still small voice

listen to myself.
how am i supposed to do that?
i don't remember what i sound like.

if i stop everything else and listen
with all my might,
i can make out a barely audible, frail voice.
is that mine?

i thought it would be strong and secure.
but this voice is tiny and pathetic.
how can that be mine?

how did i let my voice be taken away and mutelated?
why didn't i notice when it was ripped away from me?
i stand clutching my throat.

my voice is so weak, so full of pain.
how can i ever make it strong again?
wait.

i hear another voice.
it is small, but yet strong and firm.
it is God's healing voice.

i know that one day i'll be albe to stand on a mountain top,
and scream
and people all over the world will hear me.