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Watching A Weiss Kreuz ficlet Zanzou Youko ---- I remember. I remember him first coming to me, though I never guessed why in the beginning. I remember his touch, though I never knew what he was thinking. But why would I bother to think about it? There I was, living a quasi-normal life, and suddenly a drop gorgeous man was there, practically begging for sex� and from ME, no less. I�m not lying. When he first came to me, it was all a physical release for him- and he did beg, at least a little. Though I hadn�t asked him to. He wanted to be taken� not something I had expected from a person like him. But who was I to argue? And it was bliss. At least... in the beginning. Though... that�s how a lot of relationships are, aren�t they? At least, the ones based on sex. You mess around a few times, and then, what�s left? Nothing but memories. Ones that, in retrospect, you could have done without. Except.... with me, it was different. Not with US. With me. Because I cared for him. Perhaps, somewhere inside myself, even loved him. Not that it mattered. Because for him, it was a distraction. Though I didn�t know... in the beginning. In the beginning, on the very first night, I was surprised. Hadn�t I seen him out with Yohji only a few days before? I didn�t care though. I gave him what he asked for. I did what he wanted, when he wanted, how he wanted it. He was in control of the relationship. But he never took me. Not once. And after those first few weeks.... I began to realise. And to me, once I figured it out, it seemed obvious. He didn�t want me. I was shocked at first, even a bit horrified. I had been sleeping with him for WEEKS, and still, he couldn�t care less for me. Maybe that�s not true. I was his teammate. I was his friend. But as a lover, I was next to nothing. And it hurt. Because I could have fallen for him.. and it would have been so, SO easy. But I had realised. And I knew it had to stop. I didn�t make it sudden, like I know Yohji did. I just made it obvious that I was no longer interested. And one night... he just didn�t come. And that was the end of it. In the beginning, I didn�t know why he came, or why he left. I do now though. The reason has bright blue eyes, blond hair, and an innocence that seemed boundless. And Aya was running from him. ~~~~ Okay, only about 1 more chapter of this... and then maybe a sequel... If I survive exams.... @_@;;; I�m not to happy with this chapter... *sigh* Maybe I�ll redo it.... R&R onegai shimasu! Next Part .::BACK TO ARCHIVE::. |