Despite their earlier worries they wouldn�t be able to tour on schedule due to everything with The Institute, they were all ready when rehearsals began. The tour was going to be more laid back then previous tours though. Johnny had thought it was a good idea when they brought it up, never suspecting they were doing it to make sure neither Lance or Justin overdid it. Of course, Justin and Lance had both argued with the others in private that they were fine and didn�t need the concession.
�Maybe it�s for me J.� Chris said with a grin. �You know, I�m getting really, really old. Can�t dance like I used to.�
�Yeah, it�s hell when you start approaching the seven hundred year mark. Everything just starts going.� Joey quipped. �Should just buy you the rocking chair and get it over with.�
�Only if I get the cane to lift all the girls skirts with as well. Old guys can get away with that kind of stuff you know.� Chris replied.
�Works for women, but what are you going to do about the guys?� Lance asked with a grin.
�Why would I need to do anything about the guys. I have four perfectly good boy toys right here.� Chris said with a wink directed towards Joey who blushed and looked away.
* * * * *
Many of the nights of the �Celebrity� tour, like the tours before it, were spent on the bus. However, this time instead of them separating for the long drives, the five men would pile on one bus and spend time together talking. They still had two buses to split between the five of them and utilized both of them frequently for shorter trips. It was on the long trips between cities when they were sure no one could be listening in that they allowed themselves to be completely open to each other.
Joey and JC had unlimited questions about vampirism and the lives Chris and Lance had led. Many hours were spent with the five of them entangled while Chris would describe growing up under the pressures of family obligation. Lance would discuss the high societies expectations back in the fourteen hundreds and how he avoided marriage for so many years.
�I was losing my battle against my parents. They had realized I was only pretending to take all the socialites they threw my way seriously. It was always easier to just smile and make polite remarks about the girls while inside I was wishing to run far away from everything with Chris at my side.� Lance admitted. �If I�m truthful, from the moment I accepted Chris was a vampire I wanted him to change me. I would�ve never came out and asked for the gift, but I was always hoping he would know and do it anyway.�
�It could have saved us a lot of time and pain if you would�ve just came out and told me you wanted it.� Chris said with a reminiscent grin.
�Yeah, but I wasn�t raised to where I would�ve felt comfortable asking for anything from you, especially something so life-altering.� Lance explained. �Besides, I knew you wouldn�t change me until you were ready. So I waited until you made the decision and I knew it was because you wanted to and not because you were obligated.�
�What made you decide to change him?� Joey asked quietly from the floor where he and Justin were sprawled together.
�The plague swept through the city. In the beginning, I was able to go back and forth from my family to Lance�s home to make sure everything was okay. The tailor shop my father had started was closed due to lack of business, no one wanted to go out and chance catching the plague. Then the black death made it�s way into my home. First my little sister got sick, she died within two days.� Chris said, lost in his memories of a time long before. �I spent all my time taking care of my family as one by one they got sick. The last night before my mother died, we talked about what had happened to me and what I would do without all of them. She told me to get Lance and flee the city for somewhere we could start again. I was so worried about telling her about being a vampire and how I fed, but she only told me to take care of myself and to be happy.�
For a couple of minutes everyone was silent, allowing Chris the time to get past the memories of the last time he�d seen his mother alive before he continued speaking. �It was about a week from the time my sister got sick to the time my last sister died. There was nothing I could do except try to make them comfortable. I never thought about changing them and looking back now I wonder why it never occurred to me. My only thoughts once they picked up the last body was to get to Lance. I hadn�t been able to check on him since my first sister got sick. I was devastated when I arrived only to see the sign on the door saying the plague was within. When I knocked, no one answered so I let myself in, going from empty room to empty room. I finally found Lance laying in the master bedroom close to death. I had lost my family and I knew I would never get over losing Lance as well.�
Again Chris took a moment to gather his thoughts and push the sorrow from the memories aside. �I asked if he�d let me change him, reassuring him the vampire blood would cure all the damage the plague had done to him. I had to act quickly though, he was close to death when I began and it was close for a few minutes whether death would claim him before I could. Luckily, I was able to accomplish the change and after we had both rested for a little bit we packed the few possessions we would need and left the city.�
�How long before you went back?� JC asked quietly, overwhelmed from the love and devotion in Chris� voice.
�Almost a hundred years.� Lance answered, also moved by Chris� words and the emotions behind them. He had been watching Chris closely for several weeks, realizing he needed to rethink his relationship with Chris and with Justin as well. He vowed to himself soon the three of them would sit down together and figure out just what was happening between them. �It was a different city, a different world when we returned. London will always hold a special spot in my heart though, it�s where Chris and I got to know each other and seal our future together.�
�I think it�s a special place for both of us now.� Chris said with a smile that didn�t try to hide what he was feeling. �It�s strange to go back sometimes though, there are so few things left from our original time there. Where my father�s shop once stood, there is now a music shop and where Lance�s house stood is now a bank.�
Everyone looked as Joey began to laugh uncontrollably. �How appropriate is that? It was like they converted their personalities into the fitting kind of business.� After looking at him for a moment perplexed, Justin finally understood what he was saying and began to laugh along with the others quickly following.
The subject was dropped for the evening, although they would spend numerous rides on the same subjects of vampires and the past. For Joey, JC and Justin it was like having living history books with them as they discussed things the others had only read about in school. Wars, inventions, historical figures, all of them were brought to life again through the stories told and the experiences shared. Through Chris and Lance�s eyes, they experienced the flow of time, through them they felt the sadness of events such as the World Wars and the joy of things like electricity. Over and over they were reminded of just how far civilization had come within a relatively short period of time.
* * * * *
All of them realized Chris, Lance and Justin needed to sit down and talk everything out. The three of them kept postponing the talks though, afraid something would come out in the conversation which would keep them apart forever. Each of them was afraid the other two might not love them enough or want to be with them in the same way. Everything came to a head though a month into the tour.
Chris and Lance were headed out after a concert to feed. They had made sure to not feed sexually or with blood off of any of their band mates since before the orgy which had revived Lance. Although Joey and JC had offered to help them feed sexually if they ever needed it, the two of them weren�t hurt when the offer hadn�t been accepted. Justin was another story. Each time Chris and Lance left to feed, Justin would pout for a couple of hours, feeling as if the two of them were slowly leaving him behind. They knew he would gladly help feed their sexual hunger every night and yet they still left every night they weren�t on the bus to feed elsewhere.
A month into the tour though, Justin had reached his breaking point. When Chris and Lance arrived back at the hotel after feeding, it was to find Justin sitting quietly on the couch waiting for them. He had taken a shower after they left, changing into an old pair of jeans and a t-shirt which was just tight enough to show the muscles underneath. He was dressed for comfort, but the two vampires were enthralled anyway despite having just fed.
�What�s up J?� Chris asked after clearing his throat. He was trying to look casual and unaffected but was failing as badly as Lance beside him.
�I think it�s time the three of us talked.� Justin said quietly. �I can�t continue on like this. One way or another, I need some closure to this.�
�Closure to what?� Lance asked, trying to buy some more time to think rationally.
�You know damn well what Lance. Both of you do. I�ve told you I was in love with both of you and no matter how many times you try to pass it off as an infatuation it is still here. I love you Lance and I love you Chris. I want to spend the rest of my life, the rest of forever with the two of you. It doesn�t seem to matter how I feel though. Night after night you go out to strangers instead of taking what I�m offering which I can only surmise means you don�t feel the same.� Justin managed to say the words even though they were so painful to utter aloud. �I�m asking you to have the courtesy to tell me yourselves that you�re not interested so I can find a way to move on.�
Chris and Lance both sat down heavily, a stunned silence enveloping the room. Both vampires were stunned at the words Justin had spoken as well as the emotion behind them. Both were slightly embarrassed it had taken Justin to begin the conversation they should have had months prior.
�Justin, I do love you and it does matter how you feel. Your feelings and Lance�s are so important to me.� Chris began slowly, not wanting to mess up the words which would have a deep impact on his future. �I�ve watched you grow up from a teenager to an amazing man and during that time my love for you has grown and changed. The only person I�ve loved like this in my life has been Lance and I�ve resigned myself to the fact I�m going to have to give both of you up so you can be happy together.�
�What do you mean you�re going to give us up so we can be happy together? I thought the two of you were in love and were going to be together without me.� Lance asked incredulously. �Since the band started you�ve always been so close , playing basketball and video games. You have so much in common and it would be so easy to just make that jump from friends to lovers and being together romantically.�
�Have all the years of being vampires sucked out your brains?� Justin asked half-serious. I�ve told you I want to be with both of you, that I�m in love with both of you. Now you�re talking about stepping aside so the other can be with me? From the looks of it, neither of you wants to be with me.�
�God Justin, that�s not true. Nothing could make me happier then to be with you forever, unless it�s being with you and Chris forever. I love both of you so much and I just want you both to be happy so I was letting you be together.� Lance explained, the pain apparent in his voice.
�Why would you want to be with me too?� Chris asked confused. �We�ve talked about your search for your soul mate for hundreds of years and now you�ve found him. I love you both enough to not stand in your way.�
�What I didn�t realize all those years was my soul mate wasn�t one person, it was two. I was always looking for the person who would fit, never realizing I was looking for the person who would fit with us and make us stronger. I�ve loved you since the beginning Chris, it just took being in love with Justin to realize I was in love with you as well.� Lance explained, blinking back moisture as he fought for what he wanted.
�You want both of us?� Chris whispered unbelieving.
�Yes. I love you and I love Justin. Please, Chris.� Lance almost begged.
�And you love both of us? Want both of us?� Chris asked Justin who rolled his eyes at how slow Chris seemed to be regarding this issue.
�Yes Chris. I�ve been trying to explain for months now how much I was in love with both of you, how much I wanted to spend forever with both of you. If it�ll help, use those powers of yours and read my mind.� Justin said boldly. �Come on, you have my permission, see what I�m thinking and feeling.�
Chris closed his eyes for a moment, a look of concentration on his face until his face slowly transformed itself with a huge grin of happiness. �You really do love me, love both of us.� He whispered in shock.
�Yes, I do and I bet if you read Lance�s thoughts you would find the same thing.� Lance smiled and nodded.
�Do it Chris, read my mind as well. Feel my love for both of you.� Lance said, feeling the first gentle touches of Chris� mind probing through his own. A moment later, Chris opened his eyes which were flooded with tears. �Now, you need to tell us what you�re thinking and feeling. We don�t have the powers you do, we can�t go exploring your mind for the reassurance we need.� Only moments after Lance finished the words a feeling of immense love and desire and completeness washed over him. Looking up, he caught Justin�s eyes and could tell the younger man was feeling the same thing. Looking towards Chris, he could see the concentration on his face and Lance realized Chris was letting them experience his thoughts and emotions much like he had theirs.
�I love you both so much.� Justin choked out as he pushed himself off the couch and towards Lance and Chris who met him in the middle. Three sets of arms entwined together until there was no discerning who they belonged to. All three of them felt the passion flowing through them, but even more powerful was the love and the need to just be close to each other.
Slowly, the three men worked their way towards the bed, their bodies seeming to move as one. Quickly they were entangled on the bed, soft words of love and commitment being broken with kisses and gentle touches. They knew the time would come where the passion underlying the love would overtake them, but for now they simply enjoyed the closeness. Much to all their surprise, sleep overtook them before passion ever had a chance.
The three woke up the next morning completely intertwined, although none of them were complaining. Justin quickly decided more action was needed and set to work kissing and licking any skin he found no matter who it belonged to. Proving his hips could be lethal in bed as well as on stage, he bumped and grinded against legs and the bed until there was symphony of moans filling the room.
�J . . .please.� Chris moaned, catching Justin�s arm and pulling him up. As soon as Justin was near enough, Chris captured his lips in a deep, rough kiss which conveyed all the passion already starting to boil within both men. Justin jumped slightly and then relaxed back into the kiss with Chris when Lance started to slowly lick his way down Justin�s back. Taking his time, making sure to cover every inch of skin, Lance licked and sucked and nibbled until he was faced with Justin�s tight ass. Unable to help himself, Lance licked into the crack over and over, getting deeper with each pass until he reached his target. Pushing in-between Justin�s legs to allow himself more room, Lance licked around the opening before thrusting his tongue inside forcefully. Over and over, deeper and deeper, Lance tongue fucked Justin�s ass. Chris grinned into his kiss with Justin for a moment before deepening the kiss. Sucking Justin�s moans and gasps into his own mouth, Chris tongue fucked Justin�s mouth just as Lance was tongue fucking his ass. Higher and higher they pushed Justin until with a muffled scream he came hard between them, leaving him limp and breathless.
The two vampires rolled Justin until he was comfortable beside them and then went in search of their own satisfaction. Kissing roughly, they ground their bodies against each other, knowing their release was only a short distance away. While the two men raced towards their completion, Justin recovered enough to open his eyes and watch the show before him. Although his body wasn�t prepared to get aroused again, Justin�s brain felt like it had fireworks going off in it as the two men he was in love with sought to show their love for each other.
�Oh God . . .�
�Fuck . . . .�
Justin grinned wickedly as the two men reached their peaks simultaneously. For just a moment worry over what happened next flirted through his brain and then he forced it out. From this moment on he vowed to think only positive thoughts about his relationship with Lance and Chris. Instead of worrying, he pulled the two men close to him and caressed their skin as they slowly came down from their orgasms.
Two hours later, the three men walked into Quiet Room backstage to applause from Joey and JC who stood up as soon as they saw their band mates. All three men blushed at the attention, assuming the other two had realized the three of them had declared their love for each other. Their suspicions were confirmed as Joey and JC hugged each of them in turn and murmured congratulations before they all collapsed on the sofas in the room.
�So, you finally all came to your senses and solved the problems between you.� JC said with a grin. �When are you two planning on changing Justin?�
�You don�t pull any punches do you Jayce?� Lance asked with a wry grin.
�I don�t see a reason why I should.� JC said calmly. �The three of you are together, you are in love with each other and naturally you want to spend the rest of your lives together. Since Chris and you have a much longer length of life then most people, I would guess you don�t plan on watching Justin grow old and leave you. Plus, he�s extremely knowledgeable about vampires and little seems to disturb him. Hence, the question. When are you planning on changing him?�
�It�s not as simple as it sounds Jayce.� Chris said quietly.
�Why not?� Joey asked.
�Because we can�t just change him in the morning and expect him to go on with his life in the evening.� Chris explained. �It�s going to change how he looks at everything, how he interacts with people. If we did it while on tour and he had a bad reaction, it could put a lot of people at risk.�
�Put them at risk how exactly?� Joey asked worried.
�When we are first changed, it takes a little time to get used to the new strength and abilities. The hunger can also be overwhelming and unless it�s sated almost immediately can cause problems in itself.� Lance explained calmly.
�So how long does it normally take to adjust?� JC asked thoughtfully.
�Depends on how much power is transferred. With either Lance or I changing him, Justin would receive a lot more power then what Lance received when I changed him for a couple of reasons. First, we�re both over six hundred years old which means we are a lot more powerful then we were when we were first made. Second, Lance is the only vampire I�ve ever made and he�s never made one, the power can be diluted if we make too many vampires. Since we haven�t made any, our power is not diluted for the transfer.� Chris explained.
�So he would be more powerful then a vampire who was made by a vampire who is say fifty years old?� Joey asked intrigued.
�Yeah, significantly more powerful. When we change Justin and yes Jayce I did say when, he will be as powerful as we were after approximately three or four hundred years.� Chris said with a smile.
�That�s pretty cool.� Joey said with a grin towards Justin who was listening to everyone calmly. �You�re pretty quiet J, what are you thinking about?�
With a content smile Justin looked at the others. �I�m thinking that I do want to be made a vampire, but not for the power it will afford me or the new abilities I will have. I want to be made a vampire so I can spend endless years loving Lance and Chris. If I have to wait to be changed until it�s convenient, then so be it. I�m content just knowing it will happen when it�s right. Until then, if nothing else I can help feed some of their hungers.�
�As long as it�s the sexual hunger and not the blood hunger.� Joey said looking at Chris, Lance and Justin to make sure his point was across. �While we�re on tour we don�t need Justin�s immunity to getting sick any lower then touring already makes it.�
�Believe me Joe, feeding off of Justin�s blood isn�t going to happen again until he�s being changed.� Lance agreed quickly.
�Speaking of feedings, I�ve been meaning to tell both of you that if you ever need to feed and can�t find a donor for whatever reason I�d be willing to help out. Not as an everyday thing, but in case of emergency feel free to come to me.� JC offered, blushing a little bit in embarrassment.
�Thanks C.� Chris said with a grin and a hug for his friend. �It�s very nice of you to offer and we�ll keep you in mind if we ever need it.�
�Jayce isn�t the only one who�d be willing to help out if needed.� Joey said shyly. �I might not understand all the different feelings I�ve had lately, but I do know I love you guys and would do anything to help you if you need me to.�
�Thanks Joey.� Lance said with a grin and a hug for his friend, knowing how hard it was for the other man to admit he was still confused about his attraction to certain men. Lance would have said more, comforted Joey more, but at that moment one of the hairstylist knocked on the door and said they were ready for them. All five of them stood, knowing any further conversation would have to wait until later when they were on the bus.
The concert went well that night and the five of them were quickly herded towards one of the tour buses where they would spend the next thirteen hours. They had managed to grab quick showers before they left, so the five of them were sprawled around the bus in various forms of pajama pants and t-shirts. Chris and Lance had quickly pulled Justin down to cuddle with them, both of them turned on from the concert and knowing they probably wouldn�t be able to feed until they reached the hotel out of respect for JC and Joey.
�I was thinking.� JC said as he stretched out on the floor. �You said Justin would need time to get used to everything after you made him a vampire. What if we all took a break? We could say it was for Justin to work on a solo album and me to work with other artists writing and producing. Maybe tell the press Joey and Chris want to just be normal people for awhile and Lance wants to do some project or another.�
�It could work.� Chris said lazily. �How long would we tell everyone we were taking. Cause Justin will probably need at least four or five months away from major crowds. He would be able to work on a solo album during that time though.�
�What if we said about eight months. We can always cut it short if we get bored or extend it out if something else comes up.� Joey said from the kitchen where he was grabbing drinks. �It would be really nice to spend some time with our families and actually live out of our houses instead of hotel rooms.�
�Sounds good to me.� Justin said with a yawn. �Besides, I�ve been wanting to work on a solo album for awhile, try a new sound and then come back to record the groups next album with a new outlook.�
�So we�re going to do it? Announce NSYNC is taking a break and doing our own thing for awhile?� Lance asked, sounding half-way excited by the prospect. All of them knew Lance would spend most of the time helping Justin get used to his new life, but as soon as he had the time, he�d find a new project to work on.
�It could be good for us all. Help us remember this tour bus isn�t the normal world.� Chris said seriously.
�Of course it�s not.� Joey said with a grin. �The real world is hotel rooms with groupies throwing themselves at you and on stage in front of thousands of people screaming your name.� Joey didn�t have time to duck from the barrage of pillows hitting him in the head.
* * * * *
Like they expected, the news of their hiatus was met with various stories of the group breaking up. There were also rumors Lance was heading to Russia for a chance to go into space. All of them were confused about the rumors until they heard Lance making a couple of calls where he talked of his childhood dreams coming true. He just smiled at their puzzlement before explaining he could be completely out of the public eye this way without any problems. Deciding a cover story was a good idea, Chris decided he was going to tour the United States in a RV. Also expected, the public never even questioned their cover stories.
Their last concert was at the end of April and while all of them were excited about the idea of some time off and all the changes which would occur during the time, it was also difficult for all of them to think about so much time spent apart. There was a lot of discussion about setting up meetings between the five of them without the press finding out. They set up times every two to four weeks where the five of them would meet away from the press and fans. They also planned specific times when they would each be seen by the press to keep NSYNC�s profile up.
The five of them met at Justin�s house the night after their last concert for their own private party. The night before there had been a party for their families and friends and all their business contacts, this was just for them. Instead of high-priced caterers and a fancy reception hall, they had grilled steaks and Justin�s pool. All of them found they liked it even more.
�So when is the big day?� Joey asked after they were all settled after they ate.
�A week from Saturday.� Chris said calmly. �That gives Justin a chance to spend some time with his family and deal with anything he needs to before hand. Then the three of us are probably going to disappear for a couple of weeks so he has a chance to get his bearings.�
�So we won�t see you guys during that time?� JC asked slightly hurt. �I thought maybe you�d let us be there when you change him.�
�You�d want to be there?� Lance asked surprised. �You realize we will have to drain him of almost all of his blood before having him feed off of our blood? All the while one of us will be fucking him?�
JC nodded. �I realize there is blood involved and sex, but this is a huge thing, a life-changing thing and I want to be there for him through it.�
�What about you Joey?� Chris asked quietly. �Do you feel like JC does?�
Joey thought about it for a moment before answering. �Truthfully, I never considered us not being there. I just figured we would be there for this like we are for everything. But if you don�t want us involved . . .�
�I think in the end it�s up to Justin.� Lance said looking at Justin. �You do need to realize there is some risk involved for Justin and for both of you if you�re there. We�ll be draining all his blood which means he�ll be close to death. It shouldn�t be a problem to get him blood in time, but sometimes the body just rejects the blood. When Justin comes out of it he�s going to be hungry. Sometimes it�s just for sex and sometimes it�s for sex and blood both. Each vampire is different. We can probably control him, but it�s not guaranteed.�
�Were you aware of the risks Jup?� Joey asked, realizing for the first time they could all lose Justin during this.
�Yeah.� Justin spoke up for the first time. �Chris and Lance have described in detail what they�ll do and what the risks are. I want this and it�s worth the risk to spend forever with Lance and Chris.�
�Do you want us there Justin?� JC asked. �I�d like to be there, to support you and to understand a little bit better, but if you don�t want me there just say so.�
Justin looked down thoughtfully for a moment. All of them had noticed how much Justin had matured since Lance was sick. Although they were sad to say goodbye to the child they�d known, the man he�d become was someone they all admired. Justin looked up, searching each man�s face individually before speaking again. �I would like you to be there. I want to share this with you because in the end it effects both of you. You�ve supported Chris and Lance and I know you�ll support me and that deserves to be rewarded. If Chris and Lance think they can keep the two of you safe, I would love to have you with me.�
Chris and Lance looked at each other for a moment before nodding and telling Joey and JC they could join them. �We�re flying to London to do it though.� Chris explained. �So it�ll mean flying over with us. We�ve got a private jet reserved already so that�s not a problem, but it�ll mean taking the time for travel.�
�Where are you all staying?� Joey asked.
�I rented a cottage right outside the city.� Lance explained. �We thought it was fitting to do it in London where we were both changed, but of course we couldn�t do it at my old residence since it no longer exists.�
�But the place I was changed does still exist.� Chris explained. �We called and talked the owners into letting us stay there for four weeks. They rent it out to tourists already, so it was just a matter of getting them to let us have it for an extended stay.�
�Which they had no problems with considering I offered them more then they normally ask and they don�t have to come and clean or do upkeep for the month we are there unless something major happens.� Lance explained.
�How large is this place? Would it have room for Jayce and I to stay with you for awhile?� Joey asked, contemplating a couple of weeks in England and thinking it sounded kind of nice since NSYNC wasn�t as popular overseas.
Chris and Lance both laughed before Chris replied. �It has ten bedrooms and five bathrooms, plus a lot of extra rooms which only the English understand the need for.�
�That�s not a cottage, that�s a mansion.� Joey said surprised.
�Actually, in England you either have a flat, a cottage or a castle pretty much.� Chris replied with a grin.
�Okay, so would you mind sharing your cottage with us for a couple of weeks maybe? A vacation sounds nice before I really start my vacation.� Joey said with a grin matching Chris�.
�You can stay as long as we do if you want.� Lance said, liking the idea of Joey and JC coming to England with them more and more all the time. It wasn�t like they couldn�t all go their own ways if they wanted, but the support for Justin would be wonderful.
�Okay, well we leave next Friday at two in the afternoon. We�ll have the limo swing by and pick each of you up from your houses so no one has to leave a car at the airport. I�ll also let Johnny know you�re coming with us so he won�t worry.� Lance said, making a mental note of what he needed to do.
�Are we taking any security?� JC asked, hoping the answer was no.
�Nope. Johnny wasn�t happy when I told him, but I assured him we were planning on just staying in the country and not dealing with any crowds where we could be in danger.� Lance mentioned with a grin.
�I bet. He�ll be even more enthused about the idea when he finds out all five of us are going.� Joey said.
* * * * *
The flight to London was as ordinary as you can get when you�re flying on a private jet. All of them enjoyed knowing they could move about the plane once they had safely taken off and it was nice they didn�t have to worry about other passengers. Most of the flight was spent with the five of them talking to each other. After the plane was at it�s cruising altitude and the flight attendant had set out the buffet and drink bar they had asked that they be left alone unless they called for assistance.
It had been apparent from the moment they picked up Justin he was in a thoughtful, quiet mood. What they were all worried about was whether he was changing his mind or regretting his decision. All of them were hoping Justin would share his thoughts during the flight so they could reduce their worrying.
�I haven�t changed my mind.� Justin�s voice broke through the silence of the plane about two hours into the flight. �I know you�re all worried that I�m regretting it or have changed my mind. I haven�t though, I�m just thinking. I spent the past week visiting with my family, seeing the boys and making sure everything was in order in case something does go wrong. I spent a lot of time talking to my mom this week and an afternoon with Daddy on the golf course discussing life. They actually think I�m going through some weird crisis since NSYNC is on hiatus and I couldn�t tell them otherwise.�
�I realized this week I might never be able to tell my family what�s going on and if that happens most likely I�ll have to disappear in ten to twenty years so they don�t question why I�m not aging. Even if I can eventually tell them about being a vampire, I�m still going to have to watch them die. But that�s the way of life right? Children bury their parents. I�m just having a hard time with Jon and Steven in the equation.� Justin�s voice cracked as he spoke of watching his family die. �I was also coming to terms with the fact I wouldn�t be able to have children naturally after this. Again, I�m gay and most likely would�ve never been able to have children naturally unless I go completely against my preferences to make others happy.�
�Anyway, I did a lot of thinking and planning this week. I got a lot of things in order, things I should�ve dealt with long before now anyway. I had my lawyer write up a will that�ll make sure my family will be cared for completely if anything happens. Did an inventory of all my collections and possessions, I even sold several of my cars cause all they do is sit there not being driven. Then I went to my doctor and did a couple of donations of sperm so if I want to have children sometime, I�ll still have the option to do it a different way. I�m not sure if I�ll ever make that decision, but at least it�ll be open for me. Oh, I also wrote notes to a lot of people in case something goes wrong. They�re sitting in my desk at home.� Justin said quietly. �I guess I never realized how much we leave unfinished every day expecting the sun to rise tomorrow and expecting we�ll have time to take care of things undone.�
Lance went and knelt before the chair Justin was sitting in. �You don�t have to do this if you�re not ready. If you�re never ready we�ll understand and still love you.�
�I know you will. I also know however scared I am at this moment, any sacrifice is worth getting to spend the rest of eternity with you and Chris. Please don�t say no now.� Justin finished with a whisper.
�We�re not going to say no.� Chris said softly. �We just need to make sure you are making the right decision for yourself because this one can�t be changed once it�s done.�
�I�m completely and totally sure.� Justin said, looking better then he had since they picked him up at his place several hours earlier. �Check for yourself if you want to.� Justin looked at Chris.
�I don�t have to check,� Chris said with a slight smile, �I can see it in your eyes. I promise we�re going to take care of you Baby Boy. You�re our lives and our love.� With little effort, Chris bent over and brushed his lips over Justin�s before lapping at them with his tongue. A moment later, Lance�s tongue joined Chris� to tease and seal the promise.
�Oh,� Joey said startled, �like this is good for my indecision about men being sexy?�
�Better get used to it Joey.� Lance said against Chris and Justin�s lips. �We�re going to be kissing each other for eternity.�
�Could you maybe make it a little less hot?� Joey asked politely not even expecting an answer.
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They reached the cottage around five in the morning London time. None of them took the time to even look around before claiming a room and collapsing. The plan was to sleep most of the day and then have dinner before doing the change. They wanted Justin to be completely rested and fed before they did the change to allow him every possibility of everything working perfectly.
It was Chris who woke up first and started to make dinner. Lance had talked to the owners and they had fully stocked the cottage with food so they wouldn�t have to go out shopping for a couple of days. They of course would be going out for the three of them to feed, especially if Justin required blood. Feedings could easily be accomplished fairly close to the village if needed though while the nearest grocery was in London itself.
Lance joined Chris in the kitchen about half an hour later. Not speaking at all, he picked up a knife and started chopping vegetables for Chris, knowing Chris would start talking when he was ready. Everyone had been very aware of Justin�s emotions and thoughts in all of this, but Joey and JC and even Justin himself hadn�t thought how Chris or Lance would be feeling or what they would be thinking.
�It�s not that I don�t want to change him or even that I don�t love him. I just keep seeing him when he was fourteen years old or I hear Lynn telling me to take care of her baby when she would have to fly home and leave Justin in Europe. I feel like I failed him, failed all of you with Lou and I wonder now if it won�t feel the same way when I do this. He�s one of my best friends as well as being one of the men I love and what if he hates me for doing this to him and I lose everything with him?� Chris finished in a whisper.
Lance pulled him tightly into his arms, knowing Chris needed the contact. �Yes, we�ve watched him grown up. I can still picture him as a young teenager as well. But I also know Justin Timberlake at fourteen was more of an adult then most thirty year olds. He knew what he was doing then when we were touring Europe and he was working to finish his studies before an appearance, he knew what he was doing when we signed with Lou and he knows what he�s doing here. Think about what he said on the plane, he�s thought about this in depth, went through every possible ending and he�s at peace with his decision. He�s never going to hate you, he�s never going to stop being your best friend, your lover or the man whose love for you is only matched by mine.�
�He�s right you know, about all of it.� Justin said from the edge of the kitchen where he was leaning against a counter in a pair of jeans, barefoot and tousled.
�How long have you been here?� Chris asked huskily.
�He came in right after I did.� Lance said with a smile. �We missed you in bed and came to investigate what you were up to.�
�So you heard everything?� Chris asked hesitantly. He didn�t want Justin to know he had doubts when they were going to be doing this in just a couple of hours.
�You think I didn�t realize you and Lance were having doubts? Or maybe you thought I was too wrapped up in my own head to think you could be as scared about this as I am?� Justin said softly as he wrapped his arms around Chris and Lance both. �Chris, I love you both. I�m in love with both of you. Part of being in love is being aware of the other person�s happiness and trying to take away their burdens. I can�t take this one away, it�s something you have to deal with on your own. You both told me on the plane if I wasn�t ready it wouldn�t change how much you loved me. I�m telling you the same thing now. If you aren�t ready to do this, if you have doubts, just say the word. I�m not going to pressure you into this. I hope I haven�t pressured you into this.�
�No! No, you haven�t pressured us at all.� Chris reassured Justin. �Maybe your not pressuring us is part of it. I want to be sure you really want this, you really understand what a huge difference it will make in your life. You�ve been so mature about all of this since Lance was sick I sometimes wonder if you really appreciate what we�re talking about.�
�Chris, look into my eyes, look into my heart and mind. I�m giving you permission again. Look and see what you need to be happy again.� Justin said completely confident and calm.
�Do it Chris. You need to know and we all know it.� Lance said softly, his pride for Justin in his voice. Chris just nodded and then concentrated as he slowly worked his way into Justin�s mind. Seeing through Justin�s eyes how much he had considered every angle of this, how much thought had went into making the final decision to go through with it finally gave Chris the peace he was searching for. Right before withdrawing from Justin�s mind, Chris sent a message of his immense love and pride for Justin. Justin startled at the mind to mind contact but then allowed the comfort of it to wash over him.
�Well, I think it�s time to finish making dinner. Joe and Jayce should be down here soon and I�m sure they�ll be hungry.� Chris said before giving them each a soft kiss.
�What can I do?� Justin asked.
�Set the table and open a bottle of wine so it can breathe? I don�t want Jayce yelling at me because I didn�t care for the wine properly.� Chris said with a grin as he turned back to turn on the stove so he could cook the stir-fry he�d been preparing.
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They had decided on using one of the unoccupied bedrooms for the change. Lance had checked with the owners about the size of the bed and then brought his own linens so they wouldn�t ruin someone else�s sheets if blood got on them. After they had all eaten dinner and consumed a couple of bottles of wine, Lance and JC had went up to the bedroom and gotten it ready while the others cleaned up the dishes.
Justin, Chris and Joey walked into a room with midnight black sheets and candles scattered throughout the room providing light and the spicy smell of vanilla. The couch which had been against a far wall was now situated a few feet from the bed so Joey and JC would have a perfect view of what went on. Both men were equipped with small spray bottles of rose oil just in case Chris and Lance couldn�t control Justin after he was changed.
JC and Joey sank down on the couch, curled together for comfort and support. Justin had undressed completely and was lying on the bed unashamed of his bared skin. Chris and Lance were going over their plans one more time to make sure they knew who would do what. The plan was for both men to take some of Justin�s blood and then for both of them to feed him some of their own blood. It was an unusual way to make a vampire, but Justin wanted to feel like he was apart of both of them. They also figured there was a chance he would be able to gain different powers from each of them.
�Okay Justin, Lance is going to be the one making love to you like we talked about. Once the two of you have a fairly good rhythm going, I�m going to start drinking your blood. Once I�ve gotten about half of what needs to be drained, Lance is going to drink. Once your heart slows down considerably we will seal the wound and then I will pierce my wrist and allow you to drink and then Lance will do the same. Don�t worry about working for your orgasm because it will come with the process. In fact, try to remember and enjoy it because it�ll be the greatest orgasm you will ever experience. Do you have any questions or concerns? Now�s your last chance.� Chris explained while he ran his fingers through Justin�s short curls.
�No questions.� Justin said with a grin. �I�m ready Chris, I promise. Though I do need to tell all of you I love you one more time. Also, I�m so in love with you two and I know this is just the beginning.� Justin leaned forward to kiss Chris softly and then did the same to Lance before laying back down with his legs spread to allow Lance in-between them.
Chris and Lance looked at each other for a moment and then Lance reached over and grabbed the lube from the table. After coating his fingers, he slowly slid two of them into Justin�s waiting body. No one was sure whose sigh of contentment filled the room. Lance worked to stretch Justin out for a minute before adding another finger. It�d been over a week since Justin had been penetrated and Lance didn�t want to chance hurting him on this night which should be only filled with pleasure for Justin.
Lance withdrew his fingers and smiled at Justin�s moan of protest. After quickly spreading lube over his hard cock, Lance slid into Justin, matching Justin�s moan of happiness. It didn�t take long for Lance to be fully surrounded by Justin and only a minute later before their bodies took over and set a steady rhythm. Lance locked his eyes with Justin�s and slowly pulled him into a deeper pleasure-filled trance so when Chris leaned down and pierced his neck, Justin only moaned in greater pleasure.
For the first time Chris tasted Justin�s blood and reveled in the sweetness. He reminded himself it wouldn�t be the last time and allowed himself to picture for a moment tasting both Lance and Justin while making love to them. With a moan, he tore his mind away from the fantasy and away from Justin�s neck. He�d drank enough and now it was Lance�s turn. The exchange of mouths was quickly accomplished and Chris was able to look down and watch Lance continue thrusting into Justin�s body as he drank deep of his blood. Chris made sure to listen carefully to the beating of Justin�s heart so he could pull Lance away if needed.
Lance was fully aware of Justin�s slowing heartbeat though and pulled away slightly to lick at the wounds of penetration causing them to seal up immediately. He sat back on his heels, still thrusting lightly in and out of Justin as he licked the remaining blood off his lips and looked at Chris again with a nod. Chris nodded back and then bit into his wrist before holding it to Justin�s mouth. Although the young man was unconscious by this point, his body reached out for the blood and drank deeply. Chris could feel the pull from the suction of Justin�s mouth as he took more and more in.
Justin�s eyes slowly opening was the cue Chris was looking for and he firmly pulled his wrist away from Justin�s mouth. Justin was not happy with the development however and tried to arch up to grab the wrist again, instead he was met by Lance�s dripping wrist which he greedily latched onto. It seemed like only seconds later that all three men arched their bodies in a mutual orgasm that left them all shaken and panting. Chris was aware enough to grab Lance�s wrist and lick at the puncture wounds to close them before he curled up in the pile his lovers made.
On the couch, JC and Joey were wide eyed. They had seen Justin�s eyes open right before Chris pulled his wrist away and they had witnessed all three men�s bodies shudder with sexual completion and could only hope it meant the change had went properly. Neither of them had expected all three men to pass out from the experience however. It would have been nice to have been warned in advance of the possibility.
After a couple of minutes, JC got up and went to the adjoining bathroom, bringing back a wet cloth and starting to clean up the bodies on the bed. As he worked, he spoke to them softly in case they were worried about who was running a cloth over their bodies. Once he was finished, JC looked up and locked eyes with Chris who was watching him with a grin on his face.
�You�re a considerate lover even when you aren�t involved huh Jayce?� Chris said with an ever widening grin.
�I just didn�t think you�d want all of that to dry on you.� JC said realistically. �Dried cum itches and it can pull moisture from your skin or cause rashes.�
�Where did you hear that from?� Lance asked from the other side of Justin.
�The guy who does my facials told me that when I complained of dry skin on my stomach.� JC said as if everyone discussed dried cum.
�Well, it�s good information to know.� Lance said without a hint of his amusement in his voice. JC simply nodded and returned the cloth to the bathroom. He picked up a couple of bottles of water Joey had brought up with him and handed them to Chris and Lance.
�How long is he going to be unconscious for?� Joey asked pointing at Justin. �I mean, it did work right? He�s still alive or as alive as vampires are in the first place?�
�Yes Joe, it worked and he�s as alive as vampires are in the first place.� Chris said looking down at Justin. �From the way it felt at the end it worked incredibly well. As for how long he�ll be unconscious, I have no idea. His body just got a major shock though so it could be awhile.�
�Y�all are awfully loud.� They all heard Justin complain although he still hadn�t opened his eyes.
�How�re you feeling Baby Boy?� Chris asked as he raked his gaze over all of Justin�s body.
�Revitalized. My whole body is tingling and I think I�m still feeling that orgasm. You weren�t kidding about it being the most incredible one of my life.� Justin said happily as he stretched his body on the bed.
�Need help sitting up?� Lance asked with a grin at how Justin was writhing on the bed.
�Nah, just taking a moment to feel the difference.� Justin said lazily before slowly sitting up on the bed and dreamily opening his eyes. He looked around the room briefly before focusing in on Joey directly in front of him who was looking his way. With a smile Justin met Joey�s brown eyes and everyone in the room gasped as Joey�s whole body trembled with orgasm.
�Ok, that could be a problem.� Chris said from beside Justin.