Who am I fooling?

I used to believe that if you put all your effort and set your mind on your goals, you could always achieve it.

I did and I have given my best. Just to know that sometimes when your best is given another person will not see as that and appreciate it.

Who am I fooling?

Freedom is what you wanted? I wish it would be easy for me to let you go completely but it’s not.

 Who am I fooling?

It really hurts being blind when the reason is right in front of your face. I question many things because reason was not given.

But my question of why deserves more than an answer of because.

Who am I fooling?

You told me you just need a friend but you have. I know that you keep insisting that you haven’t found replacement of me. I feel that you have.

Who am I fooling?

He could be friend, a dance partner or a lover?  That’s what it looks to me and everybody else. What else can I tell myself that it has been long over?

Who am I fooling?

Do you need to lie to me so you can’t hurt me as much? But you are. All I need is honesty even though it will break me even more.  I can't tell myself that you are gone forever.

Who am I fooling?

You have set yourself at a standard of being so low. Did that made stop loving you? No, I blame myself for making you that way.

Who am I fooling?

The pain that I have been feeling, you’ll never know how bad. Should I discredit you, disrespect you or even hate you?  Words that brings negative thoughts.

Who am I fooling?

Ronaldo Carlos de Lima  03161999