| s m i t t e n |
| i'll never find the discernment the reason i fell so hard craved your ups and downs covered myself with the words you threw out at me like weighted nets i'll never understand it the way my heart convinced me you were the one the one that would feel that love in one gentle embrace my mind tells me to run but your voice soothes my harsh prophecies creating a labyrinth of emotions all feeling complexifies. those faded memories have found painful lodgings within the folds of my mind recalling them sickens my thoughts the shame fills that hollow place but doesn't satisfy the hunger or purge the corruption left over and you've clearly moved on. yet you've left me in this bubble frail yet inescapable you throw it in my face... your newfound happiness.. you can't deny my anguished face you can't shrug off the fact that you KNOW i still feel for you even when i don't want you at all. you know it. the cup's been emptied and the aftertaste disgusts me when acknowledgement is all i ask of you i get no second look just a step in the other direction i can't see your face anymore... your back is in the way. funny how a warm shoulder can turn so cold. funny how you said nothing could come between us but YOU put up the cement barrier. so funny... my smile's faded. you don't seem to notice that at all. so i find myself at these crossroads between letting you know and letting you go. simplicity disguised under wraps of pain the choice should be easy. but with me... even every drop of rain that falls in the morning hours holds more meaning than it should things turn sour when i can't stop my emotions from dictating my thoughts after everything i still think of you missing the mysetery but repressing its return the thinking throbs my brain the searing of my heart is numbing and i can't look at you the same e v e r. 8/15/01 |