plot.
And a script
Of unwritten words,
To say, as I go along
On my journey through seasons.
Between the beginning and the end
Of the blood in my veins,
And the tears in my eyes,
Falling to form
An ocean of sadness,
Or joy,
Or anticipation,
Of the rain that will wash away
All of yesterday's sounds of my heart,
And awaken me
To the beginning
Of the rest of my life.

October 11, 2003

Shadows

 

Shadows of darkness
Surround me with peace,
Where each word that I say,
And each breath I exhale,
Is in tune with the sounds of the moments,
When silence can be heard
Singing beautiful tunes of the wind,
And whispering to me
From beyond the realm of time
Into the depth of my heart,
Where the songs of the seasons
Reverberate forever,
This moment.

October 17, 2003

Perceptions

 

When the sounds of the night
Surround the depth of your silence
You look up to an endless sphere
Of unseen colors and smells of darkness,
Speaking to you through whispered voices.
And they get closer,
With each beat of your heart
Each inhaled breath,
Until they touch you
With gentle hands,
And you become engulfed
In the spirit of time.....

November 1 2003

Out Of Time

 

A journey of gold,
Or maybe satin,
Brings me to a place out of time.
Maybe today,
Or tomorrow,
But then again - never in time
Do I walk the grounds
Of hot fiery steel,
Or cold arctic ice,
To try and reach you,
Hidden in the reality
Of the souls around us,
As I walk on, between two moments
Of my dream. ...

October 13, 2003 (2 a.m.)

An Empty Space

 

There's a void
That cannot be filled,
Deep in the center
In the depth of time,
Between two breaths I take,
Between two moments of silence
Between two unspoken words,
And two pictures I never saw
An empty space
From beyond my consciousness
That leads to the first breath
Of the future...

October 31, 2003

Song Of The Fall

 

Song of the fall,
On top of the trees;
Endless melody of moments
Between dawn and dusk;
And moments of silence
For the muted songs,
And silenced sounds of grief,
Of anger,
Of joy,
Of open hearts, filled with seasons,
And hope for tomorrow,
The first day
Of remaining breaths....

October 16, 2003

Choices

 

Empty spaces surround my dreams
Like a shadow of choices
To be made here and now
And with each breath I inhale
It seems like the choices slip away
Into another dimension
Another moment of fear
Of the unknown territory.
And each new heartbeat
Brings me closer
To another choice
In a new moment...

October 29, 2003

 

I Will Remember You

 

I will remember you
As the strength of my weakness
As the success in my failure
And as my courage
When I wasn't so brave.

 

I will remember you
As my hope in despair
As making it right although it was wrong
As giving me light
In total darkness.

 

I will remember you
Catching my falls
Taking my burden on to you
Until you fell yourself.

 

I will remember
When you picked me up
When I seemed to be falling
Under the weight of Mom's death.

 

And I will remember
The most important thing about you
Your warmth
Your sweet heart, that failed you all too soon
And quite simply
That you are still my Dad.

 

November 29, 2000

 

 

 

One Plus One

 

When two hearts become one,
It's like two shadows connecting,
And revealing a new shape.

 

When your eyes reveal
The deepest secrets
That even you are not aware of,
It's like a new secret is created
That only you will know.

 

When one plus one equals an infinite number,
You will need no more science
To calculate its worth.

 

And when two shadows create an infinite number of shapes,
And conceal all the secrets,
There will be no more than one...
Plus one....

 

To Alex and Mike, May 14, 2002

 

 

A Shining Star

 

At night I watch the sky;
And I imagine
That you are waving to me
From beyond the horizon,
Where there is no time or space
Where the stars sing and dance
To an unheard melody
A song of happiness and peace
And you join them in dance and song,
And I see you
In the darkness that surrounds me
With warmth, peace and love,
From beyond.

June 27, 2001

 

Light-years Away

 

Light-years away,
Across different worlds,
You still speak to me
And I hear your voice
Deep inside my inner ear
As you whisper
Your words need no language,
For they are deep from within,
Where language is only a barrier,
A source of confusion
And misunderstandings
But you speak to me
Through the sound of eternity
From light-years away,
But closer
Than my breath.

July 3, 2001

 

This Void In Me

 

The beauty of your heart
Is invisible to my naked eye.
I need to see it
Through the microscope of love.
And as I go inward,
The light of your love
Shines so brightly,
It shines through the clouds of my soul
From beyond space and time,
And it warms up my heart,
Radiating from deep inside of me,
Where you have filled
This void in me.

January 4, 2002

 

 Each Breath I Inhale

 

Each breath I inhale
Is a new experience
Of a choice to be made,
For the first of remaining moments
Here on Earth.
This moment is past,
And all that is to come
Brings new solutions
To never ending problems
And decisions
For unknown breaths,
Uncertain tomorrows,
Not-yet discovered territories,
And roads yet to be traveled.
A journey toward the first breath
Of remaining decisions.

January 18, 2004

 

Life's Challenges

 

Each breath I take
Brings new challenges
For each sound I hear,
And each image I see,
When I'm surrounded by shadows
And intense sensations
Of unspoken words,
And far-away colors,
From beyond space and time,
Where the galaxies meet
In a new sphere,
Which is the beginning
Of the rest of my life.

November 18, 2003

To My Dad

 

I see your face before my inner eye;
Like a mirror of my inner self;
The depth of your eyes
Invades my heart like an icy ocean of tears.
I'm holding on, not knowing that you're there;
Your voice is whispering to me
From beyond my consciousness,
And all I hear is the wave
Of your song in the sea,
On a cold night in winter,
As I'm walking with you
Through an ocean
Of gold...

December 1, 2000

The Search

 

Surrounded by darkness
Along an endless path
Of frozen hopes,
I find myself walking
Along transparent roads
Where all I can see
Is the shadow of life,
Amidst crowded spaces,
In which colorless faces
Look for a place
To call home.
The salt of their tears
Makes up lakes and oceans
Of despair and humiliation.
And any direction they choose
Will lead them closer
To the search
For a beginning.

January 19, 2004

Confusion

 

Empty faces
Stare at me from the depth
Of my innermost feelings
With blinded eyes
Through a veil of confusion
And misunderstandings.
In a world without names
They breathe in their sorrows,
And exhale their poisons
Into eternity.
With uncontrolled anger,
Pain and misery,
Their tears form the waters
Of hatred and grief,
Inside the shadows
Of our existence.

 

January 24, 2004

 

Shattered Dreams

 

Cold, silent anger
Surrounds my shattered dreams,
Of a life I never had.
My breathing is poisoned
By vanished wishes,
And distorted thoughts
Of another creature,
Living within my innermost self.
Trapped in an unloved body,
A mind filled with doubt,
And long-forgotten hopes,
Of all the tomorrows
That would never come.
Trapped in yesterday,
Last week,
Last year.
Fighting the invisible currents
Of unseen waters.
Emotions like waves
In a silenced universe.

 

January 25, 2004

A Sign From You

Waiting for a sign
That you will give me
From beyond
Where you are now
Beyond right, beyond wrong,
The bond that we shared
Will never be lost
For I carry you in me
Wherever I go.
A sign from you
Is never too far
For I hear your voice
In surrounding silence
And I know you�ll be there
Through dusk and dawn
To guide my thoughts
And lead my way
For I feel your warmth
In the cold of the night.
You are still my Dad
And I�m close to you
Connected to you
By an invisible thread.
For I see your smile
Before my inner eye,
As you�re taking my hand
And whispering to me
Soft words of courage
You will pave my way
By a sign from you.

 

 

May 21, 2001

Shadow Of Existence

 

All of my world
Is a black shadow of anger
And overwhelming fear of the past.
Where choices were made
From the depth
Of an ocean of tears
Of unworthiness
And suppressed feelings
Of darkness and guilt
About my very existence
That's my shadow
To follow me Forever...

February, 21 2004

Search For Answers

 

As I was walking
Toward the darkness of my soul,
Searching for answers
To unasked questions,
I saw a dark shadow,
Surrounded by blinding light.
Revolving around an open door,
Yet unable to cross the threshold
Of the universe beyond,
And the waters of freedom,
Forever singing a song of spirits,
Within the confinement
Of their undying breaths.

 

April 21, 2004

A Letter ...

 

A letter in the sea of my tears
Written on the dream of my breaths
With each second
I slip further away
From the blood in my veins
Into a never-ending depth
Of darkness and despair,
Where sounds of pain and confusion
Mingle with the beat of my heart,
To form a tearless cry,
For all the grief in my world,
And hopeless sunsets
To lead the way
Into my paralyzed self ...

 

August 14, 2004

Waters Of Tomorrow

 

Tears of Hope
Form the waters of tomorrow
Toward a way out.
Away from the jungle of fear
And the never-ending paths
Of confusion and misunderstandings
That surround my every breath
And poison the blood in my veins.
The prison of my life
Holding me hostage
From beginning to end,
Unable to see
Past the blinding light
Covering up the truth
And leading me
On the way
To non-existence...

 

June 24, 2004

Beyond Here And Now

 

We are waiting
For a time
That will never come
And a breath
We will never take
Beyond here and now.

We are singing
An unheard melody
A song of the ocean
As our tears form
The notes of a tune
Beyond here and now.

We are telling
A tale of deceit
With each poisoned breath
The words are made up
Of dysfunctional letters
Beyond here and now...

 

May 5, 2004

Memories: 1825

 

1825 sunsets
Of waves in the oceans passed,
Waking up 1825 times
And each inhalation whispers
The sounds of my memories
So deeply embedded
In five summers of thought

1825 times
The moon came up
From beyond the clouds
Of my confusion
To silently wash away
My tears of sadness
Over 1825 times
That you didn't wake up

The sun rose 1825 times
And in its rays I saw
Rays of hope
For a new beginning
Between you and me
Beyond the physical boundaries
Of our earthly life ...

 

February 20, 2005

The 18th Day

 

The 18th day of 1990
A journey took place
That should never have happened.
You left behind a trail
Of grief and sorrow,
And unanswered questions.
Tears of unspoken words
Were shed into an ocean of despair,
And sadness washed ashore.
From the depth of my heart,
The years of love remain
In the eternity
Of the rest of time...


I still love you, Anda, and I always will!

 

May 21, 2004

No Need For Words

 

Just feeling you near me
Made me feel like
Nothing could ever hurt me,
And no one could threaten me.

You understood.
There was no need for words
To convey your message
That I was safe.

No need for words,
To make me feel loved
And treasured by you,
In your sweet, warm heart.

Missing you now
For 15 years,
I still need no words
To communicate with you.

My undying love for you
Will be with me forever,
Through my tears of sorrow,
Until I exhale my last earthly breath.


And there will be
No need for words.

 

To Anda, March 21, 2005

About A Life

 

A dream
Like a spring morning
Of pure joy
About a life.
And with each breath,
You make a new decision
To hear the ocean waves,
As they roll into existence,
From a different sphere
Of our galaxy.
The depth of the sea
Is like a fresh breath;
The first moment
Of an eternity,
Within the core
Of my soul...

 

April 23, 2005

Concept In New York

 

A concept of fire,
Blood and debris,
Raining down from the morning sky
Lost innocence,
Splattered with smoke.
New rivers and seas,
Formed by silenced cries,
From people reduced to ashes
And dust of confusion,
On a day like any other.
A day in the calendar,
Which will never again
Be just a day
Out of 365 and a quarter.
It is now a memory
And a concept
Of evil.

 

May 6, 2005

Anatomy

 

I am a face,
Like millions of faces.
My heart goes "ga-gong", "ga-gong",
Like most people's hearts.
My eyes stand for love,
And caring compassion.
I like poetry and music,
As well as fine arts.

My breath stands for fuel,
Energy and hope,
As I inhale
And exhale my desires.
My tears form the waters
Of dust and confusion,
And the madness
Ignited by fires.

My brain stands for vulnerable,
Loss of youth,
Or for humor,
Darkened at times.
My hands stand for softness,
A gentle touch,
A firm, but caring grip
On futures, intertwined

I stand up to myself,
And to who I am,
Regardless of what "they" say.
My spirit is strong,
As I am guided along
By my beliefs,
Day, after day, after day.

 

June 7 + 8, 2005

Wednesday Morning, 4:55 - Ten Years Apart

 

This date no longer exists.
It is now bathed
In a cloud of dust,
Confusion and tears.
It happened ten years before.
It happened ten years after.
All of life's hopes were shattered,
For you, for us, for them.
Ten years apart,
Yet united as one,
To form a concept
Of loss.

September 16, 2005

Path Of The Moment

 

The road to nowhere
Is paved in experiences
And choices we make,
For each rainbow we see,
And each thunder we hear.
We travel along
On our path of the moment,
Where each beat of our hearts,
And each breath of air
Brings us closer
To remaining moments,
And to the silence
Beyond the path
Of here,
Of now,
Of today......

September 20, 2005

Give Me ...

 

Give me a word,
And I'll tell you a story.
Give me a dream,
And I'll make it come true.
Give me some air
To fill my lungs with desire.
Give me your world,
And I'll give mine to you

December 26, 2005

Moments And Choices

 

Each moment
Feels like a start
And like an end
To a life
Of countless decisions
One has to make

Each choice
Brings new challenges
And new moments of imaginary reality
For each breath
We have to take
Between here and now
And the perceived end
Of our earthly journey

September 7, 2006

If Only ...

 

If I could talk to you right now,
I'd tell you that I wish
We'd had more time to know each other,
And to share
All that life has to offer.

If I could talk to you right now,
I would tell you
That I saw in you
A friend I could talk to
From heart to heart,
Who shared with me
The love of giving.

If I could be with you right now,
I would want to take away
Your pain and suffering
That assaulted your being,
And weakened your body
Until you were too weak to fight.

If only I could,
I would tell you I love you.
How much you mean to me,
You will never know.
I will treasure your memory
For as long as I live.
I will carry the torch
To make you proud of me.

If only ...


To Lina, April 21, 2007
I miss you so much!
May you Rest in Peace


 

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