Title: A Breath of Crimson Author: Foxhunt2blue Summary: As the New Year begins Wes and Angel both fight their feelings over Angel's decision to end their relationship. Rating: NC-17 (trust me!) Pairing: Angel/Wesley Spoilers: None for the show Disclaimer: Our wonderful Joss created them I had nothing to do with it---wish I had. I just play with the boys on occasion. I on the other hand claim anyone you don't know. Feedback: Please feed the baby slash ho' it needs nourishment to grow! ;-) E-mail: foxhunter2blue@yahoo.com Author's note: This is the sixth in a series of stories beginning with 'Deora Ar Mo Chroi'. If you haven't read the previous five check them out here: http://www.geocities.com/rose_liz2001/MoChroi.html **** "Percy when are you going to quit avoid- ing Angel and stand up to your bloody man." Wes peered over his glasses a tinge of anger turning his cheeks crimson. "What must I do to rid myself of you Spike?" His gaze settled back on the scroll he was translating. "You could introduce me to that luscious sister of yours." Spike snickered softly. "Hadn't an idea that the upper crust could produce such scrumptious crumpets." Sighing Wes pulled his glasses off and leaned back in his chair. "First you bleach blonde twit my sister is not a crumpet," his voice was even and low, "...second if you do not scamper your blood sucking...Sid Vicious wanna be ass out of my office right this moment I will...," Spike rolled his eyes. "You'll what? Glare me down?" Wes smiled and opened his desk draw and removed a stake. "I'll pin you to the wall like an oversized leather butterfly!" "Well...all you bloody well had to do was ask." Wes's shoulders slumped as Spike slipped from the room in a swirl of black. "Bloody vampires!" Wasn't that what it all boiled down to in the end. If Angel had just minded his business the night of the Halloween party none of this shit would be happening right now. He wouldn't be buried in his work, snapping at his employees, or trying to hate Angel for leaving him. Sure he was still here---working with him---but he wasn't in Wesley's bed where he needed to be. Wes slammed his fist into his desk in total frustration. "Wesley?" He looked up to see Fred standing in the door with wide brown eyes. "Can I help you?" He cleared his throat and picked up his glasses, then went back to studying the scroll in front of him. "Actually...," Fred fidgeted. "Please do set down Fred. All this fidget- ing makes my skin itch." Wes waved at the chair in front of his desk as he continued studying the scroll. Taking a seat Fred took a deep breath. "I was here to see if I could help you... I mean maybe...you would like to talk...," "About what?" Wes refused to look up. "Dammit...Wesley you know what I mean!" Her voice rose a notch her Texas accent rearing it's ugly little head. "I haven't the vaguest clue Fred." "Angel." Wesley swallowed hard and pushed back from his desk. "There is nothing to talk about and to be quite frank it is none of your concern. I suggest you leave right now." His voice tightened. Fred stood and shook her head as she moved to the door. Pausing she took a deep breath, then spoke softly. "Spike was right. You are being one right bloody bastard." Then she was gone---leaving Wes shocked to the core. Why must they keep poking at me, he wondered? Because you bloody twit---the tiny voice in the back of his head whispered---they are your friends. All he wanted to do was forget. Close the door again. Yet no matter how hard he slammed the damn thing it always drifted open again. Nothing seemed to help. Not the scotch nor the work he had thrown himself into. The strangest things would remind him of what he had once had--- memories were odd that way. The hint of night blooming jasmine. A soft rustle of silk as anyone of a number of female employees would walk by his door. The feel of smooth polished wood beneath his fingertips as he sat at his desk. Even the cool ivory hilt of the oriental sword he had added to his collection of weapons. It was enough to drive a man insane. Rolling his head on his shoulders Wes stood and headed back to his apartment. He needed a long warm bath, a stiff scotch, and a good night's rest. Sooner or later he would forget. *** Standing on the rooftop Angel gazed out across the brilliant lights of Los Angel- es. A cool wind swirled around him lift- ing the tail of his coat out behind him as if it were a cape. For a moment he smiled thinking of all the Batman jokes he had heard over the years, then slowly the smile faded. He had chose this, he thought. He had walked away from Wes without a glance back. Now he felt hollow---empty to the core. Why did it have to be like this? Hadn't he done everything the Powers that Be had asked of him? And what did he truly have to show for it? So many people he had cared for gone. Buffy, Doyle, Conner, Cordelia---hell he even missed Darla truth be told. In the end she had been more human than he felt and she hadn't even possessed a soul. He felt betrayed by the very power that he had sworn to fight for and that betray- al was more than he could stand. They were the ones who had sent Aliah, who had made him face up to a love he had refused to acknowledge. Then they had sent the wraith of his sister to haunt him. "What is it Kathy?" He spoke without turning. He could feel her now. It was like a burning itch that no amount of ointment could relieve. "Why are you so sad Liam?" Angel laughed---a harsh, brittle sound ---as he turned to face the tiny spiritt. "Give me one damn good reason why I shouldn't just sit here until the sun rises?" "Because you are needed." Her lips pouted, her brow knitting into a frown. He snorted moving past her---the itch swelling. "By who? Go tell your angel Aliah that I'm done with this." "With what?" Her dark eyes---so like his ---went wide and confused. "Fighting the good fight." *** He was dreaming again. Dora could always tell from the soft, noises he made deep in his throat. After Angel had broken off their relationship the dreams had steady gotten worse. If it was left to her she would have driven a stake into the bloody bastard's heart. Wesley would hear none of it. She moved across the room and smoothed the blanket over her brother's shivering body as she made soft shushing noises. Looking down on him she was reminded of the little boy he had once been. Would he never be happy, she wondered? Thinking of her own fiancee---Michael--- a bitter taste rose in her throat. It was the taste of guilt. She felt guilty for having someone that loved her. The soft noises in Wesley's throat had turned to moans now and soon there would be screams. Dora didn't want to hear Wesley's sobbing pleas as he thrashed against an enemy that didn't exist. Neither did she want to see the way his eyes dilated with fear when he woke from those nightmares. It sometimes took her at least a half hour to shake him fully from whatever hell he was locked in. None of these things did she want to see or to do, yet she must. No choices were available to her either than those. She was all Wesley had left. *** Fred sat on the sofa---shoulders hunched and her brow wrinkled---as Lorne waited patiently. After what seemed an eternity Lorne clear- ed his throat and spoke. "You know sweetie there is a reason Angel walked away." She snorted as she leaned back into the velvet cushions. "He didn't have to do it. We could find a way to fix it." Her lower lip quivered as she thought of the pain she had seen hidden deep in Wesley's eyes earlier. Settling next to Fred Lorne folded his hands over hers and let out a soft sigh. "Don't you think Angel would have found it? If there was a way to break the curse he would have when he and the Slayer were together." Fred yanked away as if his touch had burnt her. "Screw Buffy!" Her voice was sharp with anger. "If he didn't want to lose his soul he shouldn't have fell in love... and what kind of Slayer...a Vampire Slay- er...gets involved with not just one, but two vampires?" "Angel was different." He shook his head. "Spike wasn't!" Fred snorted again. "You might have a point there sugar, but the big point is Angel has a soul. A soul just like me and you and a soul can fall in love." Fred paced the room as she listened to Lorne's explanation. "Maybe he didn't know what could happen when he was with Buffy...," her eyes filled with unshed tears, "...but he knew when he got involv- ed with Wesley. He knew Lorne and he didn't give a damn!" "I don't think that...," Lorne began only to stop when he saw the look in Fred's dark eyes. "If he didn't care then that means he used Wesley for sex and that sickens me! Wesley loves him Lorne and he just tossed him aside at the first sign of trouble...," her voice faded into soft snuffles as Lorne wrapped his arm around her. "Listen sweetie...denial can be a pretty powerful emotion. Maybe Angel just thought that if he denied it could happen, then it wouldn't." Fred looked up into Lorne's scarlet eyes and sniffled again. "But that isn't fair... it still...isn't fair." "I know sugar," Lorne whispered as he stroked her hair, "...it isn't fair at all." *** Gunn was surprised when Lorne strolled into his office late that night. He very rarely spoke to the flamboyant demon, but he enjoyed it when he did. Lorne always was able to bring a grin to his face. "What's up Lorne?" He pushed aside a pile of contracts he was going over. Lorne dropped gracefully in the chair across from him---smoothed his jacket--- then looked at Gunn with the most anger Gunn had ever seen on his face. "Jesus, Mary, and Joseph don't tell me Cruise is giving us trouble again. You'd think after all these years that he'd be used to the gay rumors." Waving his hand dramatically he cracked a smile. "No of course not. Tom is fine, but I was just making that point to him the other day. I said 'Tom...sweetie... if you didn't want to make people think you were gay you should have never done Interview'. I mean all that homoerotic sub-text was enough to drive any straight man gay!" Gunn snorted. "Thanks Lorne I needed that." "Oh hon' you know Hollywood. Everyone is sleeping around, but no body wants to confess. It's that artsy crowd. Sex and creativity go hand in hand." Throwing back his head Gunn roared with laughter. "So Lorne...," he swallowed another laugh, "...what can I do for you?" "Crimson Faire." "Crimson Faire?" "Yes I need you to locate Crimson Faire for me." "What is that?" Gunn frowned. "Who...not what Charles." "Who?" His brows raised up a notch. "What kind of name is that unless your a stripper?" Gunn paused and grinned at Lorne. "No...HE...is not a stripper." "He?" Now Gunn was really confused. Lorne laughed at Gunn's expression. "He used to be a regular at Caritas in the early days. Hell of a singer, but refus- ed to do anything, but Garland. Reminded me a lot of Angelkin's and his obsession with Manilow. Of course Angel never put on a dress to sing." Gunn almost fell out of his chair. "You okay?" Lorne peered at him with narrow eyes. "A dress?" Gunn choked out. "Yes a dress. Crimson is a cross-dresser. Flies straight as any arrow, but loves to wear Victoria Secrets. Of course I love the feel of silk to, but lace is just damn itchy." Taking a deep breath Gunn swallowed hard. "That was more than I needed to know Lorne." With a faint snort Lorne leaned back in the chair crossing his legs primly. "Sugar that was just the icing on the cupcake not the creme filling. Crimson is a war- lock who happens to be half demon. He claims Douglas Fairbanks was his father, but Doug's estate sued him for defamation of character. So he shortened his last name to Faire." "So any idea where this warlock...," "Crimson." "Yeah...Crimson...any idea where he's at?" "Last I heard he was headlining an act at a little club called 'Front Page'. I thought maybe our connections could help out finding him." "Sounds more like your department Lorne. Why come to me?" Gunn leaned forward grabbing a pad and started scribbling some notes. "Oh, did I forget to mention that? Crimson does work for the Mafia." "Mafia? The Mafia...as in horse's head in bed? What kind of work?" "Damn Coppola for that crap. Yes that Mafia sweets...he's a killer for hire. A mystical hit-man." On that note Lorne stood and headed for the door leaving Gunn staring at his back in shock. *** Angel was torn from his thoughts by a furious knocking at his door. "Come in." The door slammed open with a loud thud and he was on his feet expecting a demon or some other evil thing. To his shock it wasn't a demon glaring at him, but Wesley's sister Dora. He hadn't even known she was still here. "Dora?" "Don't Dora me you son-of-a bitch!" Storming across the room she back handed him so hard his ears rang. When her hand rose again he grabbed it in mid-flight. "Are you fucking crazy?!" Her chest was heaving as if she had ran up the stairs all the way to the penthouse. "Maybe! Do you even have a clue what you've done?" She struggled until he released her hand,then she turned her back. A soft hiccup escaped her as she ran her fingers through her tousled hair---a habit Angel had often saw in Wes when he was frustrated. "What is it Dora?" Her laughter sounded like shattered glass as she turned on him---shoulders stiff. "What is it? WHAT IS IT?! You have your bloody nerve you blood sucking wanker!" Angel's brow raised in surprise. "I don't suck blood!" "You might as well! You sucked the life right out of Wesley...," her voice cracked as the tears began to flow down her face. There was nothing he could say about that. "I'm sorry Dora...I really...," "Tell him that." Her words chilled Angel to the core of his soul. "He's killing himself you bastard." Angel turned away dropping onto the sofa his chest aching---his gut twisting. The others had told him as much, but he had hoped that Wes would be okay. That maybe he would understand eventually. "He doesn't sleep...he doesn't eat and when he isn't doing that he's locked in his office. Don't you get it Angel? He's withering away and you're up here brood- ing in your apartment as if none of it matters...as if he doesn't matter." Dora turned to him---face pale and eyes swollen ---her anger a living thing that swirleed around her. "I don't know what to say." "Tell him you were wrong. Go back to him tell him you still love him." "I can't." Angel whispered. "Can't or won't? Was he just another toy for Angelus to play with?" Angel was on his feet and in her face before she could draw another breath. "You have no fucking idea what you're talking about!" His eyes shimmered gold for a split second then fade back to brown. "I love him more than I can say! More than I ever thought I could love again!" "Then why?!" She cried. "Why would you do this to him?!" "Because I'm protecting him. I'm protect- ing the world." "Fuck the world!" Dora hissed storming from the room. *** The Front Page was one of those out of the way bars that hid in plain sight. Nothing to give away what Gunn was about to find inside. The building was four stories and was one of those odd shaped buildings you were more likely to find in New York or up north in San Francisco. An almost perfect triangle. The tall narrow windows were tinted so no one could see in and a simple white neon sign declared that this was 'The Front Page'. As soon as he opened the door he realized that whoever owned the club had invested in sound proofing in a big way. From somewhere upstairs a wild techno beat drifted down the cast iron spiral staircase. A thick mix of smoke and incense filled the main floor where people danced hip to hip to what sounded like a mix of Indian and Goth. It was overpowering to the senses not to mention eclectic in it's decor. Lush silk cushions sat next to Art Deco furnishings. Beaded curtains, black lights, chrome, and leather. Lorne would have went into a fit about the lack of taste. Grinning Gunn slipped further into the mass of writhing bodies making his way to the bar on the north side of the room. The bar looked as though it had been plucked from an old John Wayne western. Dark wood and a bartender dressed accord- ingly. Except for two things. The oil painting above the bar was of an orgy. Pale naked limbs tangled amid blood red silk---both male and female. That and the fact that the bartender had yellow and green scales, not to mention snake eyes. "Can I help you sss...ir?" The bartender's tongue flicked out scenting the air. Gunn cleared his throat and slipped his business card across the bar. "Charles Gunn. I'm looking for Crimson Faire." "Crimsssss...on is on four in the Gold Room." He flicked his towel towards the staircase. "You're jussst in time for hissss...ssssshow." Nodding his thanks to the bartender Gunn slithered back through the crowd and headed up the crowded staircase to the fourth floor wondering exactly what Lorne had gotten him into. *** Dora wiped the tears from her face as she paused outside Wes's door. What had she been thinking? She shouldn't have went to Angel, but she felt so helpless. What had happened to the brave little girl who had snuck her brother food when he was being punished? Seconds after that question crossed her mind Wes began screaming. *** He was pinned to the bed beneath Angel. Their bodies moving as one in a powerful dance of need and want. Skin slicked with sweat he writhed with each forward thrust of Angel's hips. The air scored his throat with each breath like liquid fire. This was what he wanted more than anything else---to be possessed with such passion, force, and love that nothing else matter- ed. There was only his body and his lover's locked in this perfect moment as he rose on the wave of an intense orgasm. "Love you Wes...," came Angel's whiskey growl in his ear, "...love you more than anything." "Yes...," he heard himself hiss as his back bowed and his legs tightened around Angel's waist. "Perfect...so perfect and happy...," Angel hissed against his convulsing throat. Just as Wes was caught in the tidal wave of his climax Angel reared back. Golden eyes. Ridged brow. "Such perfect happiness...," Angel hissed, "...I'm home Wesley!" In that split second he realized that it wasn't Angel, but Angelus who was buried deep inside him. In a panic he began to struggle, but it did no good. One hand pinned his wrists together above his head, the other clamped over his mouth as his head was twisted to the side with enough force to snap the bone. Angelus laughed as he leaned in and ripp- ed out his throat in one swift motion. *** "WES! WAKE UP!!" "Nnnnooooo!" He convulsed against the hands that tried to pin him down. "Wesley! Dammit wake up!" His eyes fluttered open---fully expecting Angelus above him---to find Dora staring at him with wide wet eyes. With a shudder his body relaxed as Dora stroked his sweat matted hair. "...dora...," he croaked as his eyes slow- ly lowered. "Yes love it's me...relax...that's it," she whispered as her hands moved down his jaw---wiping away the tears---cupping his face gently. "What was it this time?" Wesley shook his head unable to put into words what he had saw in his dream. He knew she didn't understand---hell he wasn't sure if he did---why he continued to torture himself. All he did know was that he felt empty and abandoned even though his mind understood why Angel had ended their relationship. "I...I need a shower...," he sighed soft- ly as he tried to set up. "What you need is for that bastard to come back." Dora stood and moved across the room star- ing out at the cityscape of neon beyond the window. "You don't understand Dora." "Then explain to me why. Why he left you knowing it would kill you. Didn't he love you?" Wes sat up scrubbing the last traces of tears from his pale face. "Yes. He does love me." Snorting Dora crossed her arms refusing to look at him. "If he loves you then why?" "Because he can't love anyone...if he does...," he sighed as he pulled himself to his feet. He was to old for this, he thought. "He'll lose his soul Dora...some- thing neither of us wants. One moment of perfect happiness and that's it...end of story." Turning to Wes she leaned against the cool glass, blinking back tears. "Then let him go. If you can't be with him let him go... find someone else." "There is no one else Dora." He turned and walked into the bedroom as she began to weep. *** The Gold Room was just that. Gold silk wallpaper. Gold and frosted glass lights shaped like star bursts hanging from the ceiling. Demon and human alike sat scattered through the room on gold upholstered chairs and tables covered in gold trimmed navy silk table cloths. They sat sipping champagne and chatting softly as they socialized in the smoky room. Gunn shook his head as he stepped up to the hostess. She stood a good foot taller than he did and her eyes were an eerie pale violet, her skin a shimmering gold that he was sure wasn't body paint. "Can I help you sir." Holding out a card he continued scoping out the room. "Charles Gunn. I'm looking for Crimson Faire." The woman raised one perfectly shaped brow and smiled. "Crimson is about to perform Mr. Gunn. If you would like to sit and have a drink I'll send a message to his manager." Nodding Gunn allowed her to show him to a table at the front of the stage as the lights lowered and an orange demon in a silver tux appeared on stage with a mike in tow. "Welcome to the Gold Room ladies and gents. It's time to get down to business." A soft rumble moved through the room. "The Astonishing Crimson Faire!" Wild applause echoed through the room as the gold curtains parted to reveal a piano on which a small delicate creature sat. "Crimson I presume," Gunn mumbled as the piano player began. Crimson had a beautiful voice, but Gunn would have never imaged said singer was a man in drag. He was all of maybe five foot and wore a slinky black floor length gown studded with crystals that caught the light and shattered it into tiny rainbows. It was clear why his name was Crimson. A cascade of crimson curls the color of fresh blood flowed down his back in a waterfall of brilliance that wasn't natural in the human gene pool. Gunn had a feeling it wasn't from Ms. Clairol either. Even the sisters never got that kind of color with assistance. As his voice rose Gunn smiled to himself. The little bastard sounded just like Celine Dion as he sang one of her songs. He strolled sexily along the stage on three inch heels that still didn't make him look tall. This was going to be fun Gunn thought as he shook his head in disbelief. Definitely fun or funnier than hell. *** Angel had tired of the confines of the penthouse. All he could think of was the look on Dora's face as she had pleaded with him to come back to Wesley. She was frighten- ed and angry and he couldn't exactly blame her for either. She loved her brother and she would have done anything to save him from the slow spiral he had tumbled into when Angel walked away. Lurking in the shadows of the alley he hunted the very thing he was. A vampire---a demon. He still couldn't believe how Wes could have loved him after everything he had done in his long life, but then Wes had always been able to separate the two. Angel was a warrior for the light and Angelus was a twisted demonic creature that had nothing to do with Angel. But he was Angelus and that he couldn't convince Wes of---he never had been. A scream ripped into his thoughts and he slipped into game face. He needed to work off some steam badly. With a roar he leapt from the fire escape to the alley a hundred feet below. *** Gunn was led by a very human bodyguard to Crimson Faire's dressing room an hour after the show had began. He was exhausted, it was late, and he wasn't in the mood to argue or question anything. The guard nodded to the door, then took his position with a gruff three words. "He's expecting you." Gunn opened the door and stepped in with a leery glance back at the guard. He slow- ly closed the door behind him and turned for his first glimpse of Crimson sans the dress. It was like looking at night and day. The cascade of crimson curls was now slick- ed back and worked into a thick braid that hung to the bottom of his spine. He was dressed in black jeans, a black turtle neck, and heavy ass kicking boots. This close up it was obvious he had demon heritage. His eyes were a pale gold ringed in violet and his ears curved into sharp points. Crim- son Faire looked like a punk elf that had escaped from the Lord of the Rings. As he turned and settled in a chair Gunn noted the thin gold ring in the right side of his nose. "So Mr. Gunn...what can I do for you?" His voice was rich like a foamy latte--- sweet and thick. Gunn fidgeted for a moment then took the chair across from the small demonic hit- man. "Lorne sent me to find you." A wide grin split Crimson's face reveal- ing perfect pearly whites. "Lords of Kra- vell! Lorne? How is the annoying green fucker?" "Good I guess. He's the head of the enter- tainment division at Wolfram & Hart." Standing up Crimson made a face as if he'd tasted something rotten and stroll- ed to a mini-fridge where he pulled out a beer. "Wolfram & Hart? I am surprised. Lorne never seemed the type to work for the stoolies of evil. Beer?" He held up a bottle raising one delicate brow. "Yeah." Gunn accepted the beer gratefully. God knew he needed it after everything he had seen tonight. Returning to his seat Crimson crossed one leg over his knee and slouched into the chair. "So why exactly does old Mr. Green Jeans want to talk to me?" "Don't know," Gunn gulped his beer. "All he said was to find you." Tapping the beer bottle against his chin Crimson hummed to himself thoughtfully. "Might be a job." "Could be." Gunn took another swig of beer. "Well then tell Lorne I would be pleased to meet with him...tomorrow around noon." *** Angel straggled into the penthouse around four and he was exhausted. Two vamps, a very annoying Daberth demon, and a Screecher were now no more. His ears were still ringing from the last one---damn his vampire hearing. "So the pouf returns. Shall I call out the marching band and get the bloody parade started?" Angel growled as he fumbled with the lock. "What the hell do you want Spike?" Spike raised one dark brow and leaned against the wall with his trademark smug shit-eating grin. "Did little Angelkins have a bad night?" "Fuck you Spike!" He pushed the door open and was about to slam the door when Spike stuck one booted foot in the doorway. "What?!" "I think you need to get off your horse Dudley-Do-Right and have a word with ol' Percy." "Why?" Angel gave up and headed into the apartment tossing his duster in the floor. "He threatened to stake my ass earlier." "And that's bad...how?" "Look Angel it's not like I much care for the watcher twit, but threatening to stake me isn't something he does on a daily basis. Yell at me yes...roll his eyes at me another bloody positive...but not this." Angel's shoulders slumped. As much as he hated to admit it Spike had a point. "So what am I suppose to do?" "Kiss and make up Angel." "You know I can't radioactive boy." "And why the bloody hell not? Percy is in love with you and you done kicked his scrawny aristocratic ass to the curb. Even Angelus wasn't that coldhearted when he truly wanted something." Angel dropped onto the sofa---his head hanging. "Oh...," Spike raised an eyebrow. "So the pouf has found more than just a tight ass." Jerking his head up Angel glared at Spike. "Don't refer to him like that...as a matter of fact...don't refer to him at all." Spike flopped onto the sofa beside Angel with a faint smile. "And here I was think- ing that you hated my ass for screwing Buffy when you've gone and went belly up for Percy." "His name is Wes." Rolling his eyes Spike leaned forward--- elbows on knees---his eyes twinkling. "You're afraid of the gypsy curse...one moment of happiness and all that shit. Well Angel my dear grandsire you are well and thoroughly fucked." With a sigh Angel flopped back into the cushions scrubbing at his face. "Dora's pissed." "You mean that tasty tidbit had the balls to tell the scary big, bad vamp what she thought of your sorry ass? I am impressed... not to mention horny as hell for her right now." "Wes would kill you. Stake you out in the sunlight and watch you burn." Angel tried to hide the amusement in his voice. "Ahhh...well he'd have to bloody well catch me first. Besides Dora seems to be in love with that stuffy professor of hers." A sudden image of Wes chasing Spike in a circle waving a butterfly net aloft sent Angel into a fit of laughter. Spike raised a brow and snorted. "Okay...now fancy that...finally drove you starkers after all this time." Spike stood and headed for the door, then paused. "If you love him you'll find a way you stubborn sod." Then he was gone. *** Wes grumbled to himself as he tightened the towel around his hips, heading for the door. "Just a bloody...," he stopped when he opened the door to find Angel standing there, "...moment?" Backing up he just stared at Angel with wide blue eyes, then realized he was half naked. Angel had noticed that particular thing as well. His dark eyes were moving over Wes's trembling damp body with a look of need verging on lust. "I'm sorry," Angel whispered. "Did I interrupt your shower?" He stepped into the room, closing the door behind him. Wes tore his eyes from Angel and turned his back to the one thing he had been wanting. "You shouldn't be here Angel." He almost choked on the words as he head- ed for the bedroom. "Yes I should." At those three words Wes froze---his heart pounding and twittering all at the same time---in the doorway of the bedroom. He shook his head slowly. "No...you shouldn't. Trust me Angel I understand why you left me. If you're worried about that...I forgive you... it's not your fault." "Then why are you doing this Wes?" "I haven't a clue...," "Don't lie to me Wes. The others have told me that you're not eating or sleep- ing." "Poppycock." "Don't...," "What? Tell you that I'm fine when I'm not?" Wes turned and stared at Angel with haunted eyes. "Yes." Silence settled around them as they stood staring at one another lost for words. "I love you Angel...," Wes's whisper was gritty. "I know." "I can't change that. There's not a bloody on and off switch that I can use to shut it off." Angel let his eyes drop to the floor. "Please." "Please what? Let you go? I can't Angel... I just can't. I've loved you for years and it's not that simple." Wes stumbled to a chair his legs wilting beneath him. "God help me...I wish I could. It would be so much simpler." Kneeling at Wes's feet Angel took his hands in his with a sigh. "I wish I could change it Wes." Wes looked up into Angel's sad eyes and smiled softly. "I know you do Angel...," he lifted their intertwined fingers brush- ing a kiss on Angel's knuckles, "...I know." *** Lorne was ready to blow up half of Holly- wood when the knock came at his door. Sighing loudly he shifted in his seat and adjusted the cold pack on his head. If he didn't answer it maybe they would go away. The knock came again, but louder this time. "Geez Mary Lou! It had better be impor- tant!" The door flew open and Lorne almost fell out of his chair. When he got control of his flailing limbs he smiled wide enough to blind half of LA with his pearly whites. "Crimson!" The tiny man in black strolled in with an equally bright smile. "Lorne you horny bitch!" Lorne stood hugging the smaller man so hard he lifted him off the ground. "Still ever the classy lady I see." Crimson raised a brow, then broke out laughing and slapping his thigh. "Never could convince you I liked the broads could I Lorne. Now what is it that was so important you sent your blood thirsty attorney after me?" Settling into a chair Crimson dropped his bag next to him. Lorne made a bee- line for the bar and began selecting bottles to mix drinks. "Oh, Gunn is harmless unless you try to kill his friends, then watch out sugar. Snipes doesn't have anything on that man." Crimson snorted. "Do you remember...," "Alcarth Fizzle...straight up with a twist of lime. As if I would forget that." Lorne came back with a tall glass of bubbling blue liquid and a Cosmo. Handing over the Fizzle to Crimson he settled in a chair across from him smiling as the other man took a deep drink. "Lords, but you always made the best Lorne. So get on with it." Lorne sipped his Cosmo and leaned back trying to collect his thoughts. "You see Crimson you mystical cupcake...I have two friends that need your expert assistance." "So what are we talking here? A hit...," "Goodness no sweetie!" Lorne choked on his drink. "More a curse issue...a gypsy curse." "Gypsies...," Crimson shook his head, "...tough ass magic. Quite vindictive when you piss them off...humans can create some pretty nasty shit when they set their minds to it." Lorne leaned across his desk---sitting down his drink---then caught Crimson's gaze. "Have you heard of Angel?" Crimson's brow raised a notch as he finished his drink. "Damn Lorne...every- one has heard of Angel. Vampire with a soul. Hell I've turned down a couple of contracts to take him out. I might be a killer, but I'm not stupid. I won't ever fuck with the poster boy for the PTB." Nodding Lorne leaned back. "Good to know that. But do you know about...," "...the curse? Yeah and I hate to tell you this doll, but I can't break it." Crimson tapped his chin thoughtfully with his glass. "You know though...may- be...I can do something." Leaning in he began to fill in Lorne on a possibility that had Lorne tickled pink. *** Angel stood staring out at the city his hands folded behind him. "Liam?" "Not now Kathy...please?" "Aliah isn't happy about the message you had me deliver." Her voice was soft and sad. Sighing Angel turned taking in the wraith of his human sister. "And exactly why should I care if she's happy or not?" Kathy moved closer looking deep into his eyes. "She is sorry that this has made you sad brother, but she is nothing... just a messenger. Her power does not include the ability to cure the curse." Her tiny hand reached out brushing his larger one with a chill breeze. "But there is hope Liam...there is always hope." Angel snorted. "That's all they ever do Kathy. A hundred plus years of suffering...of trying to atone...and what do I get. Always the carrot of salvation dangled in front of me...urging me on. I'm tired of being their donkey." "Who's donkey?" Glancing up Angel met Wes's worried gaze, realizing that he must look insane talk- ing to thin air. "No one's...," he whisper- ed. Wes shivered---rubbing his arms---walking to the thermostat. "It's bloody cold in here." "I hadn't noticed." Angel deadpanned. Shaking his head Wes turned back to Angel with a gruff laugh. "I don't suppose you would." "So where is Dora?" He really didn't care, but he wanted to forget about the conver- sation with Kathy. "She went shopping with Fred of all people." The sudden sharp ring of Angel's cell caused both men to jump. "Excuse me Wes...," he slipped the cell from his jacket pocket, "...Angel. What? Calm down...yeah be right there." He flipped the phone shut and turned back to Wes. "That was Lorne...," "Well...I do have work to do...," Wes started for the door. "He wants to see us both...now...in conference room one." *** Angel sat staring at Lorne as if he had grown a third horn in the middle of his forehead. "The full moon?" Wes's voice held an edge of pain filled hope. Crimson was pacing the floor as he rattled off his solution. "The full moon holds vast power as you well should know Mr. Pryce. For example lycanthropes...the tides of Earth...there is much to the old wives tales of the human race as well. That power can be harnessed and used in a number of ways including the transforma- tion I've just outlined." "If this is true...," Wes turned to Angel his voice cracking. "It is...I assure you." Crimson smiled. "It would only be for three nights and two days a month. It is by no means a complete solution, but it will work." "Angel?" Wes bit his lower lip as he pleaded with wide eyes. "I don't know Wes...what if it doesn't work?" "Do you love me?" Sighing Wes dropped his gaze to the table. "Of course I do." "Then...please? I would rather have three nights with you a month, than never be with you again." Angel nodded thoughtfully. "How soon Mr. Faire?" "Crimson please...and tonight is the first night of the full moon. Shall we?" "Yes." Angel smiled at Wes. *** A note had been left for Dora on Wes's door explaining the situation. The next two days had been cleared from both Wes and Angel's schedules just in case and now they were in Angel's living room--- the furniture pushed back against the walls---and a sheet of blood red silk spread across the carpet. "Now listen carefully. Once the rings are in place you must never remove them." Wes and Angel stood quietly watching Crimson as he unpacked each item he required for the spell. He was thorough and the consummate pro at his profession. Two silver goblets engraved with runes that Wes recognized as Delcourtian---an ancient race of demons who had long ago died out. Two simple silver bands which a local jeweler had provided were sat out on the small teak wood altar in the center of the silk sheet. Wes watched nervously his heart pounding as he paced in a circle. A gentle hand settled on his shoulder and he turned to look into Angel's dark eyes. "Relax Wes." He smiled softly. Shaking his head Wes pulled away. "You don't have to...," his voice trembled. "No, I don't have too...I want too." His hand lifted cupping Wes's clenched jaw. "I told you...I love you Wes. I don't want to see this thing between us kill you." Wes smiled swallowing hard. "But if it doesn't work...," Angel's thumb caressed his lips gently. "No buts." "Are you ready?" They both turned to see Crimson standing at the altar in a black robe a curved dagger gripped in his left hand. His gold eyes glittering in the pale candlelight as he reached out to them. Both nodded---their hands intertwined. "Then disrobe." Stripping they stepped on the silk---the material whispering beneath their bare feet. "Kneel." Releasing each others hands they knelt on opposing sides of the altar their eyes locked on one another as Crimson began to recite the spell. "These two souls come to you to plead for a love they share...a love denied by the words of a curse spoke long ago. Mother Moon I speak for them in my oath to you. They plead with their hearts for you to give them what fate would deny." Crimson lifted the dagger---kissing the blade with reverent lips---then knelt. "Let this offering to you of blood be their blessing." Holding out the dagger to Angel he smiled. Angel took the blade and ran it's edge across his left wrist. "I have been cursed to bear my sins within this eternal form. Take my blood Mother and bless this man before me for his love for me." Lifting his bleeding wrist above one of silver goblets he watched as the dark blood dripped down covering the bottom of the glass. He looked up into Wes's shining eyes as he kissed the blade and handed to Wes. Taking a deep breath Wes ran the blade across the pale skin of his wrist lift- ing it above his own goblet. "I have been blessed to find love in the darkness of eternity. A love that would be cursed by human lips. Take my blood Mother, lift this dark curse within your powerful light, and bless this soul for his love for me." He kissed the blade. Turning to Crimson he handed the dagger to the warlock with a smile. "Take this offering Mother...blood and hope...in these holy relics," Crimson lifted the goblets pouring the blood into a shallow bowl of crushed, dried jasmine and cloves. "He who is cursed has given of himself...he who loves that which is cursed has given of himself. In this they have committed to a love that can only be revealed in your light Mother Moon." With the blade he mixed the blood and herbs together, then lifted the two silver bands skyward. "Purest of metals...purest of emotions...," he handed Angel then Wes the bands. "Breath into these symbols the power you have in your love for one another." Angel lifted his band inhaled a breath of unneeded air then released it through the center of the band. "Though I need not breath I ask with this breath to be freed in your light to love as I see fit this man." Wes lifted his band and released a breath of warm air against the cool metal. "Allow my breath to release the curse in your light so that I may love this man as I see fit." "Place the rings in the bowl." Wes and Angel's eyes met across the altar as the both simultaneously dropped the rings into the bowl of their mingled blood. Crimson lifted the bowl to his lips and spoke softly. "With this final breath may I your humble servant Crimson Faire of the Elevanian bind these souls together in their love." Releasing a soft breath into the bowl they all watched as the blood began to sparkle and swirl around the rings. Slow- ly the blood was absorbed into the shining silver until nothing remained. With a faint smile Crimson sat the bowl down and lifted the glowing rings out of it's now empty silver. He handed one to Wes, then one to Angel. "And so with your blessing may their love shine in your light." Crimson nodded to Angel. Taking Wes's hand Angel smiled as he slipped the band onto his finger. "Mother I honor this soul who loves me." Wes took Angel's hand in his and slipped the band onto his finger. "Mother I honor this soul who loves me." "Join hands." Angel and Wes's hands wove together as Crimson stood the dagger raised. "May your light bless those who dare to love in the darkness. I beseech you Mother... bind them...protect them...bless them." A surge of light swirled around Wes and Angel's clasp hands---up their arms--- causing them to both to gasp. The light filled them, warmed them, and promised what they had already promised one another. "So mote it be." Crimson intoned. Slowly the light faded and the two were left staring at one another in wonder. Neither noticed as Crimson collected his items, then slipped from the room. *** How long they knelt there staring into each others eyes they couldn't say later. Both of them were afraid to move---afraid to destroy what they both imagined was a dream. Wes was the first one to speak. "Angel...," his wide eyes glistened. "Yes?" "You're warm." Angel nodded bringing Wes's hand to his bare chest swallowing hard. Beneath Wes's fingers something fluttered as he flatten- ed his palm against the warm skin. "Your...," Wes looked up with disbelief. "...heart is beating." Angel finished. "Oh, my God...your...," Wes choked back tears. "Alive. I'm alive!" Angel was on his feet pulling Wes into his arms. "I'm alive Wes!" They both began laughing as they clung to each other in disbelief. When their laughter finally faded Wes looked into Angel's shining eyes. "It's only temporary...," Wes bit his lip---pain filling his eyes. "Are you going to be okay?" "As long as I have you Wes...I will be." Angel leaned in kissing Wes hard and deep. Their tongues dancing together until they both had to pull back for a breath. "You are so fucking beautiful Wes...," Angel gasp, "...I want you now." Wes's cheeks flushed pink as Angel took his hand guiding him into the bedroom. "I guess I can accept this if you can," Wes whispered. *** It was just as Wes dreamed it had been and would be again. His hands moved over Angel's smooth warm skin searching out the curves and angles that he had missed so much. He sighed as Angel's mouth warm and wet moved across each scar he bore from the attack before Christmas. "Angel...lord save me...," Wes moaned as that same warm wetness engulfed his cock. His fingers tangled in Angel's dark hair as his head bobbed up and down, his tongue sliding and curling around Wes's pulsing flesh. "Please...oh God...please...," Lifting his head Angel released Wes's erection and smiled up at the wild blue eyes that had never left his face. "Nope not God." Angel laughed as his tongue darted out swirling around the tip of Wes's cock. "Do you know how much I've wanted this?" With a grin Angel cocked his head---curl- ing his long fingers around Wes---his eyes twinkling like Wes had never seen before. Angel gently squeezed him causing Wes to buck his hips up. "Don't have a clue Wes." His grin widened. "Jesus...Lord in Heaven...," Wes hissed, "...I want you inside me Angel." Angel flicked the leaking tip of Wes's cock and laughed as Wes hissed again. "Now!" Wes demanded through panting breathes. Releasing his grip on Wes he slipped from the bed and retrieved the lube from the night stand with a soft snort. "Demanding little shit aren't you." Wes turned his head looking up at Angel with an annoyed expression. "Yes I am when my cock feels as if it's going to explode." Laughing Angel leapt on to the bed push- ing Wes's legs open and back so his heels rested against his hips. He just sat there for a moment taking in everything about Wes that he loved so much. His sharp sapphire eyes. The gruff shadow of beard that emphasized his high cheekbones. The curve of shoulders, a length of honey gold throat corded with tension, his lean muscled chest dusted with dark hair, and his darker nipples. "What are you doing Angel?" Angel grinned. "Admiring my own personal work of art. "Well your work of art is getting impatient." Kneeling Angel squirted lube onto his fingers and warmed it before his fingers slip between Wes's muscled ass cheeks. He massaged the tight opening until his finger began to work it's way into Wes's warm body. Slowly he worked his finger in and out causing small noises to erupt from Wes's convulsing throat. "Do you like that?" "Yes...more please," Angel pulled back slowly, then added a second finger stretching Wes wider. He smiled as Wes writhed---his fingers curl- ing into the sheets. "Angel...," he moaned. Angel felt his heart begin to pound at the soft sound of his name. A breath of desire rose in his lungs as he watched the way Wes's spine curved up off the mattress, his hips pushing back against his fingers, and his chest expanding with each breath. He couldn't wait any longer. Pulling his fingers free he smeared the remaining lube along his own swollen, pulsing cock, then shifted closer. With shaking hands he grasp Wes's lean hips pulling him close until his ass rested on his thighs. "Wes...I love you," he whispered as he positioned the head of his cock and slow- ly sank in. Past the tight muscle as Wes whimpered and into the warm velvet flesh. "I love you so much." "Lo...ove you to...," Wes cried out as he was stretched and filled with Angel's burning erection. Slowly they began to move and Angel gasp in passion as Wes bore down. Reaching out he lifted Wes up off the bed, his arms curling around Wes's neck, his mouth claiming and rough. "Oh God Wes...you feel so wonderful." Wes locked his legs around Angel's hips, his heels pressing into the mattress as he pushed up with a soft groan. His own erection trapped between their hard stomachs, rubbing and sliding and creat- ing a friction that was exquisite. "Angel...God...faster...," Angel slipped his arms down, his fingers tightening on Wes's hips. Together they found the perfect rhythm, their chests heaving, and their hearts pounding as one. A perfect joining of bodies, minds, and souls. Soon the pace quickened their mouths locked in what seemed an endless kiss. Breathes shared---their limbs tangled around each other's body---with each pump of Angel's hips. Hands searching and finding what they sought so des- perately. Fingers clenching, bruising, and trying to pull themselves closer together. Finally their desperate bodies began to climb on a crescendo of fire and passion. Writhing and screaming as they came to the peak both sweat slicked bodies explod- ing in unison. Angel threw back his head and screamed out Wes's name in a guttural roar seconds be- fore his seed poured deep into Wes. His scream was echoed by Wes as his seed splattered across both their stomachs and chests. Falling to the mattress---Angel still buried inside him---Wes pulled his lover down on top of him with a contented groan. They both lay there panting and sobbing for air. Angel's head rested against Wes's damp chest, his fingers playing through the dark curls of his chest hair. "Are you happy Wes?" Wes's fingers stroked through Angel's sweaty hair as his eyes drifted shut. "Yes...are you?" "Always." "I promised you." Wes whispered. Glancing up Angel smiled. "Promised?" "That you would breath again." Angel pulled from Wes's still trembling body causing Wes to hiss softly. Pushing himself up he leaned in kissing Wes slow and sweet. "Yes...," he sighed, "...you did." "I wish it were for more than just three nights a month...I wish...," Angel pressed his fingers against Wes's lips silencing him. "It's enough Wes... enough to just know you're here...now... mo chroi." *** Halfway across town in a dark smoky room Crimson Faire stood staring out a window at the swollen silver moon. "Did it work?" "Yes...it did." Crimson sighed. "Good. Your payment is here." Crimson turned his eyes widening as he looked down the barrel of an automatic pistol. "What is this?" "Your payment." The sudden explosion of the bullet leav- ing the chamber took him by surprise. That look of surprise stayed on his face even as the life faded from his pale golden eyes. The End