L.A. a big city, one could lose themselves very easily. The hype, the drama, that's what made it such a great place to be for both the living and the others that chose to dwell here. Tonight was different though, I found myself thinking back. Tonight I was alone. Just me and my tortured soul. I looked at the clock, it read 9:30p.m., she was on routine patrol by now facing every night dangers that we used to face together. As I sat there I remembered our first kiss, innocent and sweet. I also remembered our one and only time together, her first time and I ruined it forever when the demon took my soul. Buffy never stopped believing in me even when she knew I would kill her. Buffy had explained how Angelus tortured her and her friends and then there was Giles, I really owe him a debt, one of trust that I know he lost in me. Again, I looked up at the clock this time it read 11:30 p.m. earlier this evening Wesley had taken Cordy out for a well deserved night on the town. They should be heading back soon. I was still in my own little world when Wesley walked in. I could see he was alone but that only prompt the question where was she? I could see there was something different, not right if you would. Hey, Wes. What"s wrong? Angel it's .....he trailed off. You Need to go to Giles he will explain everything. I could see tears forming in the corners of his eyes, he tried to hide them but they were there. A thought suddenly entered my mind Buffy.... it's Buffy isn't it. Wesley dropped his eyes from mine, then I knew it. Angel hurry, go to Giles he will tell you everything. No, I had now lost my control. In my vamp face I grabbed Wesley and threatened his very life if he did not tell me what I knew already, that something very wrong was going to or had already happened. Wesley began by telling me that while on patrol earlier, Buffy came up against a female vampire, this one was different than the others she was unusually strong and gave Buffy a good fight. Buffy always did enjoy a struggle, but in this case she was up against more than she could handle. Wesley then told me that which I feared the most he told me the vampire's name...Darla. I tried to tell him that couldn't be that I had killed her earlier, but Giles got some information from Spike saying she had returned by way of witchcraft. I arrived at Giles' home to find him very concerned and some what at odds with the thoughts of me and my reaction to what he would have to say. Giles, I asked? How is she? Angel, she's dying I'm afraid. Tears ran down her watchers face as he struggled to control them. It was at that moment that I heard a faint but distinct cry, a cry for Angel...no this can't be, I won't let it happen, was she bitten Giles? No, she was tortured and then crushed against the walls of their Hell. I could feel the anger in Giles the loss, I felt it to. Angel, I have ran out of options. I wanted you here so that she would be near the one she loved so very much at the time of her death. I want to see her, I have to Giles, Angel she's bleeding inside we can't stop it. Angel, please don't let her know I think it would be better on her. I walked to Giles bedroom where she laid, and she looked so helpless and lonely. Hey, how are you Buffy? Angel..am I dying, you can tell me. I choked back tears and answered her honestly. Yes, those were the hardest words to say. I'll be back soon, I had to leave there. Giles I have an Idea, an idea that would come with a price, but it would save her from death. Angel, I know, the thought has already came into my mind. I fed off her at Graduation because she made me Giles, if I feed off her again she will never forgive me. Angel, I think you should ask her,we are talking about her giving up the light,freedom, family, all the things she loves the most. No Angel, not all the things, she loves you more now that ever before. Giles I can't ask her to give up her life, Angel she already has. As I walked back in the bedroom, Buffy was looking very weak, if I was to ask her now would be the time to. Buffy, I need you to listen to me, I can save your life. No, that wasn't right, I wasn't saving it, I was taking it from her. Angel, my sweet, Angel help me, do what you wish my love...your wish is to turn me so that I might live. I was struck by this, I never thought we would be having this conversation. Buffy, will you agree? If you do then I will be here to help you always. Angel, will you feed me? Yes,of course. Can you drink if it to save you? Angel, I will try. With that being said I asked Giles to please leave us so that we might have some privacy. Angel, when will you know if she has turned? Giles, I will know,you have Will to get the resoulment spell ready. She must do it when she wakes up, I will call right before. Giles left me with her, and as I held her close I found myself looking at the scar that I had given her last year. I changed into my game face as Buffy liked calling it, and I caressed her neck with a kiss and then I bit her. Buffy never cried out , she was so weak already. I could feel the power of the blood, I could taste her life draining away. After I finished, I placed her down on the bed. Buffy? Can you hear me? Angel...I hear you she said. You must drink now my love, drink and be with me always. There will be no more being apart from you as I will love you always, Buffy raised her head a little, I cut my own neck and she fed from me. I remember the feeling of being bitten come back to me now, I was bitten by Darla . Giles was called after she woke, and the spell to resoul Buffy worked well. Buffy, over the next few nights grew sick at the thought of drinking blood, but we did it together and she didn't seem to mind as much. As for her slaying duties, well... she was replaced by the council, and Giles was once again, Watcher of his Slayer, but never would a slayer hold the spot in his heart as his slayer, his beloved Buffy. THE END |