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| the emptiness i thought would come isn't there. and instead i feel a vast relief it almost makes me feel guilty for feeling this when i remember seeming centuries ago that time i told you that i couldn't go on without you. but you're just not worth the aggravation or the searing pain. i just got tired of playing dress-up with you. now i'm outside your little black box beyond the portals of our minds and the only satisfaction i stand without is to see that look of defeat upon your face 'cause you know i've won. you can keep your heart in that box now if it exists only to keep you alive we both know it holds no other purpose than that you won't let it. i'm a better person now because i made me this way and, yes because you're gone. 10/16/01 |