By: Cora
Author's note: This is basically a short story.
**Warning** may be a tear jerker for some. Also, for those of you
who have read The Jaded One, the Cora in that story and the Cora
in this story have absolutely nothing to do with one another. This
is a totally different storyline all together. Please do not mix
the two. Thank you. On to the4 story!
Cora opened her eyes, the pale gray-green of the
iris just barely visible in the darkness. A few rays of moonlight
formed the distorted outline of the window across the floor. She
lifted up her head from the pillow of her arms to look out the window.
Surrounded by a circle of clouds, the moon cast a milky white halo light
on them. A few stars peeked out from behind some clouds, but were
eventually hidden again. She looked up at the moon and lowered her
eyebrows into a thoughtful expression as a single tear slid down her cheek.
It ran down the side of her face, over the cut below her eye and finally
falling off of her chin and onto her scratched and bruised arms.
She hadn’t been able to sleep. She kept asking herself over and over,
why. Why was the drunken driver of car that had rammed them off of
the road able to get up and walk away with barely a scratch on him?
The other people who had been in the car with him, one was in critical
condition and the other had a broken arm and leg. She had come out
with a broken arm and many cuts and bruises all over her, each one stung
with pain, sadness and anger. For the millionth time she went over
how this tragedy had happened, and how she would never forget…
***
They had been heading home after visiting Cora’s
sister. Cora was driving, and Ryo was in the passenger’s seat, listening
to the local radio station. Cora and the other’s tried to make Ryo
feel apart of their families because he had no big family of his own.
Cora had taken Ryo along to her sister’s house because it was her niece’s
birthday. They had stayed for a few hours, and then decided that
it was getting late and time to head home. They were driving along
the highway when suddenly from out of nowhere a black car rear-ended them.
Not much damage was done there; except for maybe a tiny case of whiplash
and a vicious wake up call, but soon, the black car had sped up and forced
them off of the road. Their car had hit the guardrail hard on the
passenger’s side. That was when everything had gone black, and the
next thing Cora knew was waking up with Sage and a doctor standing by her
hospitable bed talking about her condition. Her right arm was in
a sling, and she had suddenly become aware of the pain from her cuts and
broken arm.
The doctor looked down at her and smiled.
"Hello, glad you’re awake, how are you feeling?"
he asked.
Cora looked at Sage, his expression told her that
something was wrong, and it was very serious.
"I feel like I’m being ripped in every direction
at once," she replied tiredly.
"You were in a car crash, you have many minor cuts
and bruises, the most serious of your injuries is your arm," the doctor
reported to her.
Cora struggled to sit up with the help of only one
arm. "What about my friend? Who was in the car with me? Where is he?"
"Cora, you can see Ryo later, but now you need to
rest," Sage managed to say. She could tell something was definitely
wrong, and she was frightened for her friend’s life.
"Sage, is he okay? Please, I have to know,
please Sage," she pleaded.
Sage shook his head sadly. "No Cora, not right
now, when you’ve rested, then the others will come in and you can see Ryo."
The doctor came over to her bed and handed her a
glass of water and some aspirin.
"This will help with the pain, since you’re awake
and aware now, you can feel pain," he said.
Cora took the aspirin and the water and lay down,
a troubled look on her face.
Sage looked down at her.
"I promise, if something happens, I’ll come get
you right away," he said, taking her hand gently.
Cora squeezed his hand. "Thank you."
Sage left the room, looking back at the doorway,
and the doctor followed, shooing him away. Cora sighed and slipped
into sleep.
"Cora…." Someone called her name, calling her to
the waking world, the terrible awful real world.
She cracked one eye opened, at first she thought
that it was Ryo smiling down at her because of the black hair, but when
she opened her eyes all the way, she saw that it was only a doctor or a
nurse. Whichever it was, she didn’t care.
"Good morning, did you have a good rest?" the nurse
asked in a cheery tone of voice.
Cora rubbed her eyes with her free arm. Her
stomach rumbled in complaint that it had had nothing to eat in the last
14 hours.
"Yes, I suppose, if you call a dreamless sleep a
good rest," her reply managed to escape her lips.
The nurse brought over her clothes and put them
at the end of the bed. "There you are dearie, you can go home today,
I hope you feel better soon. But please don’t leave until the doctor
has had a chance to talk with you first."
Cora sat up and looked towards the door, she couldn’t
see anyone there. She nodded. After the nurse had left, she
changed into her clothes, which she supposed someone had brought down for
her, and left the room. She wandered down the hall, looking in the
windows of the patient rooms looking for Ryo, but could not find where
he was. She finally made her way to the waiting room, where her sister,
Mia, and the other Ronins were sitting with very anxious and worried looks
on their faces. Terra, Cora’s sister, was the first to see her.
"Cora! Thank god you’re okay!" she exclaimed
as she went quickly to her sister and gave her a hug.
Cora hugged her sister back, and hugged each of
the Ronins in turn. When she got to Sage, she asked him, "Is Ryo
okay?"
Sage looked away. "I don’t know Cora, they
won’t let us see him."
"But you said that I could see him!"
"Cora, I’m sorry, I thought that they would let
you, but they’ll only let family see him."
Cora’s eyes filled with tears, as she looked from
Sage, to Kento, to Rowen, then Cye, and finally back to Sage.
"But the only family he has is us! Is the
four of you! His parents are dead, there is no blood relative close
enough to come and see him…" she trailed off as she collapsed in a chair,
the tears threatening to overflow. She wiped her eyes and sniffed.
Just then, a doctor approached Cora.
"Cora Zabata?" he asked.
Cora looked up. "Yes?"
"We will need to see you back here in about 6 weeks,
at that time, we’ll check to make sure that your arm has healed completely.
Other than that, you’re free to go home."
"I want to see my friend." Cora demanded.
"Who is your friend?"
"Ryo Sanada, he should have been brought in about
the same time I was."
The doctor looked down at his clipboard.
"Oh yes, Ryo, are you a relative of his?"
"No, he has no blood relatives alive close enough
to here."
The doctor put on a grave expression. "I’m
sorry, only family is allowed to see him at this time."
"But we are his family! Please! Please
let us see him."
"What is his condition?" Rowen asked.
"Ryo suffered a severe blow to the head, he is in
a coma right now, he also suffered many other minor injuries as well,"
the doctor relayed the information back to the group.
Mia put her hand over her mouth in astonishment.
"Do you know when he’ll wake up?" Kento asked.
The doctor shook his head. "It’s hard to determine
when someone will wake up from a coma."
"Please…" Cora begged again.
"I told you miss…" the doctor began.
"Doctor, can I please talk to you for a moment?"
Terra cut in, guiding away the doctor to talk with him privately.
Cora looked at her sister, and Terra smiled back.
Cora put her hand to her forehead. A coma, how…how could everything
change in just a matter of less than two seconds? Everyone was shocked.
People have been reported about being in comas for years. Would this
fate happen to Ryo?
Terra and the doctor came back. The doctor
had an exasperated look on his face, as if he had finally given in to someone
he knew wouldn’t take no for an answer.
"Terra has convinced me to allow you to see your
friend, since apparently it seems to matter so much to you."
Cora looked up, and glanced at the doctor, and then
at her sister, a question in her eyes. She got up and hugged her
sister.
"Thank you Terra," she whispered.
"With all my heart little sister," Terra whispered
back.
Cora stepped back and then looked back at the Ronins,
who nodded to her.
"Are you coming or not?" the doctor asked impatiently.
She turned back toward the doctor, and followed
Sage, who had started to follow the doctor down the hallway to Ryo’s
hospital room. Cye walked beside Cora, and Rowen and Kento followed.
The doctor took what seemed the long way, turning
here and there, right left, left again, then right, down this hall, up
that one, through this room. Finally after walking through the labyrinth
of hallways, the doctor came to stop outside of a room where the lights
were off and was dimly lit by the small amount of natural light shining
through the curtains.
"Now, not too many of you at a time, don’t take
too long, and when you are done, go down that hallway and take a left,
that will take you back to the waiting room," he instructed.
"If you had taken us that way we would have had
more time," Kento commented.
The doctor stiffened and got a slightly haughty
and annoyed expression on his face, then he turned on his heel, and walked
away.
Cora watched him go, her eyes slightly narrowed
from resentment. What had they done to deserve to be treated like
this? This was a hospital for God’s sake; they couldn’t show some
compassion because those that they cared about were in pain? She
was sickened at the thought. Then she turned to the others.
"Go ahead, I can wait," she said to them.
The Ronins exchanged glances, and then nodded.
"Kento and I will go in," Cye said, and then he
and Kento entered the room.
Sage took the chair across the hall, and Rowen leaned
against the wall next to the door. Cora dropped her eyes to the ground,
fiddling with her necklace and thinking. Then she turned her back
and leaned against the wall, hands covering her face, she slid down to
the floor. A few minutes later, Cye and Kento exited the room.
"How is he?" Sage asked.
Cora looked up.
Kento shook his head. "He looks terrible,
I just can’t believe…." He trailed off.
Cye had his hands in his pockets and was staring
at the floor, a sorrowful expression on his face. Cora saw his sorrow
and got up and gave him a hug for comfort. Cye sadly hugged her back.
He could feel tears coming to his eyes, but he blinked them away.
Sage concentrated on a floor tile while his mind wandered off somewhere.
Rowen had a lost expression on his face.
Cora let go of Cye and then turned toward Rowen
and Sage. "Rowen, Sage."
They looked up at her.
Cora sighed slowly, closing her eyes, then opening
them, and dropped her gaze to the floor. "Go on, go in."
Simultaneously they stood and walked to the door,
Rowen went in first, and then Sage.
Cora closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
Kento put a hand on her shoulder. Cora looked up, and then gave him
a hug, hoping that this problem would fix itself soon, and this pain would
go away. After a few moments, she began to pace like a caged animal.
Cora needed something to do; she couldn’t just sit. She was too restless,
and trying to fight the anxiety and anxiousness that was trying to overcome
her sense of stability. More and more frustrated she became.
She felt like punching a wall. Suddenly she felt like getting rid
of all this extra energy that was coming from her anger and anxiety.
About two seconds later, Rowen came out of the room
quickly. His eyes were tightly shut and his eyebrows were furrowed
together. His fists were clenched so tightly the knuckles were turning
white. It was almost as if he refused to accept the truth.
Cora went over and touched his arm. Rowen opened his eyes slowly
and blinked once, one silent tear trickled down his cheek. He made
no move to wipe it away. Cora looked at him calmly, and then hugged
his arm. He lowered his head, staring at the floor, another silent
tear fell from his cheek, and she hugged his arm tighter.
Sage came out another minute later slowly.
When he opened his lavender eyes they were filled with overwhelming sadness.
Cora went to him and he hugged her tightly. She was scared, though
it hardly showed on her face.
"Is he really that bad?" she whispered.
Sage just closed his eyes and lowered his head.
Cora could feel the beginning of more tears in her eyes.
"Go in Cora, talk to him, even if he can’t hear
you, it’ll make you feel better…" he trailed off.
Cora sniffed and looked around at all of them, then
silently opened the door, and let it fall noiselessly shut behind her.
There was the gentle hum of the respirator machine,
and the soft beat of the beep from the machine. Most of the lights
were off. Soft sunlight was struggling to get in through the curtains
of the windows casting a soft golden glow about the room. The tears
pushed harder as she saw Ryo lying on the hospital bed. His deep
black hair was a dark contrast to the white sheets. His normally
tanned skin was almost as white as the sheets themselves. There was
a bandage around his head, which was spotted with small dots of scarlet
blood. There were scratches all up and down his arms. There
was one scratch that started a centimeter away from the corner of his left
eye that went down to the side of his chin.
Cora clenched her left fist, since her other arm
was causing her pain already. She walked to the window and opened
the curtains.
"You always did love the sunlight," she said, almost
to herself.
She looked out the window. There was nothing
interesting to look at, except the view of the hospital parking lot.
Cora walked slowly over to the chair next to the bed. She touched
his hand; it was cold. She held it, hoping that it would bring some
comfort.
"You’ll be okay, I know you will…you’re strong…you
won’t…leave…us…" Cora stuttered through her tears, "p-please…you…can’t…leave
us…you can’t leave them, the others, your friends…please don’t leave…please…"
she fell to her knees on the floor and cried on the bedside, "no Ryo…don’t
leave…don’t die…don’t die…"
Someone put a hand on her shoulder. Cora turned
her head and blinked through her tears to see who it was. Cye was
standing behind her, along with the others. She slowly stood, turning
as she did so. Cye pulled her into a hug. Cora grasped him
with her left arm, and cried onto his shoulder. He held her for a
couple minutes before pulling her away and drying her tears. She
sniffed, and looked over her shoulder at Ryo’s still form. She turned
back and hung her head with grief. Sage put a hand on her shoulder.
"Cora, we have to leave now," he said quietly.
"But…" she started. Sage and Cye gently guided
her toward the doorway. At the door she hesitated, and glanced back
over her shoulder. "Ryo…" she whispered, and then went back to the
waiting room with the others. Their eyes wet with tears.
Terra got up and went to them as soon as she saw
them, with Mia not too far behind.
"Cora?" she asked, "what’s wrong?"
Cora grasped her right shoulder and looked at the
ground, her eyes staring off into space, and said nothing.
Terra looked at her younger sister with concern,
and looked around at the other four as well. None of them would meet
anyone’s gaze. Silent tears sparkled in their eyes.
A nurse paused by them to tell them that visiting
hours were over and that they would please leave so that the doctors could
get on with their work. Terra had arranged for the hospital to call
them should Ryo’s condition change. Cora only nodded her thanks to
her sister. Terra offered to drive one of the Ronins back to their
home in her car. Cye went with Cora and Terra and the rest went with
Mia. Cora fell asleep on Cye’s shoulder on the way there. When
they arrived Cye carried her inside and up to her room for her to sleep.
The rest of the Ronins were tired and had gone to sleep as well.
Mia and Terra talked for a while. Terra said that the hospital would
call should anything happen – for better or for worse – and that she would
call them right away after she found out the news. Mia had offered
for Terra to stay, but Terra had to get home to her daughter.
~*~
Ring……Ring……Ring……
It was 3AM when the phone rang. Mia dragged
herself out of bed to answer it.
"Hello?" she asked.
"Mia?" a voice questioned.
"Yes, who’s speaking?"
"This is Terra…" she sounded serious.
"Terra…what’s wrong…oh no…don’t…oh my god…" Mia’s
mind started flooding with horrible thoughts.
"Mia…just calm down please, could you bring everyone
back down to the hospital please? I know it’s early, but it’s important,
Ryo’s life depends on it…please."
"I understand," she whispered, and then hung up
the phone. Noiselessly she went and changed into more comfortable
and presentable clothes, and went to wake the Ronins. She first went
to wake Sage. Even in the pale silvery moonlight she could make out
a golden mop of hair on the pillow. She went quietly to the bedside
and gently shook his shoulder.
"Sage…come on, you have to wake up now. I
know it’s early, but it’s important…"
Sage squinted his eye slightly and then opened it
and looked at the clock. "But it’s three in the morning…"
"Sage we…" she paused, "we have to go to the hospital,
hurry up, I’ll wake Kento and Cye if you can get Rowen."
At this Sage’s eyes flashed open. Mia left
the room. He changed quickly and went to get Rowen.
Mia quietly opened the door to Cye’s room.
She laid a hand on his shoulder.
"Cye."
He woke up instantly. "What’s wrong Mia?"
Mia sighed as she closed her eyes, and then opened
them again. "I’ll explain after we have everyone, don’t wake Cora
yet though. Get Kento up first."
Cye nodded silently and Mia left. He already
had an idea what was up, and hoped to god that he was wrong. He prodded
Kento awake, and they all met down by the front door. Rowen should
have looked like he was sleeping on his feet, but he was just as awake
as the rest of them. He probably couldn’t sleep.
"We’re going back to the hospital," Mia stated.
"Is Ryo okay?" Kento asked worriedly.
"I don’t know Kento, Terra didn’t say, she just
requested that we go down there. Someone has to go get Cora.
You don’t have to wake her, just bring her down to the car and we can wake
her up when we get there, I don’t want her to get too hysterical about
anything, or get her hopes up, which would be worse than anything if…"
she let the sentence hang.
"I’ll go get her," Rowen volunteered, and then left
to do so. The rest of them got in the car and waited.
Rowen walked slowly up to Cora’s room. His
head was spinning, his mind was screaming for some kind of organization
from the chaos that his thoughts were creating. Was Ryo okay?
What had happened? What was going to happen? What could he
do? Rowen shook his head to try and clear it. He reached the
top of the stairs and walked down the hallway to the last room on the right.
Quietly he opened it and stepped inside. Cora was sleeping on her
side, dried tears showed on her face illuminated by the moonlight.
Her blonde hair spilled down her back and her bangs fell in her face.
Rowen gently picked her up. She moaned slightly, but did not wake
up. He carried her carefully down the stairs and out to the car.
He was still holding her when he got in, and continued to do so on the
way down to the hospital.
When they got to the hospital, she was still sleeping.
Kento took her from Rowen and they went up to the hospital waiting room
where Terra had said she’d meet them. Terra ran to them as soon as
she saw them. Her eyes were bloodshot and red around the edges.
It looked like she hadn’t gotten any sleep.
"Thank god you’re here," she said, her voice seemed
like it was wavering. She saw Cora still asleep. "She’s okay
isn’t she?"
Kento nodded. "She’s fine, we just didn’t
wake her to bring her down here, we’ll wake her in a minute."
"That was a good idea," Terra said quietly.
"Terra, what’s the news about Ryo?" Cye asked.
"Is he all right?" Sage inquired.
"What happened?" Mia questioned.
Terra closed her eyes and nodded as she put her
hand to her head out of stress. "I’ll explain everything in a moment,
could you wake Cora? It’ll be easier to settle her down if I explain
it to you all at once."
Mia and the Ronins exchanged a combination of worried
and confused glances. Kento put Cora down in a chair gently, and
then proceeded to calmly awaken her.
"Cora…wake up…it’s important, you need to wake up…"
he said, gently shaking her shoulder.
Cora moved her arm up to her eyes and rubbed them,
blinking them open. She looked up at Kento, and then at her surroundings
and panicked.
"Wh-where am I? Kento? Guys? What’s
going on?" she asked slightly alarmed.
"Cora, you’re at the hospital," Terra told her younger
sister.
Cora’s eyes flickered and she blinked twice rapidly.
"Terra…what…what happened…is Ryo okay? What happened? Tell
me! Please!" she pleaded.
"Cora, calm down…" Terra started.
"HOW CAN I CALM DOWN?! You won’t even tell
me what’s wrong!!!" Cora screamed at her sister.
A hush fell over the waiting area as people in the
near vicinity of Cora’s voice stopped what they were doing and looked in
her direction.
Terra, Mia, Kento, Cye, Sage, and Rowen all looked
back at the other people, who went back to doing what they had been doing
about two seconds later. Terra grabbed hold of her sister’s shoulders.
"Listen to me Cora, I need you to calm down.
This will be easier for everyone if you just calm down," she said quietly
but forcefully.
Cora loosened her tense shoulders, making an effort
to calm herself, and lowered her head. "I understand."
Terra sighed. "Would you all please…take a
seat…"
Everyone now had a horrible feeling of foreboding,
and none of them liked it, they all sat and waited for the news.
Terra took a deep breath and then slowly let it
out.
"This is what the doctor told me when I arrived:
Ryo’s condition…has taken a turn for the worse…"
Cora felt her heart go up to her throat, threatening
to choke her, her eyes watered, her tears already starting to form at the
corners of her eyes.
"The doctor said that…" Terra choked, "that he has
gone literally brain dead, and the only way that he is being kept alive
is by life support. He will never wake up, his heart doesn’t even
beat on it’s own anymore, it’s just the machine keeping the blood pumping
through his veins and oxygen going into his lungs…." By this time, her
voice was cracking and tears were rolling down her cheeks.
Everyone was silent for a moment…the shock was so
great.
Terra regained most of her composure. "They
said that they usually leave it up to the family to decide whether or not
to take someone off life support. In Ryo’s case, he doesn’t have
any immediate family, so they’re letting you decide, and if they don’t
get an answer within the next 24 hours, they decide." Now the tears
started flowing again on her face. She had known Ryo as well, and
he had been a friend to her, but Terra knew that her pain was nothing compared
to what the other Ronins and Cora were feeling, even how Mia would feel.
We…we have to decide whether or not to
end his life? Ryo…no…he can’t possibly…NO!!!! Cora’s body became
wracked with sobs of sorrow as the reality of Ryo’s fate set in.
Ryo was going to die. She knew that it wasn’t really worth anything
to keep him on the life support, because for one thing, it would cost too
much money to prolong it, and he would never move from the hospital bed.
Never open his eyes again. Never.
There were tears going down everyone’s faces.
None of them could hold it back. None of them wanted to. They
knew that Ryo would be leaving them. Nothing could stop that.
You can’t keep a person on life support forever. Everyone eventually
dies, but why did Ryo have to die so soon?
It’s just not fair, Mia thought, after
everything he did for the world, and he has to die so soon…it’s not fair…
Tears were slipping down from Rowen’s eyes.
He didn’t want it to be real. He prayed that it was just a dream,
even though he knew that this was reality. A reality… that bit hard
and cold.
Sage wiped his eyes. The greatest sorrow was
knowing that there wasn’t anything that they could do to help Ryo.
He knew that there wasn’t anything that they could do, and wished that
he could change it.
There were no words to describe the expression on
Cye’s face as the tears trickled down. He didn’t know what to think.
Ryo…he was gone. He had pulled them all through the long and terrible
fight with Tulpa, and this was how the world thanked him.
Kento slammed his fist into the floor next to where
he was sitting.
"Damn the world!" He cried.
Terra wiped her eyes. She had had her time
to cry already.
"Y-you must decide soon. I’ll take you to
his room."
Mia stood, wiping her eyes with the back of her
shirtsleeve. Cye stood slowly, then Kento, with his fists clenched
so tightly his knuckles were going white. Rowen kept a far off look
in his eyes. Sage put a hand on Cora’s shoulder. Cora simply
blinked and more tears fell.
"Come on Cora-kay," he said, his voice wavering.
Sniffing, Cora pushed herself out of the chair.
Sage hugged her, and then they all followed Terra to Ryo’s room. There
was a doctor outside the door, looking over some forms and papers.
It was not the same doctor as before, the one who had been so rude earlier;
this doctor was instead a woman. She looked in their direction as
they approached. She smiled a soft smile, knowing that this was hard
on all of them.
"I’m Doctor O’Lera, I was the doctor originally
put in charge of Ryo, but I was on an emergency call when you were here
earlier and understand that the doctor on duty was disrespectful to you.
I apologize, that was uncalled for of him," she stopped and looked at the
group assembled in front of her. "I know that this must be very hard
on all of you. Deciding your friend’s fate. It shouldn’t be
anyone’s decision, but if you decide not to give an answer, the hospital
will decide, and I am sorry to say, that 9 out of 10 times, they take a
person off of life support, especially for a case such as Ryo."
Cora looked at the doctor. She could tell
that she was trying to be as sympathetic as she could, and was only telling
them as it was, and that it was up to them to decide…
~*~
They all stood in the room, looking at Ryo’s still
form. The only noise was the occasional sniff, and the beep of the
life support machine. Doctor O’Lera was getting ready to turn the
machine off. They all knew that Ryo wouldn’t want to be kept on a
life support machine. Each of them had held his hand for a second;
they wanted him to know that he wasn’t alone. Cora was sure that
even if he didn’t know that they were there, his spirit, his soul, did.
They held each other’s hand. Cora held Terra and Sage’s hands tightly.
"Are you ready?" O’Lera asked quietly.
Cora looked at the Ronins. Their glances told
her yes. Cora nodded.
"Yes," Terra said for them.
Doctor O’Lera gently turned off the machine with
a soft click. There were two more beeps, and then, just a monotone
note.
Once again, the tears came, only more quickly, and
fell more freely. Nothing would stop the sorrow, the pain.
We’ll never forget you… Never.
Epilogue
A week later, they had a small funeral for Ryo. Sage, Kento, Cye, and Rowen’s parents came, as did Terra. The funeral was held down at the lake. At the end of the service, Ryo’s ashes were sprinkled over the lake, and scarlet rose petals were thrown in as a memorial as well. A small polished marble headstone was placed near the lake.
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