Wednesday
6-8-05
Feeling: Special
Listening to: my bothersome dogs panting at rediculous volume

Oh my god. I have the best girlfriend in the whole world. I went to visit her yesterday/today and she had it all planned out and everything. I had so much fun. Yesterday we went to Mitsuwa and she bought all sorts of stuff to make curry and rice, and we each had a sammich there with some Yogu yogurt/juice stuffs, I liked it alright, but it was weird. Then we went to the toy store and looked at all the little figures (Mandy likes the figures more than I do, I don't really see the appeal of them, but whatever! =p) We also saw all the anime and manga and shirts and other stuff. I always like it when she takes me out there. It's cool stuff and it's also something I find very special between just us. I've never been there with anyone else, and it's always been JUST us. I don't know, I just find it nice. On the way back I took a nap in the car and started to feel really blah. I think the heat got me and I fell into a horrible head ache. When we got back she had me watch Peter Pan b/c I realized that I had never watched the Disney version. So we popped it in and we watched it together. I really liked it, but I like the new live action one better. After that we went upstairs and Mandy started making the curry and rice. My head ache was only getting worse so I started a nap, but Mandy wouldn't let me just lie there, she came and brought me a heat pad and pampered me. She took care of me while I was just being all blah. ^_^ She's so sweet. Then after I layed there for just long enough she asked for my help just as I was feeling good enough to give any. So I went and helped make some plates with her for me, her, her mom, and her step-dad. There was Miso soup too. I didn't care much for the soup, but the curry and rice was really good. I still wasn't at 100% and I felt bad, but I couldn't finish what I served myself. ^^' I did what I could though. Between all this we managed to find her SNES and play some games too. She wanted to play this fighting game she had. I totally kicked her butt at it, which always makes me feel a little bad when I beat some one at their own game. Then she played Mickey Mania with me which I hadn't played in FOREVER. That game is very unforgiving as far as how big your character is and when it decides to say something's hit you when you're SURE you dodged it!#@$FFSLJ!!!!! Oh well. It was a fun blast from the past. Well that was yesterday which was nothing compared to today. Today Mandy woke me up early having hinted mercilessly to what we were going to be doing today without ever telling me yesterday. I know she told me to bring a swim suit and all that so I assumed we were going to A)boat B)pool C)water park. I didn't know of any of either in the area, so I was just gonna play it by ear. Either way I get to see Mandy in a bathing suit so GOOD DAY FOR ME. Right? Exactly. So we get ready and she tells me where we're going on the way there. She took me to Magic Waters water park. It was REALLY fun, and oh my GOD does she look good in a bikini. Me, not so good in swim trunks. Oh well. Can't really win that battle, but I still managed an ultra hot girlfriend, so I guess I'm winning the war. XDDDDDDDDD Well we got there around 10 and went on everything we really wanted to once before they closed the park's rides for rain. We didn't anticipate them reopening them at all b/c it looked pretty bad, so we went to the mall, which was right over there too, and hung out for a while. I bought her lunch b/c she had treated me to so much already. We just ate in the food court at Panda Express, nothing special. We went to the book store and looked at all the manga again. For some reason it just never gets tiresome.^^ She totally bought me the next volume of GTO too. <3 By this time I was starting to feel guilty. She was asking if I wanted it, and I knew if I said yes she was going to buy it for me, so I was trying not to, but she got it for me anyways. After that we went back to her place and hung out for a bit, we planned to watch a movie on tv and just relax. We haven't seen the Village yet so we were hoping to catch it on pay per view like it was earlier, but it wasn't on anymore. So we decided rather than watch a movie we may or may not really WANT to see we'd go into town and rent the one we actually do want to see. While we were at the rental place I found 3 dollar super nintendo games. I totally got Zelda: Link to the Past, and Super Mario All-Stars for 6 dollars and some change. I think that was well worth it. I was really excited. Well we got back and watched the Village which I heard mixed things about and over all I liked it, but only enough to watch it that one time. It had good twists in it and stuff I didn't see coming. Definitly worth watching once, but after that it wouldn't be any good. It's one of those movies that's all about the surprise ending. Well after the movie it was getting late and Mandy and I said our good byes and I headed for home. My whole way home all I could think about was wondering what I did to deserve such a wonderful girlfriend and how lucky I was. I had so much fun with her and she did it all for me. She even cooked for me, took care of me when I wasn't feeling well, played video games with me, watched two movies with me, took me to a water park, hung out at the mall with me, and all in just one and a half days. Boy I'm in love...

Saturday
6-11-05
Feeling: weak
Listening to: bad movie marathon!

Right to the point. Mandy's cat isn't doing so well. I know what she's going through. It's really tough. I would be a complete mess if I knew something was wrong with Jake. I've been praying for Splash every day. I wish I could do more. I really really wish I could do more. I just feel so helpless...
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Wednesday
6-15-05
Feeling: loved and blessed
Listening to: Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

ok ok ok, so call me a sap, call me melidramatic (sp? I'm used to Meladrome Addict, so I don't know how to spell it) but I just had one of the best dates ever! I took Mandy to the dunes. She told me either she hadn't ever been, or she was too little to remember, but we went hiking and I showed her the beach. The weather wasn't good for swimming, but the hiking was good. When we got to the top of the dune by the beach and had a good over look we just kind of stood there for a while soaking it all and, and that's when I gave Mandy the necklace I got for her a couple weeks ago in preparation for the event. I didn't kill my bank account over it, I can't afford to do that at this point in my life, but I made sure it was nice at the same time. 14k diamonds and gold heart pendant necklace. The lady that worked at the store helpped me out tremendously on that one and understood that I was a poor college student, but also knew how important this was to me. Well Mandy seemed to like the necklace, so I'm happy. We then walked back to the car having felt done with hiking. Once we got home it wasn't long at all before Mandy asked me to put the necklace on her, so I did, and I have to say she looked very good with it. I was wondering how long the necklace was and like where the pendant would lie around her neck, but it was the perfect length. She's so pretty. Well we hung out around the house for a little while. We played a board game and watched Lord of the Rings Fellowship. Then we had dinner. My mom made us a real good supper. She grilled BBQ chicken and made rice and corn. It was definitly a plus. Then after that we went to go see a movie. We saw The Longest Yard, which I thought would just be another WaterBoy really. It wasn't. It was very good. I don't know if I'd buy it, but I'd definitly be happy to receive it as a gift. One of those kinds of things. I have several video games like that as well. Oh well maybe that's just one of my weirdo things. But I digress. The movie was good. After the movie we came back to the house where he car was b/c she had to get going. I hate saying goodbye to her. I can't wait for school to start again just so that she'll be close again. I have to admit, going into the summer I was a little worried how this distance would work, but I have no doubt in my mind that Mandy will be close to my heart for a VERY long time to come. The hastle of a two hour drive is NOTHING compared to how wonderful I feel around her. It MORE than ballances out. Well she's not tired of me yet it seems, and I'm hoping for at least another 6 months. Mandy, I love you. ^_^

Thursday
6-16-05
Feeling: uncomfortable
Listening to: nothing, got home late from role play night with the boys

Alright, so I wake up to a phone call from Greg. He tells me about his focus weekend thing at Valpo which went well for him and all is well. Things seem good. I decide to go back to the Mariot hotel for that Best Buy thing again. I figure it couldn't hurt, check in on my application. I heard people were getting interviews and stuff, and they hadn't even called me back, so I was going to see if I needed to reapply or something or just show a little more initiative. Well I get there and they basically say 'Well we didn't call you for a reason.' That's paraphrased, but that's pretty much what they said but in polite business words and corporate smiles. I felt like spitting in that bitches face. It takes a lot to get me as mad as that did. I hadn't been that mad since ACEN when I had to wait in that line. Oh man. She'll get her's one day. Oh well. As with ACEN something came along later the same day to completely redeem it. But I'll get to that later. I was really upset. I kept tearing up on the way home. I couldn't shake the feeling of worthlessness. I just kept dwelling on the fact that I have nothing to offer Mandy, and that I need money at least to pay for my books next semester. I know neither are real worries, and that Mandy loves me and my parents would help me out, but it was still just there. That feeling haunted me the whole way home and then some. It took a good talk with my mom and dad to help shake me out of that funk. After a nice lunch at home of my mom's left over chicken which I made into a really freakin' good sammich with some cheese, and a good hour long discussion with them, I was pretty much cheered up 100%. It takes a lot to push me over the edge like that, and it doesn't happen usually as often as even the time frame between ACEN and now, but it doesn't take all too much to pull me back out. Like Mandy's hug at ACEN and a pillows concert. That pulled me a full 180 and then some. Mandy hugs are always good. Well I had a good head on my shoulders at this point, so I decided to make the most of my day before hanging with the guys and go out and see if I could fill out more applications again. Well my dad would be proud (haven't gotten to tell him yet) but I went first to Home Depot in Valpo and filled out the painstakingly long application there. So that was working out well. Then I went on over to Kohl's where my mom had suggested and asked for an application from some girl at the front cashier desk and inquired as to if I could see the manager at least to just talk to him about any availabilities and just shake hands to increase my chances. It's not like I'm dumb at this whole getting a job thing, it's just that my luck has been THAT bad lately. (and Best Buy can go to hell) I know how to make good impressions. Well I was filling out my application and waiting for the store manager and got that all finished before he showed up. He comes over, I introduce myself and shake his hand, show him my application, he likes what he saw, and said something along the lines of, 'I'm sorry but I'm too busy today, but I'd be very glad if you could come by tomorrow... say around 3:30? for an interview.' I gladly said of course I'd be happy to come. So I have my first REAL job interview after 8 different jobs have spit on my shoes. So things seem to be working out yet again. And I set up a hair cut for tomorrow before my interview, so I should be feeling good about myself and dressed well. I REALLY hope this goes well.

After all that I hung out with Brian at his house for a little bit and we watched Chapelle's Show for a bit. Then headed over to Shaun's for role play night. Now keep in mind this is officially only the second night I've gotten to go b/c last week Brad wasn't feeling well and three weeks ago was my first time and they spent the whole freaking time wrapping something up as to play me into their story, so I didn't get to play anyways, just sit there and watch them all play, which really sucked. Well we start way late b/c we're waiting for Zack, and then Shaun picks a fight with some street thugs in the game, which I don't have a problem with, fighting is fun. So I join him and so does everyone else. Well we all die except Brian who barely lives having finished off the last one just after we're all down. Well Shaun's dead, but me and Jose are technically alive. We're at negative HP which means we're dying, but not dead yet. I've got -9 and Jose has -8, at -10 you're dead. We're steadily loosing one point every minute unless we can make a saving roll which I manage as well as Jose. So we stabolized and looks like we're going to make it if Brian can call an ambulance. He's at 1 HP btw. So he finishes the fight to our surprise not dead, and I'm feeling good, hey maybe I might make it out of this. But then (and I'm not aloud to tell him anything since my character's dead, but I would've been) he calls the ambulance and WALKS AWAY FROM OUR DOWNED BODIES IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GHETTO WHERE WE PICKED OUR FIGHT!!! That dumbass! So some crack heads and freaks came over and robbed us of everything and finished us off. So I got to play twice. We're starting a new campaign, but I'm just not happy playing with these guys anymore. They treat me like some sort of bitch. They're only 3 and 4 years older than me. Then Zack and Brian are younger than me. They treat Brian all cool and shit and say he's on their 'council.' Fuck that. I MADE Brian. He wouldn't even KNOW these guys if it weren't for me 1)introducing him to them and 2)getting him his freaking job at GameStop. Whatever, he's his own person and that's fine, but it just really pisses me off. Who do those guys think they are pushing me around like they do? I mean, it's always kind of been there, but playfully and I would just play along and push back a little, but now it's just getting out of hand. I don't know if I'm going to join in their next game. They're going to have to start treating me differently. Respect is supposed to be a mutual kind of thing. They're starting to forget that. I'm going to make sure they don't. Either they start treating me with the respect, not that I want, but that I deserve, or I'm just gonna walk. I won't hang out with people that make me feel inferior.

Sunday
6-26-05
Feeling: nervous and wishing I were tired so I could get some sleep
Listening to: nothing, too late at night

Hey sorry I haven't updated in a while. I sent my computer in to get fixed. The fan busted or something and it was just annoying, so it was gone for like a week. Nothing really to report other than a job interview tomorrow and a glimmer of hope for being able to visit the Daveness some time soon this summer, which would be uber cool. Other than that same old same old. Went to Zack's open house today and had a blast. We busted out the DDR and I was worshiped for my "skill" as they called it at the game. The pad moved alot and I couldn't do as good as I'd normally do. That and it was Ultramix 2 on XBox, so I didn't know any of the songs. There weren't too many good ones, but there were still a few that are only on that one that I kinda liked. I'm kicking around the idea of getting those two, but I don't know if it'd be worth the money. Meh. Probably not gonna, but always fun to think about buying stuff even without any real intention on doing so. While the computer was gone I went and visited Mandy and saw all our friends out there.^^ I got to see C-Girl, Jessica, Darcy, Katie, Pyro, and even Chase. All the all-star crew I've gotten to know. I really like them all and I wish I could see them more often, but it's just not in the cards. Oh well, we had a hell of a time. Basically did the same thing there that we did at Zack's open house tonight. ^_^ It's oddly funny how similar Mandy's friends and mine are. It makes me happy.