I remember when we would be getting ready to go someplace, I would get your coat on you and put you in your carseat, then you would start crying and wouldn't stop. You just hated laying down all the time, but as soon as we would start going in the car you would be fine, as long as I made it to where you could see out of the window and as long as the sun wasn't in your face. I remember the day we took you to see Uncle Allen, we layed you in his bed with him and took pictures, It was like you where both smiling at the camera, he told me how you looked just like me, your Grandma and your Great Grandma. Everyone who met you was overjoyed, they always remarked how beautiful and well behaved you where. I remember the day we went to Spokane with your Grandma and Grandpa, we went to the Country Buffet to eat dinner, I remember you getting cranky because you where hungry, I didn't want to breast feed you there because of the fact we where sitting in the middle of everyone, so I went and got some mashed potatoes, put a little milk in them and geve them to you, Boy how you loved those mashed potatoes, something new to try, so after that I started feeding you proper baby food along with the breast milk. The look in your eyes each time I would give you something new was like "Oh boy, this is good" You would make such a mess, I couldn't keep your hands out of the food and off the spoon, you just loved to squish it around and smear it on Mommy too. You loved to eat. I remember the first time your Grandma and I gave you a bath, we couldn't give you one in the bath tub yet, so we laid towels on the table and washed you up there, you cried so lous you woke your Uncle Ray, I think the cold air got to you, I remember after every bath I wold lay you on your tummy on the towel on the couch so I could lotion you up, you loved it when I would put a little baby oil on your head. After I was able to give you a bath in the bathtub you never cried again, you started laughing and smiling and kicking your feet while I gave you your bath. The first time you rolled yourself over from your back to your belly I was giving you a bath, it scared me so much because you put your head in the water face first, I think it scared you too because you started to cry, I cried with you because I couldn't believe that I had let it happen. There where so many nights that I would lie there and watch you sleep.  It eased my mind to see your chest rising and falling,  to see you breathing. I would have you sleep in your crib part of the time, but most of the time you slept with me. I guess that just made me feel better, to open my eyes and be able to see my precious baby. I couldn't believe that something so precious and beautiful could come from me. I enjoyed our naps together, they where so special to me, as I believe they where to you too. I remember sometimes when I would wake up to your crying in the morning and you would be lying on your tummy, I had put you to sleep on your back, but I guess you wanted to be on your tummy for some reason. There where a couple of times when you where on the couch, I had just given you a bath and was putting baby lotion on you that you kept trying to scoot away, Grandma was sitting on the other end of the couch, so it was as if you where trying to go see her.  You where pushing yourself with you legs alright, you just couldn't get the movement of your arms right. It was so cute when you did that, I was so proud to see you try to do different things. There would be sometimes when I would be lotioning you up, and while I was doing it you would keep rolling yourself from your tummy to your back, that made it so hard to lotion you, we always laughed because it was so funny trying to lotion you when you kept moving. I remember times when you would be swinging in your swing and your Grandma would sing to you, she sang " I'm a swinging baby". there where also sometimes when you cousin Ashlynn would make funny faces at you as you where swinging and you would just sit there and laugh away, I always thought that was one of the most beautiful noises I had ever heard, It was so cute.  Your cousin would come up to me and say "baby Rose smiled at me"  or she would say "baby Rose laughed at me" which ever it was that you did. I remeber times when it was just me and you at home and we would sit together and watch TV, you liked to watch that TV, you where entertained by it easily. Sometimes when you where in your swing I would play music just to make you happy. Oh how you loved that swing, there where lots of times when you fell asleep while swinging in it while watching TV, or listening to music. Iremember the time we spent a week or so at your Uncle Dan and Aunt Barb's house, your cousin Ashlynn loved to try and play with you, she would always give you kisses. She would try and pick you up and hold you all the time, just like she would with a new baby doll, she loves you so much. There where a few times when she even tried to breastfeed you. She laid a blanket over your head then laid down beside you, she would then say "baby Rose eata me" It was so cute, but then you would start crying because your head was covered and you couldn't look around at everything. I remember the time when we went and got pictures done, that was such a special day. We went to IHOP to eat with Grandpa and Grandma then to K-Mart to get the pictures done, At first everything went okay, but then you started getting cranky because you where hungry, so we had to stop in the middle of the picture session so I could breast feed you, after I fed you, you where happy and everthing went well, you fell asleep, these are all the things I cherish about the time we where able to spend together, I know there many more I could mention, but these are the ones that stick out in my head. All I am really trying to tell you is, I love you and miss you and always will, save a spot up there for me because when it is my time I will be joining you, then I will be able to be with you for all eternity. Love always and forever Mommy Thank you to all who read this far, I know it is long and I am sorry about that. Hugs and love to all.

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