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| December 12th 2002 6:40 PM I got some pictures. That's my entry for today. Ryan thing's going along interesting. Ok, the list goes like this. Kristin, Tomathy, Me, Leigh, Erin, Me and Jared. I also got a new picture of Brandon, it won't freaking load for me though. Makes me kind of mad. I'll put it on here tommorrow's entry or something. I noticed something today I never noticed before. AJ was gone, and I missed him. How odd. I was also trying to get myslef our of walking by talking to Mr. Jaekle, and we were just talking about stuff in general, and i can't even remember how, but I mentioned I liked someone. Then Mr. Barr asked who it was, Mr. Jaekle was like I don't even want to know. I go its Ryan W., and Mr. Jaekle was like oh jeesh I know that kid, I have him 4th period. I was saying how he's stupid and all this stuff, and Mr. Jaekle's all yea and you were right aout your assumptions, he is pretty stupid. He's failing my class. I'm like jeezus how can you fail PE, only then I go home, and find an unsat in the mail. Good job Rita. Oh well, Mr. Jaekle also said I can do better then Ryan, and he didn't expect that's the kind of guy I would like. Whatever floats his bubbles. Bah. Brandon gets to stay at my house on New Year's Eve. That is the best news of the year. =) I can't wait. Mwahahaha. I'm outie Ritalin December 10th 2002 whenever... I got an interesting note from Erin today. quot&"Yesterday I talked to Ryan and he said he used to like you, but when I asked him what happened he ran away and turned all red, to me that sounds like a good thing because he admitted he liked you and wouldn't give a reason why he doesn't now."". You decide what goes on in this kid's head. I can't figure it out myslef, I must be a dumbass. Well I must go now, no entry for tomorrow, sorry guys. Bye bye Ritalin December 9th 2002 6:39 PM Today in general has been pretty good compared to past school days. I told Ryan he was gay, I think he's getting annoyed of me. we'll honey, I am getting pretty annoyed of you too. You're an immature piece of horesshit who depends on his friends to plan the rest of his life for him. Pretty queer. Don't take it personally, it's just that I'm stressed. My mom even said so. I stopped biting my nails when I was about 9, and somehow I am starting to do it again. Mommy says its stress. See, I told ya. Found out Daniel hates me. Expected. I figured he did, but jeesh he's kinda harsh. Anyways, Brandon gave me a picture of him. His hair is so awesome, it's kind of like Tomathy's. So proud of him to grow it out that long. =) He said he cut it though so that's a big no-no. =( He's coming in 19 days, woot woot. Can't wait. Here's the pic. What's this keed doing, makes you wonder what he was thinking...Well anyways look at his hair. Isn't it pretty? Ah its gorgeous. Yea well I stil have to write Tom back. Ritalin December 8th 2002 5:43 PM Things are ok. Its a Sunday. My mom wants to watch Scooby Doo. I gotta clean first. Tomorrow I gotta go to school again. I don't like school much. Certain people's ugly faces just tend to ruin it for me daily. But when I see some OTHER people, I get overly excited and can't wait to tell everyone about the great things that happened to me. We'll see what tomorrow beholds, I gotta vacuum. Ritalin December 7th 2002 9:30 PM I wish I had more reasons to live. I have some, and of course they are important to me, but it'd be nice to have just more things to be happy about, more things to cheer me up in the morning, more things to look forward to at the end of each day, just tiny things that would improve my lifestyles. Basic tiny things help make my day, and I am at the point where any thing can make me happy. I don't take happiness for granted, since I rarely get to experience the feeling. Being happy is like an irreplacable high which not even marijuana can stimulate. Maybe if people invented a drug. Something not harmful, cancerous, dangerous, illegal, and considered and "anti-depressant" I'd take it. I'd like to be be happy more often. Sometimes I wish I can take laughter for granted. But true laughter only happens once a week, and when it does I am so glad to finally experience something good. I'm not depressed, I'm not insane, I'm just weak. And worn out by the people who surround me. For example. I was telling Jill about my site the other day, and she says, oh my gosh Rita you don't want to put your thoughts down on the internet everyone can read that. I'm like no joke. I don't care if people read. She's all if you talk shit, you are so gonna get busted. Well I don't neccesseraly have a reason to talk shit. And I don't. People tend to assume things. they don't consider before speaking. I wish kids my age acted like their age. Because acting like you are 10 is easy, yes, I agree it is. But we're 15. Let's act like it please. Grow up. Just everybody who reads this. Just grow up it'll save you from the world when you get older. Until that don't be a dumbass may I suggest. =) Ritalin December 6th 2002 9:43 PM "Do you care if I don't know what to say, will you sleep tonight will you think of me? Will I shake this off pretend it's all ok, that there's someone out there who feels just like me...There is." Ah BCR. Usually don't listen to it. I'm at my cousin's right now though, and I am kind of forced to listen to what is on. That song is on. Kind of its my mood right about now. I wonder if Ryan gives a flying rats ass of my existence. I don't expect him to. He isn't neccessarily supposed to either. I mean I care so much about him. A glimpse from him makes my day. And what does a glimpse from me do to him? As far as I know, it does absolutely nothing. It'd be nice if it did though. I wish it did. I saw him today. He was here. I mean there. School. I guess he has driver's ed first period all year long now. Maybe he got a schedual change I kind of missed out on. I get to see him now finally every day though. I'll be happy with it for a while. I want to call erin. See what is going on. CJ told me Ryan was gonna go to Breeze today. If he did, then Matt's presence at the park would be nice. He DID promise me me he'd talk to ryan. I just want to be happy. It's pathetic I know but sometimes I talk to myself trying to figure things out, can't really do it in my head. I want to be happy. Ritalin December 5th 2002 7:03 PM My parentals took away the computer cord for the last couple of days, so I haven't been exactly able to update. Sorry about that guys. Tuesday was queer, it was so cold in the morning we got inside before I could've seen Ryan walking up from the buses. I saw him after 4th though standing in line to buy lunch. I was all jumping around in PE going "I saw him and it made my day" I turned it into a song. Me and Kristin did. Kind of. Wednesday (yesterday) was awesome. I am kinda slow at things, but I guess Ryan maybe got a schedual change or soemthing, and now he has driver's ed first period. Cha-ching. That class is RIGHT next to mine. Sweet. So after the bell rang to get out to 2nd period I ran as fast as I could to catch up to him and when Erin walked out of her class I was all pointing to him like insanely and we chased after him. I pushed him once and so did Erin and then he turned around and he's all "What?" I'm like "Ryan stop being gay, you have no right not to talk to us" he turned around, slowed down, and started walking next to us. And then he said "Alright, I'll stop being gay" It was so classic, I wish I had a camera to record that moment on film. After that we of course had to go to class and part our ways. Then before 5th passing to lunch I was talking to CJ and I was all "Talk to Ryan. Make him like me or soemthing." He goes "Alright, I'll talk to him right NOW" And Ryan was standing right there. It was horrible. I'm like nooo not now. Then I ran. Good job me. After school I went to McDonald's to visit Dennis and to Bath and Body to buy my mom a birthday present, but by the time I got home she had left. So I of course called Erin. Around 4:30 her and Matt came to pick me up. We went to the skatepark. It was nice to be away from home. I found out Ryan's grounded too. We suffer together. Lol. So he wasn't there. That's alright. Greg's hair grew. It's about an inch. Dennis keeps talking about Kristin although he doesn't like her. Don't understand. Whatev. Matt knows where Ryan lives, and he said he's going to talk to him. He's gonna say if he doesn't go out with me he'll beat the shit outta him. Woot woot, I win. Lol. Ritalin December 2nd 2002 5:54 PM I've been thinking a lot about Ryan lately. Well let's say for the past couple of days. Through break and today, and just lately in general. He kind of confuses me. I haven't talked about him to anyone in days, but today I was ought to. Instead of my usual 2 second glimpse of him in the morning I saw him standing in line to buy lunch, and I swear it made my day. I didn't catch myself acting insane, but I am pretty sure when I saw him I screamed and ran frantically towards the exit trying to seek Kristin out through the crowd while still frantically screaming "OMG OMG OMG!!!!!" I truly hope he did not see me. I can't even imgaine myself doing that much. I assume you should ask Kristin, she somewhat saw me pushing my way through while chanting OMG. Ok, well besies the point that I am nearly obsessed, I really did think about him in a humanly way without imagining his tounge down my throat. I was thinking to myself, ok so Ryan doesn't like me no big. WAIT RITA YES BIG!!! So after I realized it was important for me to get with him, knowing myself and my thinking toward men, I was like hey maybe he's gay. That's always an explanation to why he may not like me. It didn't satisfy me though, so I kept on thinking. I thought about everything that's went down in the past couple of weeks, how he was gonna ask me out but changed his mind but then denied the whole subject, and then how the whole DBK of course hates me Kikeroo and Ermie...except for Ryan. He hates them 2, but he doesn't hate me. Now this rang a bell in my head. Made me think more. If he doesn't hate me, it must be either because he has enough respect for me after everything that's happened between us, or he just might be embarrassed to admit that he just might MIGHT like me more then just a friend. Now callme crazy, but he still smiles at me everytime he walks by.And call me crazy, but he DID ditch Sammy to talk to us at McDonald's AND he ditched Sammy on the way back also, just so he can talk to ME. As far as I'm covinced he didn't want Kristin's company. And every day I talk to CJ the happier I get. CJ tells me all this good stuff, like how Ryan has never talked shit about me, never said he hated me, and seems like saying nothing is good sometimes, to make it extra good, he also thinks I am hot, and that I am nice. Obviously if my face was deforen or something he wouldn't have made out with me 3 times. He wouldn't have made out with me once if that was the case. Obviously though, it isn't. So as I uncovered all these little facts within my brain, a tree of hope began to sprout that, yes, there is still a slight chance I misunderstood everything. I told all of this to this kid Wade. He's not exactly Mr.WatchMeLandASwitchNollieHeelFlip, since he doesn't even skate, but men are men. They understand other men, just like we understand other women. They use same animal instinct they know what's going on and how they would act in certain situations. Bottom line is this. Wade thinks Ryan likes me. He's just a bit "living in a box" is how I can explain it the best. He can't really think for himself and depends on his friends to make the decisions for him, that's why when he was thinking about asking me out instead of trusting his instincts he went to his friends and said "Hey, should I ask Rita out?" Which is really gay by the way because if he would've just believe whatever he wanted was the right choice, I could've been going out with him right this second!! That would've been pleasant. Unfortunately for me, he's a llama. In conclusion (I am acting like this is a science experiment and if Ryan was the lab rat) what I have decided to do, is step by step attempt to talk to him. Start with hello, how are you, good morning, what did you do yesterday, basic things. Then work my way up. When we have a good friendship I'll get Matt to talk to him. Guys are so much better at convincing other guys to do stuff. Matt is my friend I know he wouldn't say mean shit. So this is Operation: Ryan. I'll hopefully have everything worked out by next Saturday (I get off grounding then) and Ryan will be mine. I'll keep you updated. Ritalin December 1st 2002 11:54 AM Heylo guys, sorry I didn't come on here and add a new entry, I was talking to Brandon and Jackie and Kristin and Brent. Ahahaha yea that sexy kid on the hot guys section. He's actually really nice which is pretty dope cuz I can talk to him and have a decent conversation. He talks about sex a lot which irritates me up to a point, he's just like every other guy. But, what would you expect. He's just a 15 year old guy, who's exactly like every1 else. He's a virgin too, aw how cute. Kristin just imed the Ryan dude. Lol, she's crazy. And right now I'm trying to convinve Jac to im him too. She won't do it. Ah well, your loss Jac. Ok she did it. Finally. And now I have to listen to 2 of my best friends ramble on about this guy...Not good. Ritalin November 30th 2002 12:34 PM You guys have to read this conversation i had with nick, its just so classic. Especially the part where he says I'm like the pink power ranger. BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:27:37 PM): rita BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:27:40 PM): answer BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:27:42 PM): please X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:27:45 PM): lol what X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:27:49 PM): wait answer to what BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:28:05 PM): wahts it like to fly? BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:28:13 PM): no no no X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:28:16 PM): i wish i knew BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:28:18 PM): i just relized something BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:28:26 PM): no no no BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:28:32 PM): ur lucky ur a girl X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:28:45 PM): why am i lucky cuz im a girl? BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:29:02 PM): u kno whow u made out with 3 guys in 1 day X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:29:24 PM): yea BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:29:41 PM): well if u were a guy u couldnt do that X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:29:51 PM): yea i kno i figured it out BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:30:03 PM): its like impossible for a guy to make out iwth 1 girl let alone 3 BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:30:06 PM): jeeze BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:30:24 PM): adn girls cna just walk up and start making out with a guy and they'll have no problme with it X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:30:25 PM): the guy at industrial told me ima girl and i have a great advantadge of not being an ugly girl and girls can get everything they want especially if theyre not even ugly X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:30:54 PM): so i figured hey thats pretty cool lets see if it works BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:30:54 PM): hes right X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:30:55 PM): and it does X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:31:07 PM): yea hes rad BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:31:08 PM): not on me BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:31:11 PM): i have will power BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:31:16 PM): i hope X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:31:32 PM): yea i kno u do for now but i didnt attempt to use my power against people i like BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:31:55 PM): im confused X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:32:02 PM): i mean if i was to do something about this great power i posess right now, i think id seduce (can't show name) only cuz hes a dick X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:32:05 PM): hed fall for it X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:32:08 PM): he fell for it once X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:32:14 PM): ahahahahaha stupid fomo BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:32:15 PM): use it X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:32:16 PM): i hate that kid BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:32:25 PM): ur like the pink power ranger BliNkTwICeNdIE82 (12:32:30 PM): shes hot X RitALIN 6 00 X (12:32:37 PM): lmao I thought it was classic. =) Yea well I'm gone for now, I'll be back later today. Peace chickens!!! Ritalin November 29th 2002 6:16 PM I have found the 3 sexiest guys in Las Vegas. Ok, maybe it'd be nicer if Ryan was included in this picture, but unfortunatley for me he's not. That's alright, one of these kids' name is Ryan too, so that'll pass. Look at them. Ahhh so fuckable. Especially Brent. I got some new sections of my site up. finally. Are you people proud of me? =) woot woot I know you are. 15 days and the phone is mine again. Ah finally. I'm going to rejoice in loud indian chanting. And after that, only 7 days till HappyCampers and Pet Salamander show. And then only 3 days till Christmas day, 1 day till Christmans eve, and the 26th Brandon is here!!! Oh December is going to be great. This is so awesome I can't frickin wait i'm so excited. I'll get my cell phone back, I'll get my phone privilidges back, I'll get to go out again, etc... December brings joyous things. Merry merry leetle holiday. =) Where is Jacqueleenie? She hasn't been online in ages, and it is starting to scare me. =( I miss yoo Jackie!!! Come back to your old online ways!!! Don't neglect us just because Sean fuck is moving back. Reminder...don't forget to check out all my new sections I put up!!! Whoopedy Doo. I'm out, bye Ritalin November 29th 2002 11:28 AM I took this online test. How queer. Kristin calls me this all the time, but for a quiz to call me this is just disturbing. Emo kid. BAH! Ritalin November 28th 2002 7:10 PM THANKSGIVING Thamksgiving is queer. Who am I thanking anyways. Life is queer. I'm not even American. I guess i have to thank those fucking pilgrims for starting a colony in this hell hole, but then again I'd rather be somewhere else. Las vEgas is not neccesseraly your essantial lovely party city. That's what its famous for, but come on now, what do you expect a 15 year old to do in a shitty ass gambling town like this? You can't even touch those machines till your 21. you can't be outside past 11 till your 18. You can't buy cigarettes or alcahol, and you can't drive for another year. Hungarys different. I wish I was there right now. I really just want to go back there sometimes. Really hardcore, so much. I wouldn't have gotten thanksgiving break or any of that shizzay, but you get autumn break. The laws over there are so different. Dude, my aunt over there is a politician. If my aunt can be a politician then I should be good. She doesn't over protect me or anything. I truly do hate these americans though. No brain. Whatsoever. They don't realize the stupidest things, or anything that's happing around them as a matter of fact, they are so self involved. You think I give a shit Bin Laden bombed New York? Hell no I don't. As long as he doesn't go anywhere near Colorado, Wyoming, Cali, or Nevada, I am good. And alla those states are on the west side. Yo. Lol sorry, west side. Ok anyways, as long as he doesn't touch the sorrounding states, I'm good.So fuck the world. Fuck the US. Can't wait till summer comes. Ritalin November 27th 2002 3:31 PM O lordy, its time to pick up the dog shit. Unpack the dishwasher. That reminds me. This one time, I was talking to this kid Landon, and he was making fun of me because I said "unpacking the dishwasher". He's all "Why, did you go cammping with it or something?" and he's all I say Unload so since he was being a dumbass about it, I was like "Why, did you plan on shooting someone with it?" Gawd. People can be so in considerate, and they don't even notice they're stupid mistakes, only yours. What has this world come to? I mean for instance today I was reading an article in this retarded ass magazine Ms. Lestelle hands out to us every week, its called Science News, or something like that, and we get these things every week, and last week there was an armadillo on the cover, the week before it was a picture of a car turned upside down, and etc. Well yea, this week's cover had a picture of some twins that were connected at the head. Ew. I had to stare at that picture all through the test. Anyways, as I was saying, after I had finished my test I had nothing better to do so I decided hey why not lets read this magazine. I found this article about the ozone, and hopefully you all knew that the ozone was thinning right? Well yea, right now, the ozone is the thicketst since 1986. And back then there really wasn't that big of an ozone issue. It did some weird thing, where the usual big blotch of thin ozone thickened, and the left over thin part split in 2. So now we have 2 thin ozone blotches. They're smaller then usual, but if we pollute this hell, then instead of having to worry about 1 ozone over-growing, now we have to worry about 2. don't use CFs, and we should all be fine. I hope. CFs were banned back in 1987 anyways, so how the hell was the thin layer bigger in 2000 then it ever has been? There were no CFs. Its a mystery. And what's the deal with the thickening all of a sudden? These are some questions that wil never be answered. It took me 10 minutes to type all that. I thought I typed fast too...hmph. Whatever. Now I really have to go pick up the dog shizzay, and I must "unload" the dishwasher also, so peace!!! Ritalin November 26th 2002 5:14 PM Here I am...back again. New layout and everything. I may not be able to explain this to you in words, because I am not exactly sure you'd understand, but its possible that Pregnant Horseshoes will be shut down. =( I just have too many things to do. That's my excuse. Its not the truth, but believe it for now. I can't lead you on forever, I'll confide eventually. One more fight to tick me off, and I'll spill. Anyways, things actually have been pretty good, besides the fact that once again, I have managed to get myself grounded. Good job me. Actually, my parentals found out that I was consecutavely ditching, and of course if anything like that leaks out, then I don't expect to be like loved or anything. I ditched about 10 times all together, and mommy didn't exactly like the idea of her precious leetle daughter ditching. Shittay...O well she'll forgive. I only have 18 days left of grounding anyways, so its not that torterous. I've been grounded for the past 12 days. Lol, wonder why the hell I didn't take my time to update this earlier. I am such a fomo. For a second I was typing, and I couldn't see the cursor thingy blinking by, I was all nooooo if this shittay computer froze on me Imma beat its little ass. But I'm good, it didn't freeze. Yea well I really miss the skatepark, no matter how much shit those guys talk. O goodness do they talk a whole shitload of shit or what!!! Especially Jeff and Sammy and Daniel. O how I despise Daniel...grrr. Just his name makes me have goosebumps. I of course still like Ryan, it's expected of me.. Heehee. So yea, is the new layout kicking or what? I thought of making a Pink Panther layout a while ago actually, but I was still too obsessed with version 4. Then I had all these creativity outbursts, and what you got was this messy leetle layout feautring some Strokes lyrics and the Pink Panther. Think Pink. Ahahahaha Wtf was I on when I made this. O well, it'll be alright for a while. If its really that hideous I'll attempt to renew it, I can't stare at an ugly layout forever. I still love my bunny layout, I think its the shizzay. version 4 has been my best layout ever, and its so sad to see it go bye bye =(. *tear* O well, I've said enuff. Sign the guestbook and tell me your ideas for a new layout, I am blank about version 6. Email me too, because you people are such slackers when it comes to keeping in contact. Holy fwak. Yea alrighty bye Ritalin |
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