You Are What I see
By: Ronnie Sidney
October 2002



You are what I want,
what I see,
what I dream.
When I close my eyes at night,
its your lips that I fiend.
Those thighs and those eyes,
That smile and that walk.
Those hands and those kisses,
that skin and that talk.
You're the best thing in my world,
my reason to live and breathe.
I wouldn't know what would happen to me,
if you would ever die or leave.
You are the disease to my heart,
that my system refuses to fight.
You have poisoned both my mind and heart,
but yet I look forward to the night.. 
When I see you,
I get the most wonderful feeling in the world.
Anticipating this time with u all day,
I'm just so fortunate to have u as my girl.
People say I changed,
others say since you,
I won't the same.
I finally understand what they mean,
cause my dreams won't fulfilled till u came.
That piece of happiness is what I reach for,
each moment i'm together with you.
Everytime i'm in your presence,
everything seems so virgin and new.
Each time is better then the last,
which keeps me looking forward to the next.
But it was that last time that u came,
that you left me confused and vexed
I woke up from a dream,
with a cold sweat and a scream.
Trying to put pieces together,
of what I believed I seen.
I believe it was you,
she talked and walked as if she were u.
Except your lips were beautiful and soft,
while hers were black and blue.
Her skin had lost its glisten,
and her hands were chilly and pale.
Her eyes had become distant and dark,
And her smile was covered in veil.
You couldn't be dead,
it must have been a bad dream that I had.
Because if I had lost my heart,
my body would sure follow its path.
I feel lost without your love,
to guide me through these lonely nights.
You were more than just a girl,
you were my God,
you were my life.
How can I bear another hour,
on this wretched earth without my lady.
I have lost my reason for breathing,
Lucifer prepare me a place with my dear in Hades.
With this knife and this blade,
I shall carve out this wicked disease plaguing my heart.
I shall dream no more devilish tales,
only then, 
shall I bridge the two worlds keeping us apart.