Note: Hiding in the Dark is a drabble I added at the bottom that goes with Bound to Explain. I really hope you guys enjoy, I did. Title: Bound to Explain (snickers at horrid name) Rating:mild nc-17.. what? I know I'm surprised to, it's not just pwp, what the heck is up with me these days??? Author: Cat kitanalove59us@yahoo.com Pairing: Spike/Xander Disclaimer: characters belong to joss. Warnings: um, some dom/sub, bondage. male slash. Feedback very much needed.. wow, it's been a while since I did spander. blink blink. don't know why. but I honestly liked this one and would love the fb. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Dru. Babe. You don't understand.", Spike pleaded from his leather-strapped-down-to-the- bed-position. Looking up at her face above his as she whimpered, long soft curls brushing each side of his face. "No, don't be upset, don't cry." "You've been bad, Spikey. Letting him hurt you.", Dru whimpered heartbreakingly. She glared at the dark haired young man at the foot of the bed who'd been quiet since she'd burst into their room. " *You're* hurting my prince, I don't think he likes it. Why would he like it." she hissed and moved forward, eyes closing to slits for a second. Xander spoke up gently from where he sat straddled atop Spike's calves.. the blond having been held immobile by leather straps all along his naked body and the bed.. Xander looked very comfortable, but slightly concerned until naughty thoughts whispered in his head and he moved to squeeze Spike's rigid tortured leaking cock, "No no, Dru.." he soothed her in his master voice he used so secretly with the vampire that had once been hers, stroking her hair and pulling her closer with his other hand closer to him.."See?.. He may be holding back whimpers" Spike whimpered as if on cue, he couldn't help it... "but it's only good pain" he stroked Spike's length up and down and it throbbed, "Why don't you tell her what's going on with us here, Spikey?" Dru looked quickly from Xander's hand where her dark haze had been transfixed to her childe. Now mostly soothed by Xander's calm, suddenly rich voice, and back to soft whimpers as she was part curious, part hurt. She waited. Spike shook his head, raising it to look at Xander, even as he panted, staring longingly for moments that felt like too long. Then turned his gaze to Dru. "He's Dreamin'." it echoed Xander woke with a start, sweat soaked, horridly aroused, but shaking also from the shock at the condition of the blond vampire in his dream, he'd never thought about Spike like that.. maybe once, or twice... after Spike had oddly shown up to comfort him.. in his empty hospital bed after..Caleb...and his eye.. holding him close in the night when Xander had broken down half way through an insult he'd tried to get past his throat. Neither had talked about it since. He'd told himself that it had just been the fact that Spike had been the one to spent the most amount of time, absurd, visiting to see if he was okay. And.. a breath shuddered through his chest..wow, he was wrong and now what the hell was he going to do? crap, was he hyperventilating? forget that, was he gay now? Xander stared up at the ceiling. It failed to give him answers. "Something wrong pet?", Spike asked, shirtless from the doorway. Ankles and arms crossed as he leaned against the doorway, looking concerned. "I could hear your breath hitching from the kitchen. Didn't want the girls coming in to see anything raunchy or anything.." his voice held not a bit of sting, but was quiet and soft, "innocent bits that they are." Blue eyes stroked and soothed.. seemed to want to say more. Xander felt his heart beat faster, but he managed to get control of his breathing. Sitting up and trying not to stare longingly at what had just a few minutes ago also been nude in his mind, "Nothing.. it was a dream." "Caleb again?" "N-no" Xander stuttered as Spike moved to sit on his bed. Close. so close. "What then?" still so quiet, that accented voice, but it seemed to stroke at him, lap over his senses. Maybe he had a clue?! Xander had the covers over his waist though, so how- oh, duh, vampire. scent. heightened. ugh. "You were-um, telling Dru something.. were about to anyways.." "mmmhmmm" Spike hummed, waiting..biting the tip of his tongue.. though surprised to hear his Sire's name. "and?" he coaxed. "And I woke up." don't ask anything else-don't ask anything el- "Come on pet, there had to be something in the dream that upset you some or.." Spike cleared his throat and gave Xander a soft smirk, "did other things...maybe both." Why in the hell did he have to sound all knowing and *still* annoying even when he was being nice??, Xander thought. He trembled, and felt a growing braveness because he saw the teasing look in the vamp's eyes. "Well, it was um, important, what you were going to tell her. and I guess I needed to know. and it *IS* upsetting...among other things." the brunette rambled out, suddenly finding the sheets fascinating, tracing the barrowed strawberry shortcake cartoon design. "SOOOOOOO..." Spike urged teasingly, face coming closer so that Xander could note his long eyelashes, feel breath, cool on his cheek then near his ear. The blond fought the urge to simply jump the boy, the man, because their time had come. "You were going to explain what was going on between us." "K", Spike blinked, murmured out, half listening, lips skimming Xander's cheek, making his heart jump joyfully almost out of his chest. "Though you were also strapped down with all these leather straps and naked to my bed and you could only move your head and I think it was one of those weird dreams where your mind is trying to tell you something and.. and.." Xander halted, yelping softly as Spike nipped then nuzzled his lips, trying to remember to breath. "Xander, luv, shut up for a sec." Spike purred then continued, moving back to his ear, "I think I might have the answer for Dru right here. But I can't exactly tell her.." Xander shivered, eyes wide as Spike pushed him back against the pillows and melted at the look he found in those piercing blue eyes answering him, marble body sliding underneath the sheet to slide near top his "..we'll have to show her." though, yes, somewhere amidst all the soft touches and strokes and kisses, the blond couldn't help but snicker out, ".. though I don't think I can show Dru that weird kink with the straps! hey ow!".. end. and it's companion piece... Hiding in the Dark: Spike shivered in the closet he'd locked himself into, still fresh with droplets from the shower and sitting on the towel that'd come down undone from his waist. "Spike?" The man sitting inside looked at the door blankly, but his body calmed just by the sounds of his voice. Sometimes, even though he'd seem like he was back to normal, able to speak, Spike, he'd, after the nightmares of souls from his past krept into his sleep, come here in hopes that the darkness would quiet them. And it did, but only to whispers. It was this part that made them go away though. Xander unlocked the door from the outside, the rest of the apartment was dark behind him save the candle that was in his hand. Brown eyes met troubled blue as the other hand stroked calmingly through wet curls.. no words.. tears would fall on already wet cheeks freely and a shudder would run through.. before holding it out. There was silence then when he took it and walked back with the larger man that had been his love for 13 years now who wrapped him in a worn blanket that had been there since he'd moved back into Xander's place.. since that moment.. in the hospital. End.